Cloth Diapers & Panties

Disclaimer: This story is not written by me. It was written by Relddot (author was named Ludib in another version of the abdlforum). It was published on abdlstoryforum but was lost during the downfall of the forum. I wanted to share it with you and also it not to be lost forever, if I might lose it someday. Have fun. This story has 35 chapters, but I decided to publish it in smaller parts. Big stories can get kind of overwhelming and I want to give people room to read it and comment it. So I think I will post like 1-2 chapters a day. Have fun! The Week I Entered Their World   Chapter 1 This was going to be it. This time I was in a good spot to beat the race. I had participated in several tournaments and never won anything but this time I had great chance of reaching first place. I focused on the road and made a perfect turn passing one of my opponents. There was only one left for first place now, my biggest rival who had beaten me so many times before, but I was not letting her do it this time. It was one turn left and that was it. It had to be perfect. As I approached the turn my hearth beat fast. I was right behind her tail and I could picture her feeling all confident about herself taking home her fifth tournament in a row, but that was not going to happen this time and longed to see her face after being beaten by a novice like me. The last turn approached and I took a deep breath. My chance was there waiting for me. When she was about to turn, I used the boost I had saved. I flew ahead of her and excitement filled me. I was seconds away from the finish line and felt like nothing could stop me from taking home the tournament but then everything went black. “Hey.” I said, starring at the blank TV screen. “I was about to win. Why did you do that for?” I have to admit, I had to hold back tears even if I was old enough not to cry over a stupid video game. Nine year old girls could cry sometimes yes, but only little girls cried over silly things like this. “I just don’t feel like playing anymore.” my friend Ally said with a shrug and put her controller away. She would never let me win. “Fine, but I won this time.” I threw my controller back, crossed my arms and muttered. Not that winning meant that much to me as long as I got to play but was one time asking for too much? “Nu hu. You never finished so it doesn’t count.” she stuck her tongue out. I wasn’t mad but I reached for a pillow and threw it at her. She giggled and threw it back harder and just as in my many imaginations of sleepovers, the mandatory pillow fight begun. We threw, hit and played with the pillows while giggling and jumping around on her bed. I didn’t fear falling down because her bed was big like everything else in her house, like the TV, the hot tub, the pool and all the other luxuries. It was nothing like the tiny house I lived in. I remember asking her the first time I was there if one of her parents was a celebrity or something. I must have embarrassed myself because she said ‘no, why?’ like if everyone lived in a house like that. I was afraid that if she’d ever go to my house she would ask if my parents were rats. My house wasn’t really small and dirty like a rat nest; I tend to exaggerate things or sometimes I like to pretend that I’m a little mouse. Anyway, I guess my house was pretty average; big enough for me, mommy and daddy. I liked it, but I really wished we had room for another family member. I begged but mommy said she didn’t want any more children. I cured my loneliness by pretending I had my own twin sister. I called her Bella. At first, I just played with her, but after that I figured since we were twins and looked the same, I could also be her too. We were different in how we were though so I picked whoever fit my mood the best that day. My parent’s just shook their heads and refused to call me Bella when I pretended to be her. The fun stopped at school when I was six and people started to wonder why I sometimes laughed for no apparent reason or wanted to be called by different names. It was also confusing for the teachers when I turned in two homework’s every week, one by me and one by Bella. They eventually made me go talk with the school counselor regularly and after a couple of weeks, Bella were expelled and hopefully out of my head too. Things turned better last year when I started third-grade and met Ally. I let Bella out of the world then and now I was in fact at a real sleepover throwing pillows and not at home pretending I was. The pillow fight went on. We didn’t bother to pick up the ones that had landed too far away on the floor we were eventually out of them. When that happened, we began wrestling instead. I refused to lose my balance as she tried to get me down on the bed. I escaped from her grip and jumped around while she tried to catch me again. She chased me until I surrendered and let myself fall down on the bed because I was afraid that if I jumped, more of the pizza I had earlier would make