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I found this was the case for me too, the first couple times I messed. Takes a bit of getting used to...eventually your body will learn.

I kinda like the smell...

I don't think i've ever seen a diaper site carrying child porn, nor even abdls expressing a desire to look at it. Why is this stuff getting mixed together?

I love the idea of sleeping in a messy but I just get too aroused...even if I take care of business another erection springs up before i can get myself to sleep.

OP, if the minimum you require is acceptance from your GF, all you've got to do is date normally, but tell her about being AB/DL early on in the relationship (eg. 2 weeks in). Nobody who isn't into ABDL is going to PM you saying that they aren't into ABDL but want to date anyway when your message is based mostly on ABDL and tells girls nothing else about yourself.

Years ago, I think. I blacked out from drinking and woke up with a wet diaper on...so yes, but I don't remember it so i didn't really get to enjoy it

I'm somewhat similar OP. Generally I'm really into (sexually) age regression, diaper pr0n, reading about something new that I might want to try, etc. Yet at the same time, when I actually wear diapers and indulge in baby play it's not that sexual. I get aroused maybe when I change into my first diaper out of anticipation....but more often then not it's not about the sexual element for me. After I'm done however, thinking back on the experience often drives me wild.

Wear a chastity cage at night!

I can't say I've experienced what most of you are saying (messing when stressed/upset), but I have noticed that I will often mess on a sort of impulse when I'm regressed...ironically, instead of alleviating stress messing tends to stress me out -- but only because I live in a college dorm and I get paranoid about the smell.

I've heard people say that wearing diapers on opiates is a blast -- but my guess is that these people are more AB and thus aren't affected so much by the loss of libido. I personally have a prescription to adderall....if I diaper up and go into little mode while I'm on the stuff I find it very hard to stop. Burned through an entire pack of depends in 2 days, lol. It does help me get into the proper headspace though, for sure.

I've never tried any MMORPGs but you might want to try EVE Online. It apparently takes a little investment to get into the meat of the game, but it's easily the most interesting game world I've seen. You can also pay for your subscription with in game money if you want, so if you are good enough you don't even have to pay a subscription fee! Even if you're not interested in playing, I recommend googling some of the crazier stories involving the EVE economic system -- some guy stole like $100,000 worth of in game credit by putting stooges on a massive corporation's board of directors, a large clan launched a full scale, multiday assault on a NPC space station, etc. It's all one huge game world so all of this stuff effects everybody else. I know way too much about an MMO that I've never even played before...my excuse is that I'm an economics geek.

I personally would try pretty hard to avoid my kids from being exposed to the AB/DL lifestyle. Is being blatantly AB/DL in front of your kids bad for their development? I have no idea, but I'd rather be safe then sorry. Maybe when my kid hits puberty, I would consider taking him aside and giving him a modified birds and bees talk -- specifically, using my own situation to illustrate that there's nothing wrong with (most) sexual irregularities. Maybe a year or two after puberty, since I guess kids are hitting puberty at pretty young ages these days.