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She just did it for shock value.

The first time I put on a diaper of my own accord I was six. I was caught by my mother, who made me take it off, but since then diapers just call to me. I resisted my urge to wear until I was an adult and could make my own decisions.

I want to go back to school, but that probably won't happen this year since when I get my CNA license I have to do that job full-time for a year. Otherwise I hope to prepare for it by programming in as many languages as I can before my contract ends and I can start school. So my resolution will probably be to spend lots of time programming on a daily basis.

I would like to further add that you may also be able to regress with others online via chat/threads. Just be aware that if you spend too much time trying to reach this state of mind it could put a strain on your relationship. I haven't had that particular experience per se, but I have spent hours at a time trying to regress, which time I felt probably could have been spent better.

You can try hypnosis/guided meditation videos on youtube. The idea behind hypnosis is to enter a state of deep relaxation, which could help. I believe it's only worked for me once though.

Don't misunderstand, I was just throwing out the suggestion that you end subscriptions and services that you don't absolutely need until you get this resolved (we take our trash to the dump for crying out loud). Netflix and Amazon Prime can cost anywhere from 20 to 30 a month, so that's something I've personally had to quit, but if you feel like you don't have any subscriptions or services you can cut back on then don't mind me.

There's also those of us who get overlooked entirely. Regardless, I too try to keep mine updated.

It's hard for me too, but if you try to put yourself out there you'll meet new people. A few key things to remember are that not everyone will like you, you can't make everyone happy, and a friendship takes both people to make it work (so if you find yourself balancing deeds and favors then it's probably time to move on). I've betrayed, I've been betrayed, but I always try to learn what worked and what didn't work (mind you I don't go out of my way to double-cross others, I just acknowledge sometimes it's not possible for me to make others happy, which can make others feel betrayed). Consider how others interact with you and how you encourage the interaction. When I'm at work, I present myself to be outgoing and friendly, which in turn helps my customers to trust me and want to work with me, if I presented myself as a sour person who passes judgement on others I wouldn't get very far with my objectives, since your objective is to make friends you have to ask yourself what other people are looking for in friendships. The things people look for in others varies, but a few attributes I can list off the top of my head are charisma, looks, smarts, and wealth/resources. Figure out what you have going for you and use it to your advantage. I hope my advice was helpful. Best of luck and may you meet others who treasure your company.

Everyone blows a fuse every now and then, just know how to come back from it and people tend to understand.

It will be better for you in the long run if you pay off the debt soon, as interest is the ever dreaded gift that keeps giving. I recently quit Netflix because I just couldn't afford to keep shelling out ten a month to them. Go through your bills and see what you need versus what you want and try to trim the fat until you get your head above water. Also for some possessions, it may be worth considering the item value versus what you'll pay in interest for remaining in debt (whether you could outright buy the thing with the interest paid). I hope this helps and best of luck.

@Firefly 35 He actually posted two months ago, but I agree that this thread should focus on support rather than passing judgment. @Rift The husky I'm actually starting a job as a CNA soon. I have experience as a CNA, which I was hoping to not have to fall back on, but find myself in that arena once again (I don't have a current license though). The company I am signing on with is sponsoring my CNA training so I can get licensed. Maybe you could find something similar? It's full-time and if you don't mind the work you could always become a traveling CNA, which means that the company that rents you to facilities would pay for your room and board. The real catch though is you need excellent work ethic and/or people skills.

Before you commit to anything be sure that it is something you understand and would take pleasure in spending countless hours studying. It isn't worth the effort or debt otherwise.

Just be careful with meeting new people online. I've heard some horror stories which involve craigslist.

Do you have any friends or coworkers you can stay with? You could probably also look for adds on craigslist for a roommate.

Based on your post, what you said is up for interpretation. If she'd known any better, instead of 'change me', she could have read, 'I want to get down and dirty'. While not illegal, it is crude and most people don't appreciate it. Plus you really shouldn't disclose sensitive information about yourself without getting to know the other person really well first.

Have you tried refinancing with a different credit agency?

Inability to moderate intake is a telltale sign that he is progressing to the point of all-out addiction. There is no fault in caring for your dog, but bear in mind that your brother needs help (though he may not want it) and it is highly advisable to approach this situation tactfully. AA is probably the best thing for him right now, but if you call your brother trash and try to make him feel awful about himself that could have the opposite effect of what you actually want.

The doc gets paid too much to have an opinion of you. Don't get them mixed up with cashiers who tend to have a lot more free time on their hands. After meeting with patients, doctors have to do documentation, which takes a lot of time, focus, and is exhausting (they have to use medical terminology to write a report which will go on your file for the next time you see him or someone else at that location). Also, odds are that your doctor has seen weirder, more bizarre cases which he is bound by confidentiality laws and can't discuss with other people. He could lose his license to practice medicine for breaking confidentiality, so it would be contrary to his best interest to belittle you or gossip about it. I wouldn't worry about what the doctor thinks, just don't try it again.

If you are worried about an inability to get into his fetish, you could always introduce a few kinks of your own. Another thing you can try is to work on a different persona for when you try to get intimate with him, which happens to be what many people do for work, myself included (the 'you' that you act out in the bedroom isn't necessarily who you are as a person, but it just helps fulfill your role to him... to demonstrate, I used to work retail and despite depression problems I would always have to act cheerful and outgoing, even though I am literally the exact opposite of that, in fact when I worked my CNA job the residents could not tell that I'm a doom and gloom kinda guy). Otherwise, it's exactly as the other guys said; be open and honest and if you feel this can't be long term then there's nothing wrong with seeing different people.

It has a link for the discord group...

Santa was just a commercialist icon for me growing up. I was too innocent to even think of spoiling it for anyone, but I really had no idea when kids my age stopped believing as I never got into it myself.

It is Freddy Krueger's favorite X-mas movie. Is the cake in the oven?

I agree with Baby Girl Sarah on this. Addictions aren't something that can just be moderated with a few rules. They hijack the brain and make it difficult to resist the cravings for pleasure. As soon as an alcoholic partakes, their brain craves more in order to recreate the sensation it craves, which requires increasingly higher doses as the body's immunity to the substance develops. The same is true of any addiction. He may need a little more help than just imposing a few rules to hopefully keep him in line. Hate to say this, but you may want to think of him as a child that can't be left unsupervised, which, I agree, is not fair, but may be the reality of the situation.

If it is a misunderstanding then I apologize. I have had an addict relative before and that story did not have a happy ending.

I don't intend to start anything, but you seem a bit more concerned for your dog than for your brother. I get how easy it is to look down on other people that aren't pulling their own weight, but your brother can change. He needs help. Try being a little more supportive and a little less condemning.