its way up my throat. “I think I won again.” Ally said and hit me with a pillow she had picked up from next to the bed. “Whatever.” I said. She threw the pillow away and let herself fall too and we lay down next to each other catching our breaths. “You only cheat.” Ally stuck her tongue out and then she said. “I think its pajamas time.” “Okay, I think I left mine downstairs.” I didn’t mind to put it on early. This was my first sleepover and I had pictured that you ran around in your pajamas throwing pillows at each other all the time. I was about to get up when I remember how my pajamas looked. The pastel pink color together with the bunnies, carrots and flower prints could as well have been designed to be worn by a toddler. I had owned it since I was eight so it was a little small too. Ally surely had something newer and less babyish to wear and even if she didn’t say anything I would probably embarrass myself. “Get up then.” she said and gave me a tickle on my side. I wasn’t really feeling doing so when I thought about what I had to put on so I didn’t move. She moved closer and sat down on top of my tummy. I giggled and squirmed while at same time messing up the cover on the bed as she tickled me everywhere. “Ok, ok, stop!” I pushed her off and sat up because I was sure that if she tortured me more, the soda I had earlier would make the bottom of my pants wet and then I would probably die of embarrassment. “Go down and get it then.” She sat up too. When I went to the door, I couldn’t help but to take up a pillows and throw it at her. I spun around and aimed at her face and threw it the hardest I could. “Ha, I won!” I put my hand in the air to declared victory. Then I saw how she bent over laughing. I had missed. I clenched my hand into a fist and put it down while letting out a frustrated sigh. I had a smile on my face as I went out though. It was still the best night ever and it was going to be the best week ever. Ally was my first real friend and I dreamed that maybe one day we could call ourselves best friends. On my way downstairs I ran into her sister Alexis. She was ten years older than us and I was usually shy around teenagers but not to her. When she looked down at me with her gentle smile, being an only child, I wished I had a sister like that, a real one and not just in my dreams, however, I knew it was impossible. “How’s it going Amber?” She asked, while fixing my long chestnut brown hair that had been messed up from the pillow fight. “Good. We’re getting our PJ’s on.” I said. “That’s great! Listen, I’m here for you. If you ever need anything or if Ally is mean or does something bad, just tell me. I’ll make her stop.” Alexis said. Ally’s parents weren’t at home so she was in charge of us. “It’s okay.” I said. I continued to go down to get my bag. When I found it in the hall, I decided I could just as well change down there and I began putting it on. I actually liked my pajamas and hoped I didn’t get teased. The stuffed bunny I still slept with every night wasn’t going to help me in case I got teased either. I picked her up from my bag and hugged her hard because this night I feared she would have to sleep alone. I whispered good-night in her ear, but when I looked her in the eyes. I couldn’t tell her I had to leave her there so I had to bring her up with me. If Ally teased me, I could tell Alexis. I pulled out my long hair that had gotten behind my tight pajamas top before I went upstairs again. I walked straight into Alexis who came out from Ally’s room. She smiled and let me in. I saw Ally who had also changed into her pajamas lying on her bed. Her pajamas were at least as childish as mine. They were baby blue with teddies and stars on, it wasn’t as tight though. “Hey bunny girl.” she said. “I like her.” she looked at the bunny in my arms. “Thanks.” I stroke the bunny over her ears and kissed her head feeling sorry for even thinking about leaving her in my bag. Then I felt a scent of something that hadn’t been in the room before. It smelled fresh, like the candles mommy used before we had guests. I knew it came from something but I couldn’t tell exactly what it was. “I have a teddy!” She picked something up. It was a cute pink teddy with a bow on its head. She hugged it tight. “We aren’t going to bed now, right?” I asked and climbed up in her bed letting my bunny say hello to her teddy. “Not yet. Meanie told us that we could only stay up until ten.” She backed with her teddy which she told me was shy. “You’re sister isn’t a meanie.” I said, hoping she knew how lucky she was. “Uh hu she is. You don’t know because you’re not living with her.” Ally said. Ally took her sister too much for granted. Being jealous wasn’t really going to help me feel better, but I couldn’t help it as I sat there wishing I could call someone a meanie for giving me a ten o’clock bed time or rather I wished I had someone I could call my sister. “So, what are we doing now?” I crawled over and sat down next to her in bed. “What about a movie?” Ally suggested. “Sure.” I said. “What do you wanna watch?” She asked and pointed at a shelf that was crammed with DVDs and video games. “Go and pick one.” I didn’t have any movies at home and there were so many in there I wanted to watch so I couldn’t pick one right away. “Hurry.” Ally said. “What about this one?” I held up Cinderella. I had actually seen it before with my cousin but I wanted to watch it again. “No.” Ally said. “Ok, this one?” I held up the little mermaid. “Those are baby movies silly. I have them there because I haven’t given them away to some baby yet.” “Oh ok.” My face turned red and I put the Little Mermaid back. Could I stop embarrassing myself already? I took my time to pick the next movie.  “What about this one then?” I held up the Parent Trap. “Booooring.” Ally sighed. “You pick one then.” I said. Ally got up from bed and sat down next to me. “No kidding. You couldn’t find a good one. It’s only baby movies in here. Meanie must have put the good ones away. Wait here.” Ally walked out of the room. When she moved, I thought I heard a rustling sound. I waited in bed and when she came back, she had three movies with her. All of them with scary covers. “Pick one!” She held them up “Uhmm, that one.” I said and picked one randomly, not daring to read the titles because the covers looked scary.  Ally grinned. “Sure.” She opened it and put the disc into her player. “Want some snacks?” She asked while the player swallowed the disc. “Yea, and some more soda please.” I added because I felt rather thirsty from all the playing. I thought Ally was going to bring us them herself but then she went to her door and called. “Alex! Come here!” and after a moment her sister came. “What is it?” She asked. “We want snacks and soda and please hurry.” Ally said, tapping her feet. “Okay, but no soda right before bedtime. Are you going to watch a movie?” “Yes.” Ally said. “Which one are you going to watch?” “Little mermaid.” I felt a pit in my tummy because it was wrong to lie but I said nothing. “Good choice. I’ll get you some snacks and water then.” Alexis said and turned to leave. “But Amber wanted soda and she’s our guest.” Ally complained while tugging her sister’s shirt just as she was about to leave. I thought she didn’t really have to. She was being too nice to us already. “Ok, fine. But you only get one glass each.” Alexis said. When her sister left, Ally looked at me and said. “I’m going to turn off the lights.” With a click the room turned black, except for the lamp next to her bed. “Cozy, huh?” she whispered and climbed back up in bed. “Yea.” I replied. In truth, I didn’t really like the dark. At home I even slept with a night light sometimes and I even had it with me in my bag. I could never tell Ally that because then I would be a total baby. Mommy had insisted I took it with me though in case I had nightmares. Alexis came back with our snacks and soda. It was a bowl of popcorn and two glasses of cola. She placed the glasses on the night stand and put the bowl between us. “There you go girls. Anything else?” she asked. “No. Leave us.” Ally said and stood up to push away her sister. “Ok, enjoy the movie…” Alexis shook her head and left us. I would rather have here there to watch the scary movie with us and watched as she left. The movie wasn’t as bad at first as the cover suggested. Maybe a little scary, but not too much to make me jump. I watched, ate my popcorns and drank my soda. For a moment I looked over at Ally who seemed to be concentrating on something, like she wasn’t watching. Then when I looked back at the screen and wasn’t ready, a scary surprise startled me. I jumped and screamed. Ally looked up and giggled at me. “That wasn’t even scary.” she said and shifted position and there was that sound again. “I just wasn’t ready.” I defended myself. I sniffed. There was a new smell in the room. It wasn’t like how it was when I entered. This one almost smelt like bathroom, but I said nothing and since you eventually get used to things around you, I forgot about it as the movie went on. The movie became scarier now and I had to be on my toes the whole time. Ally didn’t seem to have any problems with it and had probably seen many movies like this one before, with her sister being there for her of course. I didn’t have any experience with the horror genre and I screamed at every little thing but then there was one really scary scene where we both did. Hugging each other, we heard someone running to our door. Ally quickly turned off the movie just as her sister came in. “Why are you guys screaming all the time?” She asked, looking at us both searchingly. “Nothing.” Ally said, moving back from me. “I just told Amber a scary story.” “Weren’t you watching a movie?” Alexis asked, crossing her arms and walked into the room. “We had seen it before and it was boring.” Ally replied. Alexis looked suspicious. “What movie were you watching?” she said and peered her eyes her sister. “Cinderella, no, the parent