Rainbow Diapers

Chapter 188 lives up to its title. For the first time in a long while, life in Zurich begins settling into something steady for Sally — early mornings, discipline, family routines, faith, quiet growth, and the comforting feeling that perhaps life no longer needs to feel chaotic all the time. Even the approaching shadow of her sixteenth birthday doesn’t trouble her much anymore. Adrian, however, has other ideas, and what begins as an attempt to help Sally find her place in this new season leads to conversations and possibilities she never expected. Around them, the house slowly reshapes itself around Oskar’s coming arrival, everyone trying to hold onto normality while they still can. But beneath the calm runs the quiet awareness that peace this fragile rarely lasts forever.   Chapter 188 – Calm Before the Storm Life, somehow, found its way back to something that resembled normal. Not the old normal. A softer one. A slower one. Saturday mornings, by quiet agreement, became sacred ground—no alarms, no schedules, no expectations. Just… rest. Sally took full advantage of that. Too much, perhaps. She lay curled under her covers, eyes half open, not quite asleep, not quite awake, listening to the muted sounds of the house breathing around her. Somewhere downstairs, Mia was already moving—cups, plates, the faint, unmistakable rhythm of coffee being prepared. And for once— Sally didn’t rush. She didn’t calculate. She didn’t think about routines or discipline or progress. She just… stayed. Curled. Warm. Comfortable. And yes—aware. She shifted slightly under the covers and felt it immediately. The soft, undeniable weight beneath her. Her diaper. Wet. Completely. Sally closed her eyes again, exhaling slowly. “That was… deliberate,” she murmured to herself. There had been a moment earlier. A clear, awake moment where she could have gotten up. She hadn’t. She smiled faintly, a little sheepish, a little defiant. Wetting her diaper had felt good. That simple. That childish. That… safe. And now, with the morning stretching lazily ahead and her mother finally back home, resting just down the hall— Sally allowed herself not to regret it too much. Still, guilt came anyway. Soft. Persistent. She rolled onto her back and stared at the ceiling. “You were doing so well,” she told herself quietly. Dry nights had been coming more often. Real progress. Something earned. And now— She glanced toward the bathroom. A mental image of neatly folded, unused diapers in the bin. Her quiet scoreboard. She huffed a small laugh. “Not today, apparently.” She sat up slowly, the blanket falling around her waist, and let her feet touch the floor. Mia would have noticed. Of course she would have. Mia noticed everything. But Mia also knew when not to say a word. That, Sally appreciated more than she could explain. She stood, stretched slightly, then reached for a pair of  shorts, pulling them on with practiced ease. Comfort first. Dignity second. Then she stepped out into the hallway, padding softly toward her mother’s room. She already knew what she’d find. And she was right. Bridget was propped comfortably in bed, sunlight filtering through the curtains, a tray nearby, the quiet calm of someone who had accepted stillness not as limitation—but as purpose. Oskar had changed everything. Rest wasn’t passive anymore. It was… mission. Sally leaned lightly against the doorframe for a second before stepping in, her smile already forming. “Morning, Your Majesty.” Bridget looked up, one eyebrow lifting immediately. “Morning, Your Pampered Highness.” Her eyes dropped—briefly, knowingly—and she pointed, ever so slightly. “Is that what I think it is?” Sally made a face, half embarrassed, half amused. “I woke up dry,” she said quickly. “I just… didn’t get up.” Bridget studied her for a moment. Then her expression softened into something warm, almost nostalgic. She patted the bed beside her. “You look cute.” A pause. “I’ll miss that side of you.” Sally rolled her eyes lightly but climbed onto the bed anyway, settling in cross-legged near the center, facing her mother. “Don’t get sentimental,” she muttered. Bridget only smiled. “Where’s dad?” Sally asked, glancing toward the door. “Getting coffee,” Bridget replied. “Fresh pot. He’s been working next to me since five.” Sally blinked. “Five?” Bridget nodded. “He claims it relaxes him to work from bed.” Sally snorted. “On a Saturday?” Bridget tilted her head. “Something about windmills.” Sally nodded slowly. “Oh. Right. He told me to set some time aside today. Wants me to look at it with him.” She glanced out the window, thoughtful for a second. Bridget reached for her hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. “You are really growing up.” Sally pressed her lips together. “Yeah.” A beat. “I am.” The door opened. Adrian stepped in, carrying a tray with practiced balance—coffee, cups, something warm, something precise. “Guten Morgen, Prinzessin.” His eyes landed on Sally. “Frühstück im Bett auch?” Sally turned toward him, already reaching for the mug. “Wenn es dir nichts ausmacht…” He handed it to her without comment, but his gaze lingered just a second longer than usual. “You look comfortable,” he murmured. Sally grinned, wrapping both hands around the warmth of the coffee. “That’s the point.” She nodded toward his own outfit. Nike track pants. Simple t-shirt. “Very royal,” she added. Adrian allowed the faintest smile. “Even royalty has its… informal hours.” He sat beside Bridget, leaning back against the headboard, one arm resting lightly behind her. For a moment— Nothing urgent. Nothing fragile. Just the three of them. Coffee. Light. And the quiet, steady sense that, for now— everything was exactly where it needed to be. -- With Easter behind her, Sally eased into something that felt like a new chapter—quietly, almost without announcement. No one had formally said it out loud, but it was understood in the rhythm of the house, in the way her father stayed close, in the careful stillness around her mother: they were in Zurich for the long run. Until Oskar came. That was simply how things were now. The mornings returned first. Sally slipped back into her early jogs, reclaiming them like something she had almost lost. Even today’s wet diaper—an annoyance she noted, then set aside—didn’t pull her down. Her short devotional, read half-awake but with intention, had steadied her. It always did. It gave the morning a center before anything else tried to claim it. The air was cool and damp, a thin mist clinging to the ground like it hadn’t decided whether to become rain. The sky hovered in that gray in-between, not quite night, not quite morning. Sally was on her final stretch now, her breath rhythmic, her stride lighter despite the effort. Up ahead, through the haze, she could see the outline of the house. Almost there. Her body was warm, almost hot under the hoodie, a contrast to the chill brushing her face. She pushed a little harder, finishing strong out of habit more than necessity. A car passed her slowly. Sally noticed it without really thinking—low, compact, something sporty—but then it lingered just enough to catch her attention. The engine note dipped, curious, almost