seppuku

You really don't like thunderstorms, do you Mary?

I've gone without for over a year, it's pure torture. Only by necessity. I don't have the privacy (roommate) that I would like.

What sort of PHP scripts? Installing them is little issue (just copying files). Setting permissions/setting the server up afterwards on the other hand... can get slightly hairy if you're unsure what you're doing.

I think disposable diapers smell lovely. Towels fresh from the dryer for just about the same reasons. If i've just put on some sort of cologne, I always enjoy the fragranced aura coming off of myself. If I burn incense, it makes me more relaxed. Scents are very powerful. Oh, and Runaway: I think everyone sniffs blankets, being a lesbian doesn't change that.

We're all neurotic, we all have incorrect opinions, and we can all at times be strongly opposed to those of others. It's human nature. Psychologists - they're trying to understand people. They're trying to help people be more sane. Doesn't matter if they're wrong here or there, the intention is good, and it helps some people regardless of whether it helps everyone or not. Religion... don't get me started on religion. It's not the bible that says anything against what we do, but often the hyper-religious people will tell us we're wrong. Do you like wearing dresses, wearing diapers? Do you like lipstick and pink, or blue jeans and t-shirts? Boxers, briefs, or Bambino? To some, anything outside the norm is an abomination to god. The fault is not with religion but with a fair amount of overly conservative and "morally superior" religious people. Believe it or not, despite my gender issues/diaper fetish, I am a fairly conservative person. I have values! What does this say? We all have different degrees of beliefs in many different topics. It's very sad if a lover is coming out negatively towards your diapers. Mormonism is a very morally conservative faith. It's very hard... to have fetishes or other unusual behaviors in the context of that. The problem is, that your fiancee really believes she's right. As an aside to all the accusations of quackery towards both religion and science: what exactly isn't quackery?

Also, many transexuals don't feel comfortable with their genitalia, and if you're diapered, it creates a bit of a buffer, so to speak. ^that makes perfect sense. I don't like my genitals. I find myself feeling a bit more and more the TG from day to day. My appearance is mostly male, and I don't see that changing immediately, as much as i'd like to. I live in the "Iron Range" of Minnesota, which is a very religious/morally oppressive community. (If "morally oppressive" is even an appropriate term.) I'm growing my hair out now (as if that's even feminine in itself anymore... but it makes me feel more "pretty".) and I suppose we'll see what happens. I feel like I want to do something about it.

Mental masturbation in its purest form... it gets me hot.

Well, we know one thing is clear. This woman doesn't, and won't accept the diapers in any way, shape, or form. You end up with nothing but three basic choices. 1) Stop 2) Leave her 3) Hide it All of those suck in one way or another. You're basically left with "the woman, or the diapers?"

I've never told a single soul, except: 1) Other "diaper people". 2) A couple of girlfriends. The latter has almost always ended on a happy note, but generally has ended the relationship.

who wants to buy it?

They're essentially identical, the "super absorbent polymer" is just in different places. Since you're not wearing them to use them, you need not worry, because the difference isn't there.

Thanks for such a wonderful reply - related experience from people who've had this happen is vital.

