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I don't have a therapist but see psychiatric community nurse who monitors my mental health condition. I've had him as my community nurse for 7 years am pretty comfortable with him and being around him. These nurses are holistic so cover all things to do with you health and well-being. He brought the subject up over a coffee why I don't ever talk about my sexual needs and how do I define myself, he knows I'm out as gay but would prefer a platonic relationship and he asked me if I ever masturbate which I told him I do sometimes. He brings the subject of fetishes up and told me he worked with people who like to pee themselves and its okay too do that. I knew straight away he was referring about me and I think he was trying to make me feel comfortable and open up to him about my nappy fetich and wettings and messings. I didn't feel ready as I think me liking nappies and wanting to wear 24/7 and become incontinent is a private thing that I don't feel ashamed about or embarrassing about so don't need to discuss it. I know they know that I wear nappies 24/7, my community nurse might know its a fetich but I want to be identified as double incontinent not as a fetishist. One time when I got involuntary hospitalised I had to ask another nurse to enter my bedroom in the group home and bag up the used incontinence nappies on my floor and take them to the dustbin for disposable, I was worried about them festering while I was in hospital and she did that for me with no questions asked. Also I have something called a deputy which means I lack capacity with my finances, similar to a Conservatorship what Britney Spears had in the States. I got the person who manages my disability benefits to set up a auto order every 28 days for delivery of my incontinence nappies and wet-wipes. The group home staff know about my nappy wearing but its never talked about. They sometimes tell me if I've leaked or if something is peaking out. I don't purposely expose my nappies and try to be discreet but I know its known. I'm totally independent with changes and hygiene. I also use very clinically smelling wet-wipes to clean myself every time I change. The other people in the group home also know about my nappy wearing. They are okay with it. The reason why I live in a group home is because I have an intellectual disability. I have always had this need to be cared for and looked after. I've been interested in intellectual disabilities since I was 10 when in the foster home I was in at the time my foster parents always talked about how wonderful the other foster child was and he couldn't help his behaviours because he was disable. I already had a nappy fetish at that age and I thought to myself I wish I was disabled like the him and be given love and attention which I had lacked during my early childhood.. This is why I have BIID around wanting to be intellectual disabled and have a low mental age and be looked after and cared for. I achieved this as I now live in a group home, I had a IQ test and scored a low score. So know I have a intellectual disability and am living the dream. I'm transitioning into total double diaper dependency and when this is achieved I'm going to get it put on my medical records, I'm going to have a yellow continence dustbin on the group home complex to dispose of my incontinence waste so its known in the community that an incontinent person lives at this property. And then I'm going to start wearing my leather special needs helmet in the community when I go with my support staff. I'm happy.

I read that some people who go though the transition end up urinal incontinent from the operation.

How fast would a persons continence slip if they were wearing 24/7 and wetting at the slightest urge without clenching the muscle, wetting in small dribbles every 10 minutes. Sphincter muscles feels in an open position all the time but sometimes spasm when dribbling but then go back into open mode. Also this person suffering from post void dribble. How fast does sphincter weakage happen in this case if I continue to do this. I should add I now have a over active bladder from wearing all the time, feel like I need too pee all the time.

This is the site with more detail. https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/full/10.1177/14713012221116490

Interesting article in the paper about the 'pad culture' in hospital leaving people incontinent. https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-11472223/Older-people-left-incontinence-hospital-visits-NHS-staff-fit-catheters-unnecessarily.html#comments

I have never been able to go for a few weeks without my nappy and wank all the time thinking about being incontinent. I'm now 24/7. I wouldnt put a gf before my nappy needs as nappies really are a big part off my life, since being very small.

Wetting at the slightest urge is key. When you train for this its so much easier to wet.

is wearing 24/7 and wetting at the slightest urge (all the time) When Masturbating when feeling Horney then re-diapering straight away. I find that masturbating stops me from wanting nappies.

I'm pretty good at renaming relaxed and wetting at the slightest urge.

