DiapergirlWB

I am not dependent as much as trained. I wet freely and without any real notice most times. I can't pinpoint the exact moment I stopped noticing when i wet..it was over a period of time. there was a few months ago I remember going to bed thinking i didn't remember wetting at all that day. I can still hold though I don't intentionally do it but there are still some unintentional clenches I do not test the ability. the closest I have to a test was when I had to concentrate to keep my stump still during an mri because it moves involuntarily if my leg isnt on and when the mri was over i noticed that i had to pee and that i had been holding too.

I like stories with a slow decline into needing diapers

1-3 are fine no one not looking or diaper oriented would gice a second glance

I also am handicapped RBKA and need the bars to easily get off a toilet. You can't expect non handicapped people to never use the stall esp in a busy restroom. i wish when the saw a handicapped person they gave us preferential treatment for it but there is no rule.

I tend not to worry about it so much. T o completely putting it out of my mind is good enough. Right now I wet without noticing most times. I know i can still hold if i think about it but i don't think bout it. I notice bm's but they are pretty automatic but most times get plenty of notice unless the ibs is acting up then little to no notice. In my mind the more i think about it the more control I will retain. i don't test or anything like that because it reinforces control. as an addendum Bedwetting would be the ultimate goal for me. If i never got to wear a diaper at any other time i'd be able to be happy with it.

Ahh ok. Well i could use some times then

Are you saying incontinent folks never get diarrhea and have issues wit multiple uncontrolled messes?

I suffer from some IBS and am taking a medication that causes some digestive issues. I'm usually ok but once in a while i get constipated and the few days after are harsh.

I've gotten myself diapertrained to the point where i rarely notice wetting while awake. I still have not managed to wet the bed that block seems to be extra strong with me. So the first pee of the day is the only one i usually feel or notice. As for messing I am still very aware of it but It does happen without consent I have plenty of time to stop it if I would choose to do so. Except when I'm not feeling so great in the digestive track. occasionally I'd have sudden unexpected messy accidents but that was here and there well over the day and half I've just had a feeling of bloating and a constant feeling of having to go with a bit of stomach upset. I've messed myself 6 or 7 times with no warning or ability to stop it. 3 times have been outside my home as I had things I needed to do, including preparing for the snow storm that was supposed to dump a ton. I admit it was a little hard to deal with. To know that I was going to have a messy accident and still have to function in the outside world. It was distracting and a bit nerve wracking. It felt very similar to when I first started to have genuine wetting accidents, some apprehension and anxiety along with some excitement that I'm getting there. Questioning Is this what i really want? i have decided tht I am going to keep moving forwards on my journey that eventually being bowel IC is a bit scarier than being urinary IC i still want to remain dependant on my diapers going forwards.

I would just go through periods of 24/7 lasting from a few days to a couple of weeks but last time I just never stopped nd has now become my normal. nothing has ben said about it

There is noting to feel guilty over. You aren't hurting anyone.

I have told you my Reasons. I did try some AB experimentation I did not like it. I have no interest in it. I am a Dl with a diaper domination fantasy. Ypu are just so arrogant and ignorant that you cannot accept what i say because "you know me better than i know myself" since i know you wont understand i am not quoting you there I am paraphrasing with the quotes. i only have a play age cause when i filled out the profile i was still in the experimental stages of discovering myself and have made that journey. As for any further opinion you might have about who I am you can shove them where only the diaper sees.

@AngelBaby thanks you seem to understand where I am coming from. For some reason @Little BabyDoll Christine thinks she is the expert on my life and feelings and is bound and determined to force me into her box. She can spout all her stupid Ideas about who I am and they don't mean a damn thing. Her ego won't let her be wrong so just stop irritating yourself trying to argue with someone who "knows" everything.

No not AB. I don't like baby clothes, don't like baby talk, don't do bottles and binkies. Like I said I am into loss of control, I would like to be have someone else in control of my diapering more like a domination scenario. I don't think from my post that that was too difficult to understand, but obviously some people need every concept explained in minute detail for their comprehension

I am not AB. That being said I would absolutely give up any and all control of my diapering to someone else. I like the loss of control associated with diapers ancontinent fantasy.

These are the only two options.

in bed erlier this morning

Starting to have more genuine accidents as time goes on. The lack of ever holding has pretty much eliminated teh hold reflex so a softer mess just happens sometimes.

It depends on your method. I change standing up. A wet diaper is a few minutes. It's just of wipe new diaper on. If you are laying down and making an event it's gonna take longer.

I did set out to diaper train myself for wetting. But training myself to ignore signals and never hold has also had an effect on bowel continence. While most times i still get plenty of warning and could stop it...when my IBS acts up I get little to no warning just suddenly am filling. It wasn't a goal but It's where i am at.

I wake up and wet then back to sleep when I wake up at night. I won't get up until I wet my diaper in bed If i sleep all night. It can still take some time and effore to wet ing bed but it is strting to get easier.

I've been full time since July. Was like 80% for a long time before that. I am very diaper trained for wetting. Hadn't really noticed any bowel changes. Until today. I seem to have a greatly reduced ability for Emergency situations. I got hit with a strong painful urge and where I could have once held out for a while I almost immediately started to leak. The only reason it was not a full on immediate messing was I was seated in the car. I had no ability to stop the leaks and eventually the full on mess. Another milestone I guess...

You sound really similar in thought to me. I crave the lack of control that is what drives me to wear diapers. I love the feel of wetting and tolerate messing as part of that lack. I have managed a good deal of diaper training. I can still hold if I want to but I am so used to not that my default has kinda been reset to not hold. I still don't wet the bed and do not wet immediately upon waking I still need to actually give permission that first time of the day. So i have achieved some of what I want. i went into the holiday season with a lot of trepidation over wearing for Thanksgiving. I stayed the course until it was really to late to do anything about it and ended up needing diapers for it. We hosted so it was a little easier but i think no one noticed. Christmas will be a bit different as we will be going to a fgamily members house for dinner but i should be ok as I can get 4ish hours out of a diaper. I am both excited and scared of the fact that at this point even if i tried to stop i would need at least some kind of protection but i know i will push it until it's too late again.

Really it just takes time patience and practice. My first issues with it started in the gym, now any strain really and i'll be wetter thn before

Just whether or not I wanted to chance being out during holiday gatherings and whether I was ready if it did happen. I've had enough medical issues in my life that it wouldn't really be a surprise but also because of said issues I don't wanna burden some of my family with worries about my health during the holidays.