assessing. Then it accelerated again, gliding past her and continuing up the road. She frowned slightly, watching it go. A moment later, she saw it turn into her driveway. Sally slowed, her stride breaking as she approached the gate. The car had already stopped at the entrance. There was a brief pause—just long enough for recognition—and then the gate opened smoothly, letting it in. She exhaled through her nose. Expected, then. Still… she didn’t recognize it. She stepped through the side entrance, taking the familiar path up, her pace now a walk. At the top of the driveway, her father stood on the porch, relaxed but clearly waiting. Beside him was a young woman—athletic, composed, with the kind of posture that didn’t come by accident. They were mid-conversation. They both turned as Sally approached. “Sally,” Adrian said, with that calm certainty that meant everything was already decided, “I’d like you to meet Laia Constantins. She’ll be taking care of general fitness around here.” There was the slightest pause. “Beginning with you.” Sally reached out automatically, shaking Laia’s hand, her grip firm despite the run. “Beginning with me?” she echoed, glancing up at her father, one eyebrow lifting. Adrian gave the faintest hint of a smile. “You did mention to Theresa that training alone was… less than ideal.” Sally made a face. “I complain once…” “And I listen,” he replied, mildly. Laia cleared her throat, stepping in smoothly. Her accent was soft, Mediterranean, her tone practical but warm. “The idea is to build something consistent,” she said, meeting Sally’s eyes. “You already have good habits. We just refine them.” Sally wiped her forehead with the back of her hand, still catching her breath. “Refine sounds suspicious.” Laia smiled slightly. “Jogging, tennis, swimming. Structured. From seven to nine. Efficient, not excessive.” Sally tilted her head, studying her. “Where are you from?” “Near Barcelona,” Laia said. “I moved here six months ago. My boyfriend is Swiss.” Sally let out a small breath that turned into a half-laugh. “Of course he is. Everyone ends up Swiss somehow. Laia’s smile widened just a fraction. There was a brief pause, the kind where something shifts from introduction to action. Sally glanced toward the side of the house, then back. “So… do we start now?” Laia didn’t hesitate. She gave a small nod, already in motion. “Do you have your tennis gear ready?” Sally blinked once, processing, then nodded. “Yeah. Yeah, I do.” “Good,” Laia said. “Ten minutes. Court.” Sally stood there for a second as Laia turned and walked with quiet purpose toward the side path, as if she had always known where everything was. She looked back at her father. He gave a small, satisfied nod. “You asked for this.” Sally exhaled, a mix of amusement and resolve crossing her face. “I did, didn’t I.” Then she pushed off, jogging lightly toward the house. Ten minutes. -- The discipline began quietly, and then took over everything. Sally felt it first in the mornings—the clarity of waking early, before the house fully stirred, when the light over Zurich was still soft and undecided. There was a small, private moment before anything else: awareness, assessment. She slipped a hand under the covers, half curious, half hopeful. Dry. She smiled to herself, a small, real victory that no one else needed to see. It happened more often now. Not perfect. Not every day. But enough to make her think. Maybe it was time to transition. Pull-ups, perhaps. She was sure there was a pack of DryNites tucked away somewhere in her bathroom cabinet. Not yet, she decided. But soon. She slid out of bed, moving with purpose now, the routine already calling her forward. Jogging clothes came next—shorts, tank top, running shoes. Light, simple, efficient. No overthinking. She tied her laces, pulled her hair back, then paused just long enough to sit. Her Bible rested open on her desk. At first, those few minutes had felt like discipline. Now they felt like grounding. She read slowly, not rushing, not trying to prove anything. She understood more now—not everything, but enough to see the connections, the movement beneath the words. Enough to feel that the text was not static, but alive. She closed it gently, slipped on her headband, and stepped out into the morning. The streets of Zurichberg welcomed her in their quiet order. The rhythm of her stride came easily now, her body waking with each step, breath steady, mind clearing. This was hers. No expectations. No audience. Just movement. By the time she returned, she was warm, flushed, fully awake. The showers were quick and cold—deliberately so. No lingering. No indulgence. Just reset. Then tennis. Back and forth. No easing into it. Laia did not believe in warm introductions to effort. “Again,” Laia would say, calm and relentless. Sally would serve. Miss. “Again.” Swing. Lunge. Recover. Reset. There was no softness in it, but there was no cruelty either. Just expectation. Precision. Discipline. Sally found herself responding to it—not resisting, but leaning into it. Her frustration sharpened her focus. Her mistakes became instruction, not failure. She learned quickly. And when her arms began to burn, when her legs felt heavy, Laia would simply nod toward the next phase. “Pool.” Another quick shower, then water. At first, swimming had been escape. Now it was work. Structured, intentional, measured. “Backstroke,” Laia instructed one morning. Sally blinked. “I thought swimming was supposed to be relaxing.” “It is,” Laia said, standing at the edge of the pool. “After you learn how to do it properly.” Sally pushed off, awkward at first, then gradually more controlled. The water forced honesty—every inefficiency exposed, every movement amplified. She adjusted, listened, corrected. Lap after lap. By the time she climbed out, her body felt used. Fully, properly used. Breakfast was different. It was still a family moment—warm, steady, anchored by presence—but it carried a new layer now. Jana hovered nearby, tablet in hand, never intrusive, but always there. A quiet signal. Fuel. Then work. Sally ate with real hunger now, no longer picking at food, but finishing it. Coffee, fruit, eggs, bread—whatever was set before her, she welcomed it. “Hungry?” Adrian would ask, amused. “Starving,” she’d answer, without shame. And then it shifted. She changed. Civilian mode, as she had come to call it. No sportswear. No lounge shortcuts. Structured clothes, even if simple. Jeans, a proper top, sometimes a light sweater. It was a signal—to herself as much as to anyone else. Now we work. Homeschool was immediate, focused, intense. No drifting. No half-attention. Concepts, questions, structure. Jana guided, corrected, pushed. Sally responded. Not always perfectly, but willingly. She had stopped resisting it. She leaned into it the same way she leaned into tennis. Midday came like a quiet reward. Siesta. One hour. No expectations. No performance. Just rest. Sally slipped into her t-shirt, pulled on a DryNite—just for fun—and lay down. The house softened around her. The world paused. It was her favorite moment of the day. Nothing. Late afternoons brought a different rhythm. She worked in the living room, often