John73

Hey, looks like an great log. I personally understand reasons why you want to become incontinent out of your own will, yet I would never decide to become one. Actually when I became IT I was very frustrated, to the stages of hard depression, but I came out of it by simply "liking" being incontinent or at least being neutral about it and not really caring about it that much. Recently I have developed certain feelings towards incontinence though as I really started to enjoy being wet, especially before going to sleep as it makes me really much more relaxed than if I'm trying to go to sleep with dry diaper. Good luck on your progress, even if I would never decide to go for it, I understand your reasons and I wish you good luck in achieving your goal, because I see how much dedication you have to put into it.

It is an disability, but one that I have actually became quite "fond" of or maybe just neutral. It doesn't bother me anymore as it used to to be honest. Back when I was incontinent and pretty young I used to have terrible depressions over it, worrying about what I'm going to do next or what will my friends say if they find out. I manned up and I don't care what other says about, but yet I don't come bragging about it, so it's not maybe that I hide it, but I also don't reveal it. If somebody asks I will say the truth, but nobody has asked yet - I must be pretty good at hiding it then. So yeah, it is an disability, but one that a man can live with and even find it enjoyable from time to time, depends. There are far more worse disabilities out there.

Well, I used to go dry and as I'm being IT I have always woken up wet anyway, but since a year or so I'm always wetting myself on purpose before going to sleep. Don't know why, but I found it pretty much a good, warm feeling to get me through the night - it's like its making the sleeping process easier and more manageable. I can turn around and sleep instantly, also noticed that I'm sleeping longer and deeper once I wet myself. Not to mention that I have actually liked this feeling.

Yeah, it is normal. To be honest I used to wonder about it a bit as well, but it is perfectly normal so you shouldn't worry. Basically muscle that allows you to pee is also the same muscle that allows you to poo - PC muscle, therefore it's hard to pee and not poo if you feel like it. It also depends on how trained your PC muscle really is, but assuming that you ask about this it's probably not really trained. I'm training my kegels, therefore I've gained significantly more control over this process, although it still won't cure me out of being incontinent. So you shouldn't worry about it, unless your poo wants to come out even if you are at standing position and you don't feel the urge to take the poo, then yeah, something must be off then.

I agree, after all it's your home and if they find it disturbing they make just not look at it, right? Actually I would just roll my curtains down, so they don't have to watch it and I respect my privacy, but I also wouldn't take stuff from them contemplating me on how I should behave in my own home... If they caught me getting diapers I at least would like them not to talk about it with others, but knowing people I know they would anyway. I would knock to my neighbor and tell him to respect my privacy and disorders and not talk to orders from neighborhood in most cases he would respond like: Sure, not a problem at all. I will keep it a secret and the very next day over a grill and beer he would point his fingers at me around dozen of his ignorant friends. I've been caught a few times, but nothing that extraordinary to write a story. Maybe I will post some when I get more time though.

I've used them and don't know why they are "hated". To be honest I don't see any reason to hate it, they are pretty much comfortable and well made. I didn't have any problems with them and although I'm not using them anymore as I have found some companies that provides services that suits me much better, I wouldn't mind that much switching to them again if the products I'm getting right would vanish from market. From what I know, they are in business for really long time and have a great client base. I gotta agree about their absorbency though as it's pretty low and it's not getting any better. Used to be better 7 years ago compared to 3 years ago when I have last tried them.

Well, as I said I have learnt to accept it and I don't see a problem with it personally, but it still bothers me. I kind of started to like it, but that's something like making the best out of what you can, not really enjoying it. If I had a choice to be forever IT and never wet a bed again I would definitely choose to not do it, because you can learn to live with it, stop caring about it and focus on many other thins, it doesn't make your life easier or better. If you enjoy the "wet" feeling, you can do it even if you are not incontinence, so there is no point in actually liking it, therefore it definitely bothers me, but it's not such a bad thing. As i said, there is a lot of worse things that people has, life is not fair, but you have to try and make the most of it.

Congratulations! I never could imagine doing it myself. Maybe you were so tired/drunk, that you went lunatic mode and don't even remember? Just joking, it's a great improvement and something that you should aim for, even though actually it's not really up to you, still it's a great progress. I got used to sleeping in diapers as I can't really control my incontinence, so I always wake up wet, but after getting used to it it's not really such a problem anymore, though for a change getting just one night waking up dry must be a great feeling!

Yes, it's not their business nor is anybody else, but if you wear them while not needing them they you should expect some weird looks towards you. I've been to doctor in diapers many times, but as I'm being IT there wasn't any awkward situations, still before I told them or they didn't see it in a card, they have gave me some weird looks, same for nurse. Actually everyone will give you those weird looks, because this is how most people reacts to things different and things that they don't do themselves, even doctors.

