Baby Talk

You could be right

Pretty sure the jeans print one was from a while back, and never heard of them being popular.   On the other hand, most people that are looking for dealing with incon, they tend not to care about what it looks like, but price and absorbency and fit. Looks are pretty far down the list from there. I know but it is how it is. On the other hand, some people, even just incon people, want to play with it, go with prints and colours and whatnot. To be fair, they do tend to want prints in there interest, and there are not a lot that meet that interest. I expect in part, it is that most are too small a demographic to make it cost effective. Still, I have heard a lot of 'vanilla' incon people will go with the baby prints now and again, because it is cute, and different, and screw it all, if I want to have a cutsy picture of a unicorn on my underwear, I can! For some its taking control, for others, its just, why not? Too many reasons to slot into here in the time I am giving myself. ABDL, on the other hand, does value look. Some want the most babyish diaper they can find, and will pay extra for something that strikes there fancy. Some what the most absorbent that can exist, cause that is important to them. Some , just want something called a diaper that they can put on and it fits ok and you can wet it a little and that makes them happy. Age oddly also has a lot to do with ones preferences. When I was growing up, white was what you got. Oh some people had the rubber pants that where the basic rubber colour, and cloth diapers sometimes got dyed by mistake and could end up a couple different colours,  pink was pretty common for that, as the red dye of the age had a tendency to bleed and dye everything in the wash with it. Then you started to get the printed waistband things, and then finally the full on prints.  I myself tend to favor fit and absorbency and price before prints, and I am abdl, but, if I can get the same basic diaper with a print, I might just if I like the print. Might even be willing to pay a little more for a print I like, but within reason. Sadly when I checked the website, they had the plaid, and a plain, in sizes too small for me, and with no real indication of how absorbent they might be, other than claiming a 12 hour use.    

Chapter four: The ride home was a sonic blur of Marcus’s voice, a relentless stream of consciousness that filled every cubic inch of the sedan. He dissected the third act, debated the director's choices, and theorized about the sequel, his excitement radiating like a heat lamp. To Marcus, the trip was a post-game analysis of a cinematic event; to Leo, the cabin had become a pressurized chamber of secrets. As Marcus leaned forward, gesturing wildly with his hands, he was oblivious to the way Leo sat—rigid, almost statuesque—feeling the slow, viscous slide of the aloe vera against his skin. Every time Marcus laughed, the vibration of the car seemed to amplify the secret weight of the creams, making Leo feel as though he were wearing a second, invisible skin that only Mrs. Gable had the key to. Mrs. Gable navigated the suburban turns with a silent, predatory grace, her eyes occasionally flickering to the rearview mirror. She didn't interrupt Marcus; in fact, she encouraged him with a soft, knowing hum, playing the part of the interested listener while her focus remained locked on the passenger seat. She was observing the way Leo retreated into himself, the way he avoided eye contact and focused on the blurring landscape. She could see the tension in his shoulders and the way he subconsciously pressed himself against the upholstery, a reaction to the lingering sensation of her clinical touch. To her, Marcus’s chatter was merely background noise, a distraction that highlighted the profound, silent understanding she now shared with her charge. "Thanks for everything, Mrs. Gable! This was a blast," Marcus exclaimed, sliding out of the car with a final, energetic wave. He paused for a second, looking back at Leo, who was still sitting motionless in the passenger seat, his expression distant and glazed. "Bye Leo! Let's hang out soon, man. I'll text you about that new level." The car door shut with a definitive thud, severing the connection to the outside world. The silence that rushed back into the cabin was immediate and heavy, thick with the scent of the landlady's expensive perfume and the sterile, lingering memory of the restroom. Leo didn't move. He didn't even blink. He felt the sudden absence of Marcus's noise like a drop in pressure, leaving him completely exposed to the woman in the driver's seat. Mrs. Gable did not