Something different - my training to get an overactive bladder, hopefully nearly achieved!

[Kevin140]

 

I have been a DL for many years, but I only wear my diaper for urination, not for bowel movements, this is not and has not been an option for me.

I have been wearing diapers for over 15 years also because I don't have to constantly visit public toilets when I'm out and about, so I can be much more relaxed about my daily life.

 

How did I find the site of dailydiapers? About 9 years ago I was on vacation in Spain, thin sheets on the bed, it was still warm in the evening, but towards morning it became cooler, cold legs, cold feet and a dream of the toilet, I woke up and, was slightly dismayed that I had let it run into my pants in my sleep.

I therefore searched for "bedwetting" and so also landed here with you ?.

I found it interesting to read about everything here, I also tried catheters. However, I noticed right away that for me complete urinary incontinence at the moment is not the thing what I wanted to have for me.

Despite all this, I find it exciting to read about all the posts, about the thoughts and feelings behind them, and about those who have managed to become incontinent or bedwetters.

I have never written until this post, had also not yet created an account here, but was only a silent observer. But now I would like to report about myself. Finally, I am ready!

 

So, it began with me about 15 years ago: Initially, I wore diapers irregularly during the day, but usually used them only in the evening on the way home after work or on longer walks.

 

In 2018, however, I read here from some who are on their way to get incontinent, by using diapers regularly they developed an overactive bladder. I found this to be aspirational for me as well. From then on, I also used the diaper all day, but not at night. However, should I also develop bedwetting, this would be an option I would not be averse to. However, I am not working on this goal yet.

 

When I started in 2018, I had a monster bladder, I could hold forever, drink well in the evening and go to the toilet only after 2 hours, because I felt pressure only then.

 

What has changed with me since then? (This is also the reason why I wrote nothing for so long, because I had nothing to report that could interest anyone, but now I think the right time has come):

At the beginning not much happened, that was clear to me, and I was not unhappy about it. I let things take their way, I am relaxed about it.

However, since the end of last year, I have noticed that I have a much more frequent urge to urinate, or in one out of three cases, when I have a diaper on, I often don't even remember that I used it. In hindsight, I think, oops I had done earlier in my diaper, after checking, ?, yeh.

In the evening I usually have no diaper on, but as soon as I feel the slightest pressure, I always go to the toilet, this can be once every 20 minutes, if I take plenty of liquid. And I like to do this because I know that by doing so I further weaken my ability to hold it in for long periods of time. If I used to have to get up at most once a night, now it is almost always twice often even three times. However, I don't mind this because I know that this also brings me closer and closer to the goal of developing an overactive bladder.

 

From time to time, I don't put on a diaper during the day to see how far along I am. I haven't had any accidents yet, but I've been close. I had to hold on to myself very much, to hold on and go to the toilet very quickly, and it wasn't even too much that I peed.

 

A few months ago, I intentionally moved on. If I was previously on the road for a long time and the diaper was already filled to bursting, then I stopped it, no matter how hard it was for me, just to not have an accident.

This I have now intentionally abandoned, because only in this way I can make further progress. It has never happened much, sometimes some urine ran down my legs, and if it was more, I was right at home.

 

I am curious how it will go on now, since I am also, as it is often said, in advanced age, this will certainly play additionally into my hands. I'm already looking forward to the day when I consciously don't wear a diaper again, I'm looking at going somewhere where I don't mind if it goes down the pants. Of course, I won't do that at work, but when I'm walking somewhere comfortable, at best, but where I can't just stand against the nearest tree.

Does it bother me mentally when this happens: Oh, my God what are people thinking!!? Mentally I have adjusted myself to it: No!

I often wear long johns in the winter, dark pants over them and another jacket that also goes over my butt, so it won't be noticeable to everyone right away, and since it happens in small amounts, it probably won't leave too big of a stain, but who knows, I'll just have to try to stay calm, I know I can.

 

But what does it mean to me to develop an overactive bladder? I think I am a person who always tries to keep a lot of things under control. This is the opposite of that, a freedom I don't usually have to give up control. The certainty of not being able to control something anymore. I hope it also creates for me a feeling of helplessness as far as my uncontrolled urination is concerned, a dependence on diapers, not just wearing them for fun, but because I have an overactive bladder and now finally must wear a diaper!

