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  1. No can’t say I did. Wearing diapers has been a part of my life ever since the age of four. Things changed over the years that much is true. Somewhere along the line I made a conscious decision to use them for their intended purpose, only for number one that is. I remember quite well the desire to wet them was always there, but the decision and the possibility to do so came later and when it came i did. .
  2. Well unless you belief in reincarnation you only have one live to live so I would suggest to make the best of it and life it the way you see fit. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be considerate of others but doesn’t mean you have to life your live according their rules. It is brave to tell others you wear diapers for sure. I have done the same on numerous occasions and it works very liberating to say the least. If you tell them there is no reason why you should tell why you wear, just allow them to fill in the blanks for they most likely think your incontinent, which is good enough cuse you ain't lying. If you want to wear 24/7 like I do it is your choice and if you want to stop doing so it is your choice as well, cool isn’t it. You’re an adult there is no reason why you should explain yourself. Just don’t overdo it that’s all.
  3. I came across an interesting topic regarding a medical forum / journal located in Belgium. I’ve read the whole story and I found it very interesting to say the least. I do not agree with all that is being said but for the most part it seems to fit the bill, but that is my opinion. Evidently psychology becomes more and more aware of our existence and some of the problems we might encounter in our life’s. It is also very evident that they struggle with the subject for standard solutions and treatments available do not seem to apply. Now it was written in Dutch so I ran it through a translation program which did a halfway decent job. Afterwards I took out a couple of hiccups left by the translation program (doesn’t mean they are all out now) but the overall story is still there hardly edited by me. I think it interesting enough to share, so here it is. It is not uncommon that we encounter in our medical practice a condition that stand with the classic schedules, although partially, but not entirely. As a physician in such cases we are usually left with empty hands and also faced with a moral dilemma: the available therapies would in our assessment not solve the problems and agonies of the patient may only provide a partial relieve, but remain on the other hand, a flagrant denial of the deepest desires for its anomalies, so that there can be no real healing. We work in such cases to a kind of reversed Freudianism and the therapies are focused on the displacement of what they would like to help us to cure right now. This seems to us to be the case at a phenomenon about which little or nothing in the literature available to date has been noted, the so-called infantilism. Infantilism is the irrepressible, overwhelming urge to wear diapers and baby accessories behave like a newborn or young child and to be treated as such. From this point of view, this is a condition that with classical regression therapies will be difficult to treat. A popularizing term says, ' go back to childhood ' to the source of the neuroses to detect and find healing. Here it seems to form the core of a new neurosis. Attempts to connect with aberrant behaviors out of their own youth strengthen those behaviors in most cases only. The latter undoubtedly has to do with the fact that infantilism pursuits often, if not always, a strong erotic effect. Those who surrender themselves provide a certain pleasure out and/or a feeling of comfort and/or lighting. One can say, that this infantile behavior will diminish a certain amount of libidinal energy, absorbing activities, whereby the patient does not rarely find themselves in dispute with the expectations of his or her partner. It makes that these desires usually go hand in hand with a very big shame – and especially guilt. In some cases this can lead to a destructive self-image of a perverse pedophile, as some of them tent put it. However, infantilism has nothing to do pedophilia for it is not projected towards a child, but to internalized innocence that is found within the adult infant then projected towards the adult self. It is precisely the self-awareness of the adult infant that makes that he or she will not go with his or her condition to act outside the safety of their own circle or seek help. The research that we have done over the last three years to the phenomenon, was only possible by “to join” what turned out to be a very close-knit community of adult infants. It also shared by all adult infant and perceived, the taboo makes initially lonely, but once found kindred spirits allows them to give free and rein into the ' forbidden realm within the community. The liberation / new knowledge could lead the adult infant to drift and even lead to what is called ' evil ' and wallowing in – the delight of the self-claimed ' wrong '. Typical of the adult infant is that he or she is almost never inclined to legitimize his or her condition, as something found within the society, an in general unknown condition and claim its rightful place. It remains even, or more so, precisely when one has surrendered to their condition, ' wrong ' and is thus considered a prime example of the ' evil awareness ' that used to be found in deeply-religious circles with regard to masturbation. In our research, we have based ourselves for the most part on the data as we could find on the internet. So far the only place where the phenomenon unequivocally was revealed. As we already have argued elsewhere it seems the internet increasingly takes over the tasks of mental health care, if not entirely, then at least to a large extent. Covered by the relative anonymity of screen names and aliases in chat rooms and in various discussion forums, a candor can be found that a psychiatrist will not be able to address if not after large detours treating a patient. Of course, there is also a downside