immediately put the car in gear. Instead, she sat in the humming silence, her hands resting lightly on the steering wheel, watching Leo through the periphery of her vision. She could see the slight tremble in his fingers, the way he seemed to be bracing himself for a command that hadn't yet come. With a slow, deliberate smile, she shifted the car into drive, but she didn't turn toward their home. Instead, she steered the vehicle away from the familiar route, gliding past the turnoff for their neighborhood and heading toward the outskirts of town, where the streetlights grew sparse and the roads became long, winding ribbons of asphalt. "We're taking the long way, Leo," she announced, her voice a soft, melodic purr that brooked no questions. "I think a little more time for reflection is necessary. You seemed so... overwhelmed in the cinema. I want you to really settle into the feeling of being cared for." The interior of the car felt suddenly claustrophobic, the air thick with the scent of Mrs. Gable’s floral perfume and the humming vibration of the engine. As they drifted further from the familiar landmarks of their neighborhood, a slow, rolling pressure began to build in the depths of Leo’s abdomen. It started as a dull ache, a distant signal of instability, but it rapidly evolved into a sharp, insistent churning. He shifted his weight, trying to find a position that didn't compress his gut, but the sensation was relentless—a hot, liquid tide that felt as if it were expanding within him. The pressure intensified, transforming from a dull ache into a frantic, rhythmic demand. Leo felt a sudden, sharp contraction in his lower gut, a visceral warning that his internal boundaries were failing. He shifted his hips, the fabric of his trousers rubbing against the thick layer of zinc paste and aloe, creating a sliding sensation that only amplified his awareness of his own vulnerability. He looked at the water bottle resting in the cup holder, the clear liquid shimmering under the rhythmic pulse of the passing streetlights. He had taken several long draws from it during the movie, thinking the sudden onset of thirst was just a side effect of the cinema’s dry air. He didn't know that Mrs. Gable had meticulously prepared that bottle, spiking the water with a concentrated, tasteless laxative. She had calculated the timing with surgical precision, ensuring the chemical catalyst would trigger just as they left the sanctuary of the theater and entered the confined, inescapable space of her car. To Leo, it felt like a sudden, biological betrayal; to Mrs. Gable, it was simply the next phase of his optimization. "What's wrong, Leo??" The question was delivered with a precision that bordered on the theatrical. Mrs. Gable hadn't looked away from the road, yet she had sensed the exact micro-second his posture shifted from rigid to desperate. Her voice was a soft, melodic chime that cut through the low hum of the engine, layered with a maternal concern that felt entirely synthetic. It wasn't a question asked for information; it was a prompt, an invitation for Leo to acknowledge the catastrophe currently unfolding in the passenger seat. Leo couldn't answer. He was too busy negotiating with his own anatomy. Another spasm ripped through him, a violent, twisting contraction that felt like a hot iron being pressed against his insides. He gripped the edge of the seat, his fingers digging into the leather, his breath coming in shallow, jagged hitches. The sensation was an aggressive, liquid roar, a tide of biological urgency that made the few remaining miles to their destination seem like an odyssey across a wasteland. He felt the zinc paste and aloe vera—those markers of his submission—sliding against his skin, a slippery reminder that he was no longer the master of his own movements. "Oh, you poor thing," she cooed, finally glancing at him. There was no surprise in her eyes, only a deep, administrative satisfaction. "You're shaking. I can see it from here. That tummy is just not behaving, is it?" “I… I need to go,” Leo gasped, the words barely escaping his throat. He didn’t say “the bathroom”; the word was too formal, too distant for the primal urgency currently screaming through his nerves. He simply needed the void. He needed the porcelain. He needed to stop the hot, liquid pressure that was currently threatening to breach the barriers of his trousers. He shifted violently, his hips twisting in a desperate attempt to create a seal, but the movement only served to lubricate the slide of the aloe vera against his skin, making him feel unnervingly slick and precarious. “I know you do, sweetheart,” Mrs. Gable