Evelyn Dellcerro

I am at work by 4:30 AM Every Mon - Fri I have been doing this for the past 26 years. I sit in my office for at least 3 hours reviewing the days work and who, and how to distribute it amongst 25 workers. I know my people and I am usually done within an hour. This morning was usual except for one thing. I nodded off unintentionally. I woke up minutes later and I was hugging the back of another chair and just crying and sobbing. I turned and I saw my husband waving good bye as he always did when he went out on tour. It was so real that I stood up and went to hug him, but no one was there. I am home now writing this and tears are just rolling down my face. I won't let Elle see me like this because it will make her start to cry. I loved my husband to the point where it actually hurt everytime he went out on tour. I gave a man my life and I loved him to the depths that nobody will ever know. A quarter century is a long time, but it passed in the blink of an eye. I so vividly remember getting home from work on a Wednesday afternoon and sitting down and being startled by a knock on the door. I opened the door and there before me stood a First Lieutenant and a Chaplain. There were so many things that went through my mind in a flash, but I knew in my heart why they were here. I remember something my father whispered to me on his death bed "Todos nos choramos adoracion, ha momentos em que devemos chorar sozinhos", translated in english, " We all cry my love, but there are times when we must cry alone" There was no one else in the house besides my puppy at the time and I waited until they left. I hugged them both and we said our goodbyes. I went inside and closed the door and sat down on the floor and just cried for hours hugging my pup. I had to get up and open the door for my mom when she arrived, My mom knew instantly from just looking at me. She hugged me just as I hugged her when my father passed. I havent cried like this in so long, but it feels so good to let it out. Seeing that today made me realize how fast life can pass us by. There are so many things that I want to ask him and tell him at the same time. So many unanswered things that I will never, ever know the answers to. I hope to those that read this open their hearts to let other people in. I read the constant bickering and nonsense between AB & DL, and honestly it shames me that we are all brothers and sisters in arms. Instead of being one people we seperate from one another. I look over to my wife sleeping so peacefully, whom I love and cherish so much and people still hate on her because she is a man that dresses so beautifully ?, and I think to myself why must people hate. My own brother which I love so dearly, that hurt me to the core by rejecting his own child. Where did he go wrong ? We were all raised by the same mother and father, what made him hate ? I remember so vividly comforting my nephew and hearing his sobs "why does my dad hate me"? Holding him for days at a time, and taking time off work to be there for him. God gave us free will, but not to hate like this. So many times I have dreamt of my wife and the look on her face when I asked her to marry me. The same look I gave my husband back in December of 1989 when he got down on one knee. No matter what life has thrown at me I will still wind up on top, WHY ? because I will always look for the answer with love in my heart. @Babygeebee You are a gem in my eye. @~Brian~ who has shown me what balls of steel really means. @square_duckwho has shown me what inner strength is. @Pokemonfan & @tai kamiya who have shown me what friendship and togetherness can achieve. There are so many of you and the list is long. Lets all dream of our future as ABDL together. @jesse78 and @kirababy that have shown me love and pride. Hugs and kisses to all ,,,,,,, Love & Peace ! One last thing I almost forgot to add @Glennie We hope and pray for you good friend. I know you are getting your foot taken care of and you are in our thoughts and prayers. You are a good man and may god be watching over you. Love you sweetie and I am sure there are others here praying for you to have a fast recovery.

Hes my nephew sweetie, not my grandson. I do look forward to that day though. Just the name Grandma comes with so much prestige. I cry waiting for that day.

Thank you Rusty Love Ya sweetie, and yes I get an alignment just about every 30 days. I get the biggest knobbiest tires I can find on the market too. Glad my brother owns a shop and he loves my cooking. He gets all the cakes and cookies he wants anytime too. Good to have a mechanic in the family.

Lol Thats just mean !!

That usually depends on how much fun I wanna have and how tired I am from work. Mon - Fri I poop my regular hour, around 2PM as I leave work. Most of the time I will admire one of the store window displays and let it right out as passerbys have no clue I just took a huge poop in my diaper. Then I will walk as normal as I could without having an orgasm right there and get into my car and just squish it all into my privates. Drive my 12 miles home and try to get all the good potholes, for a good squish. If I have to stop at the grocery store for anything I go in and do what I have to do and go home. So far sitting here for 2 hours in my poopy diaper and already had 2 nice orgasms, so my day is good. Now weekends are fun time, I get to share it with my wife and we get to really express ourselves very poopily (Happy & Poopy) Weekends are usually a blur and a flash with all the fun and cuddling we do. Usually our Saturday morning consists of a morning kiss at sunrise and a huge breakfast to do a fiber load. Take a nap and digest our food, and usually I hold it in for my wife till shes ready to burst. We lay a tarp on the bed and just go at it until we cant poop or pee or cum any more. Sometimes we will play in our diapers, and sometimes we will be total piggies, sometimes we even flip a coin if we are at odds lol. It is all done in good fun and with love. If people cant share with their partner, then who ? I love you all here and @LiL Marc I hope you find that special someone you so deserve, kisses @anisencouches & @Windelbaby Love you guys !! You are all an inspiration to me and to this site ! To my loving wife @Transfusionelle You sexy piece of loving beauty, you hold my heart and you make it all possible.

