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When I look down between my legs and see my Princess Pink diapers I get suuuuper ? ? ?

As far as why you keep having poop right at the opening of your anus, basically your bowel doesn't seem to be emptying completely. This is not normal, but fixable through diet. From what I understand, your large intestine carries poop and once it enters the last eight or so inches, your bowels, the nerves in that part of your body send the signal for you to have to go poop. For whatever reason you don't seem to be completely emptying your bowel, so there's always a "round left in the chamber" so to speak. One are the best things you can do is look at your diet and increase your fiber intake along with fluids to help get a well formed poop that will exit your bowel appropriately and not leave anything behind.

I assumed this MUST have been posted in the past, but if not then here it is! lolllll

I agree that's a tough pill to swallow when contemplating all of this. The primary reason I might support continued presence there for that length of time, aside from the humanitarian aspect, is the reality that not doing so now allows a hotbed of future terrorism development, and possibly a generation that becomes radicalized in anger that we left them high and dry to submit to the Taliban. I hate to think of another 9/11 years from now because of all this.

I think a higher percentage of our citizens that are born into freedom among those who have also been experiencing freedom or more likely to pick up a weapon fight to keep their way of life because it is something that we feel is an inalienable right to us. Picture for a moment the truck opens up in your neighborhood and 25 Taliban jump out of a truck with machine guns threatening to kill anyone that pushes back against them, and women that are going to school or aren't wearing a burka risk being brutalized. It's easier for us to say we would be willing to give our a life to preserve our right to freedom and mobilize before our military or law enforcement showed up, but people that didn't grow up with freedom or be raised by people that had it might be driven by fear of the reality they remember of the brutality they had seen in years past. If the US presence (or comparable ally) stayed another 20 years, then you're going to have more Afghan citizens that are willing to fight.

I think a major problem is that they really only have one generation born into freedom that are just now becoming adults. However, the families that raised them did not grow up in the same level of freedom. To really have been effective with our presence, we need to stay there for another generation of people to be born into freedom and raised by the current young people who have been growing up with that initial taste of it. Politicians are giving us statements to the effect of "even if we stayed another one, two, or five years, it would not of made a difference." That's true. The reality is we will have needed to stay another 20 to 25 years if we committed to what we started.

I know what you mean, I think. If by revealing your identity you mean showing your face, I've been tempted yet hesitant to do so. I do share a real face pic or two of mine, but cropped so as not to show everything. I also share full face pics that were altered that show my desired gender (like I did with my current avatar here), while writing in their caption space that it's 75% fake so as not to false advertise. One thing I really enjoy is when a person shares details about their desires and fetishes through their writing. It's really cool to learn what others like, and how they got there. For anyone hesitant on sharing a recognizable face pic, I think that's a good way to start. Just post a few basic pictures that don't reveal too much about identity as far as being recognizable to people in one's personal life, and supplement it with writing that talks about experiences in sexuality/fetish world. https://fetlife.com/users/470521

I hope your hand feels better soon! How is things been since using the CPAP machine? Are you getting better quality rest?

Physically, it's dealing with the slow-downs and limitations from the paralysis of my spinal cord injury, and relying on others for a certain level of care. Overall my care is reliable, but that can change at any time. And even at its best, I'm on someone else's schedule. My disability is odd in the way it has played such a massive role in my life in so many ways. On one hand I've dealt with too many challenges for a lifetime. On the other hand, having a spinal cord injury at 19 gave me my permanent one-way ticket into incontinence. This made it fully acceptable to live my life 24/7 in diapers, which starting from age 5 was my single most intense desire that had ever existed. Mentally, I deal with stress of everyday thinking how much of my future will be with enough independence to still enjoy life. I try not to dwell on that of course, but it's a concern that I have.

[Before Covid] I started stocking up on certain diapers that I find I like a lot. Then once I have a pretty big stockpile, I would actually order cases as I use them. The reason I did/do this is that whenever I find a diaper that I fall in love with, eventually some "bright minded" douche bag at that company would think of a way to change a perfectly good diaper so they can make more money while trying to market it as a improvement of the product. Of course using cheaper material or making the diapers an inch smaller all around isn't an improvement, and the product would end up sucking. At least now if I have something I really like, having a stockpile while also ordering a case from time to time helps me keep a pulse on if that particular item is being manufactured in the same quality or if they are declining.