And then certainly a great sense of pride that after years of letting go, I have achieved something that I desire from the bottom of my heart, something that you can't just buy in a store either, to have achieved something that most consider a flaw but for me is a great fulfillment.

To know that here are many who are similarly like me, who support me and that I am not alone with this thing!

 

And before I now slowly come to the end, I would like to briefly describe what turns me on so much about wearing a diaper: I like the feeling of a diaper on the body, warm and fluffy, then when it slowly fills, becomes heavier and heavier, the weight between the legs, the thick pants! I wear cloth and plastic diapers, earlier mostly not in the summer because I found it uncomfortable in the heat, but I have now also got used to it and I find it great when I get in the heat then between the legs even warmer because I just like to have a diaper on!

 

But now I come slowly really to the end and would like to say, however, that without this forum I would probably never have come to the idea to start something like this, but I would have always felt a certain emptiness, which I can now fill but with this task and the goal!

 

I'll post more as more changes occur or something decisive happens. I would also be happy if I get some kind feedback from one or the other here and of course I will be happy to answer your questions. It would be great if I also reached one or the other with my goal, who thinks similarly about the topic or has the same wishes!

 

Thanks to all who have posted here in this forum so far and to all who will do so in the future. ?

 

(I hope you understand my translation, I’m from Germany and translated and revised it into English)

[Enthusi]

This is amazing and your approach has a lot in common with the approach I used to untrain myself, which I am (slowly) writing a guide on. 

Something that will help you on your journey is accepting that you’re incontinent, because… well, you are!  This is quite common. In fact @Kaliborio recently wrote about this in her Tumblr blog… how those of us who untrain think we are continent when we are not.  

Once you accept and identify as someone who has poor bladder control you’ll appreciate that you have an obligation to stay dry and the only practical way for you to meet this obligation is with diapers.  You’ll notice that you feel strangely vulnerable when not diapered and so you rely on your diaper to keep you dry, like it’s a crutch.  This will likely worsen your bladder control in the long run but that’s a good thing, right? 

Your bladder control already isn’t that good, and it’s only going to get worse with time.

As for community support, this is critical. Please post updates with your progress and ask for help when you get stuck.  Also there are some semi-private Telegram groups for untraining and wearing 24/7.  Feel free to DM me for links.

Cheers! 

 

[Kevin140]

Vor 9 Minuten sagte Enthusi:

Sobald Sie akzeptieren und sich als jemand mit schlechter Blasenkontrolle identifizieren, werden Sie erkennen, dass Sie verpflichtet sind, trocken zu bleiben, und der einzige praktische Weg für Sie, dieser Verpflichtung nachzukommen, sind Windeln. Du wirst feststellen, dass du dich seltsam verletzlich fühlst, wenn du keine Windel trägst, und deshalb verlässt du dich darauf, dass deine Windel dich trocken hält, als wäre sie eine Krücke. Dies wird wahrscheinlich Ihre Blasenkontrolle auf lange Sicht verschlechtern, aber das ist eine gute Sache, oder? 

Das ist das, was ich wirklich will, es fühlt sich richtig und so gut an, und es wird mich komplett machen!

[Kevin140]

it's so crazy I sit and watch tv, i feel a small urge, 2 minutes later a strong urge, go to the toilet, quickly , and it's only a little, what I pee it's not enough for the urge I had  and after that it still dribbles for a little while, is this really happening?  - a significant change? love it ?

[Kevin140]

Yesterday I went for a walk without a diaper, I usually wear a diaper when I'm out for a long time because I know I can't hold it much longer.

When I’m wearing diaper, I usually register the most time - but not always - when I use them, but not how often, or in whish time period. So, I doesn’t worne them yesterday, because I wanted to know, how long I can hold in, or if there will happen some accidents!

It was from the beginning also quite uncomfortable to go without diaper and I was a little bit stressed.

Last time, when I wasn’t wearing a diaper outside - don’t ask me when, perhaps ¾ or one year before -I could hold 30 to 45 minutes. But yesterday I have the urge after 15 to 20 minutes, then it got very uncomfortable and I had to find a place where I could release, what a stress nearly every 20 to 30 minutes.