You haven't lived til You've Lived.

@JacktheShat Sweetie you are not alone !!! I have a diaper lover wife and we purposely load up on a friday for our poop play on the weekends. Many times when it is warmer we go out for a jog with the dogs and wear our diapers underneath. Stop at the park have a small picnic and just entirely mess our diapers till they cant hold no more. Go sit on a park bench and mash that baby right down. Enjoy our poops together and then take a short jog home. Behind closed doors we can be total piggies and just do whatever makes us smile and cum hard. Diaper sex is awesome and I recommend it to those that are not faint of heart. You are not a weirdo and there is nothing at all wrong with you. What you and your partner do in the privacy of your home is your business. I tell you as it is.. I could care less who says ewww, or thats nasty, and I'm a slob because they have to walk a mile in my diaper before they can judge. I am a diaper lover, scat lover, golden shower lover, whatever makes you happy is the name of my game. You like climaxing in it well so do I, and all the stress from the week just melts away. Jack it would be an honor and a pleasure to chat with you and get to know you. I have been doing this since I am 13 years old, and most likely till the day I die. I have to live with it and I have no regrets ! @nhiusd Dancing is just the icing on the cake sweetie !!

I cant wait to mess my diaper as soon as I walk out the revolving doors at my job. I go to bathroom change out of my pullup, pee in the toilet and make sure I hold my poop in then put my rearz rebels on nice and snug for my drive home. I would be so happy if I could poop more than once a day. I eat my oatmeal, cereal, fruits and veggies for a good fiber fill. I dont like these little baby poops so I hold it for the next day. I would never ever consider it a burden. For me more of a pleasure to play in my own mud. I mess around 2 PM everyday, so set your watch. Love you @~Brian~ I love messing on the weekends. Diaper fun/sex and my wife to share with is something to look forward to. Like @fillemup said lots of ointment and keep that booty and privates nice and waxed and have some fun. squish it down, mash it down play horsey ride with my partner and make an afternoon out of it. For clean up pull the drain cover up and hose ourselves off with the shower head power washer lol, and then a nice bubble bath for two with lots of cuddling and kissing. Guys yall doing it all wrong. Get your wife,gf, bf, SO, and have some damn fun !!! Enjoy it @Always In Diaper Amen @Moochie

Posted December 19, 2020/ wearing diapers became a passion at the age of thirteen for me. I enjoyed pooping my panties for about a year, but cleaning them became kind of risky and didn't want my parents knowing anything. Skidmarks and streaks were something to be scolded for. Since I did the neighborhood babysitting it was a perfect guise to get a hold of all kinds of diapers. The best thing is parents of children I babysat would pay me to have fun. For a thirteen year old girl diapers were a very sexual thing. My first orgasm was in a diaper and out in public and its been a trip for over forty years now. So I started at thirteen and life gets better and better. @~Brian~ I answered this question back on December 19, 2020, I didnt really elaborate much. Yes I enjoyed pooping my panties. If you have ever pooped your underwear you know that you can never really get 100% of the stain out. Me knowing this at 12, I couldnt really have fun like I wanted to. It was poop and rapidly change and wash my panties. At 13 when I started babysitting (DIAPERS) opened up a whole new world. Now I can actually poop my diaper keep the poop in my diaper and go in my treehouse and squish it down, mash it up, make the biggest mess I can possibly make, and it all stayed within the confines of my diaper. I didnt have to worry ever again about cleaning panties or buying new panties for that matter wasting what little allowance I made. I now had free rein. All the diapers I could fit into my bag and getting payed to change diapers. My parents gave me run of the house from age 8, so I was the maid, butler, answering machine, cook, and laundry person, maintainance person. They worked so I had the house to myself. Oh and I also did grocery shopping. How much fun it was going to the A&P fully pooping my diaper while shopping, then go home put groceries away still in a messy diaper and then go play with myself in my treehouse. After my soiree I would clean the treehouse floor which was covered in a TARP, so not to ruin the wood. Yes tarps have been an essential part of my rituals. I had my favorite toy and I enjoyed and preferred anal stimulation. Now shoot to the year 2021 a dresser full of toys, and life has not changed much at all for me cept for age and responsibilities. I still enjoy imensely pooping my diaper and sharing it with my wife @Transfusionelleand she of course shares her fully loaded diaper with me. As @Billies1 mentioned an obsession, and yes he is right. Though many do consider it just that, I never let it interfere with my friends and family or going out socializing, dancing, restaurants or work. I have plenty of time to enjoy my fun fetish and theres really nothing more to it. Life goes on. Thank you Brian and I love how you say I accepted that I am incontinent and a DL, after doing some soul searching, and talking to people here on DD, especially @Evelyn Dellcerroand @Transfusionelle. I will always be here for you and many others that feel they are lost and forgotten. It took me many years of soul searching, but I never once doubted myself.

