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LILA’S 10th BIRTHDAY   Lila was in the examination room with Cynthia.  This was right after they walked into the room. Cynthia removed Lila’s pink corduroy dress to reveal a plain white onesie that she usually had underneath Lila’s clothes.  She unsnapped the crotch buttons and folded back the flaps to reveal Lila’s Size 3 Pampers Cruisers Diaper.  She sat aside the pink corduroy dress and sat Lila in her lap.  She could feel the soft cloth backed bottom of Lila’s diaper as she anxiously sat there.  She took notice and handed Lila her pacifier.  Lila grabbed it and suckled it and she began to calm down. Lila glanced at her mother as she suckled her pacifier.  She didn’t know why, but for some reason, she didn’t feel comfortable when she made her annual trip to the pediatrician.  She felt calmer now and began to smile at her mother through her pacifier. Cynthia checked her cell phone for any new messages from John.  Because Lila had an annual checkup, she cleared out her calendar so that she could make this appointment with her.  While she had the option of having Madeline attending Lila’s appointments for her, she didn’t like the idea of her being her Medical Power of Attorney.  Yes, she regularly took care of Lila now while she worked during the day, Lila was still her daughter regardless of how busy her life has become now.  These annual checkups that she took Lila to were a joke now.  Since Lila never grew because of her wish, why bother?  And since she knew that Dr. Sterling was going to read Lila’s birthday as May 19, 2029, it was futile to argue with her.  Although she knew Lila’s true age, she always had to play along for the pediatrician.  Afterall, Lila was still two because of Lila’s wish.  And not only was Lila two physically, but she was two legally.  This bothered Cynthia since only her, her family, and her close friends knew Lila to be the “little girl that never grew up”.  And considering that her behavior has not changed in at least five years, she was now resigned to the sad reality that Lila is going to behave like a toddler for the rest of her life.  Lila was not in trouble now, as she could not treat Lila as a preteen anymore.  Lila had no concept on what responsibility was. Just a carefree mind that loved to play.  As she glanced at her phone again, this was interrupted when she felt a growing warmth on her leg where Lila was sitting.  Great.  All that juice that she had before the appointment.  She’s peeing her diaper now.  Then she began to smell something fowl.  “Lila!” Lila sighed as she glanced at her mother.  At this point, Lila’s bladder seemed to be more like an infant’s.  While most toddlers knew when they had to use the bathroom, Lila had no sense of this anymore.  There was no feeling in her bladder.  Her bladder and bowels just release whenever something needs to come out.  So Lila doesn’t know that she went until she feels it.  Now, Lila was feeling a strong wet and squishy mass forming from the pee combining with the SAP powders to form gel.  She then felt an uncomfortable squishiness that began to smell more and more.  A smell that she was used to, so she didn’t notice.  At this, Lila began to wail. Cynthia sighed.  She seriously did not have the patience to change Lila’s diaper right before the pediatrician was going to see her.  Yes, Lila was two years old, but some of her behavior felt more like an infant than a toddler.  Her preference to breastfeed still.  Her need to still drink from a bottle, since she had no concept to handle a sippy cup without spilling it.  She just kept removing the top and spilling the contents, which tested the patience of both Cynthia and Madeline.  She just knew that Lila would fall out of a bed, so she still sleeps in a crib.  Turning her attention back to the wailing child, she laid Lila on the examination table and reached into her diaper bag.  She pulled out a Pampers Size 3 Cruiser. Lila glanced at the new diaper that her mother was holding and saw the familiar light coming from it.  While it was indeed another magic diaper, Lila didn’t know that it was called that anymore.  The magic diaper still helped Lila every day and was now like a third parent to her.  