It's pretty straight forward for me, albeit altered due to circumstances I guess. Basically it's: First, the extreme sexual arousal they give me. This was the first thing that hooked me before I had any concept of sex (at 5 years old), and remains in my brain today. Later I developed an enjoyment from my eventual need to be in diapers. This came thanks to a spinal cord injury when I was 19. Even though I have sensation I'm peeing and poo'ing, I can't stop it to save my life. Thankfully I still get fully aroused, and now it's all day enjoyment being diapered in my wheelchair. Another enjoyment is a need to be cared for. I broke my neck at C6/7, so even though I can still move my arms, my paralyzed hands makes it so I can't change my own diapers. I think my arousal for my need to be changed is embedded in my submissive side. I've never tried any AB role play, but I like that I need to be diapered. I'm dependant like a baby, even though I feel older. Although, if I had a lover that introduced a deep level of sexually affectionate diaper changing that involved age play, I'd be willing to try that! I also like the idea of others knowing I have to be in diapers. I don't go flashing them or staying in a smelly big mess in public, it's more like excitement knowing that many people assume since I'm in a wheelchair, I must be wearing diapers. This actually used to scare me in my younger years when I was trying to date and was nervous how someone I was into might react to me being in diapers. Now I don't care. It's great to no longer feel ashamed of my bulky diaper crotch under my pants, and it excites me to think that someone might be curious what it's like for me to be in diapers. Kinda hard to explain.

^^^^ YES ^^^^ Hi Evelyn, I love what you wrote. I was born in 1970 so I'm a tad younger, but I clearly remember this time period and there were a lot of things I really enjoyed about it (except for the Tylenol scare!). Unfortunately I didn't get to experience such sexuality in an open and freely thinking way as much as you, I think because I had such a shame of feeling transgendered. But I do wish I could go back to this time period of my life with what I know and feel now, which is a greater sense of confidence. I'm really happy that you got to sow those wild oats! I have friends that are in their late 60s and 70s and did the whole "marry their high school sweetheart" thing. I'm sure many people have lived full lives in that regard, but the level of sexual oppression that existed back then seems like such a bummer. And in some ways I'm very envious of today's youth coming up, because they have so much access to information at an early age, which allows one to realize they are not a freak well before the self-judging mental damage is done. Anyway, sorry if this is going off topic from this general thread everybody, I just liked Evelyn's post a lot.

No cover, I use a disposable underpad on top of a washable underpad.

Congratulations Joanne, I like your new name as well as Erica! So glad your mom is acknowledging your true feelings. I know my mom had a very tough time and never fully came to terms with it. Wishing you the best ?

If your penis is pointing upward in your diaper, then your erection shouldn't be that uncomfortable because it will point up towards your stomach and get caressed by the soft diaper padding. I love the erections my diapers give me, and I always have it pointing up. Although I have a very small penis so I don't have to worry about poking at the top!

Hey how's it going? Thanks for sharing your experience. I was just curious why you were wearing underwear underneath the diaper, I understood you were just experimenting to see what it was like. I can say from plenty of experience that feeling the lining of the diaper against your sensitive privates is so much better than underwear! Plus, the diaper is it going to do it's designed job as far as wicking moisture away from your skin much better than when there's a layer of cloth (underwear) that's not designed for that job in there. Hope you have fun!

@Cruiser 03 when you say anywhere, do you mean you can have the unit tucked away somewhere while your electrodes are stimulating you out and about? I would love to do something like that but I don't know where to start. What equipment best works for you?

