A Love Of Diapers Before The Internet

[Drenched Diaper Ron]

I was chatting the other day with a DL that is 54. He said something that was profound. We where chatting about when we where young adults, and thinking that we where the only one in the world that loved diapers.

Man do I remember those days. I thought I was crazy before I found out there where others.

[diaperwerx]

I also remember the days before the Net and felt the same. And NOW I know I'm only half crazy, but I have company I also remember when the Net was new and I found out about newsgroups. Then I found alt.sex.fetish.diapers back in '93 or '94 and I was =) shocked. First time I knew there were 'others'. Wow that does bring back some memories.

Also, I seem to remember another thread on this subject some time ago so maybe you should also try searching for that, but in it was mentioned something about print ads in the back of some magazines for diaper related periodicals/newsletters long before that...I believe Tommy from DPF had one.

[Hookedondiapers]

I also discovered alt.sex.fetish.diapers around '94. I was 24 at the time and never figured there were other people who loved diapers. My life changed that day.

[square_duck]

being one of the 'oldsters' here as well, I too remember all to well the feelings and thoughts described above. It was a very lonely and confusing time. I thought I must be qwazy or something was wrong with me, I didn't have anyone to talk to about it because I didn't know what "IT" was all through the 70's and 80's and 90's, and thats a L*O*N*G assed time to think your a nutcase :screwey:

Then Christmas of 1999 came along, a friend built me a computer for my 40th birthday (nice guy) and I had it sitting on the floor of my room for a long time, not knowing what to do with it. Then finally, I decided to do a couple of things and conquer my fears.

Fear 1....computers, I had NO CLUE how to hook the %$#@! thing up or how to run it or anything, so I did it...I plugged everything in and got an Earthlink disk to go on-line for my ISP (didn't know any better) and that was that. I turned it on, and sat and wondered....I put in the disk...did what ever prompts it said to....and finally I was on..

Ok...fear #2.....was I really alone and qwazy as I thought all the years before

I futzed around and stumbled and tried to figure out what I was doing and how to work the infernal machine...and then I figured that...ok, I had a 'browser" and a 'search' window....I took a deep breath and typed in "adult diapers" feeling both very silly and extremely anxious, I was wearing a diaper at the time as well....and then the results of my search came up....by the hundreds I clicked on different ones going by their descriptions....and then stumbled across DPF.....and pictures...of ...people in DIAPERS...and LOVING IT!

O*M*F*G I was STUNNED...I WASN'T ALONE! H*O*L*Y S*H*I*T!

I had 2 days off work...it was a Wednesday and I surfed and read and searched for 3 days, until I had to get ready for work Friday NIGHT. I stayed in a wet & messy diaper most of the time. I didn't sleep because I couldn't...I was running on so much adrenalin I couldn't stop for fear that I might miss something. I went to work, and could'nt wait to get back home. I found something I had wondered about and wanted for a VERY long time.

I went to chat rooms (dpf) and visited message boards (Wetset) and anything else I could get my keyboard to connect to. It was very emotional as well.....I WASN'T alone, there were others...and they were FUN! and qwazy just like me!

I can't explain the relief and utter THRILL that I had...though others who have gone through this will understand..it was amazing, thrilling and also scary as hell....the next thought was "well, now what'?

I came up with a screen name, it never changed since it seemed to work *shrug* and I kept going, reading and surfing, until that computer gave out and I bought another, bigger better more powerful and faster one, and I kept going, and have been for the last 12 years to the point I am now, here at this moment.

It's been a really, really, R*E*A*L*L*Y Long assed road, and not that it has ended, which it wont, but at least I have found much of what I sought, answers and friends. a place to go to and be accepted, friends to chat with who understand and don't judge my underwear choices, and just a place to relax and just be ME.

I can't tell you how different my world today is, from where I started from when I was a kid, pinning on layered sheets stuffed with rags and covered by trash bag material with a waistband held in with staples.

I now have "REAL" diapers and plastic pants. I can get world class top notch disposables with a few clicks of my mouse and a credit card ( I wont mention how much I have spent, because I don't really know myself)

But it's really just frickin' amazing....talk about life changing!

Thats another reason I come to this site and others, so I can help those who are just starting out or feel odd...believe me...I know, as do others who are of the same age range. It's gratifying to know I can help someone who is having issues or questions or who is uncertain about what this whole "THING" is about.

Been there done that and have the experience from it to prove it.

I accept this side of me, and know that, even though I can't get rid of it, it also is harmless and is simply something I have to manage and take care of to not let get out of control. It's part of me, though it doesn't define me.

Anyways....thats my qwazy roller coaster ride into the diaper world. Since then I have bought the diapers I always wanted, and made a LOT of new friends all around the world, and personally met a lot in real life in many cities across the US, and I hope to meet more

And maybe....somewhere in all that is a lovely lady-type who would like to hang out with me, regardless of my underwear and we could play together and pal around...and share life in cotton and plastic...

