lily~nyan

Hi!! Fellow wlw diaper lover/wetting kinkster here who's tired of her space being invaded by gross boys too. ^^ Sadly you're going to encounter that pretty much anywhere you go in online abdl space.

Hi! ^^ It sounds like you've got a lot of internalized shame around your abdl side that you need to work through. I completely get it, I was there when I was 28 with all of my kinks and feeling like I was a compulsive sexual deviant too. Society and even a large swath of mainstream psychology tend to promote the idea that anything outside of monogamous heterosexual sex is deviant or paraphiliac, and we're surrounded with both overt and subversive messages that reinforce that every day. When you spend a lifetime absorbing that and, by no fault of your own, pick up an unusual kink your first instinct is usually to repress and deny, which only makes you want it even more. I think you'll find that if you exercise it in moderation (and there is ABSOLUTELY nothing wrong with wearing diapers to work, trust me) the compulsiveness of it will wear off. Like it or not, it's an emotional need that you'll need to fill, and not one that you'll ever be able to shame or executive control yourself out of. Happiness lies in embrace and acceptance, I promise. There are good therapists out there who understand and work with sexuality issues, and will help you come to a place of acceptance. I highly recommend looking for one. Mine is great, she didn't even flinch when I walked in and said "...oh, and I'm an abdl little now."

Hi! I'm new to being a little too. ❤️ Have fun with it! If you get tired of the male-centricness of the forums there's a great community of abdl women on Tumblr.

My parents were pretty liberal and open-minded in most regards, except when it came to sexuality... there they were old-school religious all the way. And my mom was a firm believer in discipline through shaming and humiliation. :( Also, ahahahahahaha oh boy was I wrong about that ?

Hahaha this is EXACTLY what happened to me! I'd been an off-and-on DL for years, but about a month ago I just got the urge to go padded out of the house one weekend and after that I couldn't get enough. That led to buying my first AB diapers last week (which are FANTASTIC btw, you'll never want to go back to pull-ups) along with my first onesies and pacifiers and omg I am such a little~<3 We're not that far apart in age either. I don't know why it hit me at this stage in my life either, but I suspect it's always been with me and I just needed the right context and amount of encouragement to overcome my fears and phobias around the ab/dl lifestyle.

Always Discreet Boutiques are my daytime wear, unless I have to work outside in which case I have to go un-padded.

60% DL, 40% AB. Numbers may skew higher or lower depending on how I'm feeling. ^^

And then a day later I turned around and did this: https://www.dailydiapers.com/board/index.php?/topic/64431-i-must-be-losing-my-mind/ Good job, enabler.

This is my experience too. I can go un-padded, but I greatly prefer not to. <3

Taking a suggestion from a poster in another thread I started looking into tape diapers for night wear, which lead to me watching diaper reviews on Youtube... specifically this one: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Z755nT7o2A and that in turn led to me watching some of her other videos, where I eventually landed on a review of a onesie, which had an Amazon link in the description... and after clicking that I fell down the bunny hole. Long story short, I ended up splurging on a sample pack of Rearz princess diapers, a 3-pack of pacifiers, and three onesies from Littleforbig including this one: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B072JQ2JNH/ref=od_aui_detailpages00?ie=UTF8&amp;psc=1 which was so cute I almost died and uh I think I might actually be an AB now. I'm still not super into the roleplay aspect of it, but oh my God I have not been this excited about dressing up as something since I bought my first girl anime costume years ago. <3

Thanks, I appreciate your enlightened attitude towards this subject... but given the choice I would still choose not to be incontinent. Except maybe in bed at night. Maybe.

I mean, I'm kinda tempted, but... yeah, those are a bit much, especially for someone who isn't an AB. I'm also kind of the outlier here in that I don't like super-huge, super-padded plastic-backed diapers. Slim and discreet is what I go for. :)

Honestly, I think I look pretty cute in a diaper. <3 They're my kinky little secret that no one around me knows I'm wearing. And I definitely feel more comfortable and secure when I'm padded out in public.

I mean, emotionally I kind of already am, but physically... absolutely not. I can occasionally get held away at my job for a week or longer (including sleeping in coed dorms) and I can't even imagine the logistics of being diapered during that. Plus, forcing myself to be incontinent when so many people wish they could not be incontinent just feels disrespectful.

I'm on week three of 24/7 wear, so yep.

Just a t-shirt, occasionally pajama shorts. I have a really nice sleep chemise and a couple of sleep slips, but laziness and living with roommates means I usually just sleep in my around-the-house clothes.

Well, I guess I'll be the lone weirdo that prefers pull-ups. :p One of my big preferences is that a diaper be made "for women," and most of the tape diapers out there are unisex. I also don't use very often in public and never at work, so capacity isn't an issue. Also the purple Always Discreet Boutiques are cute... plain white diapers are just boring. Having said that, the pull-ups I've tried for bedwetting all leaked so I'm giving serious thought to trying ComfiDry 24/7s for night wear since they seem to get consistently good reviews.

I guess I'm going to be the lone weirdo here and say that I prefer cloth-backed. Part of it for me is that I'm not an AB and I prefer grownup diapers, but I also don't use them all the time so leaks and capacity aren't always a concern (although I've had excellent results with the Always Discreet diapers I've been wearing for a week or so now.) I just wish more companies made them in a color other than white or beige. :/

I get that. For me, at first it was just "oh these make my butt look cute" followed by "hey, I actually feel good about myself" to now where it just feels like it belongs there. I do feel like I'm more relaxed and outgoing when I'm wearing, and if nothing else it keeps my mind off the million other things I could be stressing over. Whether you actually use it for its intended purpose or not is kind of irrelevant if it helps you. :)

I've only shared it non-anonymously with one other person in my entire life. We met on Tumblr and I was overjoyed to find someone else like me, so I ended up disclosing to her and we talked about it a little (she also recommended Pull-Ups Goodnites to me.) We don't talk any more, unfortunately. Unless I was extremely close to someone and had an established trust around kink stuff I see no need to share it with anyone who isn't my therapist or a future romantic partner.

So I can relate even more now... I had to switch back to regular undies for a day and I just felt sad when I left the house this morning. When I got back in one this evening, on the other hand, I felt comforted, secured, even a little blissful. So yeah, I guess this is my life now.

I can relate. This is my first week trying full-time wearing and I already never want to wear regular undies again. LOL

Mid-20s for me, although the curiosity to do so had been around a lot longer. 10 years later I finally accepted it and started wearing full-time. ^^

oooh those are what I wear, but in purple! Not all of the pink ones in a pack have designs on them, but all of the purple ones do. Also I just like the color. ^^ Can also confirm, they hold quite a bit for a "discreet" diaper. I slow-wetted one a few days ago and made it last 6 hours, and I probably could have gone longer.

thanks! I'm like 99% sure it's Honoka from Love Live, which brings joy to my little queer kinky idol trash heart. <3 Also yay!!! I'm legit happy knowing there are other people out there like me... we're like a niche within a niche, and it's really easy to feel like you'll never find a partner who meshes with everything.