She continued wailing as she watched her mother remove her wet, soggy, and messy diaper… 1 week ago Lila was laying on a changing table in her changing room.  Madeline was changing her diaper.  It was a wet, soggy, and stinky diaper, considering what she had last night before her 10th birthday… A stream of tears was coming out of Lila’s eyes.  When Madeline saw the tears, she took Lila’s pacifier and stuck it in her mouth.  Lila’s tears vanished as she contentedly suckled her pacifier.  She watched Madeline skillfully change her diaper like a pro.  In just under two minutes Madeline cleaned, wiped, powdered, and changed Lila’s diaper. Madeline snapped the crotch of Lila’s cute animal onesie back up and pulled her purple dress back down.  She picked up Lila and smiled.  “Did you have a nice nap, Lila dear?” Lila gave her nanny the biggest smile.  She removed her pacifier and smiled.  “Nye nap nannah!” Madeline carried Lila towards the door leading to her main bedroom.  “You’re the big birthday girl today!  10 years old, Lila!  You’re getting up there!” “Ten yaz uld!” Lila repeated.  At this point, Lila just didn’t know what ages meant anymore.  Due to her daily routine and the wish that she made with the magic diaper, her two-year-old mind never really developed that much.  It never allowed any room for anything new.  And with her being so used to everything, it was almost like Lila was slowly regressing back to infancy.  Over the past year.  Her taste in toys has slowly regressed to more of the kind of toys that older infants like to play with.  Her speech regressed a little more as well.  She babbled more but could still say a lot of words.  She still was very much a two-year-old, but the constant habits and routines have stunted her development and were almost pushing it in the opposite direction. Lila’s magic diaper flashed brightly underneath her dress.  It was still there for Lila, and would always be there for her.  Lila’s third parent always kept playing games with Lila at night, and she still made her wishes, but they were more the kind of wishes that she made that the magic diaper did to manage Lila’s needs.  Her nightly bottles, her occasional sleep wishes that went out of control, and the things that Lila needed, but were not within her reach.  Her rattles.  Her stuffed animals.  Her pacifiers.  All of Lila’s wishes were made around these kinds of needs now.  It was almost like Lila was in a prison of her own making now.  Lila so earnestly wanted to be a two-year-old, and now she gets to be one forever.  But none of her thoughts were ever of despair or regret.  But always the continuous and perpetual mind of a toddler.  An innocent and carefree mind that never thought of anything pertaining to adulthood. And like a few years before, Lila was not even aware of the slow and steady pee that trickled into her diaper.  It was very slow and only came in little drops.  Yet Lila did not notice a bit of it going on.  With her mind not remotely thinking of potty training anymore, her bladder was more like that of an infant now. Madeline carried Lila out of her room, and saw Angela in the hallway, with a set of twin girls running right next to her.  She gasped when she saw the two laughing as they tried to keep up with their mother.  “Aw…” Madeline said looking at them.  “Your twin girls…Shauna and Sidney, right?” Angela nodded.  “Yup!  They’re 22 months!  They’re almost two!” Madeline sat Lila down and she walked over to the twins.  Both twins stood almost three inches taller than Lila now, since Lila never grew a single inch since her second birthday 8 years ago. “Why-wa!” Shauna shouted. “Nu!” Sidney shouted, correcting her sister.  “Is Lie-la!” Shauna, however, just smiled and looked at Lila again.  “Why-wa…” Lila smiled and glanced at the twins.  “Sah-nah?  Sinney?” Sidney shook her head.  “Nu Lie-la.  I Sidney.  See Shauna…” Shauna nodded and smiled.  “I Saw-nah…” Angela grinned.  “You’re all so cute!  Here.  Let’s go downstairs and get ready for Lila’s 10th birthday party…” Bradley approached Angela, holding two pacifiers.  “I’m surprised that Shauna and Sidney didn’t cry for these…” Angela sighed.  “No.  If they see them, they’ll want…” Sidney glanced at the pacifiers that her father was holding.  “Nan nan!” Shauna too, noticed what her father was holding and began to whimper.  “Nan nan dah-dee!” Bradley sighed, and handed each of the twin girls their pacifiers.  The yellow one to Shauna and the green one to Sidney. This made Lila want her pacifier.  Fortunately, Madeline had Lila’s clipped to her dress.  She tugged the ribbon and gently placed the pacifier in Lila’s mouth.  All these girls suckled their pacifiers as they were carried downstairs for Lila’s 10th birthday party.  Bradley carried Sidney.  Angela carried Shauna.  Madeline carried Lila. Jenny waited at the foot of the stairs, smiling.  “I hope that your mom and dad are almost home!  It’s about to start!” Madeline nodded.  “Our little birthday girl needed to take a nap.  She’s all rested now…” Angela nodded.  “Same here for the twins.  Both Shauna and Sidney look rested and look ready to take on the world!” Lila smiled as she saw decorations everywhere, leading into a much larger room… Madeline carried Lila into the larger room, which was quite dark.  Lila was anxious, and she continued to suck on her pacifier.  She began to whimper, as her nanny carried her deeper into the dark room… “SURPRISE!  HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY, LILA!!!!” All of the lights turned on, with Cynthia and John both standing there, happily glancing at their daughter, who now looked more relieved.  Her anxious look immediately became a smile that was on the verge of bursting into laughter. Along with Lila’s parents, Lila’s various other friends from her past birthday parties were present.  Tonya was there with her younger brother Alex, along with her parents Rob and Stacy. Brittany and Stephanie, Lila’s former daycare friends that were now in the fifth grade, were also at the birthday party.  Angela and Bradley’s friends Tess and Jess were also able to make it.  Camden’s friend Freddy also came to the party as well. Tonya ran up to Lila and smiled when she saw just how much taller she was now.  She was now 52 inches tall, compared to Lila’s stagnant height of 30 inches.  She effortlessly picked up the birthday girl and smiled.  “Another year older and  you still haven’t grown at all…” Tonya said with a grin.  “It’s okay, Lila.  I know that you don’t grow because of your special condition…”  She stopped when she noticed a bright flash coming from underneath Lila’s purple dress.  In fact, she noticed the flash when she first picked Lila up.  “Lila, what’s that flash coming from underneath your dress?  I first noticed it when I was three, and almost every one of your birthday parties that I have been to!” Stacy looked at Tonya and grinned.  “Tonya, there is no flash coming from Lila.  Let the birthday girl have her fun.” Tonya nodded and sat Lila down.  She saw the flash again just as she was setting her down.  That flash…The one that mom cannot see…It’s coming…from Lila’s diaper?  She then leaned down and whispered into Lila’s ear.  “I see the flash, Lila.  Is that why you never grow up?” But Lila only smiled when she heard the soft whisper enter her ear.  She didn’t know what Tonya was whispering.  She just loved the sound of the whisper.  At this, she giggled and began to take in all the various decorations that filled the great room.  Streamers, balloons, confetti, and more.   “Tonna fuh-knee!”  She got to her knees and began to crawl around the floor as she stuck her pacifier back in her mouth. Cynthia sighed when she saw her daughter on the floor again.  This was something that Lila was starting to do more often.  While Lila could still walk and run really well, she now preferred to crawl on the floor.  This was something that she started doing after they got back from Palm Beach last year after her ninth birthday.  Since then, Lila has covered more distance crawling than walking or running. Lila crawled over to her mother and looked up.  Her eyes focused on the one thing that her mother could provide her with.  She glanced up with an expectant look on her face.  “Milky mama!  Milky!”  She reached up, trying to grab her mother’s breasts. Cynthia’s face reddened and she smiled.  “Excuse me, everyone.  The birthday girl is thirsty…”  She scooped up Lila and left the room with her.  Her right hand propped up Lila’s diapered bottom as she began to untie her blouse and pulled her bra down.  