tomcddl

I have been home alone tonight ,I haven't gone yet today but I have had a suppository working for 2 hours and I am about to load my diaper now . I just love the feeling of messing my diaper ,I don't get much private time to enjoy my diaper so it has been a treat to e diapered tonight.

I think it all started at around age 6 or 7. It may have been sooner but the strong desire came in about then.

I was a dl before the internet. It is a rather long story and I may have told it. Short story events and things happened and at a young age I became very curious and couldn't resist a diaper. If you want more I would be happy to chat.

Like a unlined underwire bra I wear a 36 or 38B it takes some looking to find the right bra that fits well. I have many that fit nicely and give a nice little shape. But is seems I find a nice bra and then look for more and the become discontinued.

I do have some man boobs the right bra gives me a nice shape ,I wear a 36 or 38 b bra and like unlined underwire bras when I can get away with wearing one.

My first ever I bought myself were at a sears store. I was shaking like a leaf. could hardly talk when at the check out counter. I went for white nylon bikinis I got up the courage to pick out a couple pair and then started to pick up a few in pastel colors a pink. blue and yellow. I ended up with I think 7 pair. Put them on the counter shaking the woman at the regester was realy looking me over she was with her head down looking over her glasses as she rung up my silky purchase she didn't say much and I felt as if in a fog and almost faint after leaving the store felt relief and calm. I couldn't wait to get a pair on I went off to a secluded place and put a pair on oh they felt soooo good. I was just 16.

I am sorry to say I don't have any friends in person or online that I can share my love for diapers with. I have been a closet secret diaper lover for decades and before finding the ab/dl world on the internet thought like many I was the only one on earth. I can't even think of coming to anyone I know and expect anything good to come of it so I am alone here with my diaper fettish. I only dream of meeting someone in a social setting that too likes to wear diapers.

I use 2 diapers I cut the outer layer on the first one fit it nice and then fit the second one over it double leak guard and the thick diaper I like and I always top it with plastic pants. Somehow my diaper is not complete without the plastic pants.

I too just can't help it. It is a wast of a nice mess and diaper if I don't.

Priety much well said it is a indescribable feeling putting on the diaper and then the feeling of filling it the soft squishy mess spreading allover and the sexual thing, masturbation poo gasum .

I have used vaseline like you said quite a lot and like it I also use baby oil gel it is easy to put on and use. and if you want a little more you can just squirt a little more down your diaper for a little more slippery feel.

I have always or most of the time used suppositories with my diapers. My affliction with them comes from early years of childhood and I combine them with my diapers. I have also used other means with or without diapers liquid glycerin, dulcolax suppositories.fleet enemas mineral oil enemas .and most of all I enjoy warm water enemas.

I usually prefer to just have my diapers and plastic pants on bottom and a shirt on top most of the time just a t but now and then im fully clothed and just out for a drive or doing chores around the house.

Rhode Island here

Rhode Island here

I grew up in the 60s and was also trained at 18 months. I somehow had an attraction to diapers and plastic pants and would put them on and enjoy the feel of them in the privacy of my room. They were makeshift and didn't fit me I remember being fascinated with the baby diapers and plastic pants in the stores seeing some that were large enough for me and sometimes a comment would slip out to see what reaction I would get from mom it was always not good. To add to my diaper fascination mom was also on top of my poop and would frequently use suppositories on me. I would fight it and was punished for not fully submitting sometimes. I was told to go into the bathroom she was there with a jar of suppositories and told me to remove my pants and pull down my underwear bend and over. she would then push the suppository in as far as her finger would reach. told not to push it out or receive a spanking. I hated it but strangely I would sneak them on my own at every opportunity. This I think evolved into this fettish thing I am into today. There is more to it but it needs another chapter or two.

I prepare two diapers the first with slices to allow the liquid to go into the second one. I then use several suppositories liberally coat my bottom with diaper rash cream or baby oil gel. Then pull the first diaper on and tape it tightly on then the second one. I always then pull on plastic pants over my diapers snug and thick, wait for the eventual mess.

Yes it is a turn on for me too and I have struggled with this for years I can't tell you why I do it. I feel guilt ,shame all of it.I can't explain it but I do know when the desire hits it is strong and needs to be satisfied. I need and want my diaper.

For me I have mostly used glycerine suppositories they are gentle in my experience and given time produce a nice full diaper.

Thank you for the response. For now I will address the suppositories. They come from early childhood up to 10 or 12 my mother would frequently use them on me I of course would protest and fight it some only to be punished I would be ordered into the bathroom seeing the jar in hand asked to remove my pants and bend over she would insert the suppository in as far as the length of her finger. and told not to push it out or I would get spanked. I hated it but somehow I would sneak them on my own later on I would eventually almost empty the jar, look for them in other medicine cabinets we visited and then got up the guts to ride my bike into town and buy my first jar shaking and red in the face. I had a jar of my own to play with.from then till now ive used hundreds of them.

A messy diaper always produces a poogasim yes I masturbate with my poopy diaper. I love the feeling of the mess filling my diaper and then sit and let it squish and cover everything. I can move to an amazing climax.

I love my bras I wear one whenever I can. I can wear one out only in the colder weather as to be discrete. And in private when im alone I must have close to 30 of them I like unlined underwire bras most of them are but I also have some without wire and some with lite padding. some demi cup and some full coverage.i wear a 36 or 38B depending on style and maker. I like a silky feel to the fabric helps to keep my little nipple erect.

looks nice it must be nice to have your wife approve and even buy you some things.I wish I could have the same thing. will she take you shopping for lingerie? I just got some new bras from target they are Auden unlined underwire demi cup but are more full coverage they feel nice and fit well I wear a 38B.

For me a messy diaper is the climax of wearing a diaper. The diaper experience is not complete without a poop in it.I know it sounds gross to some and it is not for all. But the first attraction as a child was a messy diaper. a story for another time

I have had good luck with unlined underwire bras a demi cup bra may fit you better than a full coverage cup. Recerch styles and fabrics to find what you like.I have some full coverage and some demi cup I wear a 36 or 38B depending on make and model and they fit me well.You want to find a cup that has some stretch so it will fit your male breast tissue some of us like me have some to work with. good luck