Ellie Jean

I have a couple pink chastity devices; a hard plastic one and a flexible silicone one. ...Considered telling mother about them, but quickly decided against it lol. 😅 ...A couple of me still think it would be a good idea though...hoping they don't say anything to her. 🫣

This precisely. Others assume I'm a sissy, and I honestly find it super offensive, because in my mind, a sissy is just a feminized boy, and I'm not a boy. The only way I can picture myself in sissy stories is if I imagine the "caregivers" are just super transphobic and are trying to hurt me by using he/him pronouns for me LOL. 😝

Also in Kalispell. ✋🙂 ...Unfortunately. 😒

Numerological witchcraft...I'm weird. 😅 ...And I thought "Ellie Jean" sounded cute af. 🤭 Also loved all the nicknames that can be made from "Eleanora." 😊

Indubitably. 😁

I've been forced into solitary confinement for over a year; I'm borderline immaculate at the longest of games. 😜 ...And I win. 🤭

Hehehehehehe! ...I WIN! 😝

Wish I could; Mom and I are super poor and on the brink of homelessness. 😥 ...And I'm kinda particular to this cover of War Pigs myself. 🤭

Hehehehe...sounds like Potty Training for a Witch. 🤭 My Little alter and I sometimes have a similar dynamic. 😝

Same; up since 5:00 AM; decided to stop trying to get back to sleep at 6:00 AM. Six hours and twenty minutes clean and sober. Suckling a morning paci instead of a morning ciggy. Helping with the withdrawal. ✊😬

I'm dwelling in the past. 😅

Trans Lifeline: 1-877-565-8860 I called a normal suicide hotline and they called the cops on me, who then took me to the hospital's psych ward, so I've never called a suicide hotline since lol. 😂😭 If I do though, it will be Trans Lifeline; they have a policy of never calling emergency services without your explicit request. 😉

Still Sunday here; about five hours, twenty-one minutes, and nineteen seconds left of Sunday. 🤭

Oofta...super busy today...lotta things I gotta do in preparation for beginning the program that I've been shirking and moving up a day since Thursday. 🫣 My agenda for the day: - Box up all of Nora's Shoes in the storage room. - Hang and box up all my Costume Stuff in the storage room. - Box up the Misc. Fabric Scraps in the storage room. - Create Boxes for Magic Stuff, Nora's Books, and Big Girl Clothes. - Work on cleaning and organizing the Storage Room. - Confirm Mom has finished reading Mommy's Manual. - Discuss the Logistics with her and let her decide what diapers I'll wear. - Have Mom skim the Core Treatment Plan outline - Discuss optional Stricter Rules stipulation and possible Reward Chart rewards. - Work on cleaning my room; clear and organize surface clutter; wipe surfaces. - Nightstand - TV Stand - Bookshelf - Bedroom Dresser - Closet Dresser - Walls - Ceiling - Work on cleaning my room; dust the light fixture. - Remake the bed with new mattress and mattress protector; sweep and mop. - Finish cleaning my room. - Finish cleaning plushies and baby toys. - Display plushies and baby toys in bedroom as a visual reminder to behave. - Finish cleaning and organizing the storage room; double-check my bedroom. - Shower and Shave by 18:00. - Put on my first Disciplinary Diaper by 18:00. - Lock myself into my footie jammies at 21:00. - Lock up anything that can hide my diapers in the Storage Room by 21:30. - Lock up all of my diapers and diapering supplies in Mom's room by 21:30. - Lock child safety devices onto the knobs of the front & back door by 21:30. - Give Mom the keys to all the locks and hope she doesn't go mad with power. - Quit all substance abuse at 23:11. ...I don't think I'm gonna be able to do all of that...last night was the first night I slept since Thursday, so I slept like 14 hours...it's 2:19 PM here now. 😳 Edit: ...Omg I know the perfect song to go with this post lol. 😅

One of the last Rearz Select Vintage Diapers...wish I could enjoy it more, but it was put on against my will. 😒

Oh, and if I break any rules, the Stricter Rules will be initiated using "The Four C's": Corner-Time Upon my violation of any rules, Mom will send me to the corner next to Rio's cage (our bird); for "one minute per year of age" as the general rule of thumb goes, (30+ Minutes) I'm expected to quickly and respectfully go to the corner and tell her "Sorry, Mommy." to officially begin my Corner-Time. If I hesitate to comply in any way, Mom will begin the Countdown phase. If I give her any attitude or stamp my feet while complying, she'll add a day of Stricter Rules. Countdown Mom will start counting to three if I hesitate to obey her; either before or after breaking any rules, (great way to let me know she's serious and that I'd better comply before "3" lol.) If I haven't quickly and respectfully complied by the time she reaches three, it'll be a violation of Rule #1, and will add either a week or an extra day under the Stricter Rules. Mom will start counting to three again if I or any of the Others in my head are still being defiant, which will add another day of Stricter Rules when she reaches "3" again lol. This very likely won't go on very long before the Others in my head start freaking out and FORCE my body to comply so they can get their adult privileges back sooner. Due to all disciplinary actions effectively being a "group punishment" for me, my alters will all be forced to get with the program to avoid getting on the bad side of the Others. Confiscation After my Corner-Time concludes, I'm expected to place my TV, PS4, big girl books, any candy or junk food, and my big girl clothes on the kitchen table. If I'm currently wearing one of my big girl shirts, I must exchange it for one of my more juvenile shirts. While I'm transferring all my big girl things to the kitchen table, Mom will write a sentence pertaining to the rule I broke in the Infraction Book under the current date. After I've transferred all my big girl things to the kitchen table, I must retrieve the keys to the storage room from Mom, and move everything into the storage room. I'm then expected to take a pic of my big girl things in storage with my phone, and the padlock on the door; both in front of the Infraction Book with today's date. I then must relinquish my weapons and gadgets to Mom; she'll hold onto them for me instead of having them locked in storage. After showing Mom the pictures on my phone to prove I've followed the protocol, I'm to hand over my phone to her, and fetch the laptop for her if she doesn't have it. Consequences Having forfeited all my big girl things, I must retrieve my large teddy bear, clip my pacifier to my shirt, and present myself to Mom with my pacifier in my mouth. Mom will then hand me the Infraction Book and Pen, and I'm expected to sit down and write out the sentence she wrote; ten pages of lines; front and back. Once I've finished, my pacifier may be removed, and I will now officially be under the Stricter Rules protocol for the next week...plus any extra days I might've racked up.

The first time I ever tried dulcolax suppositories with a diaper as a teenager. 🤭

Also looking for some XL Gerber White plastic pants from Baby Pants...they're all sold out of those, too. 🥺

And speaking as a former firefighter, emergency responders really don't care who you are; you're "just another soul" lol. We're trained to be super professional. You could be wearing the gimp suit from Pulp Fiction and the height of my reaction would just be a single raised eyebrow for a fraction of a second before I throw your latex-clad ass over my shoulder and haul you outta the burning building and move on to the next fire call; I may or may not remember you OR the gimp suit LOL. 😆

Anyone got one to sell or give away? I gave mine to my Cuzzie and was gonna buy another pair from Baby Pants, but now they're all sold out of my size. 😭

Fellow transie Adult Baby here. And my therapist has noticed the large number of autistics and Littles in the trans community; we have a working theory as to why. 🤭 No; he didn't deny pointing me in the direction to hormones because of it. 🥰

Over 48 hours. ...Rearz Mega Inspire+ Diapers should never be doubled lmao. ...Only if you want to PUNISH me LOL. 😝 ...I was literally going for the record lol. I'm weird. 😅