dude.. welcome to my full time world. Thank god I'm not on oral diabetes medications anymore because I have a serious intolerance to them. The best thing to have ever happen to me was my drs putting me on injectable insulin. I had a Dr literally say, just carry extra diapers with you. (yes I am also urinary incontinent, which is very well noted in my medical records). I have struggled off and on my entire life with being clean and dry. Its no fun when you learn you will literally have almost no control over your bowels. Its seems like a bunch of fun until you are wearing a pair of crap filled pants and you don't remember doing anything to have caused it. It was embarrassing the first few months and I was still in full denial. you can hide a peed diaper for a while to a point, but when you crap your pampers, its gonna smell and people are going to notice, and if by some luck, people don't notice, the constant diaper rash you get from the burning butthole is even worse. You don't get a break from it. The rash just keeps on coming. I finally gave up and started wearing diapers full time the week I had 7 full blown, s.h.i.t. my socks episodes. and yes I meant to say that. You learn pretty quickly that a diaper is really just a fancy containment system that keeps your socks and shoes clean. Gravity is not your friend when it comes to a leaky rearend gasket. I would love to be able to go somewhere and not bring a bag with me or preplan a diaper change. Everyone in my life knows I wear diapers 24/7, because I had to get over hiding it. That means co-workers, friend and family all know, you wear diapers and will require extra time to get changed from time to time. Being incontinent has a tendency to isolate you to a point. some people don't want to take you places because of your handicap. Its sickens me when I hear of people that are going out of their way to cause permanent harm to they bowels or bladder. give it time. live your young life first.. Btw.. not many sexual partners will find it sexy when you have to go take a shower before you have sex, so that you don't smell like a toilet. THINK REALLY REALLY HARD, before you do something dumb. However if you do something stupid, document it well so we have good examples of what not to do