Ellie Jean

...I've been trying for years; since I was a teenager...I'm just feeling totally hopeless and alone now...thinking I'm just too much of a freak for anyone to want. 😔

That's what I've always referred to mine as hehehe! 🤭 I've also heard it referred to as a "hoo-ha" lol. 😝 Personally, I'll stick with "Princess Parts" because it's more inclusive. 🙃

I grew up with an embarrassing speech impediment as well that I sometimes slip back into; mostly when I'm scared or angry or deep into Littlespace. I have trouble saying my "Rs"; they end up coming out sounding like "Os." "Ls," or "Ws." 😕 Here's an example: The wed wangah was dwiving his jeep into the fowest. (The red ranger was driving his jeep into the forest.) (Totally random made-up sentence.) 😅 I've got better at Rs at the front of a word, (like Red and Ranger), but I struggle when the R is at the end of or the middle of a word, (Ranger, and Forest.) Years of speech therapy has helped a bit, but I'm still super self-conscious about it. 🫣 I've been asked if I'm British or if I'm from New Jahsey. (Jersey) lol. 🤭 I'm told my impediment sounds super cute, but it still bugs me cos I've heard me talk and I sound retarded; "wetahded" as I can't help but say LOL. 😅 PS: No offense towards individuals with intellectual or developmental disabilities; I'm one of them; it's okay for me to use that word. 😝

I'm in Kalispell. 🙃

I said what you said was very well-said, and I then used the word "probably" in reference to your ignorance (or lack thereof) on the subject due to a couple of dated, misinformed assumptions I perceived you to be making that transphobes tend to use in order to justify discriminating against us. They hide behind the pretense of protecting children in order to deny gender-affirming care to transgender children, and they imply that transgender people aren't aware of the risks involved, which is simply a blatant falsehood. I was merely trying to politely point it out to you, because I felt you were simply ignorant on those particular issues; not transphobic. I actually expected you to reply with something closer to, "Thanks for informing me; I'll try to be more conscious of that in the future." or some other thing an actual ally would say. Not what I basically got instead, "I know lots about trans people; I have a lot of trans friends and I know a lot of drag queens!" Lmao, that's how transphobes usually act; they're super defensive and not super open to constructive criticism. ? Anyhoo...I'm so sorry if I offended you; that must be super fucking hard for you! ?

Very well-said for someone who's probably largely ignorant on trans issues lol. ? The only things I disagreed with, (shown in red), is the notion that children don't have the ability to consent to transitioning, (i.e. they aren't capable of knowing what gender they are), when studies clearly show otherwise. MOST children have a sense of Self and gender identity. The next sentence is technically accurate; there are a number of people who have transitioned, realized it was not for them, and decided to de-transition. What you may not know though is that "number" is extremely small, and most detransitioners detransition due to societal pressure and stigma. I've even considered detransitioning and just pretending to be a man, but I think I'd honestly rather die. ? The next highlighted-in-red sentence neglects the fact that the possible risks and complications of any medical treatment is thoroughly discussed between physicians and patients before going through with it. It's not an easy, spur-of-the-moment thing you can do, and the requirements for children are even MORE strict. For example, you will probably never see a child getting "the surgery" or ANY surgery for that matter, (there's numerous surgeries; even more if you weren't allowed to take puberty blockers and switch to cross-sex hormones when your puberty would normally start.) I'm super envious of trans girls who figured out who they were early on and were able to avoid having their bodies masculinized with testosterone; it's going to take years and numerous surgeries for me to undo the damage that my biological puberty caused, and some things just can't be fixed. ?)

Sorry; that was my juvenile delinquent alter who was yelling and swearing and being a smart alec. I have DID. ?

I'm transgender. My very EXISTENCE in public spaces may very well indeed "introduce something to somebody else that they don't want to be introduced to." ? I don't give a rat's pink, hairy ass about accidentally introducing people to things they don't want to be. THAT HAPPENS IN LIFE. Fucking deal with it! ? If I wanna dress like a baby and get pushed around through the supermarket in a stroller, I'M FUCKING GONNA! ?

My parents offered to treat me like a baby full time but I chickened out and hated myself for it and now forever wonder what could have been lol. ??

Phew! The SDKs are still safe! ? ...Actually got a little terrified there for a sec! ? I literally wore 1990's Pampers Baby Dry diapers as a little girl, so SDKs are super special for me lol. ?

ALL words are made-up. Case in point, I have no idea what a "Zoomer" is. ?

...Who here knows what TRUSCUM is? ...Anyone? ...Anyone? ...Bueller? ...Bueller? ?

I see nothing wrong here. ALL artists use reference materials. A picture of a kid is no different; you can find millions on Google Images lol. ? Maybe I'm just biased though because I'm trans with an ABDL kink. I suggest people make less ASSUMPTIONS and do some actual research. ?

Ugh, this was super hard to watch as both an AB and a trans girl. ?

Kalispell, Montana. ?

ur not looking hard enough lol. As far as I'm concerned, that's no different than the concept of slavery. People aren't property.

I have to disagree on the absolutism without hard evidence lol...actually, just absolutism in general; it's always counterproductive to finding real truth.

Don't feel guilty; even babies with ZERO concept of God get aroused and masturbate in their diapers. It's also not uncommon for baby boys to get an erection during diaper changes. It's simply biology doing what it's supposed to; when you engulf genitals in a warm slippery mass, the owner of said genitals will probably get aroused. There's nothing "sinful" about it. Are you worried you're killing souls by masturbating? Don't be; souls probably don't exist, and if they do exist, they exist inside the brain, and sperm cells don't have any brains, ergo, no soul. If you're worried you're somehow unethical by letting your seed fall into a diaper instead of the belly of a whore because of some divine mission to go forth and multiply, then you can rest easily knowing that this line of thinking is precisely why we're facing an over-population problem in Earth's not-too-distant future, sooo, it's actually MORE ethical, religiously and logically, to hump your messy diapers to your heart's content. It's what God would want lmao. Never have grown up sex or procreate. THAT'S what REALLY ends up killing people in the long run. ? ...Diapers are the safest sex you're ever gonna get lmao. ?

Switching to cloth diapers helped a lot. REALLY hard to make a double cloth diaper leak; I can let go laying on my side and still trust it. I also give myself permission to leak, my reasoning being that all babies leak on occasion. So, "Trusting My Diaper" and "Accepting My Leaks" would probably be the two main tips I have. Again; switching to cloth diapers and plastic pants helped a ton with the Trusting My Diaper part; assuming you don't already use cloth diapers. ?

Poured into a large mug, three table spoons of artificial sweetener, a couple dashes of powdered creamer, a five second long squirt of chocolate syrup, and a ten second long squirt of caramel syrup...think I'll go make some right now. #ImprovisedCaramelMochaLatte ☕

Something my mom would totally say lmao. ? ...I come from a very open and laid back family with a twisted sense of humor. ?

Dang; tough situation. Personally, I wouldn't bother trying to hide it. I "came out of the nursery" to all my friends and family when I was a freshman in high-school. Few years later I came out as gay. Few years after that I came out as trans...turns out I'm actually straight LOL. ? But yeah; I don't keep secrets and hide stuff and sneak around. That's no way to live in my opinion. I am shamelessly and unapologetically myself at all times; I find it sad and confusing when I meet people who aren't. ...But I'm autistic; I don't understand why people do a lotta things they do. ?

Thnx! ? I just turned 27 a couple weeks ago or so; I'm gonna hafta update my profile lol. ? ...2.7 on the inside hehehe! ?

OMG...Ten Hours of Spider-Man Song lmao. ...Fuck me dead! ?

Thnx all! ???