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I was very messy last night! I started at about 10pm; I gave myself three small enemas, one of which was a saline enema. Then I put a Dulcolax suppository and one glycerin suppository in my bum and ate two chocolate squares of exlax. I ended up messing just fifteen later and went about my bedtime ritual; I put on my booties, my baby bonnet, my baby t- shirt, drank my baba and finally put on a bed wetting hypnosis track. I had on about four diapers and had to waddle to get into my crib. At about five in the morning the exlax started to kick in and I started to mess even more! I got up at 9:30 this morning, took my shower and started to get ready for work. I wished I could have stayed in my messy diaper all day but I have work today plus errands to run around town so it just wasn’t possible. I didn’t have as bad of a rash as I thought but I did put some Desitine on me. All in all I had a great night and a really good morning!

Thank You diaperboyEddie12!, I am sorry to hear about your Father passing away on your Birthday! Yeah, I miss my Father everyday but one thing that I have a really hard time with is how my mom is dealing with it. There are days where she says that she misses him so much she can hardly function. There are also days that I can’t function and she and I will just sit on our couch and cry together. I try to remember all the good times we had together and as a family. He will forever be in my heart!

It’s kind of funny but when I would hang out with a friend of mine, he was always quick to point out some of the things I did that he didn’t like. One day we were at his house watching a movie and we were close enough that he could hear me breathing. He was quick to point out that I was “mouth breathing” and I should breath through my nose. Sometimes my nose will be stuffy and I can’t breath that way but since I started using my pacifier regularly I have learned to breath through my nose. I have never been one to point out things others do that I don’t like, I just remind myself “We all do certain things that may annoy others but I just need to grin and bear it, because I know I don’t like my flaws pointed out and some people get so butt hurt that they may never talk to you again.”

I have my stuffies diapered. I have a good collection of them, some I bought new and some I got from the thrift store. I have a couple big teddy bears that require large diapers and then it’s just medium and baby diapers for the rest. I always pretend that they are watching me and giggling at my childish attire and baby talk.

Like most of us here, I have wanted an adult sized crib for the longest time, it was probably ever since I grew out of a baby crib. Last Christmas, I was thrilled when my younger sister said she would build me one using my twin bed. My sisters know about my adult baby fetish due to some of my carelessness when I was younger. It was never my intention to have them find out, I was just foolish. At first, when my younger sister found out I wanted a crib, she started searching online for cribs. After not finding any (that didn’t cost an arm and a leg) that were big enough for me, she started designing one. It has tall railings for the sides of my bed and one smaller one for the head of the bed. The panel at the foot of the bed has a door cut out of the middle so I have a way to get in and out. When she had the plans drawn up, we went to Home Depot to get the materials. The whole thing is made of birch wood (at least I think that’s what it is) which was a little pricey but it will hold up for a long time. The whole thing is a baby blue color that I painted with a special kind of spray paint. I am kind of short at just 5 foot 5 but I have a big chest and very broad shoulders but the bed is plenty wide enough for me to sleep comfortably. I attached a babies mobile to the head of the crib. When I get in it wearing my babyish shirt, a thick disposable diaper, my baby booties, my pacifier in my mouth and a bottle of juice to drink before nodding off ; the feeling I get is pure bliss! P.S. When I figure out how to post a picture on here, I’ll post one for you guys.

My parents and I planned to go see the northern lights either up in Canada, or as someone at work suggested that they can be seen better in Norway. I have no idea since I have never been to either of these places nor have I seen the northern lights. Unfortunately, those plan have changed slightly. With the loss off my father, my mom and I may have to delay that trip. We with still go I’m sure but it will be with one less person, although I know he will be there in spirit. We were also planning to go back to Europe to see the many sites we missed on our trip years ago.