I mean if I wet at the slightest urge without sphincter reflex and I continue to do this (which is very easy for me) Would this lead to automatic peeing over time?

I would give my continence away in a heartbeat.

Nottinghamshire, England here.

I've been on and off with incontinence training for a number of years, I've never really managed to control the binge/purge cycle so haven't progressed like I would like. But I've had many months in a binge wearing 24/7. I can wet at the slightest urge in small dribbles and gushes without the instinctive clench relax. I do have a constant urge with needing to urinate and when I've had a dribble or gush this this urge diminishes until a few moments later when it returns pretty strong again but with no urine in my bladder.. I have for a number of years had post void dribble, every time I have a number 2 I will uncontrollable dribble onto the floor or into my underwear, I suspect this is down to a weak sphincter muscle? Will this further get worse if I continue wearing 24/7? I don't seem to flood my nappies even when I've had 8 beers. I sit on my settee with my legs up and as soon as the urine is produced I can let it gush into my nappy resulting in hardly any leaks. I can do this with a completely relaxed sphincter without any clenches. I wet in every position, even lying on my side which is my sleeping position and with my legs fairly swished together, its easy to pee. Admittedly I don't sleep very well as I have a constant urge to pee but when I wake up I make sure I pee and its a small gush so even sleeping on my side I don't leak. I hardly ever flood. I'm comfortable wetting in front of people even paying for my goods at the check out. My supported living manager thinks I'm already incontinent as do my housemates in the group home, its pretty hard to hide the big boxes being delivered every 4 weeks so I just told them the truth I need pads for incontinence. The only reason I haven't achieved full incontinence yet is because of the bing/purge cycle. When I masterbate I will lose interest in nappies and incontinence which I know is a common thing. But as I'm getting older I know that I really want to be double incontinent. I have loved nappies since I first remember at 5 years old and I have wanted to be incontinent since I learned what it meant at 12.. This is my supplies. I'm ready for this. I just need to give up masterbating

I think I wrote similar here some years back with my problems with my supported housing manager wanting a Clinical waste bin on our property for my used Nappies. In my county the clinical waste bins are all yellow and you are given clinical waste bags which are also yellow to dispose of your nappies. I wasn't happy with that idea as my house is a terrace house that leads right onto the street and the clinical waste bins are normal height bins but bright yellow so anybody in the know will know they are used for incontinence waste, and my street is quite a busy road. So I told the manager I wasn't happy about the prospect that my IC would be known to other people outside the supported living complex. Also people would assume our house is a care home for the intellectual disabled which it is in a way but it's set for for supported living so independence is the main goal. We are lucky that we have 4 normal bins between 5 people but these do get very full and heavy. We never had a complaint of the dustbin collectors about this being heavy but I've seen them struggle with them. Also if you were to use a yellow clinical waste bag in the normal bins they dustbin collectors won't take the bin. And my closing statement if you were to have a Clinical waste bin it would quickly spread that you wore nappies, it would become very obvious.

without nappies IC wouldnt be appealing to me.

I say the 3rd option. permanent bowel and bladder incontinence. Weeping and dribbling constantly, always wet and passive bowel incontinence where I don't know I've messed until I smell/feel it. I have to wear nappies 24/7.

I also would dump my refuge bags in the local forest at 3am in the morning full of festering nappies if they didn't fit in my outside bin as I missed the dustbin collection. Also would wrap some used incontinence nappies up in neat boxes in Christmas paper and leave on random peoples doorsteps. This was before door cameras.

Thats why I'm very fortunate to be British as the NHS is wonderful thing. I'm conflicted because I feel like a malingerer and faker but my community nurse says there is no way a person can fake 13 involuntary hospital admission with psychosis and even though I'm now stable with the psychosis they are more treating the attachment disorder and thats why I have a large support package from care staff to keep me stable. Wearing nappies hugely benefits my mental health, this is in my care plans. This is apart of the attachment disorder. You know wearing nappies isn't seen as the bad thing many people assume on there. My treatment team don't even talk about it anymore. I just sent my support manager a email saving I'm running low and she purchases me my nappies and wipes and its delivered the next day and the parcel in kept in the group home office until I move it to my room, its no problem that I have my bedwetting waterproof sheets on the washing line and I use the washing machines more often.

