Rainbow Diapers

We know Bryan is friends with a very good lawyer. But the tricky thing is not the law (where I don't think Harley really has a leg to stand on). The issue is the leverage Harley now has. Bryan and Paul will most likely not want that video made public (if they become aware of it: we don't know what Harley will reveal that), and so even though it was illegal, they can't stop her. It would be too publicly damaging. We know Harley's not above doing that: she already threatened Lilly with the footage of the wet pants at the pier. But this also could have (kinda) been avoided by requiring that Harley doesn't take Paul out of the house when babysitting. That way, they at least have the nanny cam (it wouldn't have prevented the drugging, but it would have prevented the filming of "Paul's 1st Birthday"). I skimmed the previous chapter (and am not wanting to reread it properly), but if I understand it, Harley took Paul to this warehouse after they got ice cream. If there's even an iota of suspicion, then Harley shouldn't be trusted like that, and we know Lilly doesn't trust her (and Savvy and Kim defs don't). It doesn't help that Little Paul adores Harley, and that Big Paul is starting to develop a crush.  I'm also very concerned about the cruise, and if Harley will become 24/7. That sounds like the worst outcome. But I don't see other options: Savvy has the hospital, Kim has other kids that should take priority, Martina has the new show and the complications with Amber. I've been reading the Wheel of Time, and the main character (Rand) goes slightly mad, and there's another person in his head (Lews Therin). And there was an evil lady (Lanfear) where it was predicted that the more time Rand would spend with her, the more that the Rand identity would disappear, and he'd just become Lews Therin. And that's what Harley seems like to me: Paul's Lanfear, forcing him into his Little side and erasing his identity. (Also, please don't spoil those for me: I'm up to book 11 of 14)

Usually if I am going to wear I will sleep in a dry nappy overnight then wet and mess in the morning, and most often at weekends. This morning I woke up and just felt that need to mess, and knew that it would probably be quite a good amount as I ate a lot yesterday. So after coffee and breakfast I put a fresh Rearz Lil Monster on and almost instantly filled it with a huge, soft load. I won't stay in it for long to protect my skin, so it feels like a bit of a waste in a way, but worth it for that feeling of release and the sound of my nappy filling up. Doing a few chores before I change to get the most out of it, moving around feeling the warm, sticky mess pressing against me...

Epilogue Sally eventually realized that growth had very little to do with becoming untouchable. As a little girl, and even later as a teenager, she had imagined adulthood as a kind of arrival point. A place where fear stopped mattering, uncertainty faded, emotions stabilized and life finally became manageable through competence, discipline or wealth. Perhaps that was why she had once attached so much importance to independence, control and proving herself capable. Even becoming “the heiress” had quietly carried that temptation beneath it: the illusion that importance somehow protected people from fragility. But life dismantled that illusion piece by piece. The crash had done it violently. Oskar had done it gently. Over the months that followed, Sally watched nearly everybody she loved depend helplessly on somebody else. Bridget depended on nurses, doctors, Renée and eventually even on Sally herself. Oskar depended on incubators, monitors and careful hands to remain alive. Theresa depended on medicine, treatment and patience after her injuries. Adrian — proud, composed Adrian — had quietly begun depending emotionally on his family in ways Sally had never imagined possible before. And Sally herself had depended on faith, friendship, grace and people carrying her through moments where she no longer trusted herself completely. Somewhere along the line, adulthood stopped meaning self-sufficiency to her. It began meaning the ability to remain openhearted while knowing perfectly well that life could wound you. That realization changed her more deeply than the public ever understood. The world looked at the NICU photograph and saw symbolism. They saw dynasties, sincerity, privilege, hope and vulnerability wrapped into a single image. Journalists wrote columns trying to explain why the picture affected people so deeply. Strangers projected onto it whatever they themselves seemed to need most: innocence, healing, femininity, faith, tenderness. Modern life had become so saturated with irony, outrage and performance that a visibly emotional sixteen-year-old girl quietly holding her premature brother somehow felt extraordinary. Yet the moment itself had not felt extraordinary to Sally while it was happening. She remembered being terrified of moving the wrong way while the nurses settled Oskar against her chest. She remembered the warmth of him through the thin fabric of the Morgantown Mohigans shirt, the strange weightlessness of his tiny body, and the careful rhythm of the monitors surrounding them. She remembered how exhausted she had been, how swollen her eyes felt from crying, and how the entire room seemed to narrow until nothing existed except the fragile little boy curled trustingly against her. The photograph became famous because people believed they were seeing something rare. But Sally eventually understood that what moved them was not glamour or tragedy. It was honesty. The image had captured somebody loving another person without self-consciousness, calculation or performance. For once, the public version of Sally Weiss and the private one had aligned completely. And she no longer feared that. Earlier in her life, vulnerability had always felt dangerous to her. Weakness embarrassed her. Dependence frightened her. She had feared being emotionally unstable, physically fragile, publicly exposed or somehow inadequate beneath the expectations attached to her family name. But by the time Oskar entered her life, she had begun understanding that weakness and love were not opposites. In fact, the people she admired most were often the