trap, no I mean the little mermaid!” Ally replied but I noticed her squirming around nervously and there was that rustling sound again. “Are you lying to me?” Alexis went to the TV. She checked the disc and saw that it wasn’t Cinderella, The Parent Trap or the little Mermaid. She sighed. “You know what I think about you watching horror movies, but even worse you lied to me!” She took big steps towards Ally’s side of the bed. “You’re a bad girl!” I sat up and froze. This was almost scarier than the movie. “Look how scared Amber is! Bad girl!” she yelled at her sister and reached for her. Ally tried to crawl away across the bed, but Alexis acted quicker and grabbed her feet and pulled her back. Grabbing both her sister’s arms she lifted her up and sat her down in her lap. “No, no please no. Please don’t Alex. Look, I’m sorry!” Ally struggled, but Alexis had a firm grip of her arms. In her lap, Alexis turned Ally around and put her on her tummy while holding her still. Ally kicked her legs around and tried to squirm free. “Help me, Amber!” “For every second you struggle I add three more!” Alexis warned. “Please, don’t!” Ally pleaded. My eyes went wide when Alexis gave her a hard slap on her sister’s butt. Ally stopped kicking her legs and another slap hit her. I looked away and sat there shocked, feeling tears welling up in my eyes, fearing I would be next. Through Ally’s whimpering I heard Alexis slapping her at least five more time, but they were suppressed somehow. It didn’t sound like she hit her directly through her pajamas pants and on her butt. I was sure I heard something in the way. The slaps stopped. I could hear how Ally sniffed while her sister shhh’d her. I dared to turn around and saw how she hugged her while gently rubbing her back, calming her down by whispering ‘I love you’ in her ear, rocking her slowly back and forth. My tears stopped. I felt warm because somehow their love was radiating on me. Alexis stood up holding her sister close to her chest, like a baby. “I think Ally needs to brush her teeth and go to bed.” she told me and carried her sister out of the room. When the sisters came back, Alexis put Ally down in bed and helped her get under the covers. I looked down. “Amber, it wasn’t your fault.” Alexis said when she was done tucking her sister in. “I did say you should have told me if Ally did anything bad though.” I swallowed. “I’m sorry.” I hung my head low, scared my butt was about to get red. “You’re getting away with a warning this time if you promise me you’ll tell if Ally does something bad again. You’re staying here a week now and this is important.” Alexis tried to get eye contact. “I pwomise.” I said softly still looking down. “Look me in the eyes when you say it.” Alexis commanded. I lift my head and did so. “I promise.” “Good. I think it’s time to brush your teeth and go to bed now just like she did. Come.”  I looked over at Ally and saw that she had already fallen asleep. I picked my tooth brush from my bag and followed Alexis out of the room. She led me into the bathroom where she left me and said good-night and sleep well. The strong taste of mint filled my mouth when I made sure to reach every tooth because I hated going to the dentist. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw my tear stained face and that my eyes were puffed red. My legs crossed and I realized I had waited long before going to the bathroom. I quickly opened the lid, pulled down my pants and panties before sitting down to relieve myself. I wiped myself, flushed the toilet and washed my hands before I made my way back to Ally’s room where I crawled up in bed. “Ally.” I whispered and waited for a reply. When she didn’t answer I rolled back to my side and put the blanket over me. I tried to fall asleep, but I wasn’t used to sleeping at someone else’s place. I moved around and shifted position but couldn’t lay comfortable. Ally’s bed was softer than mine and I thought I was going to like it at first but it wasn’t as nice as I thought. In the dark, I heard something and sat up. I reached for my bunny, held her close at my chest and I felt how my heart beat fast. I was sure that something was standing at the door. I stopped breathing. I narrowed my eyes to see better and saw that there was nothing there. I started breathing again, laid down and closed my eyes. When I was about to fall asleep Ally poked me. “Hey.” she said. She sat up and turned the lights on. “Wanna play video games?” She started into nothing with a weird smirk on her face. “Sure.” I said while blinking to get used to the light. Ally didn’t move. Instead, she sat there looking at me. “What?” I asked, maybe she wanted me to go and turn on her video game; I wasn’t sure how though as I didn’t own a video game console myself. Then I noticed a faint pounding, like someone was hitting a hammer on something in an even beat. “Oh no.” she said with a tone that sounded indifferent like she didn’t mean it. “We have to get out.” She slid off the bed. “Why?” I