replied. Her voice was a soothing balm, yet her tone remained entirely in control of the timeline. She didn't panic; she didn't speed up. Instead, she leaned over and patted his trembling thigh with a slow, rhythmic confidence. “But we’re almost home. Just a few more minutes of holding it. You can do that for me, can't you? Just a little bit longer.” “Can we stop? Please, can we just stop somewhere?” Leo’s voice had devolved into a frantic, thin whine. He was no longer asking; he was pleading with a desperation that bordered on a breakdown. He tried to shift again, but the movement only highlighted the treacherous slickness of the balms Mrs. Gable had applied. He felt as if he were floating on a layer of oil, his internal muscles screaming as they fought a losing battle against the chemical tide. The interior of the car, once a sanctuary of curated care, had become a torture chamber of anticipation. Mrs. Gable didn’t even glance at the roadside gas stations blurring past. She simply hummed a soft, melodic tune, her grip on the steering wheel relaxed and steady. “Stop where, Leo? There is no reason to stop when we are so close to the proper facilities. A public restroom is simply not the place for the level of... attention... you require right now.” The way she said *attention* made it clear that she wasn't thinking about a toilet, but about the process of cleaning him up afterward. She was treating his agony as a scheduled event, a timed release designed to peak exactly when they reached her domain. The red light of the intersection felt like a countdown to a disaster. As the car came to a complete, shuddering halt, the sudden absence of momentum broke the spell of Leo’s paralysis. The pressure in his gut had crossed a threshold from urgent to catastrophic; he could no longer negotiate with his own anatomy. In a flash of instinctive panic, Leo lunged for the door handle, his movements erratic and desperate, the goal of the sidewalk—any sidewalk—becoming his only reality. He gripped the handle and pulled with a strength born of pure desperation, but the door didn't budge. He pulled again, a frantic, rhythmic tugging that echoed through the silent cabin. The handle moved, the mechanism clicked, but the door remained sealed, an immovable wall of steel and glass. He stared at the lock, his mind momentarily blank, until he remembered the specific, clinical precision of Mrs. Gable’s preferences. She had engaged the child locks. He was not a passenger in a vehicle; he was cargo in a controlled environment. “You can hold it, Leo. Just hold it for me.” The words weren't a suggestion; they were a command delivered with a terrifyingly soft cadence. Mrs. Gable didn’t look at him, her eyes fixed on the red light of the intersection, but her voice filled the cabin, heavy and suffocating. She was speaking to him not as a tenant, nor as a young man, but as a biological specimen whose only current purpose was to test the limits of its own endurance. The phrase *‘for me’* transformed his agony into a performance, a secret sacrifice offered up to her administrative pleasure. “Please drop me off at the Dairy Queen,” Leo whimpered, his voice cracking into a desperate, high-pitched plea. He wasn't asking for a treat; he was begging for the sanctuary of a commercial restroom, a place where the fluorescent lights were impersonal and the walls didn't feel like they were closing in. He pointed a trembling finger toward the glowing red-and-white sign of the fast-food joint, which appeared on the horizon like a mirage of salvation. The sight of it triggered a fresh wave of abdominal spasms, a violent churning that made him double over, his forehead nearly touching the dashboard. Mrs. Gable didn't even glance at the sign. She continued to glide through the intersection with a terrifying, serene momentum. “The Dairy Queen is a place for snacks, Leo, not for the meticulous care you require,” she replied, her voice as smooth as the cream she was denying him. “Imagine the indignity of a public stall—the grime, the lack of privacy, the sheer inefficiency of it. No, we are going home, where everything is prepared. Where the tray is waiting.” “I’m going to explode,” Leo gasped, the words less of a statement and more of a frantic, rhythmic prayer. He wasn't speaking to Mrs. Gable as a person, but to the void of his own desperation. The phrase echoed in the small, plush cabin of the car, vibrating against the leather and the floral scent of her perfume. He felt the pressure mount into a towering, liquid wall, a biological dam that was hairline-fracturing under the weight of the secret chemicals she had fed him. To say