I had a lot to drink last night so I went to bed diapered, about 2 hrs later I was awakened by the feeling of my diaper getting wet, of course I didn't stop it and went back to sleep wet. I woke up at 8 and had to pee again so I let it out and my diaper barely held it all as it leaked a little into my favorite diaper cover. i felt so good I found myself squirming in it and rubbing my diaper.
In no way should the following be construed as a blanket statement. Don't come yelling at me about how not everyone is like this. I won't respond to it.
Spending time talking to people in more traditional BDSM circles here lately, I've kind of discovered something that really troubles me about a lot of AB's that I've encountered from a distance, and I might just be starting to realize an underlying problem that makes even BDSM people squicky about AB.
Narcissism. And for some of you out there, we're talking pathological narcissism. I have a friend that is engaged in a friends-with-bennies switch situation with an AB-boy, and she's dealing with the same problem - he never wants to be the top, but he still tries to control the scene with his demands and his histrionics. And even when he is the top, he's so disengaged from her, he didn't even bother to give her aftercare after a particularly violent dungeon scene, until the next day when she was so fully in sub-drop she could barely function. Then all of a sudden he gave a shit.
This isn't me passing judgment on everyone. This is me throwing out a warning flag for all of you single AB's hoping against hope that the Mommy or Daddy of your dreams will someday find you. Take a look inside yourself. Think about how you interact with other people. Okay, great, so your littlespace is age 1-2, I get it, that's an age where awareness of anything but your own wants and needs is non-existent. Doesn't mean you have to live there 24/7. Can you be more compassionate, more genuinely interested in other people (not just for what they potentially can give you)? Can you see yourself engaging in a relationship where you are ready, willing, and able to meet your partner's needs and desires while they meet yours?
Be more than your desires. Even when you're here hanging out with other people - you're more than your desires. Don't ever forget that. You can lose yourself as a person if you lose sight of that. I know some genuinely f-ing creepy old men that have been banned from here and elsewhere because they lost themselves in the midst of their desires.
Just think about it a little. Be more aware of how you present to others. That's all I'm saying. It makes me sad that AB has such a horrible reputation outside of these confines, and I'd really love for that to change. Because there are so many beautiful romantic interactions that can happen between two people within the construct of AB as part of a healthy DD or DM/bg or bb relationship, and that's what I'm preaching to the greater BDSM community out there.