Now I’m wearing a diaper again and wait for the changes that happen in the next months!

[fixitboy]

I retrained to become a bedwetter but have notice less day time control to over the years.  Alot more trips to the bathroom and damp underwhere is not unusual for me now  I to know the ironic brain tease This is for most people the worst thing that could happen to them whial I enjoy wet diapers and sometimes sheets .  

On 12/23/2022 at 2:37 PM, Enthusi said:

This is amazing and your approach has a lot in common with the approach I used to untrain myself, which I am (slowly) writing a guide on. 

Something that will help you on your journey is accepting that you’re incontinent, because… well, you are!  This is quite common. In fact @Kaliborio recently wrote about this in her Tumblr blog… how those of us who untrain think we are continent when we are not.  

Once you accept and identify as someone who has poor bladder control you’ll appreciate that you have an obligation to stay dry and the only practical way for you to meet this obligation is with diapers.  You’ll notice that you feel strangely vulnerable when not diapered and so you rely on your diaper to keep you dry, like it’s a crutch.  This will likely worsen your bladder control in the long run but that’s a good thing, right? 

Your bladder control already isn’t that good, and it’s only going to get worse with time.

As for community support, this is critical. Please post updates with your progress and ask for help when you get stuck.  Also there are some semi-private Telegram groups for untraining and wearing 24/7.  Feel free to DM me for links.

Cheers! 

 

You are so right.  Total commitment to the life style is the first step to retraining for bedwetting or compleat diaper depends.   Once you decide to start their is no cheating  Telling firend and family your back in diapers is the hardest.   But remember. If you do achieve your goal it not like you can just stop for a day or two

[munkey]

@Enthusi you’re so right about seeing yourself as incontinent.  I’ve worn diapers off and on 24/7 for the past 11 years with full time happening about 3-4.  I don’t active train for urinating in my diapers, however, I wear cause I have IBS.  Up until recently I considered self an AB that wore for comfort, not need.  Well, after starting to say out loud “I’m incontinent” this last month… so much more dribbling, leaking, leaking after I’ve peed, that at this point, I’m far down my journey and I didn’t even know I was going down it lol.

[Kevin140]

I think I made a little progress!

When I wake up in morning an go to the bathroom, it is necessary to pee directly in the toilet, because I don't wear diaper in the night.

When I'm not goin on toilet, I have to concentrate strongly, that I am not lose urin.

So this morning I relaxed only a little bit when I brushed my teeth and get directly a little wet spot in my pants. I think it was only stopped by a little erection, that I've got in this moment.

Is this urge incontinence, full incontinence, or just a weak sphincter, because of my untraining in daytime?

What do I have expect next?

[Kevin140]

There are some times, that I can hold more and less, but I know that I do it very often in a short time now.

In the last days I wet my diaper four times without any remembering. I thought, have I pied five minutes ago? I checked - yes -  and I was so much happy about this!

But I think I stay on the messing thing, I saw someone else who wet his jogging pants, so I could be like him, I wear diaper and none will see, or I am a fucking pisser, who has sometimes no control, and other people could see this, if they have a closer look

And it's not the same as peeing my pants on purpose

I need the feeling that I actually can't hold it anymore

and I need validation that I caused it myself and changed myself so much

does anyone else feel this as strongly as I do?

[Kevin140]

I've been in rehab for 2 weeks now because of symptoms that also occur with Covid, among other things.

Since my goal is not to get complete incontinence, but urge incontinence and overactive bladder, I usually only wear diapers during the day, which I use when I have the slightest urge.

I've come a long way here, as I've noticed in the last two weeks. The only thing I haven't achieved yet is urge incontinence, but I'm working on it.

Since I have to do a lot of sporting activities, I didn't wear a diaper at first. It was quite unusual for me to spend the whole day without the warm diaper between my legs. At the same time, I was also a bit cooler there, which increased my urge to go to the toilet even more often.

Depending on hydration and sweating, I have to go to the toilet every half to one and a half hours to only pee small amounts at a time, the urge to pee comes very early on, with a very small amount of urine. I had to concentrate very hard several times when I couldn't let it run straight away, but I didn't have an accident, which was fine with me there. To relieve myself of the stress, I also put on a diaper there when the sport is over.