ones willing to remain soft despite having every reason to harden themselves. Perhaps that was the true meaning of growth. Not becoming invulnerable, but becoming capable of carrying uncertainty without surrendering to bitterness. Not eliminating fear, but refusing to let fear define the shape of your life. Not reaching some mythical state of complete healing, but accepting that scars and joy could coexist inside the same person. For the first time in her life, Sally no longer demanded that life return what it had taken from her. The fears had not vanished completely. Neither had the unknowns. Some wounds healed slowly. Some probably always would. But instead of retreating from life because of that, Sally found herself stepping more fully into it. Into responsibility, faith, family, love and the uncertain future waiting ahead of her. Not because she suddenly controlled those things, or because the unknown no longer frightened her, but because she had finally learned that a meaningful life did not depend on certainty. It depended on the willingness to keep loving, trusting and moving forward despite uncertainty remaining. -- Sally’s father suddenly looked older. Not because of age — no, it wasn’t that. He had only just turned fifty-eight. Always stiff in posture and formal in manner, Adrian had begun to soften after returning daily from Oskar’s kangaroo care sessions at the hospital. Much to his own disbelief, the nurses had encouraged him to hold Oskar against his bare chest. And it changed something in him. Something good, but lasting. It made him gentler. More vulnerable. Softer around the edges. There was also the media frenzy surrounding the NICU photograph. The image became an enormous success in a world exhausted by geopolitics, wars, markets and endless conflict. People seemed desperate for something hopeful. Something tender. Something human enough to remind them life still contained goodness. Sally understood almost immediately that the photograph no longer belonged entirely to her. What she had experienced in that NICU chair had been intensely private: relief after fear, tenderness after months of emotional exhaustion, and the almost frightening realization that she loved Oskar instinctively and completely. Yet the world received the image not simply as family news, but as symbolism. Journalists wrote about dynasties, faith, wealth, vulnerability and hope. Strangers projected onto her grief, healing, innocence, femininity and even morality itself. Some praised her sincerity. Others criticized the machinery of privilege surrounding her. But nearly all of them seemed convinced the photograph represented something larger than a young woman holding her tiny brother. Sally found the frenzy deeply disorienting because the moment itself had felt so small and human. She remembered the warmth of Oskar against her chest, the beeping monitors, the smell of the hospital room, and the quiet fear still lingering beneath her happiness. Meanwhile, the public transformed the image into mythology. Part of her recoiled from that. Another part understood it. Modern people, she thought, were desperately hungry for visible tenderness. Perhaps that explained why the world reacted so intensely to a simple photograph of somebody loving somebody else. Monica, meanwhile, had been ecstatic all over again. Even the major newspaper in Morgantown had placed the photograph on its front page, openly wondering about Sally’s connection to the town. Rumors spread through Monica’s school about making Sally Weiss an honorary Mohigan. Monica delighted in the secret drama and promised not to tell anybody. Sally would master the orange Lamborghini Aventador SVJ. The more she researched the car, the more it intimidated her — and thrilled her. She understood perfectly well how absurd it sounded for a sixteen-year-old girl to own something like that. And no, she did not intend to use the orange Lamborghini merely to cruise through downtown Miami. Not mostly. She wanted to use it as a track weapon. And she would. Her father had already scheduled their next Miami trip around two private track sessions with Morgan. Sally also began focusing more seriously on her studio. Jana would help prepare her new Zurich apartment, and Sally was already researching the best places in the city to buy art supplies. Theresa congratulated Sally for gradually weaning herself off diapers at night. Sally would later confess, somewhat sheepishly, that she had not abandoned them completely — she still found them practical during long painting sessions in the studio. Theresa’s expression afterward was priceless.  Theresa, by the way, would recover full use of her equine nerve. No more protection for Therea. Erika threw herself into decorating Sally’s apartment with enormous enthusiasm. Appointed honorary project manager entirely by herself, Erika declared Sally her first official client and began accompanying design meetings, offering occasional opinions while mostly enjoying the experience of helping her best friend build a life. Katrina and Clara, meanwhile, grew unexpectedly closer. Their earlier tensions softened into friendship and creative collaboration. Clara’s therapy evolved into designing women’s clothing and sketching fashion concepts. The moment Katrina discovered this, she immediately began attempting to transform Clara’s drawings into real outfits, often recruiting Clara, herself, or Maddie as unwilling models. It became the beginning of something larger. Sally noticed immediately. And Charlie? Well, “Charlie Romeo” said quite enough already. Eventually he would meet Sally in Miami alongside his flight instructor and fly her to the Bahamas in a little Cirrus SR20. Even seated awkwardly in the back seat of the tiny aircraft, Sally would privately consider it the most romantic experience of her life. But Cambridge would become the true threshold into adulthood. Real adulthood. Her own home. Her own routines. Her own structure. Though Elena would still occasionally appear to reorganize parts of it. Sally would have her own fun, naturally. One car for everyday life. Another… simply because life was sometimes allowed to be joyful. And Oskar would grow. Slowly at first, but steadily. To Sally, it would feel like forever. She