asked and looked at her strangely. Then I felt how the pounding coming closer. “Someone is coming.” I saw Ally dashing to the door. “Hurry or he’ll come for you!” The pounding got stronger and stronger. “Who is?” I asked while the beat was slamming on my chest. “The Axeman, he’s here!” Ally yelled. “Wait!” I yelled back and tried to get up from bed and follow her, but the pounding was somehow pushing me back. “Help me, Ally!” I couldn’t move as I was held back by the hammering sound. I saw Ally leaving the room. The pounding beat was somehow forcing me down on the bed and it was so loud I couldn’t hear anything. I thought it was going to compress my chest but then it stopped. I caught a gasping breath. Paralyzed, I had my vision fixed on the door. Nothing moved but then everything happened in what seemed like a minute but happened actually in maybe just a few seconds. I saw a man with his face covered by a black cloth rushing in towards me. I gasped as he swung his axe and I tried to scream but my voice failed. When the axe was an inch away from cleaving me into two pieces he disappeared. I saw him vanishing into blue sparks. I sat up with a start. I panted and I felt sweat drops running down my back. I tried to figure out what was happening and where I was. Did I die? No, as I looked around, I saw that I was still in Ally’s room. Her room was nice so it couldn’t be hell but it wasn’t quite as I pictured heaven either with all the fluffy clouds and stuff. The room was dark again and I saw her sleeping next to me. Shaking I let out a relived sigh when I figured that everything must have been a dream. Falling back to sleep again wouldn’t be easy though as I knew I almost always fell back in the same dreams if I went to sleep right after one. It was one of those nights I would have brought my pillow and sneaked down to sleep in mommy’s and daddy’s bed. They had begun shooing me off there recently though, saying I was too old to sleep with them. The pounding sound started again just as I closed my eyes and when I sat up it stopped. There was no way I could go back to sleep like this so I decided I would sit there until dawn came. I sat there for what seemed like hours but was probably less. I looked around her room trying to find thoughts to entertain me. I felt a need to pee. I didn’t bother me much at first but soon it was all I could think off. I got out of bed to head for the bathroom. When I looked out in the dark corridor, I almost changed my mind. I took a breath and gathered my courage. One step at a time I tip-toed my way through, but when I was half way to the bathroom the hammer started beating again. I panicked and began to run. I ran the fastest I could through the corridor, but then I lost my ground and fell. This time my voice didn’t fail me and I let out a loud scream. The pounding stopped and the house became quiet for a moment until I heard the sound of footsteps. I crawled into a ball and hid my face in my hands feeling the tears on my face. “Amber?” I couldn’t see her but I heard Alexi’s voice. “Are you alright?” I lied there whimpering. “Hey, what’s wrong?” “N-nightmare.” I stuttered feeling how I was about to cry. “Come let’s go back to bed.” she said. I held up my hands excepting her to pick me up like she did to Ally, but she just took one of my hands and led me back to the room. She moved the blanket and patted for me to lie down. I did so and she tucked me in and said goodnight. “It’s so dark in here.” I said. “You don’t have to be afraid of the dark. You’re not a baby like Ally who sometimes sleeps with a night light.” I just looked at her. I wished she had put me in her lap and consoled me just like she did to Ally. “Right, she let you watch that horror movie, didn’t she? Ok then.” She picked a night light from the drawer in Ally’s nightstand and plugged it in. “Night.” I watched the faint glow from the star shaped night light as I drifted off to sleep and thankfully without the nightmares.           Chapter 2 “You’re very lucky you know.” I told Ally. The lovely smell of pancakes filled the kitchen as we sat down and ate our breakfast. The rest of the night had been uneventful and I had been waked up by Ally’s tickling. We had both taken a shower after that and we were now enjoying the pancakes in the kitchen. “No, why would I be that?” Ally asked while stuffing herself with a mouthful of them getting messy around her face. “I don’t have a sister making me pancakes for breakfast at home. I’m lucky if there are still crumbs left in the cereal package.” I wished I could eat more than two pancakes but I wasn’t very hungry in the mornings. Ally was already on her forth. “I don’t have pancakes all the time silly. I do have cereals most of the time because meanie here is too lazy. I think she’s only doing this because you’re here, and why doesn’t your mommy go and buy more if you’re out of them?” she asked. I shrug. “She says she forgets.” I finished my glass of milk and leaned back in my chair