within reach of her mother, who had taken to reading with a kind of quiet devotion. Jane Austen volumes rotated steadily through Bridget’s hands, the familiar worlds offering comfort and distraction. “Which one now?” Sally would ask, glancing up from her notes. “Pride and Prejudice,” Bridget would answer, without looking up. Sally smiled. Of course. There was peace in that shared space—no need for constant conversation, just presence. Later, she often joined her father’s orbit. Sometimes, at his office. Sometimes virtually, through calls, Elena would appear on screen, composed and precise, guiding Sally through matters that felt increasingly real—her trust fund, the foundation, decisions that carried weight. Then business. Weiss Enterprises. Weiss International. Terms that had once sounded distant now took shape. Projects. Acquisitions. Structures. Strategy. Her father didn’t overwhelm her. He invited her in. “Tell me what you think,” he would say. And she did. Not always confidently. But honestly. Day after day. Monday to Friday. The routine didn’t loosen. It held. Relentless, in its way—but not crushing. Because everything pointed somewhere. Every effort connected. Every part had purpose. And for the first time, Sally didn’t feel like she was reacting to life. She was living it. -- Theresa had recruited Renée with surprising speed. The conversation had started before Bridget even left the hospital. Questions of supervision, monitoring, rest schedules, medication timing—all the practical realities of bringing a high-risk pregnancy home into a household that already functioned like a small ecosystem. Sally had been the one to bring Renée up. “My camp nurse,” she had said, almost casually at first. “She’s really good. And… I trust her.” That last part had mattered. Adrian, sitting at the edge of Bridget’s hospital bed with his reading glasses low on his nose and a tablet balanced against one knee, had looked up thoughtfully. “We hire by trust,” he had said simply. “That is a good suggestion, Sally.” Then he had glanced toward Theresa. Theresa had already been halfway through pulling out her phone. “I’ll look into it.” Apparently, “looking into it” in Theresa’s universe meant full background checks, references, logistical feasibility, housing coordination, credential verification, and somehow convincing Renée to temporarily relocate into the orbit of the Weiss household. And Renée had agreed. Now she moved through the Zurich house with surprising ease, as if she had always belonged there—not intimidated by wealth, not dazzled by architecture, not stiff around Adrian or Bridget. She simply arrived each morning with coffee, practical shoes, and the calm authority of someone who had spent years around worried mothers and exhausted families. And, to Sally’s amusement, she seemed just as invested in Sally’s wellbeing as Bridget’s. Sally sat cross-legged on her mother’s bed, oversized hoodie wrapped around her, coffee mug balanced carefully in both hands as Renée finished taking Bridget’s blood pressure. The room smelled faintly of coffee, hand cream, and the soft clean scent of freshly washed sheets. Rain tapped quietly against the Zurich windows. Bridget rested comfortably against a mountain of pillows, one hand absently over her stomach while Renée sat in a nearby chair reviewing numbers on a tablet. “Pressure looks good,” Renée said, tapping something onto the chart. “Which means your husband is allowed to stop hovering for at least… seven minutes.” Bridget smiled lazily. “He’ll never survive that long.” From somewhere downstairs came the faint sound of Adrian’s voice speaking German into a phone call, followed immediately by the sound of Mia politely redirecting someone at the front door. The house continued moving around Bridget’s stillness. Renée tapped another section on the screen. “Supplies,” she announced professionally, glancing up. For the next few minutes, the conversation became deeply, aggressively domestic. Women’s supplies. Vitamin refills. Prescription renewals. Electrolyte drinks Bridget tolerated. Which teas were acceptable and which “smelled like wet furniture,” according to Bridget. Sally sipped her coffee quietly, mostly listening. Then Renée looked up. “Anything you need, Sally?” Sally blinked. “Nope… I can’t think of anything…” “Mia mentioned you were running low on diapers,” Bridget murmured gently, in the exact tone mothers somehow reserved for publicly humiliating their children with affection. Sally immediately turned pink. Renée, thankfully, was not a problem. Renée had already seen her at peak disaster during Bible camp. There was very little mystery left between them. Still. “Uh…” Sally shifted slightly. “I started using DryNites.” Bridget blinked once. “Because you’re low on diapers?” Sally shook her head quickly, biting her lip. “No. Well. Sort of. But mostly because…” She looked down into her coffee mug. “I’ve been having a lot of dry nights.” That got Bridget’s full attention instantly. “And when I don’t,” Sally continued carefully, “it’s usually not bad anymore. I think…” She shrugged shyly. “I think I’m going back to normal.” For a moment, Renée simply watched the two of them quietly, almost academically interested in the emotional shift happening across the room. Then Bridget visibly brightened. “Sally!” she exclaimed softly. “That’s wonderful.” Sally shrugged harder now, embarrassed by the sudden enthusiasm. “Why didn’t you tell me?” Bridget asked. “Because I wasn’t sure,” Sally admitted honestly. “I didn’t want to get my hopes up.” She tucked one leg tighter beneath herself. “It sort of started after camp. What—like a month ago already?” She frowned thoughtfully. “I started getting dry mornings and then… I don’t know. I started trying harder.” Renée leaned back in her chair with obvious satisfaction. “I’m checking that off as a success,” she declared. Sally groaned softly into her coffee. Bridget chuckled warmly, one hand drifting automatically over her stomach again. “Well,” she mused, “from Sally’s diapers to Oskar’s diapers.” Renée grinned immediately. “It never stops,” she informed Sally cheerfully. “You’ve got several more years of diapers ahead in this house.” Sally huffed dramatically. “So I’m not the main subject of cuteness anymore.” Bridget immediately reached over and took Sally’s hand. “Oh,” she said softly, squeezing it gently, “you’ll always be my main subject.” Sally looked down quickly to hide the smile that arrived too fast and too warmly to control. Renée noticed anyway. She wisely pretended not to. -- “Your mother says you are more relaxed lately. I see it too,” Adrian confided. They sat in the corner sofa of his office after dinner, the atmosphere quieter now that the house had settled for the evening. Bridget had been helped upstairs earlier, firmly ordered into bed by both Renée and Adrian in what had become a nightly united front. Renée had gone home for the day. Mia moved quietly somewhere in the lower level of the house, restoring order to the kitchen. Outside, Zurich glowed softly under the wet shimmer of spring rain. Adrian sat comfortably with a glass of brandy in hand, one ankle resting over the opposite knee. Sally curled sideways