Well, if it is indeed impossible for you to hide it, then you should learn how not to care about other people's opinions. Trust me, this is the most important thing in life for people like us, to not feel like a

I wear diapers, because I'm incontinence, but I also understand people that wear diapers not because of medical conditions as I have personally started to like wetting diapers and this "feeling of security" that they give me, but rather that may be trait that only people who have problems can feel, but I really love that. If I was to cure myself out of IT right now, I would still wear diapers because I've gotten used to them and actually like it, something like a hobby.

Taking therapy online is one of the worst things that you can do in your state of mind. You have to go in person! You are at the moment so insecure and lost in life that you are not even ready to go to therapist to talk about your problems in real life. If you want to solve it, regain confidence and start your life again you need to at least have the guts to visit your therapist in person. Nobody else will do it for you, you are the only person that is holding yours future in yours hands, besides what's with losing family over diapers? How old are you, what do you do etc. Give us some information if you want us to help you. If you are an independent adult and your family noticed that you are wearing diapers and they won't to cut you out from their lives, it's on them, not on you bro. Stay strong and give us some more info, so it doesn't sound like you are a troll.

Yeah, to be honest it's very hard to find somebody like this. I mean, a lot of people would laugh at you etc. I know cause I've been there and I know I'm very grateful that I have amazing wife that understands my needs and supports me with them and from time to time even has her own share in those. I absolutely love her and I'm very grateful to her and I would do anything she wanted. Actually she's the person that got me out of depression I had after people at work finding out that I'm IT, but that's a whole different story. Enjoy what you have and don't let her go!

True, this feeling in diaper after eating spicy food is really amazing, though I don't like to do so to often as it may lead to getting too used to the feeling. So it's basically like with everything, I try not to enjoy pleasure too often, because it simply doesn't taste as good later. It's understandable I guess, though maybe I will order some spicy food today to have a pleasant Friday

Getting your clean diet will help in most cases to lose extra pounds, if you want to more advanced then counting macros and proper diet will be needed. As most of people, your diet for now is probably based on carbs. If so, you should proceed to start eating less. Count your calories and cunt some calories from carbohydrates every week or two, depends on your plan. You should be able to find all needed information on the internet. i would say put proteins on: 1g/pound, stick to fat less than 100g and try to eat fish and non-saturated fats, like olive oil and rest are carbs. Cut from them, add some cardio, hit the gym. For the total beginner, just eating "clean" and a bit less than you should will make significant difference.

I'm wearing them until they are too wet to be honest. I like when it's wet down there, don't get me wrong, but I don't like when it's too wet for a longer period of time, therefore then I'm changing them and repeating process enjoy it all again. You have to figure it out yourself, what you like and what you don't, for how long etc. Good luck, first time experiences are never to be forgotten in anything.

Great post. That's what I have learnt actually, that life is a hassle and a lot of other people have much bigger issues than spending 300$ on diapers and bedwetting every night. Okay, it's bad and it may lead to different mental issues, which I have personally had for a long time before I actually just accepted myself. Just look at it like this, you spend 300$ on diapers, but a guy next to you spends 300$ on cigarettes. What would you rather be, bedwetter or a smoker? I used to smoke and I'm bedwetting and if I had a chance to not bedwet anymore, but will also be unable to ever quit smoking and smoke pack a day like I used to I would without hesitation choose to be bedwetter with all those other problems that I have. You have to keep looking for the bright sides, even if there is not many.

Few years ago I would say that it's definitely better to be seen diapers, but the first thing everyone should do is get rid of this paranoid mindset. Now I don't care if I'm seen naked or in diaper, why would I be

I'm not circumcised although it's true that your penis is much less sensitive. I did a test when I was younger and I was walking without my foreskin for few hours during in the day in my pants, I totally didn't like the feeling after a few hours my glans were so dry and not sensitive at all, obviously you still feel a lot when you get hard, although you miss a lot of sensations during sex. I've talked to a friend of mine that is circumcised and it's not only his opinion, he gotta masturbate using lubricate and it's much, much harder to get an orgasm than when circumcised. I guess in those cases, instead of masturbating you gotta go for an actual intercourse

Nice, gotta admit though that you really have a thing for writing and I enjoy reading your stories. I have found myself feeling more "secure" as well. It's like I can't imagine not having something up there and not being an IT now, after all it's like you said, that I kind of started to like it and it's like this very positive aspect of my life right now, which made me feel more confident and stabilized in life overall, because I used to be really depressed of being IT, but no matter what I'm just looking for positives in every situation that I can find and just like you I started to like this security it gives, that I most like would never experience if not for being incontinence, so hey, it's not such a big deal, there are much worse things that people has to experience in life.

Nice, they look really nice! I hope you will enjoy them