he was "about to go" was an understatement; he felt as though his very center was becoming a supernova of waste, a catastrophic expansion that threatened to tear through the fabric of his trousers and the dignity of his soul. Mrs. Gable’s reaction was not one of alarm, but of clinical curiosity. She slowed the car just a fraction, not to pull over, but to better observe the tremors racking his frame. “Explode is such a violent word, Leo,” she murmured, her voice a cool contrast to the heat radiating from his gut. “Let’s call it an 'inevitable release.' There is a certain beauty in the moment the will finally gives way to the biological necessity. Just hold that feeling. Let it build. Let it remind you exactly who is in charge of your comfort.” “You’ve already had the privilege of going in the theater,” Mrs. Gable said, her voice shifting from a maternal coo to something sharper, a reminder of a debt he didn't know he owed. “If you’re a man like you say you are, Leo, then you’ll wait until we are home. A real man has mastery over his own impulses. He doesn't beg for the roadside.” The words were designed to trap him in a paradox of masculinity. To plead for a restroom was to admit he wasn't a "man," yet to suffer in silence was to surrender his agency entirely to her whims. He wanted to argue, to tell her that this wasn't about willpower but about chemical sabotage, but the effort of speaking felt like it would breach the dam. He slumped back into the leather seat, his breath coming in shallow, ragged hitches, feeling the precise moment his dignity transitioned from a psychological state to a physical liability. The tires let out a soft, defeated hiss as the car rolled to a stop in the dim light of the garage. For Leo, the cessation of movement was a psychological blow; the ride had been a gauntlet of tension, and the sudden stillness amplified the screaming urgency of his bowels. He didn't wait for a signal. He lunged for the door handle, his muscles twitching with a desperate, rhythmic need to reach the hallway bathroom. *Click.* The handle moved, but the door remained an impassable wall of steel. He yanked it again, then again, his breath coming in frantic, wet gasps. The child locks were still engaged, and the electronic release was dead. He was trapped in the plush leather sanctuary, a prisoner to his own failing anatomy. He looked at Mrs. Gable, his eyes wide and pleading, his body coiled like a spring ready to snap. She didn't look at him. Instead, she stepped out of the driver's seat with a slow, deliberate grace, her heels clicking sharply against the concrete floor of the garage. She didn't offer the key; she didn't even glance back to see the agony etched onto his face. She simply walked away, the rhythmic *tap-tap-tap* of her shoes echoing the countdown of his remaining control. Leo watched her silhouette retreat into the warmth of the house, her posture regal and undisturbed, while he remained pinned to the seat, vibrating with the effort of holding back a flood. The click of the lock was a mercy that felt like a trap. As the mechanism released, Leo practically poured himself out of the car, his legs shaking with the effort of maintaining a precarious, wide-stanced waddle. He didn't look at Mrs. Gable; he only saw the heavy oak door that led into the warmth of the house. He surged toward it, his hand slamming against the wood in a desperate, rhythmic plea for entry. The door didn't budge. He twisted the knob, and it resisted with a cold, definitive finality. He looked back at Mrs. Gable, who stood a few feet away, her expression one of mild, academic interest. She hadn't just stepped inside; she had stepped back out and closed the door behind her, locking it from the interior. Leo didn't scream; he didn't have the breath for it. He simply leaned his forehead against the cold, painted wood of the door, the silence of the garage amplifying the frantic drumming of his own heart. For a moment, the world narrowed down to the narrow gap between the door and the frame, a sliver of interior light that teased him with the proximity of a toilet. He was mere inches from salvation, yet he was effectively in another zip code, severed from the house by a deadbolt and the whim of a woman who viewed his desperation as a necessary component of his training. The garage was a cathedral of cold concrete and dormant machinery. To his left, the lawnmower sat like a silent witness; to his right, the shelving units held neatly organized bins of holiday decorations, all of them static and uncaring. The fluorescent light overhead flickered with a rhythmic, buzzing hum that seemed to synchronize