She placed Lila between her breasts and Lila latched both her arms around them.  She suckled her mother’s left breast and she was splashed with a warm flow of her mother’s breast milk.  She giggled as she licked the delicious milk off her lips and continued to feed on them. Meanwhile, Cynthia patiently stood there, while she watched her birthday girl get her fill of the delicious milk that she had just for her.  It didn’t matter what Lila’s age was at this point.  Age was only a number, and it didn’t make any sense to use that number on Lila at this point.  While the calendar may have said that Lila was ten, every one of Lila’s cells in her body said that she was still two years old.  At this point, her aging has remained unchanged for the past eight years, with no sign of ever changing in the slightest.  Last year, Lila weighed 19 pounds and 13 ounces.  What will Lila weigh this year?  This was the only surprise, as while Lila’s height never changed, her weight has fluctuated in mere ounces over the years.  She has slowly been losing ounces since her fifth birthday.  How many more ounces will she lose this year?  She looked up at her daughter, who was starting to look full.  She also let go of her breasts and was starting to grab her left arm.  Nodding, she restrapped her bra and retied her blouse.  She cradled Lila in her arms and carried her back into the great room. While her mother was doing this, Lila still wanted a little more of that milk.  She looked down and smiled, remembering what her third parent told her: the magic diaper.  “Wiss bah-tah milky!” The magic diaper, which understood Lila’s wish, flashed and tickled Lila, granting her wish.  A bottle filled with her mother’s breast milk appeared in Lila’s hands and she began to drink that bottle down. Cynthia looked up and saw the bottle of milk that her daughter was now holding.  She knew that Lila made another wish, as she has done this from time to time.  She playfully poked Lila in the arm and smiled.  “Did my Lila make another wish?” Lila at least knew what this meant.  “Make nah-thah wiss!” she answered her mother. Cynthia nodded.  I’m fine with Lila making her wishes.  Just as long as they’re not harmful ones.  But even those ones are resolved pretty easily…Cynthia knew that Lila wasn’t making these wishes on her own at this point, and that someone was helping her.  Could it be the magic diaper?  It had to be, she thought.  She watched as Lila quickly finished drinking the baby bottle filled with breast milk that she wished for.  So much for a dry diaper.  She’ll be soaked before dinner.  When she needs a change, I’ll just get Madeline… Speaking of which, Madeline was standing right next to Cynthia.  “Is anything wrong?” she asked Cynthia.  “Does Lila need a new diaper yet?” Cynthia laughed.  “Not yet!  But after my breastfeeding her and that bottle that she drank, she’s going to need one very soon…” Madeline laughed.  “Okay Cynthia.  Being very skilled at this now, I would give her at least an hour…” Over the next hour, Lila played with Shauna and Sidney.  They were the only girls that were about her age that she could really connect with. Just as Sidney was handing Lila a red block, Madeline was there, standing next to Lila. Madeline stooped down and reached underneath Lila’s purple dress.  She pinched the diaper area and sure enough, it was very soggy and starting to sag a lot. Angela nodded when she noticed what Madeline was doing to Lila.  She approached Sidney and pinched her diaper underneath her cute green dress.  Just as she was pinching the soggy diaper, she caught a strong whiff coming from Sidney.  “Sidney?” she asked her.  “Did you make poopies?” Sidney gave her mother Angela the cute shy smile.  “Yes mommy.  I make poopies!” Angela reached down and began to tickle Sidney.  “Then let’s go change you, poopy girl!” At this, Sidney laughed.  “Poopy girl!” Shauna, who was nearby, laughed.  “Sid-nay poopy gul!” Bradley, who already did a diaper check on Shauna, nodded at Angela.  “Shauna’s just wet.  I’m going to take care of her.”  He then whispered into Angela’s ear.  “Does Angie Bear need a changie too?” Angela gave Bradley a playful shove and whispered back.  “I’m just a little damp, hun.  