I don't wear a diaper at night, but I noticed when I had to go to the toilet with a strong urge that woke me up, it used to be that I had to pee for about 40 seconds, then I had to relax for a minute, the bladder has cleared then probably contracted again and I had to pee again for about 10 seconds.

Currently I have to pee for about 15 seconds with the same strong urge, I waited until I had to do it again afterwards, but nothing, everything was already done. I think my bladder has shrunk a lot and is a lot less elastic than it was 5 years ago.

This fills me with enormous joy because I see that, albeit slowly, I have achieved extremely great success.

After rehab and even now at the weekend I always wear a diaper. I assume that it will then hopefully only be a few months before I also achieve urge incontinence.

And yes, if I subsequently develop complete incontinence or even start wetting the bed, I won't be scared, I would welcome it with open arms. But I'm not actively working on it.

[MLDK]

On 5/13/2023 at 1:32 PM, Kevin140 said:

I've been in rehab for 2 weeks now because of symptoms that also occur with Covid, among other things.

Since my goal is not to get complete incontinence, but urge incontinence and overactive bladder, I usually only wear diapers during the day, which I use when I have the slightest urge.

I've come a long way here, as I've noticed in the last two weeks. The only thing I haven't achieved yet is urge incontinence, but I'm working on it.

Since I have to do a lot of sporting activities, I didn't wear a diaper at first. It was quite unusual for me to spend the whole day without the warm diaper between my legs. At the same time, I was also a bit cooler there, which increased my urge to go to the toilet even more often.

Depending on hydration and sweating, I have to go to the toilet every half to one and a half hours to only pee small amounts at a time, the urge to pee comes very early on, with a very small amount of urine. I had to concentrate very hard several times when I couldn't let it run straight away, but I didn't have an accident, which was fine with me there. To relieve myself of the stress, I also put on a diaper there when the sport is over.

I don't wear a diaper at night, but I noticed when I had to go to the toilet with a strong urge that woke me up, it used to be that I had to pee for about 40 seconds, then I had to relax for a minute, the bladder has cleared then probably contracted again and I had to pee again for about 10 seconds.

Currently I have to pee for about 15 seconds with the same strong urge, I waited until I had to do it again afterwards, but nothing, everything was already done. I think my bladder has shrunk a lot and is a lot less elastic than it was 5 years ago.

This fills me with enormous joy because I see that, albeit slowly, I have achieved extremely great success.

After rehab and even now at the weekend I always wear a diaper. I assume that it will then hopefully only be a few months before I also achieve urge incontinence.

And yes, if I subsequently develop complete incontinence or even start wetting the bed, I won't be scared, I would welcome it with open arms. But I'm not actively working on it.

Im on the same path as You.

working on turning my bladder overactive, by emptying the bladder frequently. I sometimes measure my output in order to map my progress and thereby getting to know more about my bladder capacity. So When I feel a strong urge my bladder usually holds only about 200ml. Sometimes a bit more, sometimes a bit less, but statistically it’s on average 200ml.
when I sense normal need to pee, the amount in my bladder is less than 100ml.

in the rare occasions where I feel a really really strong urge, I pee around 300ml.

I still have control despite been on this path for more than a year. Will my control decline? Well so far. Haven’t genially lost control yet and peed in my pants.

[Kevin140]

2 hours ago, MLDK said:

Ich bin auf dem gleichen Weg wie Du.

Ich arbeite daran, meine Blase durch häufiges Entleeren überaktiv zu machen. Manchmal messe ich meine Leistung, um meine Fortschritte abzubilden und so mehr über meine Blasenkapazität zu erfahren. Wenn ich also einen starken Drang verspüre, fasst meine Blase normalerweise nur etwa 200 ml. Manchmal etwas mehr, manchmal etwas weniger, aber statistisch gesehen sind es im Durchschnitt 200 ml.
Wenn ich das normale Bedürfnis verspüre, zu pinkeln, beträgt die Menge in meiner Blase weniger als 100 ml.

In den seltenen Fällen, in denen ich einen wirklich starken Drang verspüre, pinkle ich etwa 300 ml.