would live for weekends — for boarding a jet after meetings or classes and flying home, whether home meant Zurich or Coral Gables that particular month. And every time she stepped through the front door, she would hear that little voice charging toward her through the house: “SaWeeee!” -- The image arrived at 8:12 in the morning, Central European Time, without warning and without ceremony. There had been no carefully orchestrated countdown, no magazine exclusives, no strategic leaks to entertainment outlets. The Weiss family released it the same way they released nearly everything important: quietly, directly, and all at once. Within seconds, the photograph appeared simultaneously on the family’s official press portal, on Reuters, on the Associated Press wire, and on the Pembroke-Weiss Foundation media account. For a brief moment, the internet simply paused. The photograph itself was almost painfully simple. Sally Weiss sat in a recliner inside a Zurich NICU room, baby Oskar resting carefully against her chest. He looked impossibly small beneath a knitted white cap, the feeding tube beneath his nose impossible to ignore once noticed, though few people noticed it immediately. The blurred glow of monitors and medical equipment faded into the background behind them. Because nearly everyone looked at Sally first. Her eyes were red in the unmistakable way real eyes became after real crying. Not theatrical tears. Not polished vulnerability prepared for cameras. The kind someone unsuccessfully tries to hide after an emotionally exhausting night. Her expression carried a radiant disbelief, as though she herself still had not entirely accepted that the tiny child pressed against her chest was alive, real, and finally there with her. Then people noticed what she was wearing. A blue Morgantown Mohigans shirt with the large red “M” across the front. That detail spread through the internet almost as quickly as the image itself. By 8:25, social media algorithms had already detected the surge. Engagement levels exploded so violently that platforms began pushing the photograph globally before most users even understood why they were seeing it. By nine o’clock, major morning broadcasts across Europe and the United States interrupted scheduled segments to discuss the image. By half past ten, “Sally Weiss NICU photo” had become the single most searched phrase in the Western world. The reaction moved across demographics with almost unnatural speed. Young mothers reposted the photograph with emotional captions about fear, gratitude, and exhaustion. NICU support communities embraced it instantly, recognizing in Sally’s face an expression they knew intimately. Christian pages circulated the image beside verses about protection, mercy, and answered prayer. Fashion commentators, normally obsessed with styling and image construction, found themselves analyzing the startling absence of visible styling at all. Even political commentators, people professionally trained to remain cynical about public emotion, spoke about the photograph in quieter voices than usual. And then the comparisons began. At first they were predictable: celebrity families, public dynasties, famous heirs. But within hours the discussion drifted toward something larger and stranger. Across Europe, commentators began openly acknowledging what many had been observing for months without quite knowing how to describe it: Sally Weiss no longer felt culturally comparable to an influencer, celebrity daughter, or billionaire heiress. She felt closer to modern royalty. One Spanish morning program, half joking and half serious, aired the provocative question beneath a split-screen graphic: “Has Princess Leonor Been Dethroned?” The clip spread across social media within minutes. The reason it resonated so strongly was uncomfortable for traditional celebrity culture to admit. Sally’s appeal no longer operated according to ordinary fame mechanics. She seemed American without carrying the louder, sharper edges international audiences often associated with American celebrity culture. She was visibly wealthy without projecting extravagance. She appeared famous without ever looking as though she particularly wanted fame. Even her elegance carried an unusual quality, as though it emerged naturally rather than being assembled by teams of stylists and consultants. And now the world had seen something even more powerful than elegance. It had seen vulnerability. Not curated vulnerability. Not glamorous sadness. Something rawer and quieter. A teenage girl in a hospital recliner holding her fragile baby brother while looking emotionally overwhelmed by the fact that he existed at all. Modern media culture proved almost defenseless against that combination. A British columnist summarized the phenomenon with brutal efficiency before noon. “Princesses are raised to wave from balconies,” he wrote. “Sally Weiss became beloved sitting in a hospital recliner wearing a high school T-shirt.” By the afternoon, analysts and cultural commentators were already calling the photograph the defining celebrity image of the decade. Others described it as the ultimate anti-glamour icon, the precise moment the Weiss family ceased being viewed merely as extraordinarily wealthy and instead became emotionally mythologized in the public imagination. Meanwhile, thousands of kilometers away in Morgantown, West Virginia, the local newspaper website crashed twice under the sudden flood of international traffic from people desperately trying to understand the story behind the local high school blue shirt. And somewhere inside a quiet NICU room in Zurich, entirely removed from the tidal wave unfolding outside hospital walls, Sally Weiss was probably still staring down at her baby brother in exhausted disbelief, unaware that a single honest photograph had just permanently altered her place in modern culture. -- Monica sent her the newspaper picture. Sally zoomed to read it in full:   The Dominion Post — Morgantown, West Virginia THE SALLY WEISS MORGANTOWN CONNECTION Local “Mohigans” Shirt Appears in Worldwide NICU Photo as Weiss Family Welcomes New Baby For most of the world, the photograph represented tenderness. For Morgantown, it represented something else entirely: A mystery. The