feeling full. Alexis came back with a pan that had another pancake ready and put it on a plate in the middle of the table. “You’re hopeless.” she shook her head and sighed when she saw Ally’s face. “Look at Amber, she is doing fine like a big girl and you’re making mess worse than a baby.” She picked up a wash cloth and attempted to wipe the whipped cream and jam off. “Hey!” Ally made a funny face and avoided it. “I can do it myself.” She snatched the washcloth from her sister. Alexis just shook her head. “Don’t you want another one, Amber?” she asked, picking up the plate with the pancakes and was about to slide the pancake to my plate. “I’m fine.” I said, feeling a little bad that I couldn’t show how much I loved her pancakes. “They were very, very good though. Thank y…” I suppressed a burp and covered my mouth. “Excuse me.” my cheeks heated. “It’s ok. Glad you’re helping me teach the baby here how to behave.” she said looking over at Ally who stuck her tongue out at her. “So, what are you girls going to do today?” Alexis asked. “We want to swim in the pool.” Ally said and put a fifth pancake on her plate. She was a little bigger than me but we were both pretty small and I couldn’t believe she would be able to fit one more as they were pretty thick. “Where are mommy and daddy by the way?” “They aren’t coming home today.” Alexis took my plate and glass to the sink. “And you can’t go in the pool today because there is people here performing a maintenance on it.” “We’ll watch cartoons or play video games in my room then.” Ally put lots of jam on her pancake. “No, not when it’s such a nice weather out. Its summer and I think you should be out playing all the time. Go to the park, I’m sure there is other kids there you can play with.” Alexis said. “Yeah, but they are from my old school and I hate them.” Ally said and then started to eat her pancake. Ally had started my school in the city last year. There was a rumor that she had been expelled from her old school, but she said that she left it because couldn’t stand that school because it was filled with ‘annoying brats’. I didn’t ask her much about it because I didn’t think it mattered. We wouldn’t have been friends if she didn’t go to my school and that was the most important. Ally ate her pancake, this time without getting messy. “I can show Amber around then.” “Sure, but don’t go away too far and be back by lunch.” Alexis picked up Ally’s plate and glass. I followed Ally up. The rustling sound I heard when she moved around the night before was gone now. It must have been something she had in her pocket. We got to her room. It was a hot day and I picked a t-shirt along with a pair of cotton shorts. Ally wore the same but as always, her clothes looked better. “Where are we going?” I asked as I began changing out of my pajamas. “Some place. Why did you scream last night?” she asked. “I had a nightmare.” I said. I had gotten over it now, but I didn’t want to think about the Axeman. “Cool, was Alexis in it?” she asked. “No?” she had scared me last night when she spanked her sister, but I couldn’t imagine her in a nightmare. Maybe in a good dream though. “Is she in yours?” “Nope.” She giggled. “Not anymore.” It was that look again. The one she had in the dream. I couldn’t tell if she was serious. “She was there.” She stood silent for a while. “What did you dream about?” “An axe-man.” I said as I put on my purple t-shirt with a cartoon kitten on. “He was cleaving me but then he just disappeared.” “Oh, him, that’s cool! I know where he lives.” Ally jumped up in excitement. “What?” I exclaimed. Ally was surely joking around with me again. She did that sometimes. One time she had said that cats were actually humans cursed by the devil because they had failed to do something he asked for them and she wouldn’t stop talking about it. It could be annoying at times, but I had learned to just laugh at her stories and sometimes I played along. I didn’t feel like doing it now though because I didn’t want to think about the Axeman. “Wanna go there? He’s not scary during the day.” “I don’t believe you.” I said. “Let me show you.” She giggled and rushed down to the hall and put on her sandals. I did the same after I put on my beige shorts. “Don’t be gone too long now. Lunch will be ready at noon.” Alexis came and gave Ally a water bottle. “It’s hot out, so make sure to stay hydrated.” “Okay.” Ally said. “Bye meanie.” “Bye girls.” Alexis said and we left the house. We walked down on the side walk and passed a few other houses, one nicer than the next, until we turned into a dirt road leading into a small groove. When we came out of it I smelled the fresh country air. “It’s so much nicer here than in the city.” I said and stopped. “Nah, it’s boring here. Oh, look!” Ally pointed. Beyond fields of farmlands, I saw houses surrounded by threes that I thought belonged to a farm. “Axeman lives there.” She began skipping on ahead. “Can’t we go to the park instead?” I asked. “Do I have to remind you of