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I am about to be put in bed to be changed , wet and messy in full control of my diaper region at the moment .

I can’t hold it or force it as I lack nerve and muscle function . I do take prescription medication from my doctor. The combination of medication will make even the most determined poo withholder go . I can’t feel any urges or sensations to go to bathroom ,so the medication thinks I being difficult and resisting what needs to happen , the longer the medication is in your system the more laxative it becomes ,so intentionally or un intentionally holding it , with not end well . At some point you will get to the point where it is impossibly laxative and it overwhelms your ability to resist and you heavily soil yourself . So for me without nerve or muscle functions to warn or urge me to seek a toilet . Nothing is happening situation normal until emergency happens and I involuntarily lose my shit my diaper is full . The medications produce a really large soft poop outside anyone’s ability to prevent . Diapers aren’t decoration even a fully healthy continent person will require them ( of course a normal person can’t imagine a medication that can get them to forget a lifetime of potty training )

The only thing this guy did illegal was the false pretense , had he just admitted his kink and honestly negotiated his needs ,wants & desired care . He would have been fine . As stupid as trump who for the first time payed a debt he owed , using someone else’s money and lying about it to win an election , had he not cooked the books or stayed out of politics he could pay all the hush money he wanted completely legally with no risk of law breaking , he skated his entire life as a con man , it’s his narcissistic need for one last epic con ,that has directly finally screwed him as he reaps what he has sowed . I have legitimate disability and caregivers who are responsible for changing me , the difference being they know about my need to be diapered and changed Fed ,watered , medicated , catheterized ,dressed put in my wheelchair or put in bed as part of my routine daily plan of care . My aides know I need all the care and protections of a full sized special needs adult toddler , I have the mental intellectual abilities of any middle aged college educated guy , with the physical abilities of a toddler ( my aides 11 month old can snatch and hold my candy whereas I can’t even contemplate taking hers ) . why do people who do this shit ,default to intellectual impairment for needing diaper change ,there’s a whole world legit functional impairments that require diapers ( please know I am not giving ideas or encouraging dishonesty ) I am a caree now but having been a caregiver , I know trust has to go both ways , I have everything in the house someone would need to keep me sedated and constipated , they could knock me out do minimal diaper changes,food and water and party with my money .instead I get good care ,respect and correct medication ,proper nutrition and diaper changes every day. Sometimes I think my aide wishes I talked less when I am high , but that’s a different story .

This guy was bad news , my days at SL back in the 70’s was nothing like what this guy was doing .

Like anything in this world routine diaper fleet inspection & maintenance . Pays off handsomely in stress free protection . Keeping diapers on your ass and off your mind . My daily drivers are like 14 years old . My aide checks them at least weekly when washing them , taking care of potential issues before they become issues or compromise your ability to use them, I have about 100 ultra rise day contours in rotation as well as 100 ultra rise super heavyweight pre fold for overnight full maximum control. My overnight diapers are the diapers I wear the longest ,day diapers are changed every 4 hours overnight are about 12 hours .

Been going to doctors diapered for more than 30 years , it doesn’t matter to all other doctors other than my urologist and colon rectal surgeon because the diaper area is under there control all doctors know I am incontinent as it’s in my medical records but that’s like knowing I had a hot dog with mustard for lunch , there’s nothing for them to Pay attention to because they don’t treat it ,I have specialist for that .

Full time disabled incontinent person, so all family & friends know and/or have changed me themselves at some point . I don’t need an excuse to be adult baby as that is the hand life dealt me .. illness has regressed my body but advanced my mind .

Call me orangutang nuts .

And since we are officialy after midnight welcome to your 420 23 ,if you got it hit it with me y’all !

When you require a great deal of Incontinence protection , there is no bulky or discrete diapers , there is just diapers that fit your level of need . Some people may be able to get away with a super slim and trim diaper because the diaper is for light use or insurance in case it’s needed , somebody like me who has complete loss of bowel and bladder needs a very aggresive diaper to contain it , a proper diaper for me by it’s very nature is going to be sizable when clean and dry and going to be immense when used fully , there just isn’t a scientifically valid way in current technology to expect heavy effective control from a discrete diaper . We have to forget bulky and wear a diaper that is effective and reliable protection for your need .

I do live much like a toddler due to my physical health problems ,I have an aide full time doing the things I can’t . I don’t require a bottle, a sippy cup works . This life chose me , I didn’t choose it being a full size adult human with “neuromuscular difficulties” gives me all the requirements of being a baby and needing full assistance with Activities of daily living . The only difference between my aides daughter and I “ we won’t fit each others diapers “ she does basically the same tasks for both of us daily , her daughter will grow up and outta diapers ,I only grow into needing them more before I die . My advice don’t ever sign up in real life , keep your fantasy a happy one ,because there is no real fun side to disability . Only disappointment and diaper laundry .

The great thing about diapered in wheelchair , any diaper leaks are self contained , no risk of exposing any non consenting people to my waste .the only person that has to deal with it is my aide who is well compensated to provide my personal care .

All my supplies come as cases , I only buy bags to occasionally “torture test” new diapers , but recently due to inflation and the rising costs I haven’t bought anything I use my normal cloth at home and for going out my usual insurance supplied boosted ATN or Northshore just before the pandemic I ordered 2 cases of every color supreme and Megamax , so I am not going to need to purchase any kind of protection until prices normalize . Insurance automatically ships 3 case of diapers ,1 case of boosters, 1 of chux , gloves , catheters , drain bags every month . unfortunately will he need a diaper ? Is not a question, only when

I always wear either rubber bloomers or Protec briefs for leak protection . I don’t worry about sound as I don’t move and discretion there’s no need ( I always look like I am wearing a large black diaper do to silicone filled neoprene pelvic restraint , hides my actual diaper )

I don’t wear disposables that often in winter because I don’t go out much, in summer at least one change is to disposable for going out. So there’s always half a case open and fluffing .