I work in a grocery store as a courtesy clerk (bag boy). The other courtesy clerks and I have different chores to do throughout the day. For instance, I usually have to clean the bathrooms in the front and back of the store, empty all the garbage and clean the break room in the afternoon when I start my shift. When I wear a diaper to work on my longer shifts, I have to change before my shift is over (depending on what diaper I wear) on the days I have a shorter shift I can usually can get through it without having to change. On the days I do have to change I try to time it before I do the trash so I can dispose of it before anybody sees it in the trash can and figures out what it is or who left it there. Now, I do use some of those bags that have the fragrant scent to them and try to conceal it but someone wouldn’t have a hard time figuring out what it is! On some days, however, I will do these chores in the morning or at the end of my shift when a change is not needed. On the days I don’t have to change I just try to conceal it the best I can and hope the person that empties the trash won’t make a big fuss about it. I have found stranger things in the bathroom trashes before but I’ll spare you the details... Lol!

I use mine whenever I am in “little mode”. I recently got a big one off e-bay from Germany (I think it’s the largest one they make). I absolutely love it! Although, now when I suck on one smaller, It isn’t quite the same (I guess because it isn’t...Lol!) It is better to have some paci (no matter how small) then to not have one to suck on at all!

When I drink soda I tend to have to pee a lot more than normal. That just makes me go through diapers faster so I try not to drink it that often.

A show that sticks in my mind is: An episode of Jerry Springer where there is a young woman in her twenties on stage and she is there to tell her boyfriend about a Domme she is seeing and how she likes to be treated. They bring the Domme out who informs, Jordan, that it is nap time and to take her clothes off and get in a crib (which is more like a playpen). She starts to undress down to her bra and panties then the Domme proceeds to powder and diaper her (I believe it was over her panties though). The woman tells her it’s time to get in the “crib” but at first Jordan resists. The woman threatens her with a spanking if she doesn’t get in the crib, Jordan still resists. Finally, the woman offers to get into the crib with her and that makes Jordan get in the crib. When “mommy” gets in the crib with her you hear a loud “snap” to which Jerry says; “Mommy break crib! Mommy gonna pay for crib!” To which the audience uproars into laughter. At this point Jerry says it is time to bring out her boyfriend and from the way he reacts tells us he is quite upset! They proceed to argue back and forth about why she is doing this and how, to her, her “mommy makes her fill comfortable. From the little snippet I saw, I am not sure how it got resolved or if it even did. This really fueled my desire to have a mommy or even a Domme who be willing to baby me and if I was being naughty, punish me with a sevier spanking or another form of punishment. For now, I am just happy living my life out as an adult baby who gets to indulge in his fetish from time to time! If I were to meet a girl who would cater to my AB side, that would be terrific! Until then, I will just be content with the way things are. (Sorry if that’s all jumbled together, I was never very good with punctuation..Lol!) :p

This story is excellent, I loved every minute of it! I was about on the edge the whole time I read it. Very, very good story!

Thank you my friends! It has been a struggle this past week but I am extremely glad I am here for my mom! Trying to figure out all the finances and closing some accounts and paying off loans isn’t really my strong suit but thankfully my brothers have come forward to help with all of that. I know over time things will get better but the hurt will still be there deep down! I just think of all the fond memories (and there are many) we had with him and smile! I like to express myself through music quite often and I don’t know if anyone has heard the song “My Hero” by the Dropkick Murphy’s. He truly was my hero!

Pennywise-“Bro Hymn”

Dropkick Murphy’s- “My Hero”

Rise Against-“tragedy+time”