now-famous image released this week by the Weiss family — showing sixteen-year-old Sally Weiss holding her newborn brother, Oskar Weiss, inside a Zurich NICU — has already become one of the most widely shared photographs of the year. The infant, born prematurely on May 15, remains under close observation but is reportedly healthy and progressing well, according to family representatives. The timing of the birth has itself captured attention internationally. May 15 is also Sally Weiss’s birthday, a coincidence many online commentators have already called “poetic” and “almost unbelievable.” But here in Morgantown, public attention has settled on a very different detail. The shirt. Sally wears in the photograph a blue T-shirt featuring the unmistakable red Morgantown Mohigans caption along with the “M”. Within hours of the image reaching international news wires, local residents began contacting The Dominion Post, asking the same question: Why is one of the most recognized teenagers in the world wearing a Morgantown shirt while holding her baby brother in a Swiss NICU? So far, nobody seems entirely sure. The Weiss family has offered no explanation, and representatives declined to comment when reached Thursday afternoon. Yet speculation across social media has intensified rapidly. Some online theories suggest family ties to West Virginia. Others speculate Sally may have visited the region privately at some point over the past year. A few internet sleuths have even attempted to identify the exact year and version of the shirt based on lettering and color pattern. Local reaction has ranged from amused disbelief to outright pride. “I almost dropped my coffee,” said longtime Morgantown resident Elaine Mercer after recognizing the shirt in the photograph online. “You see this huge international story, and suddenly there’s our little ‘M’ right there in the middle of it.” Students at Morgantown High School reportedly began sharing screenshots of the image Wednesday morning, while local shops downtown have already seen increased interest in Mohigans apparel. “It’s surreal,” said one student. “Like somehow Morgantown accidentally ended up inside a world-famous photo.” The image itself has resonated far beyond celebrity coverage. In it, Sally Weiss sits in a hospital recliner, visibly emotional, holding her tiny premature brother against her chest. Oskar wears a knitted cap, with medical tubing still visible. Observers online have praised the photograph for its honesty and vulnerability. International media outlets have described the image as “humanizing,” “deeply authentic,” and “a defining family portrait of the year.” Here in Morgantown, however, many are simply fascinated by the quiet local detail hidden inside the frame. And until someone explains otherwise, the mystery remains: How exactly did a Morgantown Mohigans T-shirt find its way into one of the most talked-about photographs in the world? -- Sally chuckled. She then clicked on Elena’s reading suggestion. She pressed her lips and continued to read: -- The New York Times - The Girl in the NICU Chair How Sally Weiss Became the Most Watched Teenager in America — Without Ever Trying To There are photographs that capture a moment. And then there are photographs that quietly reorganize public feeling. By now, millions have seen the image: sixteen-year-old Sally Weiss seated in a hospital recliner in Zurich, holding her newborn brother, Oskar, against her chest. The baby is visibly premature, small enough to disappear almost entirely beneath the curve of her arm. A feeding tube remains taped gently beneath his nose. Her eyes are red from crying. She is smiling anyway. The photograph has spread with astonishing speed across continents and demographics, embraced simultaneously by parenting forums, fashion commentators, financial columnists, Christian communities, and celebrity-watch accounts. That breadth of appeal is unusual. Perhaps unprecedented. And yet the image does not feel like celebrity culture at all. It feels intimate. That distinction may explain why Sally Weiss has become such a singular public figure. Only a year ago, her name was largely unknown outside private financial and philanthropic circles connected to the immense Weiss family fortune, built initially under the late industrialist Oskar Weiss Sr. Estimates surrounding the family’s wealth remain speculative — their holdings are famously opaque — but analysts routinely place Sally among the wealthiest teenagers in America, both through inheritance structures tied to her grandfather’s estate and through future family succession. Ordinarily, such wealth produces a recognizable kind of public heir: polished, media-trained, curated into aspirational distance. Sally Weiss has somehow become the opposite. Her rise into public consciousness began violently. Last year’s private jet crash — an event that killed crew members and left Sally hospitalized with serious injuries — transformed her overnight into a subject of international attention. For days, rumors swirled around her condition. Then came the first grainy images of recovery: cautious steps through airports, physical therapy sessions, quiet outings with family. The public response surprised even experienced media observers. Rather than producing fascination rooted in glamour, Sally inspired something closer to protectiveness. Part of that stems from the curious contradiction she embodies. She belongs unmistakably to extraordinary wealth — Gulfstream jets, Zurich estates, philanthropic foundations, rumored supercars — and yet her public image is marked almost entirely by restraint. She drove a manual Ford Fiesta before being seen cautiously piloting her father’s BMW M5 through Miami. She appeared at Homestead Speedway training in an aging BMW 135i rather than posing beside exotic machinery. Her speeches about philanthropy emphasized dependence on others and the limitations of money itself. Her social media presence, sparse and philosophical, revolves less around luxury than faith, recovery, and gratitude. Now, with the birth of her brother Oskar, the mythology surrounding her has entered a new phase. The symbolism is almost too neat for fiction. Oskar Weiss Jr., named after the family patriarch whose fortune shaped much