*oh the dreams to be dreamed* SIGH

Soooooooo....yeahh.......thats about it for me in a rather large nut shell *waves*

qwack

[diaperwerx]

I did almost the exact same thing. I certainly didn't sleep for days after I found online forums trying to read everything I could about the communities that existed at the time pretty much the same as Sqareduck did. I'll never forget a bunch of first's, first adult diaper (depends), first molicare, first x-plus, bambino's, etc. And agree that it is truly amazing how living the diapered life has changed for me since finding these communities.

It is also amazing that that now we can try a variety of different diapers and find what is personally suitable to us easily enough versus going to the pharmacy and taking our chances as well as building up the courage that first time. It actually had never dawned on me before finding internet communities that pharmacies would in fact sell adult diapers. Maybe I was one of those kids tricked by my mom into believing they no longer make diapers in my size Don't know but will never forget the first time in a "real" adult diaper.

SquareDuck just one question/statement for you: Staples? Ouch ouch ouch. I don't think I ever used staples in my homemade concoctions just lots and lots of scotch tape ;-) And I'm sure there a lots of lady types here who would go for you if they weren't already attached. And that just means that eventually you'll run into a single one!

Also really appreciate DD, the mods, and the group/community as a whole as it has made a world of difference in my life as well. I just wish I had recognized the whole bin/purge cycle earlier, I would have saved a lot of $$$$. Now I shudder at the thought of the fact that I threw out, at times, some pretty damn good diapers for no good reason. In reflection, I know at the time I was still coming to accept and balance my diapered life with the rest of my life and there is no way I would have been able to do this with help from the community.

Just wanted to shout out a thanks to everyone here who contributed to communities as the forums and discussions helped me understand a lot about myself and being a DL!

[Honu]

I want to join the other Boomers on this thread!

The very first thing I saw that gave me a hint that there were others sort of like me was a Penthouse Letter where the author described being put in diapers by his girlfriend and having to run the track in a diaper to lose weight so he could go back to the next smaller size. That was in the late 70's. In the early 80's, I found "Letters" magazine. It was published in Tea Neck, NJ and actually focused on adults wearing diapers! I got a personal computer earlier than some of my buddies but didn't find diaper websites until the world wide web and DPF.

The moral of the story for you youngsters is that you aren't the first generation to enjoy wearing diapers and NEITHER WERE WE! I have no idea how long this fetish goes back and think it would be an interesting thing to research.

[wetatnight]

i'm also a pre internet dl/ab

back then I thought I was the only one that still liked or wanted to wear diapers befoer I actually needed them for medical reasons.

i was also a bed wetter from ages 6 to 9 but my parents never put me back in diapers at night for bed wetting, i wish they would have.

but that went against alot of parenting ideals of the time.

damn dr.Spock

but I'm happy I have diapers now and that I'm not alone.

I'm sure this fetish goes back further then we think but many older enthusist might keep that side of them selves a secret.

[Nia]

I remember finding the adult baby section on compuserve when I first got online. And like the rest I was blown away that there were so many of us out there. I also subscribed to both DPF news letters and I even rented a post office box so they wouldnt arrive at home. I am stopping there as I'm starting to no longer feel young.

[drynot]

Really...it was a bit of a cool time to be a DL.... you go so many years thinking that you're a freak and no one out there could possibly be into the same things you are and then BAM!!! The interwebz changed everything....

Pre internet my binge and purge cycles were way more frequent....for sure.....

[aleyxsis]

I have also been throu the same things mentioned on this thread .Except( i started crossdressing first About 11) .Then the diapers followed not long after .Talk about thinking your a freak ! lol .I wasted sooo much money binging and purging over the years, feeling bad guilty all the above ! .It was not until my marriage broke up (5yrs ago) that i was finally able to get on the net and search for sites like DD .I was sooo freakin nervous lol (i had to get drunk first ) to join !

Im thankful for sites like this as the younger people should be to !.Living this lifestyle thinking your alone and a freak is not the best way to go through life .With me it led to a lot of self destructive behavior (which i have now stopped ) and low self esteem .Now im good with all this stuff and can about 99.9 % accept it .As i realize.it will and has never gone away nor do i believe it will so i have as much fun with it as i can .Well thats enough about me someone else take over lol .(just felt like sharing not sure why ?)

[adhb]

I became incontinent and started to need to wear diapers when I was a teenager back in the 1950's. However, I also quickly discovered that the sensations that diapers produce were arousing for me. The fact that I enjoyed the erotic sensations that my diapers produced was something that I was intensely ashamed of and which bothered me a lot for many years. The internet enabled me to discover that enjoying diapers wasn't something unique for me and that some people who don't even need to wear a diaper do so for pleasure. That was a huge revelation for me.

[Three Rivers]

I remember the early days as well, thought I was alone in this. Then when the internet came along, and sites like DPF I found many others with the same desires.

But many others paved the way before my generation. Sites like Daily Diapers make it a lot easier for todays generation and to meet like minded individuals and share.