into the sofa opposite him, socked feet tucked beneath her, a cup of tea warming her hands. She had to suppress a blush. “Yeah,” she admitted quietly. “I am.” She looked down into her mug for a moment, searching for the shape of the thought before continuing. “I guess everything feels more… real now. Less abstract.” Adrian raised one eyebrow with genuine interest and took a slow sip of his drink. “Care to explain?” Sally smiled faintly, almost embarrassed by how much sense it made inside her own head. “Oskar is about to be born. Mom seems peaceful again. And…” She hesitated. “Even all this heiress stuff.” That made Adrian’s mouth twitch faintly. “Very technical term,” he murmured. Sally rolled her eyes. “You know what I mean.” “I do.” She leaned back slightly against the sofa cushions. “Getting to know your businesses, the foundation, my trust fund… all of it felt terrifying before. Too big. Like I was expected to suddenly become this…” She gestured vaguely. “Competent adult empire person.” Adrian actually laughed softly into his glass. “That is, tragically, not an official title.” “But now,” Sally continued, smiling slightly herself, “I think I understand something.” She paused, thinking carefully. “Not understand everything,” she corrected. “More like… understanding enough to stop panicking.” That got Adrian’s full attention. Sally spoke slowly now, trying to untangle something she had only recently begun to realize. “Seeing how many good people are involved helps. Elena. Theresa. Your executives. The lawyers. Everybody.” She shrugged lightly. “It made me realize I don’t have to personally hold the entire universe together in order for things to function.” Adrian nodded immediately. “That,” he said quietly, “is exactly how it works.” He leaned back slightly. “You trust people. You study. You learn over time. No worthwhile thing is ever a one-man job.” Sally nodded eagerly. “Yes. Exactly.” Her eyes brightened now, following the thought further. “And I think camp sort of taught me that first.” Adrian looked interested. “How so?” Sally smiled to herself. “I didn’t understand half the things we talked about at Bible camp,” she admitted honestly. “Sometimes they’d mention history or theology or ideas and I’d feel completely lost.” A pause. “But instead of making me feel stupid, it made me curious.” She turned her tea mug slowly between her palms. “It felt like someone had opened a door.” Her voice softened slightly. “I didn’t need every answer immediately. I just needed to know I was walking in the right direction.” The office grew quieter after that. Rain against glass. The low hum of the city outside. Sally looked down briefly, then up again. “And I guess I started applying that to life too.” She spoke more carefully now, the realization still fresh enough to surprise her. “I don’t actually need complete control to feel safe.” Adrian watched her very closely now. Sally continued softly: “I just need to know God is guiding things. That I care. That I’m learning. That clarity comes later sometimes.” She exhaled slowly, almost startled by herself afterward. “I didn’t expect all that to come out at once.” Adrian sat a little straighter. There was unmistakable pride in his eyes now—not pride in wealth or performance, but something quieter and deeper. He raised his glass slightly toward her. “Well,” he said warmly, “here’s to unlocking the mysteries of life.” A beat. “No wonder you’re exiting your wet morning phase.” “Dad!” Sally’s eyes flew wide open in horror. Adrian’s face remained perfectly composed. “What?” he asked innocently. “I’m observing measurable progress.” Sally buried half her face behind her tea mug, mortified and laughing at the same time. “That is deeply illegal father behavior.” “Bible camp did wonders for you,” Adrian continued calmly, ignoring the accusation entirely. Sally lowered the mug slowly. “It did,” she admitted quietly. Her voice softened again. “It anchored me.” She stared briefly toward the rain-dark windows. “I feel less afraid now.” A pause. “Before, life felt random.” Her fingers tightened slightly around the mug. “Now it doesn’t.” Adrian watched her for several long seconds. Then, more gently: “Do you miss Florida?” Sally thought about it seriously. “I miss my art studio,” she admitted first. “And driving.” That made Adrian smile faintly. “Here I still feel like a kid,” she continued. “Being driven around everywhere.” She chuckled softly. “It’s humbling.” “I’m afraid,” Adrian sighed dramatically, “that even my deep pockets cannot influence Swiss licensing laws.” “That’s tragic.” “Truly.” But then his expression shifted slightly. Thoughtful. “I may not be able to solve the driving issue immediately,” he said slowly, “but I might be able to do something about the studio you miss.” Sally looked up instantly. “What?” Adrian made a face, pretending caution. “I don’t know yet.” Which usually meant he already had three ideas and two architects mentally assembled. “But,” he said, pointing lightly at her with his glass, “let me think about it.” Sally narrowed her eyes immediately. “That means you already thought about it.” Adrian smiled into his brandy. “I have absolutely no idea what you’re talking about.” -- It was a work lunch. Not a symbolic “bring your daughter to lunch” outing, either. Adrian had an actual meeting downtown with one of Weiss International’s senior tax consultants, and sometime over breakfast he had casually suggested Sally come along. “Educational,” he had called it. Which usually meant: Sit quietly, observe, and accidentally receive a masterclass in how the adult world actually functions. So Sally went. She dressed carefully without overthinking it—dark jeans, white cashmere sweater, light leather jacket. Comfortable, polished, Zurich appropriate. Somewhere between teenager and young executive-in-training. The restaurant itself was discreet in the aggressively Swiss way. Elegant without announcing itself. Soft lighting, polished wood, waiters who moved almost invisibly, and tables spaced far enough apart for conversations to remain private. The lunch moved efficiently. The consultant—a silver-haired man named Keller with perfect posture and impossibly neat cufflinks—spoke with Adrian in calm, precise terms while Sally listened quietly. Corporate structures. Tax exposure. American holdings. Swiss frameworks. Foundation implications. Future asset shielding. Half the terms floated somewhere beyond Sally’s current expertise, but she followed more than she expected. Not because she understood every detail, but because she had begun recognizing patterns. Questions mattered. Structure mattered. People mattered. She watched her father closely during the conversation. Adrian never dominated the room. He guided it. Redirected. Clarified. Asked short questions that somehow forced precise answers. By dessert, Sally found herself genuinely fascinated. The grilled chicken had been perfect. The pasta salad light and delicate. Dessert involved chocolate so Swiss it almost felt diplomatic. And then the meeting ended. Keller stood, shook hands warmly, nodded respectfully toward Sally, and disappeared into the muted rhythm of the restaurant. Sally expected her