to the internet as an information source. Our research was limited to the inhabitants of the industrialized societies (on the internet we only had contact with Europeans, Asians and North Americans). Data relating to developing countries and the so-called ' primitive ' societies, where the latest technologies not yet have penetrated, is missing for the time being. In addition, one encounters on the internet especially people that are higher on the social ladder, probably because they have easier access to a computer with an internet connection. The latter seems to be subject to change and will therefore affect our perceptions in the near future. Within the tight group it shows infantilism is arising in all age groups, at both adolescents as elderly, heterosexual and gay, at incontinent and non-incontinent people. The percentage of the affected population is difficult to determine, but is certainly not to be underestimated. Judging by the number of people that visit websites regarding this issue, we can say that without reservation, for example, in Quebec alone thousands of people exhibit adult infant tendencies. At this time, we estimate that there are about twenty men on one woman with this ' condition ' go through life. Here we must say that it is a debatable estimate. By way of explanation for the relationship we can set different hypotheses, for example that men got faster and more abundant access to the internet. Or also: that the stereotype of the child woman (hairless, vulnerable, in need of protection) allows women to experience their infantilism with greater serenity and that they therefore less in need for help. On the other hand, the male stereotype (strong, protective, muscular) much less correspond to the image that we have of the baby. The male stereotype would elicit a greater psychological conflict and lead to more frequent marital problems. Men, who are less comfortable dealing with their insistence, therefore more often would go looking for an explanation of or a change in their behavior. Being that as it may be, since men are simply much more strongly represented on websites related to infantilism, I'll be continuing my text here to focus on the position of the man. That women will continue to recognize themselves in what follows is by no means surprising, since the gender of the adult infant during his or her play / practice is as good as no longer valid. Adult Infants divide into two main groups: • the DL's (Diaper Lovers) who find solace and pleasure in wearing and using diapers not uncommonly used for sexual activities. Some include the use of all kinds of baby accessories (pacifiers, blankets, Teddy bears ...) • The AB (Adult Babies) who desire to be treated as babies, lulled, tucked in and want to be refreshed and tells them stories like that one. They include the use of all kinds of baby accessories. In addition, one must distinguish these two main groups into two sub-groups: • The Fundamentalists, they for whom practices infantilism as a full part of their sexuality (foreplay, masturbation, integral sexual intercourse some in baby clothes); • The Separatist, those who have two different, separate and parallel forms of sexuality. The (not necessarily sexual) fantasies differ and vary from adult infant to adult infant. However, it is not without interest to note that those who formerly were refreshed with cloth diapers (the oldest adult infant) go looking for adults suitable cloth diapers, and that they who used paper diapers were wearing (the youngest) preferably use the incontinence diapers paper available on the market. Some infantilist cherish the desire to regain (losing) control over their urinary tract as well as (losing) feces control. Some even give themselves over to fort them necessary excesses: moisture-regulating medications, intake of large amounts of fluids, laxatives, listening to hypnotic cassettes, catheter play and so on. The large majority of the adult infants confirm that their first desires manifested itself in that direction when they were still very young, around the age of seven years, some even younger. Despite efforts to find a common denominator for the affective wound as a cause for their condition, in our view, there is still no convincing explanation found. In some cases offer some comfort to the classic explanation. Classic schemes seem to apply for example, where it appears that some infantilist are victims of sexual or physical abuse, or on very early age have lost their father, a dominant abusive mother have known and/or too early were ' reclaimed ', in which latter case it would be an intensification of the infantilism anally-retentive complex that more widespread is , however, but rarely leads to extremes and easy to treat. In most cases, however, there is not a specific event or for the emergent infantilism factor from the childhood. It is undoubtedly one of the reasons why there is little to no scientific literature about infantilism the lack of a unifying factor seems to make a special case of each infantilist. Another reason relates to the fact that this marginal behavior not criminalized (unlike for example pedophile tendencies) and do not actually leads to physical trauma (as opposed to for example sodomy or sadomasochistic practices). Also the impact on the immediate environment of the infantilist not catastrophic, at least not to the extent as that for example in alcoholism, drugs and gambling addiction. We have, however, already indicated above that the infantilist often are in dispute with the expectations of his or her partner. The internet teaches us that more than one marriage breaking down as a result of the infantilism of one of the partners. Many wives who want to keep their relationship with an infantilist, are struggling with serious problems (depressions, frustrations, poor self-image, in questioning the choice of partner and associated private guilt, worry about any trauma that at their own children profoundly, jealousy on the diapers of the partner, and so on). Not unusual an infantilist develops hobby`s or all kinds of activities that intervene with the normal tasks to be carried out by adults, and