@hippyman I understand exactly what you are going through and there are literally thousands here that understand your pain. Let me tell you a little about myself. I am Evelyn and I have been a Diaper Lover since the age of 13 (1978)... There was no internet and the only friends involved with diapers were pen pals. I was alone. I could not tell my parents due to the fact that if I told a shrink or psychiatrist which ever makes you feel more comfy what was going inside my head it would have been curtains down, end of show. The padded room until you are 18 and plenty of mood altering drugs. I love diapers and I enjoy immensely pooping and orgasming in a diaper. I kept my mouth shut and kept my secret to myself. The pen pals and drop box letters worked great and many of us got together and had massive diaper parties. Nowadays they would be considered scat and sex orgies. Mind you I was only 13. I excelled at school and graduated a year early and was in college at 17 years old. College was where I really got down and dirty and met so many people into diapers, and to this day I have life long friends that still keep in contact and occasionally party with. I forgot to mention I am also bisexual, so men and women to me are equal targets. I married a military man at age 23. We fell in love and had a wonderful 23 years together. He was repulsed by diapers so I kept diapers to myself (again).. I had the life because he was away at service for months at a time, and I took advantage of that and played in my diapers. He was killed in service in December of 2012. I loved that man with all my heart, but now I was utterly alone (again).. Every weekend now was a quest to find the right soulmate. After literally hundreds of one night stands, May 2017, I found him/her.. A beautiful man dressed as a woman and a diaper lover. We hit it off and just married 10 months ago. My entire life has been a long search and diapers are what kept me sane and grounded. You say you have survivors guilt, well lets talk. I can chat with you and we can set up ways in which to communicate. You say you have a cocktail brewing, so lets neutralize the cocktail and get to chatting and becomming friends and h elping one another. I am not here to bullshit you and I have helped quite a few friends here that I am happy to say will be life long friends and confidants. The binge and purge cycle will hurt you, if not emotionally and mentally it will hurt your pocket. I saw @~Brian~ mention this, and brian being as loving and caring as he is bought this to light and he knows in his heart I am here to help you. I know times are rough with this crap virus but I am still here and fighting. You can read my many posts and see for yourself that I am not full of shit (only my diaper) and I mean to get down to the nitty gritty. I read all my emails and I will answer you right away. If you want drop me a message here also. Hugs and I hope we can get down and chat like two buddies at a bar. EVELYN evelyndellcerro71@gmail.com evelyndellcerro@yahoo.com Kisses ❤️ I knew there was a reason I liked you so much.. Kisses and big tight hugs and lets get @hippyman on the right track to happiness

Brian you are awesome !!

I am truly sorry I have not been here in mind and soul @Marcus I have been a bit preoccupied. But I caught up with most of it. Your wife made many mistakes in using your 15 yr old daughter as a pawn. This is between you and your wife. Not you and the entire family. That goes back to the old adage of mothers embarrassing their teen children by forcing them back in diapers and letting the childs friends see this kind of treatment. Not only hurting the child but causing resentment and later some therapy issues. Telling her family and friends is just cold hearted and cruel. You are in a position we call between a rock and a hard place. There is no simple fix here. Trust issues and bonds have been broken and severed. I agree with Rusty on certain points. Control is a big issue. I never would agree on pot being a gateway. For those that smoke pot and have only smoked pot. Then more power to you. This is not an issue of drugs. All kinds of bonds have been broken here. I dont know if yall have heard the expression "what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas". What you do in your bedroom is between you and your wife, not for the entire family to know. Your wife broke a cardinal rule and involved a minor. The situation went from bad to worse to critical. Seek counseling before its too late. I hope and pray for you Marcus and I truly wish you the best.