father to rise too. He didn’t. Instead, Adrian leaned back slightly and signaled the waiter. “Two expressos.” Sally looked at him curiously. “No siesta today,” Adrian commented after the waiter disappeared. “We have things to do.” That immediately got her attention. Sally waited. Curious silence stretched comfortably between them as the coffees arrived on a silver tray. Tiny porcelain cups. Elegant dark chocolate squares beside them. Sally lifted her expresso cautiously and smelled it first. Perfect. She broke off a small piece of chocolate and watched her father over it. Adrian checked his watch calmly. “We’ve got an appointment in twenty minutes.” Sally said nothing. That only amused him. He let the silence linger a moment longer before finally resting his gaze fully on her. “Your birthday is coming up, kid.” Sally smiled faintly already, sensing danger. “I had visions,” Adrian continued solemnly, “of driving you personally to the Ford dealership so you could buy that Mustang you want so badly.” Sally’s expression softened immediately into something wistful. The Mustang. Manual V8. Loud. American. Perfect. “But,” Adrian continued, lifting one finger slightly, “that is clearly not happening anytime soon.” Sally sighed dramatically into her coffee. “Tragic.” “Deeply.” He took a sip. “Unless,” he added mildly, “you’d like to buy one in Switzerland that you legally cannot drive.” Sally immediately shook her head. “I’ll wait.” Adrian nodded once. “I suspected you would.” Another sip of expresso. Then his expression shifted slightly. “But there’s the other issue.” Sally frowned slightly. “The studio.” Immediately, her attention sharpened. That was different. That mattered. She nodded carefully. “That,” Adrian said, “appears solvable.” Sally leaned forward slightly. Adrian gestured calmly with his cup. “It cannot realistically happen inside the house. There’s no practical space for it. And apparently,” he added dryly, “art involves a surprising amount of chaos.” Sally laughed softly. “It does.” “I have learned this.” Her eyebrows rose. “You researched this?” Adrian shook his head with dignity. “Theresa researched this.” That made Sally laugh properly now. “She probably sent you a full operational report.” “She did,” Adrian confirmed gravely. “Paint. Solvents. Ventilation requirements. Large canvases. Dirty rags.” “Exactly.” “I also cannot build additional structures on the property.” “Even with your deep pockets?” Sally teased. “Even with my deep pockets,” Adrian sighed dramatically. “Switzerland would become unbearable if every wealthy Swiss citizen built random emotional support buildings.” “You’re right,” Sally chuckled. Adrian leaned back slightly then. “So,” he announced calmly, “I shall do what every loving father eventually does for his growing daughter when she needs additional space.” Sally narrowed her eyes immediately. That tone never ended normally. “What?” Adrian smirked slightly. “I’m buying you a place.” Sally froze. Actually froze. “…Like,” she blinked slowly, “an apartment?” Adrian shrugged lightly. “Or something adjacent to an apartment. Studio space. Office space. Somewhere productive. Somewhere creative.” Sally sat back completely stunned. “Dad,” she said carefully, “I’m fifteen.” A beat. “Okay, almost sixteen.” Another beat. “Are you kicking me out?” Adrian’s face changed instantly. Pure alarm. “No!” He reached across immediately and grabbed her hand. “Absolutely not.” Sally stared at him, still horrified. “You live with us,” Adrian said firmly. “Until you’re forty if necessary. Non-negotiable.” Sally’s shoulders relaxed visibly. Adrian exhaled slowly. “Your mother is going to kill me after she has this baby.” Sally laughed weakly now. “You presented that terribly.” “Yes.” He rubbed his forehead once. “What I meant,” he corrected carefully, “is something that belongs to you.” His tone softened now. “Your own workspace. Somewhere you can create. Study. Meet people professionally. Work on foundation projects. Paint without poisoning the household.” Sally smiled slightly at that. Adrian gestured lightly. “We live in a beautiful old house. But it was not built for modern operational realities.” “That sounds very corporate.” “It is very corporate.” “And Oskar,” Adrian continued calmly, “will eventually become a small screaming operational reality himself.” That made Sally laugh again. “And,” Adrian added knowingly, “peace and quiet may become increasingly theoretical.” “Very theoretical,” Sally agreed. She finished her expresso thoughtfully now. Then looked back at him. “You really thought this through.” Adrian’s expression turned slightly smug. “I occasionally have useful ideas.” Sally shook her head slowly, smiling despite herself. Then finally: “Okay.” She set down the tiny porcelain cup. “Let’s meet that realtor.” -- Downtown Zurich rewarded people who walked. Adrian insisted on it. The city was built for movement at human speed—stone streets, immaculate façades, polished shop windows, quiet trams humming through intersections with impossible precision. Expensive cars existed everywhere, of course, but in central Zurich true luxury often looked like not needing to hurry. She matched his pace easily now, hands tucked into the pockets of her light jacket as they crossed narrow streets lined with elegant storefronts and old buildings that somehow managed to look both ancient and aggressively expensive at the same time. “Do all Swiss people secretly own a scarf and an investment portfolio?” Sally wondered aloud as another perfectly dressed couple passed them. Adrian glanced sideways. “Yes.” Sally snorted softly. “And the scary thing,” Adrian added, “is that half of them probably inherited both.” She laughed. The weather had settled into one of those cool Zurich spring days where the sky remained pale silver but the city still glowed softly underneath it. Café terraces had begun to fill. People lingered over expressos with the kind of deliberate calm Americans usually reserved for vacations. Adrian finally stopped before a discreet old building near Paradeplatz. No giant signs. No flashy branding. Just understated brass lettering beside the door. Sally looked up at him. “This feels expensive.” “It is expensive,” Adrian replied calmly. “That’s why we’re here.” Inside, the office was exactly what Sally imagined wealthy Zurich real estate should look like. Quiet elegance. Cream walls. Dark wood. Soft lighting. Architecture books carefully positioned on tables. A faint smell of coffee, paper, and expensive perfume. The receptionist greeted Adrian by name immediately. Of course she did. They were ushered into a private sitting room overlooking a narrow street below, where trams slid past with mathematical smoothness. Coffee appeared almost immediately. And chocolate. Swiss hospitality apparently demanded both. Sally had just picked up one of the tiny immaculate chocolates when the door opened. The woman entering looked to be in her mid-thirties, poised without stiffness, dark blonde hair pulled neatly back. Her suit was elegant but understated in that terrifyingly European way that made simple clothing probably cost a small fortune. “Mr. Weiss,” she greeted warmly. Then her attention