in some cases showed infantilism even intervenes with work outdoors making it next to impossible. The wife is in charge of a heavier command than they can bare, since they have a large number of responsibilities on her shoulders. Sometimes the adult infants behavior of one of the partners also leads to financial problems (there is a firm price tag on practicing infantilism, especially when for example a DL has a preference for a softer wash cloth diapers such as that were used back in the days. Expenses can lead up to hundreds of bucks). The main reason for the lack of scientific reflection on the phenomenon is, however, in our view, the double bind in which the adult infant imprisons him or herself – a stranglehold that with the advent of the internet and finding fellow sufferers has become a bit looser. Nevertheless, it turns out on the same internet, it is still rather virulent. Those who find their salvation in moisture-wicking, laxative drugs and catheter play for control of urinary tract and feces can be voted an outcast even within the same community circle. They are left aside all to lose, struggling with the debt-and shameful feelings that accompany their urge to pleasure and solace. They are faced however with an urge and shame as where to the guilty feeling WINS. In the most serious cases this leads to dissociation symptoms – especially with a separatist DL’s and AB’s. Often desperate of their attempts to try and hide their condition for their partner – which are all characteristics of the more classic schizophrenia and multiple personality disorder, but with the appropriate therapies and medicines cannot be remedied. In itself a testament to the power of the taboo. Also the already mentioned ' wallow in evil ', in the company of fellow sufferers almost total and seemingly unrestrained surrender to the infant tendencies, is always under the dictates of an ultimate condemnation and self-reproach. It is clear from the data on the internet there are dates set and meetings organized in which adult infants meet in a safe environment where they share their experiences, swap roles (baby/adult) or just go about infantilism discussions. Similar data can be found in the discussion forums and in chat rooms. Although more open there is always the focus on the ' black mis-nature of the activities, as one of them put it. Typical is also that most if not all adult infants, without significant exception, before they joined the circuit, have done to their frantic attempts to renounce, to the emotional behaviors, but also for practical reasons (for example, military service) or financial reasons. In almost all cases the adult infant succeeded to counteract their behavior at least for a while, but the desire itself is of a permanent nature, and for many a source of a deep feeling of a mental illness. It is therefore not surprising to read that many adult infants are scattered, depressed or violent as soon as they stop wearing diapers and no longer surrender to their desired practices. Resuming of these pursuits offers some comfort, even if it is accompanied by a feeling of failure. By some it has been defined or named sickly wickedness. Most adult infants are very defeatist set, which contributes to the closed nature of the infantilism itself. One is not inclined to seek help because the problem is diagnosed as insoluble when diagnosed or encountered. Once in a while the step to the psychiatrist is being made. There is a case known of someone whom tried for 30 years various therapies to lessen his desires, but without success. Probably wreaked here by the lack of scientific reflection on the matter, the correct diagnosis or treatment could have been given. Within psychiatry the diagnoses of infantilism is still in its early stages. One can certainly identify the infantilism as a fetishistic practice, but it cannot be compared to the addiction to certain substances or objects. Also a comparison with homosexuality provides nothing. Neither can it be defined as a sexual perversion (not always), it has, as said, nothing to do with pedophilia and is no obsessive or compulsive disorder in classical sense. Though one can find elements of all these categories in infantilism behavior. However, we are of the opinion that infantilism especially is a phenomenon in itself is that none of the available therapies well lets deal with. The psychiatrists, psychologists, psychoanalysts and other colleagues that we have visited and have submitted our problem with the question whether therapies are that allow the individual to be freed of his adult infant desires, are not very optimistic. They assured us that we would have to invest time and energy that would be out of proportion to the actual problem and that there is no guarantee that any therapies could lead to a result of meaningful magnitude. A bleak prospect to those whom call for help for the time being. Infantilism in itself is rather harmless if maintained within reasonable boundaries. They have to look for ways to live with infantilism, and to come to terms. In order to deliver us from the emotional suffering associated with the phenomena. For example, the partner and the adult infant has to find an acceptable compromise whereby the adult infant practices can be integrated in everyday life, without compromise to the amorous life of the spouse, family, daily job and other social relationships.
  4. As long as you stay in control there is little or no harm in enjoying diapers even if you wear 24/7. As soon as you start to withdraw yourself from your social activities or even worse maybe even discontinue your job I suppose you can fill in the blanks yourself then you are in harm’s way. A lot of ab/dl notice a strong pull towards let’s say, more authentic, more frequent, more babyish, more wetting, more whatever the list is extensive. So I say if you know how to find a proper balance you’ll be fine. This also happened to me. Luckily I was able to find an balance that worked for me, now I live my life as I see fit, wearing diapers 24/7, go to my daily job, attend to social activities, and the most important thing is I take care of my two young kids.
