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DiaperboyEddie12
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Status Updates posted by DiaperboyEddie12
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@Wolf Dreams Thank you for following me!
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Hey there, @Dubious How you been? I just wanted to let you know I am following you on here I like a lot of what you post and comment on in here. If you like to follow me back that would be cool.
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@SoggyRunner welcome to Daily Diapers. Feel free to browse the forums. And also join us in Chat when you can. We do not bite!
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@Little Spider I think you made a stinky in your diapee!!!
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hehe @Little Spider
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@fillemup Is your diaper full yet?
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@square_duck how you been? Long time not chat?
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@froggy how you been? Long time not here!
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@Mommygrace809 Hi there feel free to introduce yourself in the newbie nursery.
If you are looking for a mate please see the forum for meeting place and pick your country and area you live like in the us the state you live in.
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Hi there @Spiderman How you been? Long time no talk!
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@Spiderman all good here!
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@Enthusi How often do you come on here? And at what usual time? Just wondering!
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Hi @~Brian~ How are you doing? Haven't talked in a few days.
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The problem is, my parents want to HAMMER too hard, and this is NOT a discussion: This is a LECTURE., and it doesn't feel very good. To try to defend my current situation would result in me NOT even wanting to SAY anything, What CAN I say, when they want to see me, and they see me half outta breath and weak? WHY try to defend anything when they are right, but they decide to say things that are inappropriate, rude, stupid and useless? What can:
1. scaring me to death
2. telling me that i am gonna DIE and join my brother in the cemetary
3. telling me that I am too fat, and that I probably won't get ANY MORE good food from home, and that I won't FIT on the seat of the motorcycle because my BUTT is too big, when my BUTT is just BONES
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4. DESTROYING everything that makes me special by putting me DOWN, when THEY asked me to come home in the first place, and they wanted to see me and spend time with me? When they got done with me, I felt like the worst organism on the PLANET, and they act like that is gonna HELP me? I want to RIDE the motorcycle, and have been trying to do that as well, but can't, because my parents make snide shots at me.......I'm NOT perfect, FAR from it: and when I am supposed to feel WELCOME in my parents HOUSE, and I feel like saying: (and I did, because I got PISSED)
'Mom, why don't you just SHOOT me right here, and bury me?" "You've basically given up on me, and I can't do ANYTHING right during the pandemic, even though the doctor is FULLY AWARE of what's going on, and I have the teams I need, but no POSITIVE help here......just a constant reminder of EVERY time I SCREW UP......I know that you love me, and you are scared, but I am scared enough as it is....... and doing EVERYTHING I can do!"
My parents know how to put the KNIFE in and twist it hard, but they are NOT even aware of how I feel, and i don't want to worry them, but they went WAY to far, and I've had it - When a son or daughter DREADS going home because they get THIS response, it makes me feel like I FAILED, and I am NOT a QUITTER - but I don't wanna feel like the sludge on my Dad's Garage Floor either! Where is the COMPASSION and UNSERSTANDING?? It was shut OFF and I was defenseless!
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@~Brian~ I am so sorry! I do not know what to say!
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Sometimes, I don't know what to say or do either. You're taught from a young age to honor and respect your mom and dad, but when they go TOO far, right or WRONG, there is NOTHING I can do about it, and I can't believe what I heard them say. If they are worried and concerned, I accept that, but they don't have to put me down like they did and say those things that they did, the WAY they did - I am NOT gonna DIE, and I don't want people thinking I will: I am weak, and that is due to NOT being able to do PT as much as I should, and also because of the fact that I have lost ground, and I working on it: I wish that I could go somewhere and get rid of this weight, and get the medical support I need, so that my fears would not be as bad: when your parents tell you they think your gonna DIE, it makes you think you messed up, or that they sensationalize things a little too much.......I don't know how much I will be able to lose, but I am taking steps to make it happen, as well as to talk to my team - I even have counseling set up because of the STUPID things that they said, and that I can't change now - Perhaps the doctor can impress on my mom that I am aware of what is going on, as well as HE is?
I wish I could lose the weight, and be the son that they want me to be, and that I felt better about things: I don't wanna end up going crazy because of this, or having worse depression than I have now......Its NOT worth it if I feel like garbage: Parents are supposed to SUPPORT you, right, wrong, skinny, fat, strong, weak, or in sickness and in health, BUT, they chose to make me feel like garbage.
Man, do I need a vacation!
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HUGS! I missed talking to you today!
Hope all is well with you.
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Do you have a post that goes into detail of your journey to Diaper Dependency? I have seen a few other folks write it out. I would like to see your journey though.