of the dynasty’s modern standing, was born prematurely on May 15 — Sally’s own birthday. The heiress who narrowly survived catastrophe now cradles the next generation of the family line. But what makes the image resonate is not dynastic symbolism. It is the visible absence of performance. Nothing in the photograph appears optimized for celebrity consumption. Sally wears a blue Morgantown high school T-shirt, prompting a separate frenzy of speculation about its origins. The hospital setting remains plainly visible. There is no attempt to conceal fragility. That authenticity has become culturally magnetic. For decades, wealth in public life has tended toward either theatrical excess or carefully engineered relatability. The Weiss family appears to have stumbled into something else entirely: visible humanity without surrendering privacy. Observers increasingly compare Sally not to contemporary celebrity figures, but to older archetypes — Princess Diana, Audrey Hepburn, even the restrained glamour associated with European royal families. Yet those comparisons feel incomplete. Diana was shaped by monarchy. Audrey by cinema. Sally Weiss emerged from modern catastrophe and digital culture. She belongs fully to neither. Perhaps that is why the public projects so much onto her. She appears simultaneously powerful and approachable, wounded and composed, privileged and oddly ordinary. And in an era exhausted by branding, irony, and performance, the sight of a teenage girl holding her premature brother in a NICU chair — visibly emotional, entirely unguarded — has proven more compelling than almost any polished image money could manufacture. For now, the Weiss family remains largely silent beyond carefully measured statements. Oskar remains under specialized neonatal care in Zurich. Bridget Pembroke-Weiss is recovering privately. Adrian Weiss has not spoken publicly. And Sally, improbably, has become something modern culture rarely produces anymore: Not merely famous. Beloved. -- Bonus: Sally turns 18 SYLVIA Magazine Special and Netflix Doccumentary  The interview had been postponed so many times it had almost become a joke between them. “You realize,” Amélie said while Jeffrey, the photographer, adjusted lighting across the Zürichsee terrace, “that half the magazine industry thinks you’re fictional.” Sally laughed immediately. “That’s probably healthier than knowing me.” At eighteen, she looked older than the world remembered and younger than the mythology surrounding her. The same contradiction still followed her everywhere. She wore cream trousers, a navy knit sweater despite the warm afternoon, and no visible makeup beyond whatever minimal intervention Jeffrey had insisted upon for the cameras. Oskar was somewhere inside the house with Bridget. Occasionally his laughter drifted through the open glass doors. Amélie looked down at her notes. “Okay,” she said. “Let’s begin with the obvious question.” “That I’ve avoided for two years?” “Yes.” Sally smiled. “Fair.” The camera light blinked red. “You’ve become,” Amélie began carefully, “a symbol for many people. Some see hope. Others see hypocrisy. You’ve been called everything from a modern princess to the smiling face of late capitalism. Does any of that bother you?” Sally leaned back slightly in her chair. “It would worry me more if everybody agreed about me,” she said calmly. Amélie laughed softly. “That’s a very dangerous answer.” “No, I mean it sincerely.” Sally tucked hair behind one ear. “People project things onto public figures constantly. Sometimes good things, sometimes terrible things. But none of those projections are actually a person.” “And who is the person?” Sally thought for a moment. “A sinner saved by grace,” she said simply. Amélie shook her head, smiling. “You know that answer will infuriate Manhattan.” “It infuriates parts of Miami too.” They both laughed. Amélie glanced toward the lake. “Let’s talk about faith then. Because that’s become impossible to separate from your public image.” Sally nodded slowly. “I expected criticism for being wealthy,” she said. “I didn’t expect people to become angry about Jesus.” “That surprised you?” “A little.” She shrugged gently. “Not intellectually. Christianity has always offended people. But emotionally maybe, yes. Because I wasn’t trying to provoke anyone.” Amélie leaned forward. “Then why speak publicly about it at all?” Sally was quiet briefly. “Because it’s true.” No hesitation. No theatrics. Just certainty. “The crash changed me,” she continued. “Not in a movie way. I didn’t wake up suddenly enlightened. But suffering strips illusions from you. Especially the illusion that control belongs to you.” “And now?” “Now I think life belongs to God whether I acknowledge Him or not.” Amélie let the silence sit. “You’ve also become a lightning rod for debates about capitalism, environmentalism, privilege…” she said eventually. “You read the criticism, don’t you?” “Oh yes,” Sally said, smiling again. “Apparently I personally melted Antarctica because I like manual transmissions.” Amélie burst out laughing. “You joke about it, but some of the criticism is intellectually serious.” “I know.” Sally nodded immediately. “And some of it is fair.” That answer seemed to surprise even Amélie. Sally continued before she could interrupt. “I think enormous wealth should make people uncomfortable. It makes me uncomfortable sometimes too. Power should make you nervous. If it doesn’t, something’s wrong.” “And yet you still fly privately.” “Yes.” “You still love cars.” “Very much.” “You still ordered the Porsche.” At that, Sally grinned outright. “Yes. And I regret nothing about the Porsche.” The two women laughed again. Then Sally’s expression softened slightly. “But the world people imagine online is usually too simple,” she said. “Industry is not abstract to me anymore. I’ve walked through factories. I’ve met engineers, mechanics, technicians, families whose lives exist around those industries. Civilization is complicated.” “You sound older saying that.” “I am older.” Amélie looked down briefly at another page. “The NICU photo changed everything, didn’t it?” For the first time in the interview, Sally looked genuinely emotional. “Yes,” she said quietly. “Oskar changed everything.” Her voice softened