Ich habe immer noch die Kontrolle, obwohl ich diesen Weg seit mehr als einem Jahr beschreite. Wird meine Kontrolle nachlassen? Gut soweit. Ich habe noch nicht die Kontrolle verloren und mir in die Hose gepinkelt.

Thank you for your feedback.

 

I am happy that you are on the same path as me, because many want complete incontinence the direct way.

 

Maybe this is just a detour for me, but I don't want to worry about that at the moment!

 

I don't measure the amount regularly, but I feel the same as you do. And by feeling this way, I've known for a few days now that I've reached the first step: an overactive bladder, wow, mine first goal is achieved!

 

I either have to be near a toilet all the time because I have a strong urge to urinate at short intervals, even with small amounts, and this feeling quickly becomes incredibly uncomfortable. And if I want to prevent this feeling, I'm already absolutely dependent on diapers! WOW!!! I'm finally diaper addicted in this first step to feel better, less stressed. But by using these I will lose my control more and more! The feeling at that moment is indescribable! Mega WOW!!! I have never felt so dependent on a diaper in my life as I do now! And the way goes on!!!

 

But I would be interested to know how you feel about the thought of complete urinary incontinence or bedwetting, because that's not really my priority at the moment!

 

But mainly I'm interested in feelings and thoughts, why you want to have an overactive bladder or urge incontinence? Can you also imagine, through the loss of day-to-day control and conscious learning of a severe impairment in quality of life or even disability, as most people who do not feel like us would describe it, makes you vulnerable and at the same time more than yourself and even stronger people would feel?

 

That's what I'm thinking about right now, but I'm dying for that loss of control, that urge incontinence, to kick in. And I hope when I have achieved this that I still think that what I set out to do five years ago is exactly the right thing for me to achieve this goal, which was still somewhat unconscious at the time.

 

From the current point of view, I would even be happy if I achieved it, but then I would only feel helpless and guilty and would blame myself for doing it, but also would have no possibility to get my previous control back again .

 

But deep down inside I hope to be incredibly proud that I have achieved this through my own strength and have made myself - for others - a somewhat disabled person!!

[MLDK]

On 5/15/2023 at 11:01 PM, Kevin140 said:

Thank you for your feedback.

 

I am happy that you are on the same path as me, because many want complete incontinence the direct way.

 

Maybe this is just a detour for me, but I don't want to worry about that at the moment!

 

I don't measure the amount regularly, but I feel the same as you do. And by feeling this way, I've known for a few days now that I've reached the first step: an overactive bladder, wow, mine first goal is achieved!

 

I either have to be near a toilet all the time because I have a strong urge to urinate at short intervals, even with small amounts, and this feeling quickly becomes incredibly uncomfortable. And if I want to prevent this feeling, I'm already absolutely dependent on diapers! WOW!!! I'm finally diaper addicted in this first step to feel better, less stressed. But by using these I will lose my control more and more! The feeling at that moment is indescribable! Mega WOW!!! I have never felt so dependent on a diaper in my life as I do now! And the way goes on!!!

 

But I would be interested to know how you feel about the thought of complete urinary incontinence or bedwetting, because that's not really my priority at the moment!

 

But mainly I'm interested in feelings and thoughts, why you want to have an overactive bladder or urge incontinence? Can you also imagine, through the loss of day-to-day control and conscious learning of a severe impairment in quality of life or even disability, as most people who do not feel like us would describe it, makes you vulnerable and at the same time more than yourself and even stronger people would feel?

 

That's what I'm thinking about right now, but I'm dying for that loss of control, that urge incontinence, to kick in. And I hope when I have achieved this that I still think that what I set out to do five years ago is exactly the right thing for me to achieve this goal, which was still somewhat unconscious at the time.

 

From the current point of view, I would even be happy if I achieved it, but then I would only feel helpless and guilty and would blame myself for doing it, but also would have no possibility to get my previous control back again .

 

But deep down inside I hope to be incredibly proud that I have achieved this through my own strength and have made myself - for others - a somewhat disabled person!!