  5. I think for the most part it is due to the fact that I was raised wearing cloth diapers and a plastic pant. I do wear disposable diapers when I go out for work or for whatever reason, but at home I prefer cloth diapers. For me the feel and looks are more authentic and they absorb a lot better when sleeping on your side. It is easy to adjust the level of absorbency simply add more cloth and you are golden. If changing cloth diapers during day time wasn’t such a big deal I would wear them during daytime as well. Changing wet cloth diapers at work is next to impossible if you’d ask me.
  6. Good point I agree it is a need indeed.
  7. Just go for it. Chances are nobody will notice and nobody cares. As long as you act normal, do not draw any attention to it and you’ll be fine. I wear 24/7 under every circumstance you can imagine, and this includes going out with friends.
  8. Well I won’t say cloth diapers last forever but it is getting pretty darn close. I use cloth squares for over twenty year now and I guess they will last me a couple more. For sure by now you can see they are getting old but they still do what they are intended for and that is all that counts. Using cloth also allows you to adjust the level of absorbency and thickness to your heart’s desire.
  9. Well that is a tall order indeed. I used this line before and some get ticked off by it, but I really do belief it is something you’ll have to sort out yourself, for whatever works for you might not work for the next guy. A stent is rather personal. In a way we are more or less the same anatomically that is but there are differences to be found like length. I would suggest to pick a design made by one of the other member select a model that looks good and work from there. The stent I use and make is completely modified to my personal needs, desire and wishes. It does everything I want it to do. Under normal circumstances I do not notice it at all. If it is in (which is most of the time) I can do whatever I want to do, aside of my diaper thing I live a normal live like working, going out whatever. If it starts to irritate for some reason it is usually because I didn’t drink enough and that is an easy fix.
  10. Well I go to the bathroom, take off my diaper, take a dump, wipe the you know what, put on a clean diaper if needed, or put back the one I took off just moments ago. I wear diapers 24/7 but use them only for number one. I really hate the smell and cleaning up afterwards to much hassle, not enough fun.
  11. True, every so now and then you’ll come across a member whom shares the same feelings or desires as you do up to a certain extent. For me it is not only the retro style and look but also the feel of the foil they used back in the days. I do have to say the Septa pants are rather smooth and the foil is very soft. Personally I favor if the foil is slightly structured so if you rub your finger nails over it makes a high pitched noise. I switch back and forth between disposable and cloth. I favor cloth it is as simple as that but it is not very convenient if you wear 24/7 and go out and about. Changing a thick cloth diaper while at work is not going to happen. So whenever I am in the mood I’ll tuck cloth diaper in the pouches of one of these pants and enjoy it. I do have to say the pant I have made to measure is more snug in comparison to the Septa model or one of the others I have. If the pad gets wet they do tent to sag but you’ll have the same problem with disposable. Never the less the diaper will stay in the pouches much better if the fit is snug. I do not wear these pants day to day but whenever I am in the mood so the frequency varies. Skin contact? it really depends on the method of folding the diaper. If you simply tuck the diaper in the pouches you’ll get a lot of skin contact, but if you fold it in the shape of a kite then you’ll have a limited amount of skin contact. Personally I feel no difference as it comes to feeling hot in a cloth diaper with an plastic pant or a disposable one. And yes I do sleep in them if I am wearing one and if I am in the mood. It works well and I hardly ever had any leaks. Over night I favor cloth.
  12. My advice to you would be to check the conditions of your airline company. As far as I know a lot of them do not charge extra if you’ll have to check in medical supplies. That way you can be sure you have diapers available that work for you.
  13. I never had any issues going through airport security. They went through my carry-on suitcase they opened up my checked luggage never caused any problems never had strange remarks or questions. If they see an adult diaper they know what it is for and most like will not link it to the ABDL scene, unless he or she knows about it.
  14. Practice makes perfect it is simple as that.
  15. When desperate for whatever reason people do strange things. I cannot imagine the guy stealing the diaper was not aware of the risks involved yet he chose to steal them regardless. He could be broke and was no longer able to withstand the urge. The story doesn’t say. I guess if you were to set up an pole a lot of members gained diapers in a less charming way. He took them out of an store but how many of us took one from younger brothers or sisters maybe neighbors family whatever. He got caught and made the news. Kind of feel sorry for the guy if you have to go and steal diapers just to fulfil a strong feeling like having a diaper fetish. It does look bad but it is just one side of the story.