how annoying those kids are?” she asked. “Or are you just afraid of the Axeman?” “He doesn’t exist.” I took a sip from the water bottle, that I had to carry as soon as we got out of Ally’s house. “Careful, he doesn’t like when people say that.” Ally said in a spooky tone and then giggled. We walked under the sun on the road along the fields. It was hot and it was a good thing we had the water bottle. When we got there, I realized it wasn’t a farm but an old abandoned mill of some sort. I would find out later that in the old days it had been a wood mill and also a place where farmers took their gear to be repaired. It had then become a small shoe factory before it shut down. I stood at the yard and looked up. There was a three floor main building in stone along with a two smaller storage houses made in wood. As I looked around, I had a feeling we weren’t supposed to be there. It was like the empty houses were watching us. The whole place looked creepy. Most of the windows were broken and wines covered parts of the main house. “Can we really be here?” I asked as I avoided stepping on glass. “Of course, nobody lives here anymore. Well except for Axeman.” “There is no Axeman.” I said. “He was just in my dream.” “Believe what you want. I know he is here though. Right up there.” Ally reached up her arm and pointed at the top floor of the main building. “He’s probably sleeping on the attic right now. He doesn’t like the day light.” Ally went to the entrance of the main building that had lost its door but I remained on the middle of the yard. “Come on, don’t you want to see him? He can only wake up at night so don’t worry.” “I don’t think we should go in there. I think we’re trespassing.” I said. “You’re just afraid of him.” Ally stuck her tongue out and went in. “Are you coming Amber?” I crossed my arms and walked in after her. The ground floor consisted of one big room with pillars supporting the roof. There were shoes, tools, and other forgotten items lying all over the place and it smelled of old dust that made me sneeze twice. It felt cold in there even if the sun beamed outside. Far back in the room there was a staircase and Ally was heading for it. “Ally wait, I don’t want to be in here.” I said and wanted to back out. “There is nothing to be afraid of.” she said. “Don’t you get that I’m just kidding around about the Axeman? I just want to show you how cool it looks up here.” “I don’t like this place.” I said but stopped backing out of there. Ally walked to me. “Come.” she said and grabbed my arm. “Isn’t it exciting? I promise you, this place isn’t haunted.” I let Ally lead me through the room. I stopped by the stairs and looked up. As the first floor was tall the stairs had to turn to get up to the next floor. I resisted when Ally tried to pull me up with her. “Do you want to go out?” she asked and dropped my hand. I shrugged. I told myself that it was nothing scary about this place. It was just an old house. I took a breath and followed her. The stairs squeaked as we went up. The second floor wasn’t like the first one. When we came up, we arrived in a corridor with several doors. On the floor there were bits of old newspapers scattered everywhere. The stairs continued one floor up. “This floor is boring. It’s just a bunch of rooms with trash in them. There is a bed in the last room though. I jump on it sometimes.” “Are you here often?” I asked. “I like exploring this place” She replied. “And if there were ghosts in here, I would have disappeared already, wouldn’t I?” Ally began walking up the next stairs. “Come, let’s go up to the next floor, there is something you have to help me with.” We walked up and arrived on the third floor. This floor was filled with sealed wooden boxes. One was open and I saw that it was filled with shoes. In the middle of the room there was a ladder that led up to a hatch. “There he lives, the Axeman.” Ally pointed at the hatch. I gasped and Ally giggled. “I’m just kidding.” She went to the ladder “Here is what you’re going to help me with. I have never been in up there in the attic because the hatch is too heavy to open. I think if we both climb up this ladder and push, we might get it up.” “I don’t know.” I said. “I want to go out now.” The water bottle was empty and Ally hadn’t asked for it once and I needed the bathroom. “You don’t have to go up to the attic if you don’t want to, but please help me up. I have explored every room in this place, even the basement but I haven’t been up there.” Ally put her hands on the ladder. It was pretty wide so we were both able to climb it at the same time. “Come.” “I don’t like ladders.” I said. “What if we accidentally push each other and fall down?” “Stop being such a bunny. I really want to see what is up there. Maybe there is a treasure.” Ally began climbing the ladder. I took small steps and then stood next to it. I checked so it was firm. “Come on.” Ally said. She could reach the hatch now and put her hand on it. She tried but she couldn’t move it