I am not here to judge anyone or tell anyone what to do or say. I was raised by two very loving caring parents. I was raised with common sense. I was never censored and was never told or given an hour to go to sleep. I was never told what to watch and when to watch it. I was taught responsibility at a very young age. I knew I had school, and I knew I had to get sleep (no brainer). From discussions with my mom I was potty trained by 23 months and never peed the bed or my pants for that matter. I do admit that by age 10, I was very curious and knew I had different feelings from other children. I knew I was bisexual already, because I had feelings for males and females. This curiousity led me to try many things. By age 12, I tried pooping my panties and I liked it. By age 13, I was pooping diapers and loved it. I enjoyed sex at a young age with both male and females my age. I was promiscuous and I wanted to try everything. This was the late 70s. No internet, no video games. We went to the park. we rode bikes, we played stickball. We went outside. I still cant for the life of me get used to seeing kids staying inside a house and rotting their brains for hours playing video games. Now that is my opinion. That was not entertainment for me as a child and it never will be. @dlsafrica My nephew was kicked out of his home at 13 because he told his father he was gay. Not the easiest thing for a 13 yr old to handle. I handled it, and I raised him from age 13. He is now 18 and a diaper lover and a very loving man. I admit I was a very big influence on him, and I take no shame and have no regrets in raising my diaper loving gay nephew. He is the love of my life and if I had to do it all over again I would do it over and over. It doesnt take a little mindset, it takes a lot. Parents listen to your children and guide them. Husbands listen to your wives, wives listen to your husbands. A piece of plastic with padding is not a crime, but many sure make it look that way.

Due to circumstances beyond our control, technical dificulties, please stand by, at least you were home sweetie. Happens to many of us. I have leaked before, many many times. You're human and we are not perfect. Next time I might have to diaper you up myself.

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You may find me old, but I do believe "whats good for the goose, is good for the gander". Sweetie it took me forty years to perfect a diaper change. Shy you can always beat and changing a diaper you can always perfect, but never run away from love. Hugs and best of luck to you. Marc I say the same to you. You are 55 yrs young. You and I are old school. We come from the days of fire and brimstone, and were made for this fetish. There are literally thousands of us left. We come from the days where internet was obsolete. We went out, we partied, we did things others were scared to do. Kink will always be in our hearts and souls. Don't ever give up on love. I didn't need internet to find what I have now. You are tougher than this baby and I have lots of faith in you. You didn't meet the right person,, yet. Love you Marc and always remember you have friends here.

@Star Baby Wear the proper protection and ointment and the fun is limitless !!

Marc I have a lot of love and respect for you sweetie!!! My husbands passing in 2012 was my kick in the ass ! I loved him more than I loved myself and it was a big kick to my butt. Here I was 52 yrs old and single with a house and a mother and a nephew to care for. I admit I went out on a quest and I was not going to stop till I found what I was in search of. I found him dressed as a beautiful woman and already a diaper lover. Almost 4 years later my life has gotten only better. @adam4landry sweetie Marc is so right. You are so young and have a willing person, and you're worried about changing a diaper ? If you don't want to hurt his feelings change his diapers and be happy about it. You have a gift here looking you in the face and act like the spoiled boy at Christmas waiting for a bar of gold. I learned the not so easy way, I lost a husband, but in doing so I gained a love beyond comprehension. Get over your fears and get over them quick.

We need more power !!

If you have a friend willing to change your wet and messy diapers, you're way ahead of many people here !! Count your blessings and get to changing his diapers...

I was married to a man for over twenty two years. He never openly admitted to me as being bisexual. I am bisexual to the core. Many here cannot differentiate love and sex. I have had meaningless sex, just to get off, yes with females too and my husband watching. I have also made mad pasionate love to my husband, and my husband never liked diapers. As Marcus said he told her about being a little, and that was the reason he gave her for wearing diapers. No matter where you look on the internet we and I mean all of us AB & DL have a horrible label and stigma set upon our heads. We are thought of as pedos. I am sure that is what his wife read first. Now she associates the little part of him with diapers in a very bad light. He can explain to her till he is blue in the face and she will listen to what she reads on the internet. So much misinformation is out there. From one bisexual to another Marcus, there is only one way to clarify this to your wife. If you want it to work sit and talk, whether its one long talk or one thousand short talks, she must be made to realize the truth about ABDL. Many people here do not and cannot understand the complexity of being bisexual. My first husband passed on and I never knew the truth. I am now married to a man that dresses as a woman. We have had the bisexual talk and the trust issues that come up all the time, and we have absolutely no jealousy issues. He has a penis, and what if I am in the mood for vagina ? I have a vagina, what if he is in the mood for a real mans penis, and not a dildo. Now do you understand where I am going with this ? When you are bisexual the trust bond has to be a lot stronger. They do not look at this as cheating. His wifes problem is with his little side and diapers now. Marcus don't despair sweetie, eighteen years is a lot for your wife to just give up. There are many books on Amazon you can order, and just let her read. Some TLC is needed here. I do wish you the best and keep in touch. Love you guys, but you have to see the bigger story here

@scaifesterSweetie there are many of us and we are all over the world. I am not surprised to see scenes like this, and in the city I have seen much, much more. Its not uncommon to see a woman at a bus stop changing her sanitary pad and toss the used one in a trash recepticle. Diapers are no different.

Check the hiding places of the underpants gnomes.

WOW !!!!!!!!!! Now I know why I love you so much !