Starting a new chapter in my life

[barnburner]

Just before December ended, I made an appointment at a local clinic that does trans stuff.

 

Today I had that appointment, Was prescribed 2 things but I wont be able to pick them up til a few weeks due to the estrogen not being covered by my prescription plan and making sure I have the legal tender to pay for it.

These past 6-7 months have seen me start to lose weight. Last month I had a euphoria about the weight loss and this month I have started to try and walk every day at least 2 miles, since this is snowy winter time, there may be times I cannot walk and I cant just go to a gym(I could) but my walks help contribute to my photography hobby.

 

There are jokes on the internets about estrogen pills being compared to the candy called Skittles and that the pills can be called Tittles, my estrogen is being prescribed as patches, I shall tall them Tiddy Stickers.

 

 

This comes at a possibly bad time where state politics are concerned and the governor is trying to ban trans care for all ages by issuing an executive order(effective immediately...) to get that kind of thing in motion. This was done last Friday, The state house might be overriding that with a vote sometime this week.

[warpiper]

I always loved the name tittie skittles myself. Maybe some day I'll be taking them. Or prescribing them. Or both. 

[FretaBWet]

I'm curious, is there a reason they prescribed the patch as opposed to pills. I've never used patches so I have no idea how expensive they are but if you have to wait weeks to afford them they sound expensive.

Hugs,

Freta

[barnburner]

4 hours ago, FretaBWet said:

I'm curious, is there a reason they prescribed the patch as opposed to pills. I've never used patches so I have no idea how expensive they are but if you have to wait weeks to afford them they sound expensive.

Hugs,

Freta

Might have something to do with being overweight, and she wouldnt prescribe that spiroxxxxx(cant remember the name) due to being on blood pressure meds so I was prescribed something else in its place.

[FretaBWet]

I can't take spironalactone either because I have low blood pressure but I take estradiol daily and it's very inexpensive due to it being a generic.

Hugs,

Freta

[barnburner]

5 months in on estradiol, changes I think I am seeing are face pores might be shrinking and my natural sweaty scent(odor) has diminished a good bit. Not noticing any chest budding, it might not happen due to gynecomastia as I have had development there for a long time before starting. 

[barnburner]

Still moving on with this, met someone, he is incon but I didnt know that until we saw each other for the first time, he only uses pull up style and he isnt really a fan of it as he told me when we first met, so I was hesitant to tell him of my little side other than a few passing comments about me having experience with disposable pantsu.

 

I eventually told him and he was cool with it and there was a hint of an offer from him to change me one day.

 

I had a follow up with my HRT doctor where blood was drawn and it showed that my E-number lowered over the last 3 months but I am just hoping that was because I lost almost all of my prescriptions on a train trip out of town, I did only take a single E-patch so I didnt lose all of them but I lost my T-blocker and I couldnt get another script for that for about 2 months. 

 

I am wearing primarily fem clothing even though its not too obvious, I have been venturing into the womens section at local walmarts for shirts and some pants, underwear and socks from amazon and ebay and my bf who is ftm had some womens pants that were getting ready to be sent to a local LGTBQ+ used clothing boutique.

I have gotten quite a few compliments on what I have been wearing, many from people I wouldnt have thought to be good with it. A neighbor told me I have a femme type stride in my walk, Ive painted my nails a few times and got lots of compliments on them when out and about.

My hair is getting longer, 7 inches average so far, been using hair bands to tame it, I have yet to get a proper trim.

Facial hair is a problem for me but later this month I should be able to have someone teach me how to conceal properly, I used a concealer for my first time this Halloween when I went out as a maid, had a wig on too. I got quite a few compliments on that night and 2 women at a bus stop that night thought I was an actual woman ❤️

 

I think I have only experienced a single interaction of negativity other than a few dirty/negative looks since trying to look  more femme since this past summer and all that was someone flipping me the middle finger while I was on an elevator, While I strive to have thinner skin physically I feel I am still thick skinned to be able to take that kind of negativity, also headphones playing music helps all the time.

 

I havent made an out loud announcement on my main FB profile yet but am one by one messaging IRL friends about these changes I am making to my life and so far its going good, My brother is on board too.

 

I am losing weight as well, I have recently hit under 200 pounds, I still have a tummy that makes me look preggors but I think I can walk it off by walking a few miles daily, already did 15 miles this week, two of which were 6 mile walks but I might cut that down to 5 miles per walk as I did 6 yesterday and again today but when I got home today I didnt feel too good, but it is many hours later and I feel better, I might have just overdid it 2 days in  a row.

 

-----The following please do not respond to the political part----------

 

With the upcoming national leadership possibly putting a stop to my progress I may have some leads on DIY HRT. I have gone most of my life caring how others see me but coming out earlier this year I want to try and carry on like I have been these last few months and like to think a huge rainbow will be shining in the sky and keep my spirits up for the next few years.

[barnburner]

Approaching 1 year since starting estrogen, I was first on patches, then my Dr wanted me to up the dose but the price for the patches increased hugely so I asked to stay on the then current dose, Earlier this month I was able to ask for pills which are much cheaper in price, I am required to monitor my blood pressure for the first 30 days since I am in a percentile of possibly having issues with them due to my blood pressure before going into this. So far my blood pressure seems to be good, I am on a single pill daily but if I get the go ahead by my dr I can do 2x daily.

 

I am not having any extra mood or emotional issues that Ive been hearing could be possible with E treatment, In some ways my breasts look slightly bigger but not by too much.

 

I have gained a few pounds, I want to blame that on the super cold weather and snow for me not being able to do daily walks. Last November a few days after my last post I officially hit under 200 pounds, but am now currently around 210.

 

I have met someone, actually we have known each other since we were kids but we only reconnected last Fall, hes trans too. When we were kids this was totally not on our radars, as in being trans or even the possibility of hooking up. He is totally on board with my AB/Little side!

He has also helped me try doing makeup, I still have lots to learn on that front.

 

I have been able to meet a few ABDLs in the past year too.

 

I started Cpap at night for Sleep Apnea back in December, I may finally be getting the hang of it and earlier this month I tried sleeping in diapers which has been a huge problem for me in the past as it just wasnt letting me fall asleep, hit or miss doing it up til now but now I am able to fall asleep diapered with no issues possibly because the cpap thingy is taking my entire thought process keeping me occupied with that lol.

[SuperSoaker83]

all the best from someone also MtF for more than 20 years! please feel free to DM me if you need to chat???

On 1/10/2024 at 7:04 AM, barnburner said:

gen pills being compared to the candy called Skittles and that the pills can be called Tittles, my estrogen is being prescribed as patches, I shall

 

[barnburner]

Have been losing weight, In January 2021 I was around 270lbs, I am now sitting at 189lbs, I havent been under 190 in my entire adult life(since 2001).

 

I have gone through the process of changing my name with social security, the state, my birth certificate and my state ID, new bank card, updating my name on various apps and sites. My name has been updated for my apartment lease stuff.

 

I might hold off on gender marker change due to the political climate.

 

Due to the weight loss I have been upgrading my wardrobe more than I am used to, I already have clothing items I bought in the last 2 years that are now a little bit big for me.