After my childhood discovery showed me that the diapers from the closet were capable of giving extremely pleasurable sensations & feelings, I became obsessed with everything related to Pampers. The crinkly yet smooth plastic texture and wonderful nursery smell of the soft diaper padding was intoxicating. Wearing them gave me that first ever diaper-induced arousal that turned into a sexual preference, well before I knew what that was. With no reliable way of getting them, my imagination would run wild with all sorts of scenarios that had me in diapers. There was a really cool playground by the apartments we used to live in back then. One of the kids I saw quite a bit was a girl in a wheelchair. Often times her mom would bring her by the sandbox while we played, and plenty of us would interact with her while her mom came back-and-forth from the bench to make sure she was OK. When particular day I just happened to look up while digging in the sand near her, and by chance the angle I had let me clearly see her bulky diaper. That's the moment I made an association that all people in wheelchairs wear diapers. I could clearly see her diapers had the same plastic texture of the ones I got to wear. I was so jealous at that moment, and when her mom came to take her back home a little while later, I couldn't help but wonder is she was going to have her diaper changed. That night I lay in bed imagining I was in a thick crinkly diaper. I started imagining scenarios of being in my diaper and feeling those sensations again. Every time I saw her, I wanted to be her. I guess if I was just allowed to wear diapers, I probably wouldn't of focused so much on disability being an avenue to get them? It's my parents' fault!!! lol j/k... A few post back someone said the old phrase "be careful what you wish for". At 19 I broke my neck in a pool, leaving me with paralysis below my mid chest and in my hands, as well as full incontinence. I was athletic, enjoying life, and having a good summer, and then this life-changing event happened that expectedly would be very difficult for anyone to go through. It sure was, and if given the choice it's not the path I would consciously choose. But I'm thankful for two things that let me cope. One is that I have pretty good sensation below my level of injury, and even though I can't move any of it, I sure can enjoy it ? -- and two is that I'm really lucky I already liked the idea of being in diapers. To this day I totally love wearing diapers every day since my injury occurred in the early 90s. Another cool aspect is that nobody thinks I'm weird for wearing diapers and understands I have nursing assistance that changes me multiple times a day. The other side of it as I look back is that there are many things I really missed out on due to my disability. My injury happened at a young age, and through my 20s while my friends were going on weekend excursions and traveling, I didn't have the independence or resources to go because I needed care. I wasn't going to be asking my friends to change my diapers for me. As far as my actual spinal cord injury, the variability aspect is potentially drastic when predicting what you'll be left with, and what other conditions might arise once you're actually paralyzed. The level of general function is pretty predictable because that all depends on where you break your spine, but there are often additional "side effects" to having such an injury for many. That's why I said I was glad I have good sensation below my injury level, I don't think I would enjoy diapers nearly as much if I couldn't feel them. Or maybe I should say I would enjoy them differently? Another thing that scares me a little bit looking forward is my level of care as I get older. I'm good at advocating for myself and most caregivers know that, but I still have clear memories of my rehab stay and how it was for people that can't be assertive for various reasons. This was reaffirmed in recent years as my mom had health issues and spent time in rehab centers. I see how some of the care workers take advantage of folks as they lose certain faculties, and it makes me nervous to think I might end up needing higher levels assistance later on when I'm not as sharp as now or when I was younger. To end on a positive note, there's no doubt I love that I'm in diapers every day and that I do constantly enjoy it. I do feel like I'm out of the norm though as far as having no choice in being incontinent or disabled and actually enjoying some aspects to a great degree. I guess I'm a horny diaper freak! lol I live a pretty full life, and thankfully the internet makes conversations like this possible. I'm never one to say "don't do it" but I like to share my experience along with hearing how others share their negative and positive experiences of actual incontinence and disability so others can make a better decision.

I find the key thing if you need larger sizes is to find a brand that has "plus" sizes. Shein.com has a nice selection of plus size womens wear thats inexpensive and decent quality. The nice thing is since it's inexpensive, you won't sweat your wallet if you buy something you don't like. Of course you can return it too. Also, a lot of users post pics on the site of how it fits them. Once you find a style you like that gives you a nice feminine feeling, you can always start buying more expensive quality items with confidence.

@Transfusionelle Your wife is a lucky lady to have a partner who wants her to enjoy the taste! I bet it's yummy!

@MinnieMouse, there's a lot of good replies here! Just remember: It only feels wrong because so many of us were "shamed" out of diapers during potty training, so many people will put this fetish down as a bad thing. Your diaper desire is not hurting you, or anyone else. You are entitled to happiness! Your desire to be diapered is likely deeply ingrained into who you are, so try to ride out the binge urges with the mindset of "this too shall pass" When your binge cycle kicks in, embrace and enjoy it! Know that the more you work toward acceptance, the more you'll come to enjoy the "binge" side and the "urge to purge" will eventually wane.

Hi everyone, Has anyone experienced tearing of the outer shell of these diapers more often recently? I LOVE my Abena L4s so much, I can't get enough of the very soft padding inside and plastic outer texture. Of course the sexy touch of them has lead me to really enjoy rubbing the outside of them over the past few years, and I've NEVER had an issue even if I went on for hours at a time. Oddly though, my most recent package has had a few diapers rip even though I'm not doing anything differently. I'm curious if it's just a bad batch or a change in quality? Please report here if you've had any issues!

When it gets perfectly taped on, its as if there is a right amount of tightness making my diaper rub my penis with every move, yet just enough looseness letting my diaper shift, also rubbing my penis with every move. Love that so much. Maybe 3 out of 5 changes feel like that for me.

I wish you both the best in this, I hope you get to enjoy this side of you with someone who wants you to as well. Whether its her being cool with you doing it or if she ends up partaking in it on some level, I hope you're one of the lucky ones!