You can change me later…” Meanwhile, Madeline was finishing up changing a Pampers Cruiser Size 3 that Lila soaked from top to bottom.  And just as she was beginning to put a new diaper on Lila, a small bit of pee began to slowly trickle out of her.  She fastened the tabs to the landing zone and pulled Lila’s purple dress back down. For the remainder of the evening, Lila and all of the guests enjoyed all the festivities for Lila’s 10th birthday party.  There was children’s music playing from Cocomelon and a bounce house outdoors which they all spent a couple hours playing on.  There were a couple of hired actors that walked around dressed up in Bluey and Bingo costumes.  Lila got a real kick out of this and wanted to play with Bluey.  Finally, the actor in costume kindly waved goodbye to Lila and left the room with “Bingo”. As they all left, everyone at the party showed their appreciation for them by shouting “Hooray!” A little while later, it was finally time for dinner.  And with the mac and cheese dish being so popular from the past years, they had to make it again for Lila’s 10th birthday. Pierre came out, preparing some very special dishes that he made for Lila’s 10th birthday.  The Teddy Graham encrusted mac and cheese was back, since Lila liked it so much.  Small delicious morsels of cinnamon Teddy Grahams were crumbled over freshly grated Vermont Cheese that were melted to perfection. Every noodle was made from scratch.  A hint of milk made the mac and cheese creamy, and small shavings of roasted hot dog with freshly grated garlic made the dish simply delectable.  Finally, the noodles were carefully cut by the chef to be ready for Cynthia to feed her birthday girl.  In addition to this, Pierre blended in a few broken up pieces of chocolate Teddy Grahams, Oreos, and Chips Ahoy to make this mac and cheese a little sweeter for Lila’s 10th birthday. The adult version of the dish was also back.  It was prepared with seafood.  Crab, lobster and grouper were all mixed into the mac and cheese, with a little Cajun spice to give it an extra kick.  And because it was Lila’s 10th birthday, he went the extra mile by creating a Teriyaki version of the dish, and made a special cajun sauce for the cajun mac and cheese and a special wasabi ginger sauce for the Teriyaki version, using freshly made wasabi imported from Japan.  He explained to the guests that Japanese wasabi had an earthy and sweeter flavor to it and was nothing like the fake dyed green horseradish served in most restaurants. Everyone ate their dinner and enjoyed the food. After dinner, they had Lila open presents to let the food settle before the cake and ice cream.  Of course, the same regifted gifts were given to Lila, since she was still two, despite it being her tenth birthday.  Instead of being a prepubescent girl, she was still a small toddler, easily fitting into 12–18-month clothes.  And those were just the kind of clothes that Lila got.  More rompers, onesies, swimsuits, pretty dresses, and footed sleepers.  A couple new pacifiers and a new feeding bottle.  Another new stuffed Bluey since her old one was getting worn out.  A few more older infant toys since she was beginning to lose interest in the toddler toys.  More diapers so that her wing could be freshly restocked with diapers to help Madeline out. After all the presents, Boudreau, the pastry chef, wheeled out a special birthday cake that was a little different than her other past birthdays.  It was a marble torte cake covered in chocolate ganache, but it was even larger than before.  The chocolate was then spray painted with blue food coloring and finished up to look like Bluey to please Lila, the extra special birthday girl. Blue fondant covered areas of the cake to design the different parts of Bluey’s face.  A “1” and a “0” candle sat at the tip of Bluey’s nose. With that, all of the family gathered around Lila and sang to her again, commemorating her special day: Happy birthday to you!  Happy birthday to you!  Happy birthday dear Lila, happy birthday to you! “And many more!” Cynthia sang, crying happy tears this time.  She hugged Lila, and helped her in blowing out the candle on this very special cake.  She made a blow with her lips, hoping that Lila would get the idea.  “On three, Lila!” Cynthia instructed.  “Let’s blow Bluey’s nose!  One…two…three!” Cynthia blew on the “1” and “0” candles, with Lila blowing just after her.  The candles were blown out. Everyone ate the cake and enjoyed it.  Lila especially enjoyed it, smacking her lips and smiling.  “Mo Boo-Wee mommy! Mo Boo-Wee!” Cynthia granted Lila’s request.  She cut another small piece of the cake and gave it to Lila, who polished off in seconds. Ice cream was next.  Chef Boudreau brought out a batch of Neapolitan ice cream that was freshly made that day.  Every ingredient was fresh and the consistency was perfect. At that point, Lila started to look tired.  So did Shauna and Sidney. Angela noticed this and scooped up Sidney.  She got her attention and pointed at Lila.  “Sidney, say good night to Lila.  We’re getting ready for bed.” Sidney smiled and looked at Lila.  “G’night, Lie-la! Shauna, who was next to Bradley smiled at Lila.  “Gah-nye, Why-wa!” Lila, in response smiled.  “Nye nye Sah-nah!  Nye nye Sinney!” Cynthia gave Lila a hug goodnight, followed by John, Angela, and Camden.  Everyone else also said good night to Lila, including Tonya. Tonya, still noticing the flash coming from underneath Lila’s dress smiled.  “I still see it…” she whispered.  “Good night, birthday girl!” After that, Madeline took Lila upstairs to her bedroom and into her changing room.  She caught a strong whiff as she began to change Lila’s soggy, wet, and messy diaper… 1 week later Lila was still laying on the examination table as her mother changed her wet, soggy, and messy diaper.  At this point, she had everything all cleaned up so the rest happened pretty quickly.  She watched her mother apply cream to a few sore spots, which made her whimper.  After that, she powdered a new flashing magic diaper and placed Lila on it. The pediatrician Dr. Cara Sterling entered the room before Cynthia could even finish changing Lila’s diaper. The doctor smiled as she glanced at Cynthia pressing Lila’s feet together and folding the diaper up, before fastening both tabs snugly into the landing zone. Cynthia let out a nervous laugh.  “Sorry.  She just made a stinky and I had to change her…” Dr. Sterling nodded and gave Cynthia a reassuring smile.  “Not to worry, Mrs. Watson!  You are not the only mother that I walked in on in the middle of a diaper change.  At least you have it all cleaned up!  I walked in to see a very stinky one the other day…” Cynthia nodded and checked Lila’s diaper for the perfect fit.  She then had Lila sit on her lap in just her diaper. From there, she let Dr. Sterling take Lila’s measurements.  First, she measured Lila’s height.  “30 inches,” she told Cynthia.  “That’s a little small for a two-year-old…” Cynthia nodded matter-of-factly, but played along since she knew that Lila’s wish was affecting the doctor’s perception of Lila.  Of course she’s 30 inches.  She doesn’t grow anymore.  She’s been 30 inches for the past eight years! Dr. Sterling then weighed Lila on a scale, while Cynthia held her still.  “19 pounds, 11 ounces.  Very light for a two-year-old.  Lila’s got the perfect body for a 12-month-old, though…” She pensively grinned and looked at Cynthia.  “Not to worry, Mrs. Watson.  Lila is growing at her own pace.  Did she have a good birthday last week?” Cynthia shook her head.  “Lila had a wonderful birthday.  Her…second birthday was wonderful…”  Phew!  I almost said tenth birthday! Dr. Sterling nodded.  “That’s good to hear.  So she’s two now, huh?” Cynthia gave her a very convincing nod.  “Yup!” she lied.  “My little Lila just turned two!” Dr. Sterling gave Cynthia a smile.  “With Lila being two now, it is now the perfect age for potty training her, by the way.  Do try to make it a point to start potty training her.  It won’t be easy, considering the Terrible Twos…” Cynthia nodded and played along again.  “Yup!  I’ve heard how terrible those twos can be…”  Nope! Lila is never getting potty trained.  Not with her mental state like this…She thanked the pediatrician and dressed Lila back in her pink corduroy dress (12-18 months, of course since Lila hasn’t grown for the past two years now).  Cynthia drove home the rest of the way.  Lila was rather quiet since she was fast asleep.  After she got home, she took the sleeping Lila out of her car seat and into the sprawling estate.  