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I figured I may as well update here, as it's the most on-topic, but a slight contrast from @Little Sherri's update... I've gone from 24/7 during the majority of the pandemic down to something like 18-7, which I suppose isn't that drastic of a change, but it speaks to how much this desire is still linked to my libido. As the days grow shorter and colder, I've always found myself less horny in total, and generally find myself "not in the mood," for a diaper more often. I still don't mess myself unless I'm otherwise inconvenienced- Or I want to- so the mornings, and when I'm drinking coffee, I'll stay diapered till things move, role-play a big boy, and then not change back. Depending on coffee and my diet, I might be visiting the can again soon anyway, so it's more convenient to simply stay commando. Sometimes, since it can be a hassle changing when I just want to quickly run out, or when the wife wants to do a quick "getaway" to get coffee. But, I've also grown to enjoy the feeling of wearing a diaper, and I absolutely love the convenience they provide. I'd much rather stay in my warm bed and wet my diaper, but I've known that forever. I've recently learned the ease of wearing a diaper during meetings, so I've found myself trying to arrange my coffee and subsequent toilet use to be complete before my morning meetings start. And since I control meetings now, that's quite easy! Now that I've gotten some daytime weight diapers, I'm more likely to change into one of them when it's the end of the day, but I'm also as likely to simply take a shower, fish out my underpants and quickly get dressed. I'm not going to stop by any means, and as Covid rages, I'm just reminding myself that I don't need to wear diapers (yet), and can wear-or-not as I feel like it. I don't quite remember where I first encountered the concept, but I've heard ABDL desires described as both sexual and sensual. I've recently been exploring that line, though my usual partner's libido has been hit quite hard by the ongoing crisis, so I suppose I've been leaning more on the sensuality angle more. The cold months mean the wife and I assemble a veritable bed of blankets on the couch, and snuggle together while playing games or watching TV. Working at home means we can rant about our work issues more easily, and it's common for one of us to ask the other for a hug as the day goes on. Maybe I'll get myself some pullups for quick trips...

On the topic of diaper stash, I've been using Tykables' "Diaper Box" for my supply, since Covid means I'm not leaving my house except for very short trips for which I can accommodate the sound/bulk. Though I'd ordered the "Base" level of absorbency, the majority of the summer saw my monthly box come packed with Tykables more-absorbent options (for which I am not complaining!). And because of this, I both lacked "daytime weight" options, and my stash dwindles to just a couple bags by the end of the month. And I'm using this Quarantine period to explore my desires (And distract myself from the stupid apocalypse). Because I didn't like the idea of not going to bed freshly-changed, I'd find that I was going commando for a couple hours in the evening, or finding a pair of underpants to save the new diaper for bedtime. Well, this month saw Tykables split the case into 4 bags of each "level" of absorbency, so that excuse is gone. Instead, I'm finding myself take more time off during the day because-well- I've started wetting the bed, and I'm finding it much easier to fully relax to wet during the day. Unlike a lot of other reports, I've had rather strong pelvic floor, and it's only recently, after wearing constantly for 9 months that I'm starting to see what others report in, like, 2 or 3. I still clench up when other people are around, but alone I'm seeing real progress on "releasing." However, I don't think that I want to be diaper dependent, I'm not putting myself through any "diaper training," (at the moment). I might go that way eventually, but the idea of needing to wear overnight is scary enough for my frequent (pre-covid) travel that I hope will become frequent again. So I suppose I'm making sure my potty training doesn't become too rusty despite still wanting to wear a diaper the majority of the time. I'm probably going to expand my options for something approaching a pullup, when the world opens up again, and figure out how travel works in a post-Covid world (whenever that comes).

I generally untape one side and slide it down. I'm using hook-and-loop at the moment, but even when I had taped diapers, I'd be able to carefully do the same. I don't like messing purely because of the cleanup afterwards, but on occasion I'm pre-occupied enough or aroused enough to go ahead and mess my diaper. I then try to get myself cleaned back up the moment I have time.

I consider myself a switch as well. I've been acting like a big strong man this summer playing nurse-maid to my wife after she had some surgical procedures, which I enjoy. I like making the people around me feel better, so I've been satisfied. But I also wish to be able to be "littler" than my wife really wants to play, and I do my best not to push her beyond her ability/desire. So I've just been wearing diapers under my clothes and focusing on taking care of myself when my wife can't. It is stressful to stay in one role too long, but sometimes that's what's necessary. The wheel turns and I know I'll find time to be little again. I hope you can find a better partner for your needs in the future!

I loved these 2 novels. Thank you. And so glad to hear the story's not over!

I'm one of those people who've had these desires since childhood. Since I can remember I wanted to be in diapers, and my baby book actually has a note, "Not at all interested in potty training." I'm using the stay-at-home orders to re-examine that training, haha. ?

Now entering week... 4, it appears. I updated my diaper-related activities in my little thread in lifestyles, but it's been a strange couple of weeks. Before the quarantine, I'd been visiting a local friend of mine on a regular (for me) basis. He has several problems that mean he can't enjoy video games like he used to, so I pack up my PS4 in it's little travel hardcase, and play Jedi: Fallen Order for him after work. Well, now that sort of "social activity" is out, but I really wanna share the game with him. So I've been in the process of setting myself up to stream, and we finally had our first successful session today. Admittedly it was interrupted by work calls, lasted maybe 30 minutes and him getting nauseous meant we had to end rather abruptly- But we got through the Kashyyyk intro, finally! Comms took some figuring, but we just decided on Discord, and all was fine. I've never had a huge circle of friends. But OMG, I've never wanted to visit people so much as when I'm told I can't. So I'm very happy for our modern communications infrastructure. A trickle of human contact is still human contact. And my wife and I are close, so we have each other for touch. We'll get through this. But it's taking... too.... long! You all be safe out there.

I have a Snow Leopard fuzzy fleece footed onesie from https://www.the-all-in-one-company.co.uk that I splurged on several years ago. It's essentially my telecommuting uniform when its cold. I work IT, and don't need people to see my face to do my job. So I've been wearing all the time, for the most part. Ordered another case from Tykables to keep supplies up, but I'm concerned with how long this could go on...

I mentioned in another thread that money has been tight for a while, and I've just been wearing at night. I didn't make any deliberate "stock up" orders because I wasn't planning on starting a 24/7 stint yet. This "Work from home for two weeks, maybe longer, starting in 3 days" period caught me by surprise. Luckily, however, I'd just purchased a case of Tykables overnights, so that will easily carry me through, and since my wife actually showed interest in another of Tykables' patterns, I'll grab a case of those to shore up my stock.

Whole office is on a mandatory "Work from Home" period for the next 2 weeks, and the bets are open about how long that gets extended. As far as indulging, I'm playing with a 24/7 while this WFH period lasts. My wife called attention to Tykables new "Pupper" diaper, so that's getting purchased once the tax return arrives...

This is an incredible story. I haven't even finished it, but I have to comment. Thank you so much for sharing this!

I love this, you've written a compelling story!