Well first and foremost, I’m aiming at urinary incontinence, including bedwetting.

when I first started wearing diapers, I quickly realized that just wearing diapers wasn’t enough, I wanted to be dependent on them, hence why I’m seeking incontinence.
I’m still far from reaching that goal, despite I have been in diapers for a decade. Some days I feel a need to pee very frequently during the day, with smaller amounts coming out, the bladder urges also differ, ranging from mild (normal desire to pee) to strong urges. I haven’t had a genuine accident yet, even when I’m struck with a strong urge.

like you, I’m working actively towards an overactive bladder. I assume once accomplished, urge incontinence and bedwetting will follow suit.

bedwetting is also a thing I’m actively pursuing, I do wake up several times during the night, and quickly a strong urge to pee hits me, sometimes it flows out almost instantly, while other times I have to actively push or move to get the flow started. However I quickly drift back to sleep afterwards, thankfully.

in general I tend to think my subconscious mind is fighting me back on me freely letting go in my diaper, despite I’m well protected.

 

[stevewet]

On 1/7/2023 at 12:39 AM, fixitboy said:

I retrained to become a bedwetter but have notice less day time control to over the years.  Alot more trips to the bathroom and damp underwhere is not unusual for me now  I to know the ironic brain tease This is for most people the worst thing that could happen to them whial I enjoy wet diapers and sometimes sheets .  

You are so right.  Total commitment to the life style is the first step to retraining for bedwetting or compleat diaper depends.   Once you decide to start their is no cheating  Telling firend and family your back in diapers is the hardest.   But remember. If you do achieve your goal it not like you can just stop for a day or two

When I started wetting the bed again in my late 40s I decided this time I'm not fighting this what will be will be. 10 years on and I wet every night and couldn't be happier. I thoroughly enjoy waking up in soaking wet nappies and often a wet bed. 

If anyone wants this total commitment is the key. No breaks no excuses you are now a bedwetter and always will be. Above everything else you are a bedwetter and must live your life accordingly. 

Telling friends and family you wet the bed and wear nappies will be hard but is essential. 

Be sure this is what you want and then go for it. I have never regretted my decision to just accept my incontinence and enuresis and go with the flow (pun intended)

The only word of caution I will say is be sure as aiming for nightly bedwetting and incontinence should be treat as a permanent step. 

For most people once achieved there is no going back. 

For me life is just easier. I have embraced and accepted my incontinence and enuresis and couldn't be happier.

For most bedwetting is a disgusting habit for me it is just right. I know I am one of the lucky few who thoroughly enjoys being this way.

On 1/19/2023 at 3:54 PM, munkey said:

@Enthusi you’re so right about seeing yourself as incontinent.  I’ve worn diapers off and on 24/7 for the past 11 years with full time happening about 3-4.  I don’t active train for urinating in my diapers, however, I wear cause I have IBS.  Up until recently I considered self an AB that wore for comfort, not need.  Well, after starting to say out loud “I’m incontinent” this last month… so much more dribbling, leaking, leaking after I’ve peed, that at this point, I’m far down my journey and I didn’t even know I was going down it lol.

Saying it out loud is a great start.

On 12/26/2022 at 11:12 PM, Kevin140 said:

it's so crazy I sit and watch tv, i feel a small urge, 2 minutes later a strong urge, go to the toilet, quickly , and it's only a little, what I pee it's not enough for the urge I had  and after that it still dribbles for a little while, is this really happening?  - a significant change? love it ?

I don't try and hold any more. I just pre in my nappy at the slightest feeling of needing to pee. Most of the time I just pre without warning and just feel the warmth spreading through my nappy.

[MLDK]

A thing i didnt mention, was how my bladder behavior fluctuates throughout a week. Some days I run for the bathroom every half hour, while other days, my bladder is a lot more calm, and it can be a few hours in between. Though generally I’m not able to hold what can be considered normal volume I.e 500ml. anymore before it becoming very uncomfortable.

[Kevin140]

14 hours ago, Enthusi said:

Amen. It would be very miserable being “stuck” in diapers if you didn’t have a passion for it. 

I have a passion for diapers, but not total urinary incontinence. People with urge incontinence have accidents, but not always and not all the time. (As far as I know, correct me if I'm wrong!)