with the pulsing urgency in his gut. He felt a sudden, sharp contraction—a biological warning that the dam was no longer cracking, but disintegrating. He began to pace in a small, frantic circle, his movements jerky and restricted, the heavy fabric of his trousers feeling like a vice grip against the slick, lubricated skin of his thighs. Inside the house, the silence of the hallway was punctuated by the rhythmic, muffled thudding coming from the garage. Mrs. Gable didn't move toward the door; instead, she glided into the sanctuary of her study, a room lined with mahogany bookshelves and the soft glow of a single desk lamp. On her monitor, a grid of high-definition feeds displayed the garage in stark, clinical detail. She leaned back in her leather chair, her expression one of serene observation, watching the small, frantic figure of Leo as he collided with the oak door. On the screen, his desperation was stripped of its sound, reduced to a silent movie of failure. She watched the way his shoulders hunched, the way his hips swayed in a desperate, unconscious attempt to stave off the inevitable, and the way his fist struck the wood in a rhythmic, hopeless cadence. To Mrs. Gable, this wasn't cruelty; it was a study in dependency. Every bang on the door was a confession of his helplessness, a physical manifestation of the fact that his most basic biological needs were now subject to her approval. She zoomed in on his face, noting the sheen of sweat and the wide, terrified look in his eyes. There was a profound, quiet satisfaction in knowing that while he was fighting for his dignity, she was the only one who could grant it back to him. She waited, counting the seconds of his peak distress, savoring the tension like a composer waiting for the final chord of a symphony. The dam didn’t break with a bang; it broke with a slow, sickening surrender. Leo stopped hammering on the door and froze, his spine arching as a wave of heat washed over his lower back. In that moment of absolute stillness, his mind performed a frantic, spatial audit of the garage. To his left, the heavy plastic bin of Christmas ornaments—too far, too clunky. To his right, the dusty corner behind the lawnmower—too exposed, too cold. He looked down at the dark fabric of his trousers, then at the pristine concrete floor, and felt the terrifyingly slick glide of the aloe vera acting as a lubricant for the inevitable. He began to weigh his options with a desperation that bordered on the manic. If he could just reach the old paint bucket in the corner, he might save a shred of his dignity. But the distance felt like a marathon, and his muscles were already betraying him, twitching in rhythmic spasms that made walking a gamble. He considered simply leaning against the wall and letting it happen, a total collapse into the filth, but the thought of the cleanup—the clinical, invasive scrubbing by Mrs. Gable—made him want to scream. He spent those final, agonizing seconds deciding where the disaster would land, trying to find a spot that would minimize the "splashes" she so meticulously hunted. The paint bucket was a cruel mirage, too far to reach without an invitation to disaster. As Leo stared at the distance, the internal pressure reached a critical mass, rendering the concept of "location" irrelevant. He realized, with a sudden, crushing clarity, that the only viable sanctuary was the one already enveloping him. To attempt a transit across the concrete was to risk a public exhibition of failure; to surrender within the fabric of his trousers was, by comparison, a controlled descent. It was the only option that preserved a shred of modesty, even as it completely annihilated his dignity. He stopped fighting. He let his shoulders slump and his gaze fix upon the grain of the oak door, and he simply opened the floodgates. The release was violent and absolute, a hot, heavy tide that rushed forward with a momentum that ignored the barriers of cloth. He felt the aloe vera and zinc paste—those careful, clinical applications of Mrs. Gable’s design—become a slick, treacherous lubricant, guiding the flow of the disaster deep into the fibers of his pants. The heat was immediate and oppressive, a suffocating weight that clung to his skin, transforming his clothing into a sodden, heavy extension of his own failure. The lock turned with a slow, deliberate click, and the door swung open just a few inches, allowing a sliver of warm hallway light to cut through the garage’s gloom. Mrs. Gable didn’t enter immediately; she stood in the gap, her silhouette framed by the domesticity of the house, observing the wreckage of Leo’s resolve. She didn't