shifted naturally to Sally. “And you must be Miss Weiss.” Her English was flawless, touched only by the faintest Zurich softness around certain vowels. “Sally, this is Moira Keller,” Adrian said. “She’s agreed to help us.” Moira smiled and shook Sally’s hand warmly—not formally, not condescendingly either. “A pleasure.” Sally nodded politely. “You too.” Moira sat across from them with a slim leather portfolio resting against one knee. “I’ve been given some general direction,” she said carefully, glancing briefly toward Adrian before returning her attention fully to Sally. “But I would rather hear from you.” That immediately caught Sally off guard. “Me?” Moira smiled gently. “It would help if I understood how you imagine this space.” Sally blinked. Nobody had actually asked her that yet. Not really. She looked briefly toward her father. Adrian only lifted his expresso slightly. “Your project,” he murmured. Sally suddenly felt absurdly self-conscious. “I don’t know,” she admitted awkwardly. “I mean… I’ve never done this before.” “That is perfectly acceptable,” Moira assured her calmly. “Most people haven’t.” That helped a little. Sally tucked one leg beneath herself slightly in the chair and searched for words. “I don’t want something flashy.” Moira nodded once immediately, as if mentally confirming something already suspected. “Not modern glass towers,” Sally continued carefully. “Not… billionaire magazine stuff.” Adrian hid a smile behind his coffee cup. Moira’s expression softened slightly. “You want warmth.” Sally looked relieved someone understood. “Yes.” Moira leaned forward slightly now. “Do you imagine yourself living there,” she asked carefully, “or working there?” Sally paused. Then: “Both. But mostly creating there.” That seemed important. Moira nodded thoughtfully. “So not merely a residence.” “No.” Sally’s confidence strengthened slightly now that the ideas were taking shape.   “I think…” She hesitated. “I think I want separate spaces.” “What kind of spaces?” “A studio,” Sally answered first, more quickly this time. “A real one. Big enough for canvases and supplies and mess.” Moira smiled slightly. “So the mess is non-negotiable.” “Apparently,” Adrian murmured solemnly. Sally rolled her eyes. “And another room,” Sally continued, “for work.” “Office work?” Moira asked. Sally nodded. “Foundation meetings. Studying. Calls. Reading. Maybe working with my dad sometimes.” Moira’s expression shifted subtly there—not surprised exactly, but more attentive now. “And the living area?” she prompted gently. Sally thought carefully. “Comfortable,” she answered finally. “But useful.” Moira nodded. “So people can gather there.” “Yes.” “Not formal entertaining.” “No,” Sally shook her head immediately. “More like…” She searched for it. “Working sessions.” “A creative apartment,” Moira summarized softly. Sally looked relieved again. “Yes.” Moira studied her quietly for a moment. “And the view?” That question surprised Sally most. She frowned thoughtfully. “I don’t think I want something too distracting.” Now even Adrian looked interested. Moira tilted her head slightly. “What do you mean by distracting?” Sally searched carefully for the feeling. “I don’t want to just stare out the window all day.” The room grew quieter. “I want…” She hesitated. “A city view, maybe. Rooftops. Streets. Trams. Life.” Moira’s eyes brightened immediately. “Not spectacle,” she said softly. Sally looked up quickly. “Yes.” Moira nodded slowly now, fully understanding. “You want atmosphere.” Sally smiled. “Exactly.” “And old Zurich?” Moira suggested gently. “Not ultra-modern?” “Yes.” “Wood floors.” “Yes.” “Light.” “Yes.” “Character.” “Yes.” “A place where one can think.” That one made Sally pause. Then nod quietly. “Yes.” Moira leaned back slowly, crossing one leg elegantly over the other. “Well,” she said calmly, “now we know what we are actually looking for.” -- The following morning arrived under a pale Zurich sky, washed in the soft silver light that seemed particular to early May. The rain from previous days had disappeared, leaving the streets damp only in memory. Trees along Zürichberg had fully awakened into spring, their fresh green leaves glowing almost translucent whenever sunlight slipped through the clouds. Sally stood near the tall front windows fastening her light jacket when she spotted the dark gray Volvo XC90 easing quietly through the gates. “She’s punctual,” Adrian observed from behind her. “She’s Swiss,” Sally replied dryly. That earned the faintest twitch of amusement from her father. The Volvo rolled to a smooth stop in front of the house. A moment later, Moira Schneebeli stepped out. She looked exactly how Sally remembered her from the previous afternoon at the real estate office: elegant without excess, dark blonde hair neatly pinned back, camel-colored coat, low heels practical enough for Zurich sidewalks, and the calm, efficient posture of someone who spent her life solving expensive problems discreetly. She greeted Adrian first. “Good morning, Mr. Weiss.” Then Sally. “Miss Weiss.” Sally still wasn’t used to that. “Morning,” she smiled. Moira opened the rear passenger door herself. “I thought it would be easier if I drove today. Parking around Scheuchzerstrasse can be… optimistic.” Adrian nodded approvingly. “Wise decision.” The drive down from Zürichberg unfolded through winding streets Sally knew well by now. Tram cables crossed overhead in neat geometry. Cyclists drifted past bakeries. Elderly Swiss couples walked tiny dogs with military seriousness. Moira drove with practiced confidence, one hand light on the wheel. “You’ll notice the district changes gradually,” she explained as they descended toward Kreis 6. “Zürichberg becomes less secluded, more academic. This part of the city grew heavily alongside the university expansion.” Adrian glanced out the window. “Doctors, professors, lawyers.” “And old Zurich families,” Moira added. “Many never leave.” Sally watched the city slide past outside. The streets here felt narrower than around their house, but somehow warmer. Less insulated. More lived-in. “You mentioned yesterday you wanted somewhere productive,” Moira continued, briefly meeting Sally’s eyes through the mirror. “This area is very good for that. It’s central without becoming chaotic.” “Avoiding chaos sounds healthy,” Sally murmured. Moira allowed herself a small smile. “You also have excellent tram connections. Central station is minutes away. The university district is nearby. Cafés, galleries, bookstores. It’s a neighborhood people actually use.” “And not just admire from windows,” Adrian added. “Exactly, Mr. Weiss.” They passed elegant stone façades, carefully maintained balconies, old shutters, carved entryways darkened softly by time. Nothing screamed for attention. That was what made it impressive. Zurich confidence. Sally leaned slightly toward the window as they turned onto Scheuchzerstrasse itself. The street climbed gently, lined with mature trees and stately early-twentieth-century buildings in muted creams and grays. Tram tracks hummed faintly somewhere nearby, though the street itself remained calm. Moira slowed the Volvo. “This section was developed heavily around the turn