8 hours ago, MLDK said:

A thing i didnt mention, was how my bladder behavior fluctuates throughout a week. Some days I run for the bathroom every half hour, while other days, my bladder is a lot more calm, and it can be a few hours in between.

You can avoid accidents with diaper, if you often have accidents. But if you have accidents from time to time and it depends on what you eat and drink, you will not always have accidents at the same time and in the same period.

 

In cases where you want to avoid having an accident in public, the diaper naturally helps.

 

But if the frequency is so infrequent and - yeah I'm weird - you can put up with wetting yourself in public and you don't mind others noticing the accident, you don't need a diaper at that precise moment.

 

Of course you should be clear about it in advance, it can always happen, but today here in this place, in this situation and in this environment, I don't care at all, and here I can also be out and about without a diaper, whether it's an accident, or not!

 

I know that goes beyond the way of thinking of many people, here too, but since I accepted this, I have progressed much faster on my way!

[Enthusi]

5 hours ago, Kevin140 said:

People with urge incontinence have accidents, but not always and not all the time. (As far as I know, correct me if I'm wrong!)

I suppose it depends on the severity and your desire to stay dry.  For that reason I tend to say I have a mix of urge incontinence and functional incontinence. The functional part being my desire to not stay dry. 🙂

[El Chancho]

I'm new to this forum and I'm hoping to find people out there with similar feelings because I feel alone.  My desire to wear diapers started in my early teens (40 years ago), and at that time there were no Adult Diapers in the pharmacies.  I love diapers and the pleasure of pretending to be incontinent. I started with baby diapers and accommodated to fit.  I was so happy when adult diapers became available.  I only use them for urine.  The older I got the more obsessed I became and started to buy more absorbent diapers.  I was able to mentally become incontinent, but knew this wasn't going to satisfy my desire. Over time I had serious thoughts to medically become permanently incontinent.  It was a strong desire mentally and physically, best described as a feeling that incontinence would end the obsession and make me feel happy and normal.  I'm not going down that path because I convinced my urologist (I was honest about my obsession and had been talking to my physiatrist who reached out to the urologist)  to allow me to use an indwelling catheter.  The happiest day of my life, for the first time I felt truly incontinent.  I've been using an indwelling for about 5-years, there are times I go back to diapers for a short period of time like swimming or other types of activities.  I no longer am obsessed with surgery to become incontinent.  BTW, I did try condom catheters and they were a complete disaster.  People complain about the pain and discomfort of an indwelling catheter.  It takes awhile to get use to it and there is a learning curve.  I've never had a UTI, but with diapers I had several over the years. 

[Kevin140]

I've finally reached my first goal: overactive bladder!

I now feel intense pressure 10-20 times a day, go to the toilet, or run in the diaper depending on the situation. And afterwards I feel totally liberated and drained again.

I used to only have this with large amounts, but now I have this feeling so often.

On the one hand it's such a good feeling because it happens so often, but also because it's such a relaxing feeling that I can now enjoy so many times a day and not like I used to. There could be nothing nicer on my way.

I don't know how to proceed, but if you're working on complete urinary incontinence, maybe it's just an intermediate way to your goal for all of you, just try it out!

I used to only get that feeling every few days when my bladder needed to hold a lot, now I get that relaxing feeling very often a day and it gives me so much more at the moment and it happens so many times a day that I'm through it so relaxed when I let it!

[Hannah YMS]

On 6/2/2023 at 11:27 AM, Kevin140 said:

I've finally reached my first goal: overactive bladder!

I now feel intense pressure 10-20 times a day, go to the toilet, or run in the diaper depending on the situation. And afterwards I feel totally liberated and drained again.

I used to only have this with large amounts, but now I have this feeling so often.

On the one hand it's such a good feeling because it happens so often, but also because it's such a relaxing feeling that I can now enjoy so many times a day and not like I used to. There could be nothing nicer on my way.

I don't know how to proceed, but if you're working on complete urinary incontinence, maybe it's just an intermediate way to your goal for all of you, just try it out!

I used to only get that feeling every few days when my bladder needed to hold a lot, now I get that relaxing feeling very often a day and it gives me so much more at the moment and it happens so many times a day that I'm through it so relaxed when I let it!

How did you achieve your goal and how long did it take you?