The sky is the limit now.

[wetabenas]

I thought I was alone too.... then 1 day when I was in the army( always lots of porn floating aroun the billet blocks) I found a magazine called forum.... I flicked through and found a story about a adult baby/ diaper lover...... I couldnt belive it..... I snook it off and read it quite a few times.. I was gob smacked..... then in time after various coppies of said magazine and a split from my x I got myself a computer and started surfing.... I loved it and still do.... done the dpf thing, then did the diapermates thing and I now live with the fantasic woman I met on said dating site..... Im now happily nappied most of the time......

[BabyJune]

The first diaper article I ever read was in a hardcore porno magazine that my brother had, probably some time around 1979. The article was called "Don't Poo Poo Diapers." It was very well written and is THE one thing that made me feel that it was okay to continue to pursue diaper-loving--something I had been doing since I was about eight years old. I read that article a lot and even did some further research on the subject in college. (Took a ton of psychology/sociology courses).

[redneck diaper boy]

I was one of the old members of Diaper Pail Friends 20 years ago. One of their people contacted me and asked me to become a member. It is my understanding that Tommy is not well but I would like to thank him for letting me know that I was not alone.

[anned]

i am 61

I first heard about DPF back in about 1979 but it took till 1980 to get a good address to join.

[Loveable_guy]

I guess I signed up with my first online service GENIE around 1980. It was a text based server and the connection speed was something around 300 baud. Exchanging photos or large sites with color was unheard of at this speed. But we did have a diaper group. Later when AOL started it opened up a whole new world. AOL had a private chat room just for ABDL community. Oh I got in so much trouble back then with online relationships that I normally stay out of the chat rooms today.

Like others when I did my first search I was amazed and glued to the terminal for the next week or so.

[belinda_sue_fox]

Nothing exsisted before the the internet!!!!

[dlover49]

I was also a DPF member. I loved their stories and purchased many some of which I still have. I found their website when I finally got internet access in 1997. Having to wait for snail mail ordered publications taxed my patience, but Tommy et.al. were sincere and honest (unlike some others). As I became a little more comfortable on the net, I found other sites, especially DD. I read about diapers in the late 1970's in various magazines (Letters, Variations, etc) and became interested. Unlike many here, I was potty-trained early (I think, dont remember) so I guess I became interested as an adult.

[willnotwill]

I discovered the diaper group on the Human Sexuality forums on CompuServe around 1987. As with many of you it wasn't until then I found out there were others like me.

Oddly enough my then live in gf wanted to know what was so darned interesting about compuserve and found out what I was looking at. Oddly enough she had been an exotic dancer and otherwise into porn stuff and said that there was certainly print material on the fetish around she had seen.

Tommy and Marky of DPF were instrumental in the "pre-computer" diaper club.

[ItchyTasty]

Didn't know of anything before the internet, DPF was the first thing I knew of when I was around 18 and also wetset mags around that time too, but did used to get pampers and drynites prior to the internet for fetish fun.

[spark]

You mean there was something before the internet, and we couldn't just look something up immediately. How did we ever survive?

I'm actually old enough to remember a time when there wasn't an internet (I also had a black and white television in my room to watch 'Gilligan's Island' reruns). Anyway, I was convinced that I was 'weird' and the only person who had these desires. One day in 1987 I was channel surfing and came across the DPF episode of Phil Donahue. I was with my grandma at the time, and at 17 years old certainly wasn't ready to act interested in something like that. I think I only watched a few minutes of the episode, but it was enough for me to realize I wasn't the only one.

I continued to explore my feelings, and try to make versions of diapers. I would head to the library and look up bed-wetting (I probably have read enough about it to be an expert), and potty training problems. My first pair of diapers were some 'Goodnites', which I bought shortly after they came out. It barely fit, but was the first experience with wetting into a diaper freely. I saw ads for HDIS, and ordered cases on the phone (remember phone orders). Finally I got online and made a search for 'bedwetting'. At first it was 'Parents Place', but then I found DPF.com. I recognized the name, and suddenly learned how many people feel the same way. It gave me courage to explore my desires deeper, and I didn't feel as alone, or as 'weird'.

[froggy]

Before the internet, there were print publications. They could be found in adult book stores and by subscription. Many sponsored letter forwarding schemes for a small fee. And we did have snail mail and telephone once contact had been made.

[oliver d]

As one of those who also remembers life before the net,I also thought I was the only one with this thing in my youth in the 80 s.I grew up in South Africa witch was backward and had banned all magazine that where sexual in nature.I also used to make diapers out of garbage bags and towels and cut up baby diapers to make them fit .I bought my first adult diapers at university in 1992.I was 22 at the time,it was oly after I came to Israel and got the net that I found out that I was not alone.Since then I have not looked back.

[dl10956]

I, too, felt the same way. The first AB/DL website I came across was DPF - I'm sure most users here were familiar with DPF - and it changed everything for me. Unfortunately, DPF is gone. *sigh* Lots of great memories there.