immediately when she said his name. “How?” Sally stared toward the water for several seconds before answering. “I think before him I was still trying to survive,” she said. “After him… I started wanting to protect.” Amélie did not interrupt. “That’s different,” Sally continued softly. “When you love somebody that small, your life stops feeling like it belongs entirely to you anymore.” Inside the house, faintly, Oskar laughed again. Sally smiled instinctively toward the sound without turning her head. The moment lingered. Then Amélie finally asked the question the public had wanted answered for years. “Do you understand why people are so fascinated by you?” Sally looked genuinely puzzled. “Not really,” she admitted. “You don’t?” “No.” She smiled slightly. “I think maybe people are just tired.” “Tired of what?” “Performance,” Sally said softly. “Noise. Anger. Branding. Everybody trying to become something.” “And you?” She thought carefully. “I’m just trying to become faithful.” Amélie smiled as Jeffrey swapped lenses again near the terrace railing. “You realize,” she said, “that you’ve become impossible to categorize.” Sally groaned softly. “That sounds exhausting.” “It is exhausting. Mostly for journalists.” “Good.” Amélie laughed and turned another page in her notebook. “Okay. We need to address the motoring situation.” Sally immediately covered part of her face with one hand. “Oh no.” “Yes.” “I knew this was coming.” “The public would like answers,” Amélie declared dramatically. “Specifically regarding the fact that you apparently spent half the summer terrorizing amateur drivers at Spa-Francorchamps in your father’s black Ferrari F40.” Sally burst out laughing. “That is wildly exaggerated.” “Marcus Veldt claims grown men were emotionally devastated.” “That part may be accurate.” Even Jeffrey laughed behind the camera. Sally leaned back in her chair, smiling helplessly. “The F40 is… intense,” she admitted. “There’s no safety bubble in that car. No electronics smoothing things over. It feels alive all the time.” “And you enjoy that.” “I respect it,” she corrected gently. “You don’t dominate a car like that. You cooperate with it.” Amélie raised an eyebrow. “That sounded suspiciously philosophical.” “I’ve spent too much time around engineers.” “What was it like?” Sally paused briefly, suddenly more thoughtful. “Honestly?” she said. “Terrifying at first.” That answer seemed to surprise Amélie. “The first laps, I remember thinking: people are insane for driving these things fast.” “And then?” “And then the car starts making sense.” She moved her hands slightly while speaking now, unconsciously describing motion. “The steering talks constantly. The chassis moves around underneath you. The turbos come in violently. It’s not modern-fast. It’s… mechanical-fast. Physical. You have to stay ahead of it mentally.” Amélie smiled. “You really love this.” “Yes,” Sally admitted softly. The lake breeze moved across the terrace. “And the stories about experienced drivers being upset?” Sally looked horrified. “Oh please don’t print it like that.” “So it’s true.” “No!” She laughed again. “I mean — maybe a little. Spa attracts serious amateur drivers. Some of them were very kind. Some were deeply offended a teenage girl in an old Ferrari kept appearing in their mirrors.” “That must have been satisfying.” Sally’s grin widened instantly. “A tiny bit.” Jeffrey nearly lost the camera from laughing. Amélie shook her head. “And then,” she continued dramatically, “two weeks later the internet catches you driving through the Alps in an orange Fiat X1/9 with a baby seat beside you like somebody escaped from a 1978 Italian postcard.” Sally looked down, smiling immediately. “That car belonged to my grandmother.” “Which grandmother?” “My father’s mother.” “And why the Fiat?” “Because it makes everybody happy.” The answer came so quickly Amélie stopped writing for a second. “What do you mean?” Sally shrugged lightly. “It’s impossible to drive that car aggressively. It’s tiny. Loud. Slow uphill. Beautiful in a ridiculous way. People wave at you constantly.” “And Oskar was with you?” “Yes.” “In the baby seat.” “Yes.” “The internet nearly died from those photographs.” Sally laughed softly again. “He slept through most of it.” Amélie leaned back. “The contrast fascinates people,” she said. “One week you’re in an F40 at Spa. The next week you’re touring Alpine villages in a tiny orange Fiat with your brother.” “I don’t understand why those things contradict each other.” Amélie looked at her carefully. “That may actually be the answer.” Sally tilted her head slightly. “I think people online sometimes assume identity has to become ideological,” she said after a moment. “Like if you care about craftsmanship or engineering, you must hate the environment. Or if you care about faith, you must reject modernity. Or if you’re wealthy, every joy becomes morally suspicious.” “And you disagree.” “I think human beings are more complicated than political tribes want them to be.” The evening light had begun turning golden now across the lake. Sally looked outward briefly before continuing. “My father taught me something important about cars,” she said quietly. “A machine is never only a machine. It’s people.” Amélie stayed silent. “The Ferrari exists because engineers gave part of their lives to it. The Fiat exists because somebody in Turin once believed ordinary people deserved beauty too. The Porsche exists because thousands of workers wake up every morning and build something carefully together.” She smiled slightly. “That matters to me.” Inside the house, Oskar laughed again somewhere in the distance. Sally smiled instinctively toward the sound. “And honestly,” she added, “the older I get, the less interested I am in abstract arguments from people who never build anything themselves.” The terrace went briefly quiet after that. Even Amélie did not interrupt immediately. Finally she closed her notebook gently. “You realize,” she said softly, “that some people are going to find that statement deeply provocative.” Sally looked genuinely puzzled. “Why?” Amélie smiled faintly. “Because you sound happy.” And for the first time in the interview, Sally seemed unable to answer immediately. Amélie turned another page slowly. “You