Greetings,
I am Khaymen, my user name comes from a novel in which the character chooses to be entombed alive rather than join the mob attacking someone else and that force of will is something I'd like to embody.
I am and have been a Chaplain for decades. I'm a somewhat conservative Christian and my faith both shaped my life and is the lens through which I view the world.
I am a widower. I lost my wife to a sudden heart attack last year and am broken without her presence and support.
I am a Biker and have earned a Full Patch within my Motorcycle Club. I don't keep any secrets from my Brothers, though most specify that they just don't need or want to know everything about me and my kinks. I've put a couple thousand miles on my bike in a matter of days traveling across country for Club events and have used diapers as both an extra seat cushion and as insurance between one gas stop and the next.
It has taken me decades to fully accept that there is some psychological compulsion or need to wear diapers. I don't know why and have stopped trying to psychoanalyze the situation and simply accept it as one of the quirks of my personality. Most of the time the sound and feel of the plastic is enough to sooth and calm me and that is all I need to know to live a peace with this non normative behavior.