Yesterday, around 12:30 p.m. my father passed away in his sleep. A week ago he had a heart attack and he had a stint put in. Last September he went into a heart specialist to have a scan done only to find out he had had a couple heart attacks but didn’t feel them. He had type two diabetes and had a condition (I can’t remember the medical term) where he couldn’t feel pain as much as someone else would. The scan showed that a lot of scare tissue had formed around his heart. He had four stints put in at that time along with the most recent one for the total of five. He also had a diabetic sore on his toe on top of all this. Fast forward to a couple days ago, we thought he was doing a lot better, his toe was getting better but life throws you curve balls when you least expect it. Yesterday morning he was sitting at his computer and my mom had gone to the store. I was the only one here with him. I thought he was sleeping because he was snoring so I didn’t think anything of it. A few minutes later he stopped snoring and I had this strange feeling that I should go check on him. He didn’t appear to be breathing and from that moment I had the feeling he was gone but I didn’t want to believe it. I called 911 and the dispatcher stayed on the phone with and instructed me to get him out of his chair and start to give him CPR. She stayed on the phone with me until the ambulance arrived. The EMT’s worked on him for about 40 minutes but after that they said there wasn’t anything more that they could do. I keep having to remind myself that this is real, that I am not dreaming! I will be doing something and need help so I’ll think to go to him, then reality will strike and I realize what just happened. I don’t know how my mom and I will get along without him but we have a lot of family that have promised to be here for us at a moments notice. I think I am still in the shock stage of it all but sooner or later I will be able to let my emotions come through. Make sure you let your loved ones know how much they mean to you because you never know when tragedy will strike! Take care my friends!

I live in central Utah and I really really want to see a mommy! My next vacation will definitely have to be to Las Vegas.

I saw that one. I thought it was pretty funny, of course I’ve enjoyed the antics of the New Day. I am waiting for one of the female wrestlers to come out in one!

This story is fantastic, I am on the edge of my seat just waiting for more! It is very well written and easy to follow. I definitely cannot wait for the next part!

My preference is Dr. Pepper, which is a Pepsi product here. Working at a grocery store you see the guy that stocks the Coke products and the guy that stocks the Pepsi products. They tell me it varies from what area you live in as to which brand it falls under. I have kind of a weird mixture when it comes to filling my mug from the fountain; I put 2/3 diet Dr. Pepper, 1/3 regular Dr. Pepper and a hint of Cherry Pepsi. When I am at home I put two capfuls of Rum in it and mix that in. When I am at a bar or concert venue, my drink of choice is Coke and Rum like many here have mentioned.

Wearing diapers is a big stress relief for me as well! If I am not wearing diapers during the day; I am always thinking about them. I often fear that since I have gotten so used to just letting go in my diaper when I have to pee, I may forget that sometimes I am not wearing one and out of habit; I just let go in my pants. It just makes sense for me to be in diapers so I don’t get the embarrassment of having people see me soak my jeans whenever I need to go. Even when I don’t wear a diaper, say like when I am at work, it just feels so good to forget the stresses from dealing with awry ass customers from the store and (how I like to view it as) pissing on those awry ass customers...Lol! It has taken me quite a long time but I have learned to let go of the stress and anxiety I once felt from wearing diapers. There are enough other things in this life that cause me stress and anxiety and I shouldn’t let diapers be one of them. I don’t know where this desire to wear diapers and act and dress like an adult baby came from but it is a part of me. I refuse to continue to beat myself up over this!

Well, I can only think of one at this moment; to be more physically active. I know they say it is good for your mental health if you get some exercise. I am not too overweight but I am a little chunky. I have struggled mentally over this holiday season and there is something about the winter season that always triggers my depression. This coming year I am hoping to change all that! Also, I have made a goal with the encouragement of my psychiatrist, to try and meet someone and perhaps start dating. I am very timid when it comes to meeting new people, especially pretty women, and there is always the subject of my adult baby fetish that may be keeping me from trying to meet just anyone. Here’s to 2019!!!

Left Alone- “Sad Sad Story”

Thanks Fozzie, Happy Holidays to you to you also! I hope you get want you have asked for this year.

For me, since The NorthShore MagaMax diaper holds so much, I put one on a little bit before bedtime. I sometimes put a booster inside of it just to have that feeling of an extra full diaper. I will drink a 64oz. mug of liquid before I go to sleep and wake up soaked! To me, it is a great feeling to wake up with a heavy, wet and sometimes messy diaper!