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Day 45, and I decided to pull out the stent. It still wasn't causing any discomfort, but I just wasn't enjoying the constant leaking and wet diapers anymore. As much as I enjoy the feeling of being incontinent and diaper-dependent, at some point the excitement fades and is replaced by boredom and irritation. Suddenly, I start to wonder what I'm even doing it for, because I no longer see the point. Yet another confirmation that I shouldn't have the surgery. Every time my stent works even better and is even more comfortable, I think I can finally prove to myself that I'm ready for the surgery and lifelong incontinence, but apparently I'm not. Everything was optimal: comfort, drainage in all positions, the length of time I could wear it without cleaning, sleep quality—everything resembled the situation after surgery, and yet the annoying boredom eventually negates everything. I'm disappointed and happy at the same time.

Even though I wear diapers 95% of the time (24/7/345), there are still times when I don't want to wear them. Those times are usually family gatherings. Like @dlnoir I use stents to simulate incontinence and diaper dependency. The feeling of being incontinent in a diaper still triggers sexual arousal, and it just feels wrong to do it in front of my family, especially my children. Even though I often fantasize about the irreversible incontinence that @Reddyand @BrownBobby now have after their surgery in Mexico, I know 100% that I'll regret it terribly when I have to visit family in a diaper. Maybe, just maybe, if using a penis clamp could keep me out of diapers during those times, I'd go for 100% wear time of the stent (or even the surgery). It's mainly the "unwanted" wet diapers that cause the arousal. I still have to test the clamp in combination with the stent, but I still haven't ordered it.

I just realized that after a nullo surgery, I wouldn't be able to use a penis clamp anymore. So I wouldn't be able to use the clamp during family visits to avoid being caught wearing a diaper. I also think that if you have a reasonably sized penis, there will always be contact between the urethral opening and the padding in the diaper. This reduces the risk of urine flowing over the skin or even spraying in directions where there is less or no padding. So I guess I just have to learn to accept the discomfort of morning erections.

The only reason I'd have my penis removed is so I wouldn't have morning erections anymore. An erection with the penis pointing down in the diaper is painful and blocks the urethra. And it's impossible to point my penis upward, because then I'd start leaking again and urinate outside the diaper padding. It's really the only remaining problem with my stent and diaper routine. The way I handle it now is to lie on my back, pull down my plastic pants, and open the diaper. Then I jerk myself off, accept the fountain of pee that comes out along with my semen, and cool off for a few minutes. Meanwhile, I drape a towel over my penis in case more urine comes out and dry my stomach with another towel. When I'm flacid again, I put my diaper back on, pull my plastic pants back up and finally get my last hour of sleep. I don't have to deal with it like this every day, sometimes the erection disappears just by lying on my back, but it is still annoying.

What about the risk of leaky diapers? Aren't you more likely to spray over the leak guards?

Thanks! I couldn't agree more. With your rerouted urethra, how do you keep stuff out of the bladder when using a stent? It must be awesome to not wake up anymore with painfull morning erections in your diaper. Thanks again, but I've been experimenting with caths/stents for over 35 years now. Unfortunately that's not gonna happen. I did a 6 month stent challenge some years ago and within a day or 2 my urination was back to normal again.

Day 40 of continuous stent use. I still haven't taken it out to clean it. I can't believe that wearing it for so long seems to have no adverse effects at all, and it still feels like it's not there. It almost feels like I've already had the incontinence surgery. Everything Reddy and Brownbobby wrote about their post-op experiences are the same for me. Every day I check if the retrieval line is still there. That's how unnoticeable it is. And every day I try to imagine how I would react if the retrieval line was gone.

Wow, that sounds like the perfect stent. Making yourself a bedwetter with a stent seems to be the hardest part of the process. You're on the list, sir! Congratulations on your success.

Welcome to the club, @Old_PA. I've added your name to the list. Would you mind sharing some photos of your stent? Can you already say something about the difference in experience between the stent and the Foley catheter?