of the century,” she explained. “You’ll see Jugendstil influence mixed with traditional Swiss urban architecture. Not grand in the Parisian sense. More restrained. Vertical. Practical elegance.” “That sounds very Swiss,” Sally observed. “It is very Swiss,” Moira replied calmly. The Volvo finally eased to a stop along the curb. “There we are.” Sally stepped out first. The building rose above her with quiet dignity — pale stone, tall windows, wrought iron balconies, softened edges worn by over a century of weather and seasons. And above it all— the turret. Not dramatic. Not fairy-tale extravagant. Just enough to give the roofline personality. Sally tilted her head upward slowly, hands in her jacket pockets, studying the old structure against the pale spring sky. -- Moira led them through the heavy front doors and across a polished entrance hall that smelled faintly of old wood, stone, and expensive renovation work done properly. “The building dates from 1908,” she explained as they stepped into the compact elevator. “The upper floors were fully reworked about three years ago. Structural modernization, insulation, climate systems, electrical, all discreetly integrated.” The elevator climbed softly. When the doors opened directly into the apartment, Sally blinked. This was not what she had expected. The space unfolded in warm light and quiet elegance — unmistakably modern, yet somehow still belonging to the old building. Wide oak floors reflected the pale daylight pouring through tall windows. Original ceiling beams had been preserved, dark against soft white walls. The angles of the roofline gave the entire apartment personality without feeling cramped. The living room and kitchen flowed together naturally, spacious without becoming cavernous. Matte stone counters, brushed metal fixtures, hidden appliances. Tasteful. Understated. Very Zurich. And quiet. That struck Sally almost immediately. Even standing in the center of the apartment, with windows partially cracked open toward the city, there was no oppressive noise. Only distant tram sounds softened by height and stone. Moira watched Sally carefully. “The top level was designed as a split-level penthouse,” she explained. “The intention was to preserve the character of the roof structure while creating more usable volume.” Sally slowly approached the windows. The rooftops of Zurich stretched outward in layered gray-blue geometry beneath the soft spring sky. Church towers. Tram wires. Trees beginning to bloom. Not overwhelming panoramic spectacle — just enough city to feel alive. “It feels…” Sally searched for the word. “Calm?” Moira suggested gently. Sally nodded. They climbed the staircase to the upper level. The mood shifted slightly there — more private, more intimate beneath the sloped ceilings and restored beams. One room immediately felt perfect as an office: quiet corner windows, enough wall space for shelves, soft northern light. But the second room— Sally stopped there longest. The studio. Tall angled windows flooded the room with diffused daylight. The ceiling rose unexpectedly high toward the old turret structure, exposing timber beams that gave warmth to the modern renovation. There was enough open wall space for canvases, easels, storage, even a long worktable. And unlike glossy luxury apartments that felt designed for magazines, this room felt usable. Creative. Alive. Moira noticed Sally slowly turning in place, imagining it already. “The previous owner was an architect,” she said softly. “He bought the top floors before the renovation and worked closely with the designers during the restoration. Most of what you see was created around the way he liked to live and work.” Sally looked around again, almost protective already. “I understand why.” -- Adrian, naturally, refused to let Sally decide after seeing only one property. “Never buy the first thing you fall in love with,” he had declared with calm Swiss certainty. So Moira spent the remainder of the afternoon escorting them across Zurich. The second apartment was everything modern Zurich admired. Floor-to-ceiling glass, polished concrete, sleek lines, immaculate lighting. It overlooked busy tram corridors and elegant downtown movement. From the upper floors, the city felt alive beneath them — efficient, stylish, expensive. Sally appreciated it immediately. But only intellectually. “It feels like a hotel,” she finally admitted quietly as they stood near the enormous windows watching trams glide below. Adrian had said nothing, but Moira noticed the tiny nod he gave. The third property swung in the opposite direction. An older apartment in a beautifully preserved historic building. Warm wood. Cozy corners. Deep window seats. The sort of place one imagined rainy evenings and bookshelves. But something was missing. Sally wandered through the rooms politely, trying to feel it. She never did. Too enclosed. Too careful. Too much someone else’s memory. By the time they returned to Zürichberg, the soft gold of late afternoon had settled over the city. Sally stepped into the house quieter than usual, thoughtful in the deep, absorbed way Adrian recognized immediately. Bridget looked up from the sofa in the living room, blanket over her legs, one hand resting automatically over her stomach. She watched Sally for about three seconds. Then she smiled knowingly. “You found it.” -- “Your birthday is coming up,” Bridget finally admitted. Sally looked up from her breakfast plate. She had showered and changed after the morning’s punishment with Laia — tennis first, then swimming — and still carried the faint healthy flush of exertion across her cheeks. Her damp hair was tied back loosely, and she sat comfortably at the breakfast table in one of her “civilian mode” outfits: dark jeans and a soft cream sweater. Outside, the pale Zurich morning hung cool and gray over the garden. Laia had left half an hour earlier after deciding Adrian needed “serious rehabilitation” regarding his tennis footwork. Sally had laughed so hard at that she nearly lost a rally. Now she shrugged lightly. “I don’t mind a normal birthday. Your birthdays were quiet.” It was true. Bridget and Adrian had celebrated their birthdays only weeks before, and both occasions had been almost stubbornly understated. Good dinners. Flowers. A cake. Family time. No parties. No press. No extravagant gestures. The pregnancy had changed the emotional gravity of the house. Even Sally’s unfinished painting for Adrian still sat abandoned in Coral Gables, half completed in her old studio. Bridget rested her hand automatically over the curve of her stomach before answering. “It was supposed to be grand,” she admitted softly. “Sweet sixteen. First new car. Celebrating with your friends. Something memorable.” Her expression turned faintly apologetic. “I’ve been avoiding talking about it. It makes me kind of sad.” Sally immediately looked up. “Don’t,” she said firmly, almost protective now. “Now is about Oskar. And you. Sixteen doesn’t mean anything right now. Maybe later.” Bridget watched her daughter carefully then. There was no bitterness in Sally’s voice. Just perspective. Just growth. Adrian entered the dining room at that moment, sleeves