more than about three inches. “You have to help me with this.” “This is dangerous and maybe it’s locked.” I said and hoped it was so I didn’t have to get up there. “I can’t see any lock and if it is on the other side that means someone must be living up there, which I really doubt.” Ally said. I took a deep breath and then went one step up the ladder. “There you go.” cheered Ally. “Look at me and don’t look down.” I took three more and swallowed. “Don’t look down!” I quickly turned my head up again. Soon I was next to her. I hold on to ladder and I felt that I was shaking a little bit. “Okay, now you have to let go off the ladder with one hand and push. If you can, let go off both, it’s even better. I think I will try doing so.” Ally said. “Ready?” I nodded and then forced my right hand of the ladder and put it on the hatch. We began to push but we couldn’t move the hatch much more than Ally could alone. “Okay that didn’t work. I’m going to use both my hands now.” Ally said and let go of her other hand. “Try to catch me if I fall.” We began pushing again and this time we were able to push it far enough to take another step on the ladder. We had the hatch in an angel so I could see in. It was nothing in there but a door leading into another room. “Crawl in. I can’t since you’re standing in the way.” Ally said. “Let’s shut it again. I really want to go back now.” I said my voice trembling. My bladder was also telling me it was time to go. “I have to see how it looks up there. Please, take another step.” Ally was pushing the hatch by herself. I was only supporting it. It was then we heard something. It sounded like a door slamming downstairs. There was someone coming. I gasped and let go of the hatch and started to climb down. Ally was able to carry the hatch back herself and climbed down after me. We rushed away from the ladder and down through the stairs to the second floor. “Let’s hide.” Ally grabbed my arm whispering, but I only wanted to get out of there. Adrenaline gave me strength and I was able to get out of her grip and rushed down the next stairs only to be grabbed by another pair of hands. “What are you kids doing in here!?” yelled a voice belonging to a man. “This place is not for playing!” he shook me. I felt tears welling up in my eyes. “Where is your friend?” he asked me. I couldn’t answer and the tears kept flowing as I cried loudly. “I’m here.” Ally said and came down the stairs. “You are not supposed to play around in here, it’s too dangerous! The floor could break any minute and you will be lucky if you only break both your legs.” The man let me go. I almost lost control of my bladder then but crossed my legs hard together. “This is the third time I have found you here, Ally.” He took a step towards her. I didn’t look at him but I heard he wasn’t as old as I first thought. “Why are you going here yourself all the time if it’s so dangerous then, Evan?” Ally asked, looking into his eyes with her arms crossed. “I saw you go here and when you didn’t come back, I figured you went in and I was right. You have to follow me out of here right now.” Evan said. We didn’t have much choice and followed him out of the mill. Ally put her arm around to console me. He had parked a two seat truck in the yard. “I’ll drive you back to your house.” Evan said. I looked up a little and saw that he was around Alexi’s age. My arms still hurt after his grip and that wasn’t hard to figure why because his own arms looked big and strong. “We can walk there ourselves.” Ally said. “No, I want to talk with your sister this time so I’m going there anyway.” he opened the door. “You two have to share seat.” I still sobbed and Ally let out a frustrated sigh. We climbed up on the seat and I burrowed my head in her side. “Good way to start your summer by getting grounded Ally. I’ve told you several times no to go to the mill and now I’m telling your sister.” He looked at me. “I’m sorry for yelling to your friend. She didn’t know and it wasn’t her fault you took her in there.” I sat there still hugging Ally while fighting the pressure from my bladder. It seemed like we had to drive a longer way to get back to her house than it was to walk. I was too shy and stupid not to ask Even to stop the car. “Amber!” Ally gasped and hovered over the seat as it began to get wet.  

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If you wear the diaper, and you feel urine just always let it go. I think the best is that the body learns how to relax and opens up in stead of a stent.  I feel that after some time the body feels safe in the diaper and just relaxes automatically, that it will be easy to pee in the diaper, conciously to unconciously

in a white nru str8up, 2nd diaper with baby powder used. I finally figured out you have to turn the powder's top so you get more out - got a nice dusting and put it on, feels way better without my thighs sticking to the padding and rubbing and that

Oh yes they could. I really hope it dosent come to that though.