I had a very strong desire to become double incontinent. I still do but its managed. My incontinence desires became an obsession, an overwhelming obsession. I spent many hours a day, every day researching how to become incontinent. I didn't feel right in my body being continent. I really wanted to hurt myself to achieve incontinence and become disabled. I think with people with this level of need there should be some outlet and surgery should be an option to prevent themselves from hurting themselves. My life changed in 2010. I was stopped by the police from jumping from a footbridge. I didn't want to die. I wanted to become double incontinent and this desire finally took over. A passerby reported me to the police for looking like I was about to jump. I got sectioned (involuntary hospitalised) and my life has changed for the better. I got diagnosed with an intellectual disability and Attachment disorder. From the psychologists prospective the Attachment disorder stems from my abusive and neglectful childhood and as a young child the only comfort I had was when wearing nappies so this manifested itself in later life to a comfort/safety feeling when wearing nappies. My desire to be mentally disabled is from seeing other children with disabilities get more love and attention than what I got. My life is vastly different now. I'm not isolating myself like I did 10 years ago when I used to post constantly on here about making myself incontinent. I'm not spending all my disability money on incontinence nappies and leaving myself with out food. I'm not going into severe binge/purge cycles and hating myself for it. I live in a group home for people with disabilities. I wear nappies 24/7 and all the staff now although I am discreet and don't flaunt wearing.. I have my pads and wipes purchased by my group home manager. The bing and purge cycles has gone and I very much love wearing nappies and the comfort it brings me. I have got some IC issues but not the constant dribble with total incontinence. I still very much desire total incontinence but the strong desire to hurt myself is almost gone.. I'm also on strong antipsychotics for psychosis which has lessened my sexual desires and the need for total incontinence has reduced. I want to further disintegrate mentally and become more dependent on people and lose what mental capacity I have left. My psychiatrist says the more times I'm psychotic the further damage it does to my brain. I've been sectioned 13 times now for psychosis and its deemed I can't live independently. I feel a strong need to be dependent.

By the case I get betterdrys for £1 per nappy. That is a workable daily nappy for 24/7 wearing.

I live in a group home for people with disabilities. I want to wear 24/7, if I become incontinent I'm happy with them. Should I accept and tell my support staff I'm IC and be more open, The only person I have told about my nappy wearing is my supported living manager who buys my pads and wipes. I feel if its more in the open I wouldnt have to hide my nappies. Can wash my bed pads and hang them on the line in the day. I would just feel better about it. Are you open with your wearing. I live in a group home and it really wouldnt be a problem me going 24/7 but I don't have the confidence to do it. Should I start admitting it?

Forma-care comfort slip super. These are awesome nappies and a good price too. They are made in Germany.

Lean back against the wall. put nappy between you legs and secure nappy with you back against the wall. bring front of nappy up between your legs, fasten snugly. The more times you go it the easy it becomes.. I hardly ever change my nappies lying down now.

Quite often I would get names and address from the local phone book and write letters and send parcels from 'TENA' to peoples addresses, Use a persons name and send the letters to their neighbours house. My letters looked very professional and well written with watermarked 'TENA' logo imprinted on them. I would write sorry about faulty Incontinence pads, please find enclosed product. I would send one of my Tena Slips. It always made me laugh when I did this thinking their neighbours would open the parcel. I did this maybe 15 times to different address, mainly sent to an area I used to live. I was immature as a 20 year old.

I have BIID. I wanted to be disabled way before I hit puberty. At puberty I did get a sexual attraction towards incontinence. I have embraced disability into my life and now live as a vulnerable disabled adult.