alwayslittle

good topic! I actually was wearing a diaper the first time I orgasmed (awake)... I was a very late bloomer, and I never thought about masturbating. I remember being more turned on by diapers than girls or sex or anuthing like that. As a teenager I would buy goodnites, and wear them, and it would turn me on and after wetting them I would rub my front a little, but I never climaxed. I was 17 and a senior in highschool the first time I came, I was living at a friend's house, and I learned his younger sister who was about 14 or 15 wore diapers to bed. It had been a crazy discovery, and I was trying my best to ignore it. However one day I had the house to myself and I snooped around, I saw in her closet the pack of depends that were crinkly, I had wondered what brand it was hearing it crinkle on her before. Anyways, after snooping around I saw there was one of her wet diapers in the trash. I could not fight my impulses, so I grabbed it and went into the bathroom to put it on. I guess it was an accumilation of all kinds of things, for one it was much more like the diapers I remember wearing as a baby, it had tapes and was plastic backed, so that was much more exciting than the goodnites I'd worn before. Also since it was already wet and soggy that felt all the more better, I stroked the front a few times before I came. It kind of freaked me out, because it was so sudden, and for a second I thought I was peeing.

I heard Trey Parker from South Park will play with Legos whenever he has a creative block... Makes me think that maybe there's something to unlocking the creative side when you can go into a space to use your imagination.

So I've always had a shy bladder, and it seems to have gotten worse the older I've gotten. The reason I'm bringing it up now is I've worked on various ways to help me pee in public places, but I have a daddy who comes by from time to time and expects me to use my diaper in front of him. All my tricks to help me go normally don't work while in front of him, it's not a big deal, since I'll scamper off in the next room and go, but I'd love to be able to pee while he watches.

my two faves are the ABU's peekabus, which I am currently wearing. But my favorite fave is the super dry kids, that's because it's the closest one to like what I used to wear when I was little.

I remember hearing: "someone has stinky britches"

Season 2 episode 17- Dead Moon Walking Adventure Moon the youngest son goes to school wearing a diaper and bring his stuffed animal to prove a point to his "frenemy " Debbie that she doesn't have to be embarrassed for being scene as little.

Great Topic to discuss, for me it's impossible for me to stay authentic into a particular age standard. I'd like to think of my little age as being a "Post-Baby", caught in between wanting to be babied and wanting to be grown-up, which was around the age of 5 for me. This is when I remember my first confusions of being both embarrassed & jealous of kids my age being diapered, and also the age which my earliest memories are the most consistent. It was also the same age when I had this onetime experience which developed into my most obsessive & favorite memory I kept to myself (you know how they say when you remember something, you're just "remembering a memory"?), well I feel I'd gone and tried remembering it so much during all these years, that I'm not even sure what parts are truth, fantasies, or dreams. This is why I had to develop a whole ABDL/Little sub-persona for myself, who's little age is 5, but get's the treaments I'd only fantasized about at that age, this way its more relatable & almost memorable. I developed an entire internal system with a name and back-story, in order to try and get into the idea of headspace that makes the most sense to me.

It's Complicated is what it is, I've more or less summarized Ageplay into further separate categories for myself. Humiliation Ageplay (Sexual) Nurturing Ageplay (Sensual) They both cross over at times. There's no denying that there's I'm going to find levels of erotic arousals during ageplay, especially if there's a diaper change involved. Not to mention, even if you are able to fight off the eroticism, a diaper change is a very intimate experience being momentarily naked exposed.

I remember I had the feeling of knowing something was there when I was around 5 or 6. I knew I was struggling with this cognitive disodiance at an early age for seeing kids my age (pre-school/kindergarten) diapered and being jealous, but also hated being babied (in a general sense, ie. Someone saying "quit acting like a baby".

For me it was the classic depends, which I've always felt like was an embarrassing story. I was living with a friend in high-school, who's younger sister was a bedwetter and wore them at night. One day while I had the house to myself I'd rummaged around around her room looking for them. I couldn't find them, nor did I look to hard, feeling bad enough being so snoopy, but when I looked in the downstairs bathroom I'd found a used one in the trash. The best/worst part was that it was wet, which actually wasn't the first time I'd down that. When I was around 6 or 7, I found a used diaper on the porch of this girl my age who wore diapers, I'd scooped it up under my jacket and went behind some bushes to put it on, I remember I wore it all day even when I got home. Although when I was 15 I discovered a pack of goodnights in her spare-room closet (she used to run a daycare) and going through puberty, I like to count that as my first time "back in diapers" as an adult, I remember a lot of the ABDL websites had allowed Teen-babies to join.

I used to frequently have diaper dreams, especially going through puberty...I don't have them as often, but every once and a while I'll have one. It's funny, because almost all of my diaper dreams were kind of frustrating; like I'd be wearing a diaper and have to use it, but never able to. Or the ones I'd have when I was younger, would be with some anonymous girl I'd be crushing on, and it'd eaither be one of two scenarios, of her asking me to diaper her (or vise-versa, her going to diaper me) but for whatever reason it'd never get around to happening.

grandma put into one these Luv's one time, for some reason i was more embarassed over Barney than wearing a diaper

I have always wanted to try it! I've been curious of the effects and if it would help me get into a better head space. I can't smoke like I'd like cause of federal job and UAs, but when I do get the chance to get stoned, I can feel this natural childlike curiosity which is difficult to tab into otherwise... I wish I had a partner as well, that would make for an even better time! not to mention, I think with a partner it could help a lot in finding that headspace... I'm originally from oregon as well!

I started watching Starcrawler's new music video Bet My Brains" because they're an okay and interesting new band I've been following, when half way through the music video I notice the lead singer is wearing a pull-up!