rolled neatly, looking freshly shaved and fully awake in the efficient Swiss businessman way Sally still found mildly suspicious before nine in the morning. Mia followed behind carrying another platter — scrambled eggs, sausage, fresh bread still warm. Adrian thanked her quietly and sat down across from Sally. “Sweet sixteen always means something,” he declared calmly as he unfolded his napkin. “But yes, it probably won’t become front-page news. At least not immediately.” His eyes softened as he studied Sally across the table. “You’re a darling, you know that?” Sally nodded seriously. “Yeah,” she replied. “And I plan to capitalize on that.” For a second Adrian simply stared at her. Then Bridget burst into laughter. Real laughter. The kind that had become rarer over the previous weeks. Adrian leaned back in his chair and pointed at Sally accusingly. “That,” he informed Bridget, “is exactly my kind of daughter.” Sally grinned and reached for another piece of toast. “Well,” she shrugged, “if I’m not getting a Mustang, emotional manipulation is all I have left.” “Manipulation?” Adrian pressed a hand dramatically against his chest. “After I buy you a penthouse?” “A split-level penthouse,” Sally corrected. “That’s emotionally different.” Bridget laughed again, shaking her head gently against the back of her chair. For a few minutes after that, breakfast turned wonderfully ordinary again — coffee, toast, Zurich weather, Laia’s merciless tennis drills, and Adrian defending his aging backhand with wounded dignity while Sally mercilessly imitated his footwork around the table. -- They rode back in silence. Not entirely because the black Tesla taxi glided through Zurich so quietly it almost felt detached from reality itself — though Sally did feel mildly guilty sitting there after so recently reveling in the snarling brutality of Adrian’s Ferrari F40. The contrast was absurd. The Tesla floated. The Ferrari attacked. “You look good, kiddo,” Theresa finally remarked from beside her. The words came softer than usual. There really hadn’t been time earlier. Between the stylists, the whispered consultations, the alarming total quietly placed onto Adrian’s card, and Theresa’s visible satisfaction at the final result, deeper conversation had simply never happened. But now, alone in the muted cabin of the taxi, Theresa finally studied Sally properly. The softer hair framing her face. The healthier color in her cheeks. The fact she looked sixteen now instead of merely young. Sally shook her head lightly, fingertips brushing the dark silky strands resting against her shoulders. “I feel… soft.” Theresa barked a small laugh. “You are.” Sally rolled her eyes toward the rain-dimmed window. Then Theresa’s phone buzzed. Once. Twice. She glanced down casually at first. Then froze. Her eyes widened only slightly, but Sally knew that expression instantly. Theresa’s face whenever she mentally swore in military vocabulary while remaining externally civilized. Sally sat straighter immediately. “What?” Theresa closed her eyes for half a second and pressed her lips together. “Well,” she exhaled carefully, “we’re going home anyways…” Sally didn’t move. Didn’t blink. Theresa turned toward her with a controlled little smile. “It was going to happen,” she said quietly. “The question was when.” A cold heaviness settled instantly into Sally’s stomach. “Theresa?” “Your mom’s heading to the hospital,” Theresa answered gently. “Another episode. Renée’s getting her ready now.” Sally slumped back against the seat. Of course there had always been a possibility. They had talked about it. Prepared for it. There had been plans. Doctors. Bags ready. Protocols. But somewhere inside all that preparation had lived hope. Hope that Oskar would wait. Hope that Bridget would simply remain quietly pregnant until summer. Hope that things would somehow normalize. The Tesla turned smoothly through the gates of the Zürichberg property. And there it was. White and orange ambulance lights reflecting softly across the damp driveway. Waiting. Theresa paid the driver quickly. The older Swiss driver turned slightly toward Sally before she stepped out. “Ich hoffe auf das Beste.” I hope for the best. Sally swallowed hard. “Danke.” The front door stood partially open. Inside, the house no longer felt calm. Not chaotic. Controlled. But moving. Bridget was already on the stretcher in the living room, propped slightly upright beneath a blanket. One of the nurses spoke quietly with Renée in English while the ambulance driver checked restraints and equipment with efficient calm. Bridget immediately brightened when Sally rushed inside. “There you are,” she smiled softly. “They said I could wait until you came.” “Mom!” Sally hurried closer, stopping only when she realized how fragile the whole situation suddenly felt. “How are you?” Bridget gave the smallest shrug. “Fine, really. I feel fine. But I bled a little, so I suppose everybody decided to become dramatic.” Renée looked over immediately. “She’s been restless today,” she explained carefully. “Yeah,” Sally murmured. “I noticed.” “And now there’s some bleeding again,” Renée continued calmly. “So we’re taking her in. Everything seems stable. Oskar’s fine.” Sally nodded quickly, trying to absorb the words properly. “Does this mean…?” “Probably,” Renée interrupted gently. “We spoke with the doctor already. He won’t say anything definite until he examines her himself. Most of what you’re seeing right now is protocol, honey.” “I guess I can’t get a word in,” Bridget muttered meekly from the stretcher. “No,” Adrian answered quietly as he stepped beside her. “You can’t.” His voice held no irritation. Only concern. “Nobody is saying you did anything wrong,” he added carefully, glancing toward Sally as much as Bridget. “But you need to let go now. Let other people take care of you.” Bridget smiled faintly. “Not the first time,” she murmured. The words struck Sally unexpectedly hard. Immediately another memory surfaced— New York. Her mother collapsed in pain. The ambulance. The gallbladder surgery. Before the crash. Before everything. The nurses gently unlocked the stretcher wheels and began moving Bridget toward the door. The motion suddenly made everything feel real. Sally followed close beside them as the cold spring air rushed inside. The stretcher lifted smoothly into the ambulance. Adrian climbed into the front passenger seat while Renée and the nurse settled inside beside Bridget. For a brief second Sally saw her mother through the open rear doors — pale, calm, trying to smile reassuringly. Then the doors shut. The ambulance pulled away quietly down the driveway. No sirens. Not yet. Only several blocks later did the distant two-tone Swiss emergency signal finally begin echoing faintly through Zurich. Sally stood motionless in the driveway long after the vehicle disappeared. Theresa finally touched her shoulder. “Come on, kiddo,” she said softly. “Get comfortable clothes. Change of underwear. Toiletries. Don’t worry about your mom. She already has everything she needs.” Sally nodded silently. At the doorway, Jana already waited with keys in hand. “I’ll get the car.”

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