know,” she said, “there’s a misconception that your life is permanently cinematic.” Sally laughed quietly. “It absolutely is not.” “No?” “No. Most days are surprisingly… administrative.” That answer amused Amélie immediately. “Administrative?” “I study constantly,” Sally said. “People imagine I wake up and drift elegantly between yachts and philosophy.” “You’re telling me that’s inaccurate?” “Tragically.” The terrace had grown quieter now as evening settled over Zurich. Jeffrey had mostly stopped photographing continuously and instead allowed the conversation to unfold naturally between frames. Sally tucked one leg beneath herself on the chair. “Cambridge is intense,” she admitted. “I knew it would be difficult academically, but I underestimated how mentally consuming it becomes when you’re also trying to function publicly at the same time.” “What does a normal day actually look like for you?” Sally exhaled softly through her nose. “Lectures. Reading. Tutorials. Endless papers. Meetings I can’t avoid. Foundation briefings. Calls with Miami. Calls with Zurich. Occasionally getting photographed buying toothpaste.” Amélie laughed. “And socially?” “That part I genuinely enjoy,” Sally said quickly. “People assume I resent the social obligations, but I actually don’t. I like dinners. I like conversations. I like hearing people smarter than me disagree with each other.” “That sounds very Cambridge.” “It is very Cambridge.” “And your cars?” At this, Sally smiled immediately. “My cars are therapy.” “There it is.” “I’m serious.” Amélie leaned forward. “Okay. Explain the Morgan.” Sally actually looked delighted now. “The Morgan happened accidentally.” “That’s how all dangerous relationships begin.” “Exactly.” She laughed again before continuing. “I saw it sitting outside a small specialist dealer and completely fell in love with it. It looked absurd. Tiny. British. Slightly annoyed with the modern world.” “A 2013 Plus Four.” “Yes.” “In dark green.” “Yes.” “With tan leather.” “You sound disturbingly informed.” Amélie raised her eyebrows dramatically. “Journalism.” Sally shook her head smiling. “It’s wonderful,” she said softly. “Completely impractical. The steering wriggles constantly. The cabin smells like oil and leather and rain. Nothing about it is efficient.” “And yet you adore it.” “I adore it.” “What does Adrian think?” Sally grinned. “My father thinks the Morgan is proof I inherited instability from both sides of the family.” Jeffrey laughed loudly somewhere behind the camera. “And yet,” Amélie continued, “you also quietly lease a BMW.” “That’s my responsible adult vehicle.” “So the billionaire heiress daily-drives a used Morgan and leases a practical German sedan.” “Yes.” “You understand why people find you confusing.” Sally smiled softly. “I think people confuse luxury with perfection.” “What does that mean?” “The Morgan isn’t perfect,” she said. “That’s why I love it. You feel weather in it. You hear mechanical noises. You smell the countryside. Driving becomes physical again.” The lake outside had darkened into deep blue now. “And the rumors are true,” Amélie pressed. “You disappear early on Saturdays.” Sally looked momentarily guilty. “Oh no.” “Oh yes.” “How do people know these things?” “You are one of the most photographed women in Europe.” “That feels deeply unreasonable.” Amélie laughed again. “So?” Sally hesitated briefly before surrendering. “Yes,” she admitted. “Sometimes I leave before dawn. If I haven’t been summoned home.” “In the Morgan.” “In the Morgan.” “Alone?” “Usually.” “And where exactly does Sally Weiss go at five in the morning in an old British roadster?” Sally looked out toward the lake for a long moment before answering. “Nowhere important.” “That’s not an answer.” “It’s the truthful answer.” Amélie waited. Sally smiled slightly. “I trace narrow roads through villages,” she said quietly. “Especially when it’s foggy.” “That sounds painfully romantic.” “It’s peaceful.” “What are you escaping from?” For the first time in several minutes, Sally became very still. Then she answered honestly. “Expectation.” The word lingered between them. Amélie did not interrupt. “Cambridge is wonderful,” Sally continued softly. “The Foundation matters enormously to me. My family matters. Public life matters sometimes. But there are mornings where I need silence badly enough that I physically go looking for it.” “In a Morgan.” “In a Morgan.” “And what happens on those mornings?” Sally smiled faintly. “Nothing.” “That’s the point?” “Yes.” The terrace fell quiet again. Finally Amélie spoke carefully. “You know what’s interesting?” she said. “What?” “You keep accidentally describing freedom.” Sally considered that for several seconds. Then, very softly, she nodded. -- Amélie smiled immediately when Oskar’s laughter echoed again through the house. “Tell me about him,” she said softly. And for the first time in the interview, Sally’s entire expression changed. Not more emotional exactly. Lighter. Completely defenseless. “Oh, Oskar is chaos,” she said instantly. Amélie laughed. “He’s two now.” “Yes, and already emotionally manipulative.” “That started early?” “Very.” Sally tucked her legs beneath herself slightly in the chair now, visibly relaxing. “He becomes completely desolate when I leave for Cambridge,” she admitted. “Like genuinely heartbroken. You’d think I was sailing to war in the nineteenth century.” “And when you come back?” Sally smiled helplessly. “He loses his mind.” The smile lingered before she continued. “He runs through the house screaming ‘SaWeee! SaWeee!’ at maximum volume.” Amélie visibly melted a little. “That is devastatingly adorable.” “It’s dangerous,” Sally corrected. “Because then he attaches himself to me physically for the next forty-eight hours.” “How so?” “He clings.” Sally laughed quietly. “Like a tiny emotionally unstable koala.” Jeffrey nearly choked laughing somewhere behind the camera. “He follows me everywhere,” Sally continued. “Kitchen. Garden. Garage. If I sit down, he appears instantly. If I disappear for thirty seconds, there’s panic.” “And Bridget?” “My mother thinks it’s hilarious.” “Really?” “Oh yes. Because it gives her freedom.” Amélie immediately understood. “The AMG.” “The AMG.” They both burst out laughing. “So your parents abandon you with the toddler.” “Enthusiastically.” Sally shook her head smiling. “My mother disappears with my father in her SL70 like she’s escaping civilization entirely.” “To where?” “Anywhere dramatic enough. Alps. Northern Italy. Random villages in Albania apparently.” “Albania?” “They became obsessed with Albania.” Amélie stared at her. “That is the most wealthy-European-parent sentence I’ve heard this year.” “I know.” “And you stay behind raising Oskar.” “Yes. Which honestly I adore.” The light across the lake had faded almost completely now. “What is he like?” Amélie asked softly. Sally’s smile returned instantly. “He’s absurdly curious. He wants to understand everything mechanically.” “That sounds familiar.” “Very.” She laughed quietly again. “He already lines up toy cars by manufacturer.” “No.” “Yes.” “That’s terrible.” “He also appreciates what he calls ‘good wheel engineering.’” Amélie covered her face laughing. “He’s TWO.” “I know. It’s deeply concerning.” “And Hot Wheels?” “Oh, he’s completely obsessed.” “With?” “Everything.” Sally smiled toward the house instinctively again. “He studies them. Like genuinely studies them. Suspension, colors, wheels. He has opinions.” “That child never had a chance.” “Absolutely none.” “And Froot Loops?” At this Sally groaned dramatically. “Oh no. Who told you?” “Bridget.” “Traitor.” Amélie laughed. “He’s addicted?” “Spiritually attached.” “To Froot Loops.” “Yes.” “American ones or European ones?” “The American ones apparently taste ‘more rainbow.’” The two women dissolved laughing again. Then Sally’s expression softened once more. “But honestly…” she said quietly, “he’s brought an enormous amount of peace into the family.” “How?” Sally thought carefully before answering. “I think after the crash everybody became… protective. Serious. Careful. Oskar broke that tension apart.” She smiled faintly. “A toddler doesn’t allow a family to remain emotionally frozen. He destroys dignity constantly.” “That may be healthy.” “It’s very healthy.” A pause settled between them. Then Amélie asked gently: “And for you personally?” Sally looked toward the dark water outside before answering. “He gave me somewhere to put my love.” The sentence landed softly between them. “He trusts me completely,” she continued quietly. “That’s beautiful, but also frightening. Children hand you their whole world without hesitation.” “And you take that seriously.” “Very.” Inside the house, tiny footsteps suddenly thundered somewhere in the hallway. Then a distant little voice: “SAWEEEE?” Sally burst into laughter immediately. “Well,” Amélie said, closing the notebook slowly, “I think your interview has ended.” And Sally was already halfway out of the chair. Amélie was still smiling as Sally disappeared briefly inside the house. There were muffled toddler noises. Laughter. A tiny dramatic protest. Then Sally returned carrying Oskar against her shoulder while he clutched a yellow toy Porsche in one hand and looked suspiciously at Jeffrey’s camera equipment. “Ladies and gentlemen,” Sally announced solemnly, “the management has arrived.” Oskar buried his face against her neck immediately. Amélie looked at them for a long second before quietly closing her notebook. “You know,” she said softly, “there’s really only one question left.” Sally sat back down carefully with Oskar in her lap. “That sounds dangerous.” “It probably is.” Amélie folded her hands. “Romantic life.” Sally froze. Not dramatically. Just enough. A tiny stillness. And then — almost involuntarily — her eyes moved sideways for the briefest fraction of a second. It happened so quickly most people would never have noticed it. But Amélie noticed. Of course she noticed. The direction itself said enough. Not toward Jeffrey. Not toward the house. Not toward escape. Toward the phone resting face-down beside Sally’s chair. And suddenly Sally looked vaguely horrified at herself for having reacted at all. A faint trace of pink appeared across her face. Oskar meanwhile attempted to chew the toy Porsche’s rear wing entirely unaware of history unfolding around him. Amélie slowly pressed her lips together. Then nodded once. Knowingly. The silence that followed became almost unbearable. Sally tried desperately to recover composure. “That is an extremely invasive question,” she informed Amélie with forced dignity. “Mhm.” “And I resent it deeply.” “Mhm.” “You’re enjoying this.” “A great deal.” Sally narrowed her eyes suspiciously. Amélie merely smiled serenely. “No comment?” she asked lightly. Sally opened her mouth. Closed it again. Looked briefly toward the lake. Then down at Oskar. Then somewhere vaguely into the middle distance where emotionally compromised eighteen-year-olds apparently go when trying not to reveal too much. Finally she managed: “I think some things deserve privacy while they’re becoming real.” Amélie’s expression softened immediately at that. No teasing now. No follow-up. Just understanding. She gave the smallest nod. And let the moment pass untouched.

I usually wet and mess my disposable diapers, but I do the same thing if I am in the mood for a cloth diaper. I wear panties under my diaper, a disposable liner inside my diaper and when I change, the poopy panties are rinsed in the toilet, hand washed more, my wet and maybe a little stained diaper is rinsed in the laundry tub and then put in a trash can with a flip top that I use as a diaper pail to be washed later. The panties hold my poopies snugly against my bottom and perineum while the wet cloth diaper under plastic pants are warm and really feel wet, which strangely I like.

I am sitting here in my morning pink NorthShore MegaMax USA diaper that is very wet with a firm poopie getting pancaked inside my diaper that feels more sticky again rather than squishy, and soooo comforting. I went potty in my diaper about 45 minutes ago, almost immediately after I got out of bed while in the kitchen getting coffee and checking emails. I don't mind changing and cleaning up after I soiled my diaper, simply a perfunctory responsibility that only takes a few minutes to become fresh, clean, sweet smelling and ready for a new diaper. I am thinking about a Seni Quatro diaper and plastic pants for work. I'll wet my diaper during the day, but no messies around colleagues.