I see all sorts of posts about this, and in my usual manner i'll act like I know what i'm talking about. You want to tell your family? This is doomed to failure in most cases. Examine the risks. 1) This could cause psychological grief to them, especially in the case of parents. They've raised you up to be adults, and in a way they might see this as your desire to undo all their hard work. They also might see this as a failure on their part to properly raise you. This could result in a lot of grief for them, or they could give you a lot of grief. If you're a male (bio, that is) this might cause a lot of grief to your father, who might find it disappointing. - not to say that's a fair assumption on his part.This especially holds true if he's a more "manly man" type. Also, family can, with help of the courts, send you to some sort of psychiatric hospital for observation, if they believe there is an emergency. (Of course, they can't keep you there except to observe, unless they observe you to be a threat to yourself or others.) All in all, it's likely to cause a lot of grief, when it's largely unnecessary to share such a personal thing. 2) To most people, "using" your diapers, is in the same place socially as one's toilet use, only far more taboo - please keep this in mind, they might be disgusted by the act, even if they do not suffer emotional grief, or retaliate. To put it quite bluntly, the average person would rather most anything happen to them (within reason) than having to "use" a diaper, so they can't see why you would want to. Don't expect any average person to understand this, much less your family. 3) My logic is that my family and friends who are not in this circle, should be somewhat protected from knowing this sort of thing about me, due to the distress it would cause them. I would argue that it's simply not fair to them to give them this sort of information about yourself. It's a negative act, not unlike sharing some other fetish with your family. 4) Regardless of what it is to you, your family will most definitely see this as a "wierd sexually motivated fetish" - and might even think that you're a pedophile. Being that they are incapable of processing this sort of idea, because they do not share it, it is not uncommon for people who are not familiar with this sort of thing to make such assumptions. These assumptions could potentially get you in some serious trouble. 5) Don't play the incontinence defense. This isn't going to work under any circumstances, and also they might want you to see a doctor. Seeing a doctor would be bad, because rest assured, a doctor would unquestionably know the difference, and likely refer you to mental health professionals. Still want to tell them? More risks, which depend on the character quality and open-mindedness of your family or friends: They could tell more people about your fetish, and it could spread far enough to affect all your friendships, or possibly your work. If your boss thinks you're a pervert, or a threat to their other employees, chances are this could turn very, very ugly. It could affect your income, and your livelihood. If you're wearing diapers to work this gets more complicated, because you're doing what is seen as engaging in sexual behaviour around the workplace. If you work with kids, this could land you in prison. Your family could also generally see it as you practicing your fetish around them. Your friends might not appreciate this either. I am of the opinion that one's diaper fetish, or infantilism are very private matters, just like any other paraphilic behaviour. I'm sure you've known one person who (unbeknownst to you) has participated in a fetish that you find particularly troublesome. They didn't tell YOU. Please make an informed decision! The only people you NEED to tell, are your boyfriends/girlfriends/SO/whatever, because you could really ruin a relationship if you date someone and they are unaware of it. If you're incontinent, just be open about it to anyone who needs to know, or asks. If you're AB/DL, avoid being open to ANYONE, who isn't your boyfriend/girlfriend/SO. Possibly very close friends. It's just not necessary to do otherwise. I hope this advice is taken well - of course it's all negative, but that's because the truth of it all is negative.

Death Cab for Cutie - Styrofoam Plates (Yes, I listen to this band entirely too much. I think I might be one of those emo people - though i'm pretty sure I think most related music is trash)

That girl is underage, if nothing else it should be reported to YTMND ' Edit: Wait, that's a different one. There was one on there which was a very young girl (probably around 14 or so) and was intended to make a mockery of it.

Your message is almost entirely composed of PGP sigs. It seems to have been cut off.

Coil - "Love's Secret Domain" (Probably one of the best albums ever that few have ever heard of.)

In case you didn't know, Sarah Silverman's comedy almost exclusively revolves around making ridiculous statements. This might put things in context. You can't believe a word she says.

Money is not a measure of intelligence. Stupidity exists primarily in people who use such silly measures of other people.

I listen to a lot of bands. My current rotation involves mostly: Einstuerzende Neubauten (An early industrial-noise band, which later grew into a more melodic sound) Death Cab for Cutie (Part of the late 1990s Seattle indie scene, though now they are wildly successful.) Radiohead (I don't think this band needs words!) Thom Yorke (Frontman of Radiohead, solo record) Smashing Pumpkins (You know, that one band, with the bald guy.) Skinny Puppy (Experimental electro-industrial band from the 80s, producing more electro stuff now) Bauhaus (Early gothic rockers)

Age: 23 sex/gender/inclination: male/girly-boy, especially my thought processes, emotions - I look male, but I consider myself androgynous and think like a woman./heterosexual (read as: i prefer bio women.) Diaper experience: At the age of 4, I was still in diapers at night, and I remember waking up and changing myself a couple of times. I was self-aware of the diapers, and I seem to remember wanting to remain in them most of the time. I always would walk around in the morning in my footed sleeper/diapers, I have very fond memories of this, I was very comfortable and happy. I remember trying to subtly (via acting out wetting) get back into them, but this was not successful. Later in life, I always wanted to wear again, the thought was always with me. It still is. When I was 13, I did the usual early teenage behavior, and fashioned a fake cloth diaper out of various items from the house. It didn't really work that well, but cemented my desire to wear as a real part of my life. Later on, when I was 18, I finally mail-ordered some adult disposables, my life has never been the same. I felt like I was "home". I tried cloth, but found them inconvenient by comparison. One could say i'm a DL, I use them because it comes naturally, and I enjoy babyish clothing - it's cute and comfortable. Maybe even some little skirts, some pink stuff.

I find that I just like pretending that I need them for a bit

I'm glad that this is a part of me, I wouldn't have it any other way - sure it's a little odd, but you could do far, far worse than having a diaper fetish. And obviously, if it's a fetish, it's probably something you enjoy! I have, for over a year, due to circumstances beyond my control (roommate) not been able to wear - and sometimes I just can't get the thought of being able to curl up in a thick diaper/onesie, right in the middle of my living room out of my head. Please, try to accept this, it never really goes away. Don't make it hard on yourself.

Ah, how I miss that comic. I used to read it in the PI back when I lived in Seattle.

she speaks!