[Kevin140]

I started actively training to get an overactive bladder five years ago. However, it wasn't until the end of last year that I noticed that I have more frequent urges to urinate and that I'm urinating in smaller quantities than I used to.

 

This has continued to deteriorate over the last few months, or as I would say: improved! 😂

 

When I'm well hydrated, I need to urinate every 20-40 minutes.

 

Especially in the last few days, since I've started doing more physical exercise again, I've noticed that I feel the urge to urinate even more evenly throughout the day. I don't know if the body tries to urinate more often through exercise, or if the body automatically demands more fluid intake?

 

In any case, I had two accidents in the last few days with my smaller day diapers when I was out in public in the afternoon. I came home with a pair of wet pants despite the diaper. 🤯

 

I trained myself, to let it go without  looking at the consequence, even if the diaper is already full. I mentally adjusted to that a few months ago. I'm so far that even if I wanted to, I can't hold any longer. My bladder now forces me to either rush to a toilet, but if that's not possible it just lets it go no matter wha the consequence is, even if I pee my pants in public and then with a huge wet one spot must walk around! 😇

 

But that's exactly what shows me how far I've come on my journey and makes me incredibly proud of what I "did to myself"! 😋

 

But I am well equipped and have now put on diapers with 3 l liquid intake as a precaution! 😅

[Goerge]

I have urge IC. When I’m drinking with people it’s very noticeable how many times I visit the toilet compared to them. There 1 to my 5 visits. My bladder suddenly feels full, I pee and it’s only a small gush. My bladder is very sensitive. I also pee 3 times a night.

 

I might had this from previous long 24/7 binges.

[MLDK]

5 hours ago, Kevin140 said:

I started actively training to get an overactive bladder five years ago. However, it wasn't until the end of last year that I noticed that I have more frequent urges to urinate and that I'm urinating in smaller quantities than I used to.

 

This has continued to deteriorate over the last few months, or as I would say: improved! 😂

 

When I'm well hydrated, I need to urinate every 20-40 minutes.

 

Especially in the last few days, since I've started doing more physical exercise again, I've noticed that I feel the urge to urinate even more evenly throughout the day. I don't know if the body tries to urinate more often through exercise, or if the body automatically demands more fluid intake?

 

In any case, I had two accidents in the last few days with my smaller day diapers when I was out in public in the afternoon. I came home with a pair of wet pants despite the diaper. 🤯

 

I trained myself, to let it go without  looking at the consequence, even if the diaper is already full. I mentally adjusted to that a few months ago. I'm so far that even if I wanted to, I can't hold any longer. My bladder now forces me to either rush to a toilet, but if that's not possible it just lets it go no matter wha the consequence is, even if I pee my pants in public and then with a huge wet one spot must walk around! 😇

 

But that's exactly what shows me how far I've come on my journey and makes me incredibly proud of what I "did to myself"! 😋

 

But I am well equipped and have now put on diapers with 3 l liquid intake as a precaution! 😅

So How did you do to train your bladder to become overactive? Just going to the toilet every 30 minutes and relaxing, or did you do some techniques to provoke your bladder to contract?

 

[Goerge]

I also can’t control diarrhoea, I have some kind of latch key bowel movement which means I need to go very soon when it triggers, near doors. I had an accident just now and I wasn’t wearing a nappy. My shorts are messed but I was able to shower in hotel. Hopefully the hotel laundry will be okay with messy pants and shorts. I’m not embarrassed anymore. This is definitely from wearing too much. I’m constantly going for a pee every 20 minutes when drinking which makes it obvious with people. The bowel incontinence isn’t a new thing.

I will give in a tip to room cleaner some money as I made mess of my bed. I can sleep other side.

[Kevin140]

1 hour ago, MLDK said:

Wie haben Sie Ihrer Blase beigebracht, überaktiv zu werden? Gehen Sie einfach alle 30 Minuten auf die Toilette und entspannen Sie sich, oder haben Sie einige Techniken angewendet, um Ihre Blase zum Kontrahieren zu bringen?

 

It was so easy, but it lost years and month, I‘ve worne a nappy every day, and used it when I had the the lightest urge, now I am 52, is it the age? No, I think don't stress youreself, you will get what you want!