look disgusted. Instead, her expression was one of professional satisfaction, as if she were a scientist finally witnessing a predicted chemical reaction. Without a word, she reached behind her, producing a heavy-duty black garbage bag and a coordinated, quilted diaper bag. The garbage bag was snapped open with a sharp, plastic crack—a sound that signaled the transition from "accident" to "processing." The diaper bag, however, was the true centerpiece of the operation. It was a structured piece of luggage, brimming with the tools of total hygiene management: oversized absorbent pads, canisters of medical-grade wipes, and a fresh change of clothes that were far too small to be considered adult attire. The first sob didn't come from Leo’s throat, but from his chest, a jagged, rhythmic heave that shook his entire frame. It was the sound of a man who had reached the absolute limit of his endurance, only to find that the limit was a wall Mrs. Gable had built for him. He didn't just cry; he dissolved. The tears were hot and immediate, carving tracks through the grime and sweat on his face, falling unchecked onto the sodden fabric of his trousers. He felt small—not just physically, but existentially—shrunk down to a size where the only thing that mattered was the approval of the woman standing in the doorway. Mrs. Gable watched the breakdown with a calm, almost clinical tenderness. She didn't offer a hug or a word of comfort; instead, she stepped forward and placed a cool, firm hand on the nape of his neck, guiding his head down toward her shoulder. It was a gesture of ownership masquerading as solace. "There now," she murmured, her voice a soft, humming vibration against his ear. "The struggle is over, Leo. You've finally let go of that heavy burden of independence. Doesn't it feel better to just be taken care of?" “Why are you doing this to me?” Leo’s voice was a broken, wet rasp, barely audible over the sound of his own sobbing. He didn't know if he was asking about the child locks, the laxatives, or the same clinical erasure of his adulthood that occurred every time he stepped into her orbit. He felt like a ghost haunting his own skin, a man reduced to a series of hygiene requirements. Mrs. Gable paused, her hand still firm on his neck, her expression one of genuine, baffling kindness. “Forcing you, Leo? Whatever gave you that impression?” She stepped back just enough to look him in the eye, her gaze clear and devoid of malice. “I’m not forcing you to do anything. You are a grown man. You can leave this house, this garage, and my care at any time you like.” She paused, a small, knowing smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. “But we both know you really don’t want to. You don't want the burden of deciding who you are when you're with me, because here, you're simply... mine to maintain.” Leo’s sobbing transitioned from a desperate plea into a rhythmic, soul-deep shuddering. He didn’t just weep; he collapsed inward, his body folding like a piece of wet origami. The sound was visceral—a series of wet, jagged gasps that seemed to pull the very oxygen from the garage, leaving him suffocating in the wake of his own surrender. He sank to his knees on the cold concrete, the sodden weight of his trousers now a heavy, clinging anchor that pinned him to his failure. He cried for the man he used to be, for the autonomy he had subconsciously traded for the comfort of being managed, and for the terrifying realization that he no longer knew how to stand up without someone telling him to.Mrs. Gable watched the display not with pity, but with the focused attention of a gardener pruning a rosebush. She waited for the peak of his hysteria, allowing the shame to fully saturate him, ensuring that every nerve ending was raw and open to her influence.   

I don't know where I am with bedwetting, and I've been 24/7 for as long as @oznl. I don't do #2s in my diaper, so maybe that's why it's not completely involuntary.   I'm not a sound sleeper, so I usually know when I pee. It's just that I don't have much control when it happens. I've noticed something, though: before, I could pee whenever I wanted. Now, there has to be a need, and it comes out without me thinking about it. Mind you, to use that golf analogy: I'm not exactly working at anymore. When I first started, I made a conscious effort to lose my potty training.  Now, I put on a diaper, and pee in it. When I tried to get good at golf (I got to single digits), i would play at least once a week, and practice between rounds.  I don't do that anymore.

Me thinks Declan has greater prospects for Paul than merely a private high school drama.