Everyone who knows me knows I wear diapers--I've never kept that a secret. But only in recent years have I started to tell people that I enjoy wearing them as well. I've told maybe six or seven people in the last twenty years, most of whom were doctors or counselors. Or maybe I should say six or seven living people.
I told my mother I was a DL about six months before she died--I explained precisely what ABs and DLs were, and directed her to the relevant web pages to learn more. (I think Bitter Grey's page was one--If you're going to tell a family member, that's the page to send them to).
Why I chose that particular time to tell her, I don't know. It was as if in the back of my mind I knew she wouldn't be here long, I suppose, though her death was sudden and a total shock. (Cancer that she never told me she had). She deserved to know all about me, about the things I did she thought were weird at the time, such as why I so suddenly and enthusiastically embraced diapers when I began having accidents some twenty years ago. At the time she'd ascribed it to "laziness" on my part, that I was too lazy to go to the toilet. I could do nothing then but grit my teeth and keep silent.
Now she knew, and to my surprise, she was very nonchalant about it. They were just another kind of underwear, she said, and why should she get worked up over underwear? I felt at that moment as though a tremendous weight had been lifted off of me.