Dollar store clear packing tape fixes tapes reinforces tapers repairs pinholes , I have gotten bags of diapers with a fuck ton of loose SAP granules . A strip of tape is like a magic eraser . If I am going out in a disposable my aide puts a continuous piece all the way around keeps the plastic from stretching .

Multi generational household ,more common then you could imagine . good finds though !

I remember the whole ad series of June Allison having “a lot of living to do in Depends” in the 1980’s readers digest.

People sue hospitals all the time for there own stupidity , like trying to go to bathroom when they shouldn’t they fall and get hurt or there on medication that impairs there balance , or even some Darwin Award physically disabled who can’t walk but still try . As soon as you are self identified or it’s gleaned from a doctors note in your chart as incontinent or bed wetter,they will happily diaper you or during admission if the ask would you wear a diaper ? And you don’t blow a gasket and get offended thexwill happily diaper you .,they always know you’re safe in bed and always know how your bowel or bladder is functioning based on changing your diaper . And should you need a change before they think you do ring the bell ,and let them know .diapers & hospitals are like peanut butter and jelly ,made for each other .

Anyone who can see doesn’t even have to come in as there is always extra cases of diapers ,boosters ,chux ,catheters , gloves, drain bags on my porch , every couple of days there’s a couple of loads of cloth diapers on the line . The most simple minded person on earth would easily identify me as diaper dependent.

Your probably gonna laugh , there’s a nice additional 60% off on clearance items at Eddie Bauer , so I bought some inexpensive pants on clearance for dirt cheap they are EB Resonance Training Pants of course I buy a size larger to accommodate my diaper , the sales girl said you don’t look that big and my aide said trust him ,”I change his diapers and sometimes they are enormously swollen , like he’s got a raccoon in his pants “. I let you know if they miraculously train me not to use diapers.

Diapers aren’t your choice, they are an adaption to live your best life . You can’t live your best life if you’re married to someone who denies a basic medical fact . If she is making this into “me or the diapers” you don’t have a decision to make ,as she has already made it. you want real love , get a dog ! my late partner , would do anything I asked that he was trained to do to help me . What he never did was put conditions on love & acceptance or see me as anything less than a whole person . If a dog can do that , your potential wife should also . Breaking up is hard , I spent the last years of my life as an able bodied person alone , why? Because she didn’t want a guy with a disahility in a few years , sucks but true , move on this is not the woman of your dreams now or later , sorry to say it but it’s 3H time Hurt,Heal & then Hunt for a spouse who accepts you as you are , that includes your diapers , because real love doesn’t include asking you to change in anyway .

It doesn’t matter what health issues you have , you have no choice you have to play the cards your dealt . the only thing worse then a treatable medical condition is making yourself miserable or not fully participating in your life because of it. Attaching (emotional disorder)shame or embarrassment to a physical disease or disorder you do nothing but make the situation worse and more of burden ( in many cases the emotional suffering people inflict on themselves is torture compared to the reality of the physical ailment ) . you may feel alone , your not you are but one of many ( considering I have diseases that are so rare I am literally the only person known to be alive on earth to have them ) makes me a somewhat defacto expert on not catastrophising a physical problem into a mental one as well . Using and wearing diapers in the grand scheme of things isn’t romantic , fun , or inspiring in anyway , however it has got to be all of those things compared to say liver cancer or dead . so please folks reconsider allowing physical stuff to become mental stuff . It’s not worth it , it’s like banging your head against the wall , feels amazing when you stop !, so please never start , connecting emotions to physical health issues .

My first scope was so long ago I got the whole IV martini ( for me due to allergies and other conditions , the “fun drugs” that people get for procedures aren’t able to be used on me , they use a 6 drug combination on me that most people can do “milk of amnesia “ Propfol and be good ) and the lidocaine lube . they generaly don’t sedate patients anymore for cystoscope , as it’s not necessary, there’s weirdness in procedures people get sedated for colonoscopy not because it’s very painfull or traumatizing , they do it so the doctor doesn’t have to take time or explain what’s happening to a sensitive patient , basicly they can easily do 4-5 more procedures a day on sedated patients and maximize the revenue stream for the room , more customers in less time when patients are sedated, also you get to add additional billing for anesthesia the cost of doctors time the drugs,recovery room and staff , another nurse to monitor that your breathing etc . Anyway getting bladder scoped is a very easy well tolerated procedure , I frequently yell at my doctor that he’s a “screen hog” if he’s boldly going like Star Trek were men don’t , I want to go also ( your guts are interesting to see and basicly painless so watch the screen and get the whole nickel dog & pony show ) watchful waiting on prostate issues is the norm . Medication to shrink it and yearly PSA , there are only a couple of types of aggressive cancer that has to be aggressively treated , most prostate cancers are so slow growing that men can have prostate cancer for 20 years and die of old age without worrying about the cancer . So try not to cause yourself too much anxiety over potential for cancer , trust me if there’s a reason to “panic” and intervene in cancer , you’ll be the second to know because your doc is going to tell you .

If you’re going to play with catheter insertion practice , you can save yourself some money by buying Red rubber boil able catheters you boil them for 15 minutes and let them cool and dry between sessions . When I first started cathing disposables weren’t common and we had to do the sterilizing and lubing ourselves between uses . That’s until big insurance bean counters figured out how much they spent on care & antibiotics from people not properly maintaining their catheters and technique and got UTI .