She carried her upstairs and placed her in her crib in the main room.  She then smiled at Madeline, letting her know that she has Lila duties once again.  She placed the covers over her darling daughter and gave her a soft kiss on the cheek.  “I love you, Lila Loo.  Mommy’s gotta go to work now.  Nana Maddie is going to wake you up from your nap, okay?” Lila’s eyes squinted open as her mother left the room.  “Nah-Nah Mah-dee…”  She peacefully sucked on her pacifier and fell asleep for her much-needed nap. 8 years ago Lila proudly stood as she watched a series of lights flashing in the distance.  Most of the light was coming from her, and she illuminated the area where she was standing.  As long as she was standing there, the area around her got plenty of light. Then all of a sudden, Lila heard a voice come out of nowhere: I don’t wanna gwow up!  I wanna stay two as long as I live!  Oh, how I wish that I could no longer get any older! Lila gasped.  Did my dream self just make a wish?  Maybe I can help this wish out… A tiny shadow appeared right next to Lila.  It looked just like Lila, only the shadow was two years old. The shadow glanced at Lila and gave her a triumphant smile.  “Go away!  She mine now!” But Lila shook her head.  “No!  I made the wish, so I get to control you!” The shadow ignored Lila and pushed her away.  “Nu!  Lila wanna be two yeer uld! Yoo not two!” The shadow began to grow and shoved Lila away with incredible force.  But Lila wasn’t about to give up so easily.  Over and over again, she kept challenging the shadow only to get pushed away again. Over a series of weeks, months, and years, the Lila shadow grew every day.  Over time, Lila got more and more afraid to challenge the shadow.  Until one day, Lila just gave up.  She stopped challenging the two-year-old giant shadow Lila and sulked in a vast lonely field of nothingness. 8 years and 1 month later Lila cried as she received the terrible news.  The giant shadow toddler version of herself was still standing there, but tears were dripping down her eyes.  “Hey!” she yelled at the shadow.  “Didn’t you hear?  Subconscious got it!  Central nervous system got it!  Don’t you know what’s going on?”  She continued to hysterically sob. The gigantic toddler shadow nodded, and shed a few shadowy tears. “I hawd all news.  Lila is hawt vewy bad.  Bad awk-saw-dent.  Yoo vewy sawd too, wight?  I mak you fee-awe beh-tah…” Lila hesitantly approached the gigantic toddler shadow that she can remember challenging years ago.  After fighting it, is she now going to let it comfort her?  At this point, all of her was in pain, so she felt that she really didn’t have any other choice left.  She approached the gigantic toddler shadow, still bawling her eyes out.  “Please!  Just help me!  Help her!  We all need to work to keep her going!  We are all part of her…Please!  I can’t take it anymore…” And with that, Lila laid down and was engulfed by the shadow.  She could feel all the infantile tendencies fill every part of her, but at the same time, she felt the comfort as the enlarging toddler shadow began trying to do everything possible to stabilize Lila’s being… Lila woke up, her leg still bound in a cast at the hospital.  While her mind still felt very much like a toddler, she couldn’t help but feel very shaken to the core.  Because of what happened, she was too weak to make wishes right now.  Her toddler mind took over again as she began to feel the unbearable pain in her leg.  She wailed loudly, as a couple nurses began to enter the room. While Lila managed to have a very good 10th birthday, Lila was unsure if her 11th birthday was going to be any better.  She whimpered and wailed in pain as the nurses tended to her…

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Rei continued watching her show trying to not get distracted with her pull ups while she continued to suck her pacifier 

“Ah Ah Ah little girls can’t change themselves.” Laying her on the changing pad and started untaping her diaper 

wow, what a change I see here.  People actually talking about changing weather conditions as opposed to climate change which is all we hear in Mn these days. Quite refreshing I assure you, as when I was younger, that was the daily topic it seemed, but no longer?