Ellie Jean

Not currently, but in about three hours, I'll be in a Rearz Vintage Select diaper. I only have 25 left. So sad they've been discontinued! 😭 ...Then it's up to Mom what diaper I'll be put in...probably whichever is cheapest and she gets the biggest kick outta seeing me in. 🫣

So long as I stay on top of my chores and hygiene and mind my manners and do what Mom says without much fuss...I should be fine...it's only if I end up earning a week of Stricter Rules that it gets super tough...and it doesn't matter if parts of me desire to wear diapers anymore...Mom's insisting on ALL of me being subjected to this program...I keep trying to tell her that I DON'T want this...but my body won't physically let me...pretty sure it's my Gatekeeper alter preventing me from being able to put a stop to it before it's too late because she thinks all of the people in my head and Mom will all be better off this way...and I hate that I can't really say that she's wrong...she even convinced my therapist to sign off on it...I'm kinda just resigning to my fate at this point and hoping for the best. 🫣 Edit: ...And my full list of official diagnoses is ASD, AD/HD, ODD, PTSD, DID, MDD, PDD, and Substance Abuse Disorder...I've been trying and failing to get clean and sober for years...maybe this is just what I need. 😥

Omg! Pleasure to make your acquaintance! 😁 Has Cuzzie told you I'm planning on fleeing Montana for San Francisco? 😅 ...Somehow. ...It's getting scary here; it was straight up illegal to use the girl's room here for a sec...might be AGAIN for all I know...just been tuning out and hiding. 🫣 Edit: Heh...guess I won't have to worry about THAT anymore. 😒 Just thirty-nine minutes until my last day of unrestricted adult freedom. 🫣

Fellow transie here. 🙃 ...Years of experience. ...Can offer tips. 🤭

I voted plain white, because I have multiple Littles in my head, and some of them are boys lol. White is a classic gender-neutral option. 😊 ...But Mom may be putting me in Princess Diapers 24/7 in the near future just cos she gets more of a kick outta seeing me in those and prefers me in girlmode. 🫣

Went to sleep around 4:00 AM...woke up around 11:00 AM...days and nights get messed up for me a lot because of my DID, PTSD, AD/HD and chronic use of stimulants to keep myself awake. ...Been procrastinating a buncho stuff I have to do today...mostly cleaning my room so I don't have a giant chore I have to do when Mom begins using the Program on me on Monday. 🫣

So...I have DID (and over half a dozen other mental disabilities)...and one of my alters told my Mom about Diaper Discipline, and made her a customized Diaper Discipline program to use on me if she so chooses. ...Mom's insisting upon it now. ...Super mixed feelings on it...mostly fear. 😳 The program is basically split up into "The Standard Rules" and "The Stricter Rules." During the standard rules, I still have most of my adult privileges, but if I break any rules, I'm bumped back to babyhood for a week, (The Stricter Rules.) 🫣 STANDARD RULES 01. I must be respectful and obedient; any attitude, feet-dragging, eye-rolling, back talk, profanity, temper tantrums, lying, or disobedience counts as a violation. 02. Recreational drugs and alcohol are STRICTLY off-limits for me. I must NOT seek them out. I must not ASK for them, STEAL for them or USE them. 03. I must wear my diapers 24/7, and use them for their intended purpose; I must not take them off unless otherwise told, and toilets are strictly off-limits. 04. At home, nothing that hides my diapers may be worn unless it's cold or there's company; if so, I must wear locking footie jammies to discourage escaping. 05. All shoes, and any clothing that hides my diapers, (pants, shorts, skirts, dresses, jammies, etc.) must be locked in storage to discourage escaping. 06. All of my diapers and changing supplies must be locked in Mom's room. If I want a diaper change, I must ask Mom's permission for the keys. 07. I must change on a changing pad in Mom's room, (or the bathroom, if I'm messy), then immediately dispose of my used diaper in the trash can in the alley. 08. I must not ask for diaper changes before designated changing times. If I do, this will count as a violation of this rule, and I must be denied. 09. If I ask for a diaper change at an approved time without first taking care of my chores and morning hygiene routine, I must be denied till they are done. 10. If my diaper leaks before finishing my chores or morning hygiene routine, I must be required to change, and this counts as a violation of the previous rule. 11. I must be inspected before and after being allowed access to Mom's room to ensure I really do need a change, and that I'm not sneaking anything out. 12. I must be inspected before and after my hygiene routines to ensure I actually cleaned myself. Failing the inspection must count as a violation of this rule. 13. I must take my hormones at 7:00 AM and 7:00 PM. Mom must hold them for me; and I must take them in front of her so that she knows I am taking them. 14. I must not starve or dehydrate myself, nor skip any meals that are cooked for me, and I must cook for Mom when she tells me it's my turn to cook dinner. 15. My chores and hygiene routines must be completed before bedtime, and lock-out devices must be placed on the front and back door to discourage escaping. 16. My bedtime will be 9:00 P.M. On weekends, it can be extended to 10:30 P.M. if Mom gives me permission; I must not ask for a later bedtime. 17. I must start getting ready for bed an hour beforehand, and wear locking jammies or onesies to ensure I'm not sneaking off to the bathroom at night. 18. There must be no diaper change requests being made by me after bedtime. Wet or soiled, I must not be allowed to change until the morning. 19. All rules must be followed and enforced. Violation of ANY rules will result in 30 minutes of corner-time, 10 pages of written lines, and a week of Stricter Rules. 20. Upon earning a week under Stricter Rules, all of my non-essential adult privileges must be revoked; effective immediately. STRICTER RULES (1 Week / +1 Day Per Any Additional Rule Violations) 01. I must not be allowed a phone, laptop, TV, or PS4; my phone and the laptop must be confiscated by Mom; my TV and PS4 must be locked in storage. 02. I must not be allowed books or toys not suitable for toddlers; my big girl books must be locked in storage; my weapons and gadgets must be confiscated. 03. I must not be allowed music, TV, or movies not suitable for toddlers; I can only be allowed to enjoy approved media in the living room with Mom present. 04. I must not be allowed to ride in the front seat of the car. 05. I must not be allowed to go on fun outings or adventures by myself; I must be supervised by Mom or an approved babysitter. 06. I must not be allowed to be in closed rooms by myself. 07. I must not be allowed to eat candy or indulge in any other kind of junk food. 08. I must not be allowed to eat any adult meals that haven't been puréed into baby food. 09. I must not be allowed to drink anything other than milk, juice, water, tea, or ensures. 10. I must not be allowed to choose what outfits I will wear. 11. I must only wear baby clothes; all of my big girl clothes must be locked in the storage room. 12. I must refer to my mother as "Mommy." 13. I must have a pacifier clipped to my shirt at all times. 14. I must carry a large teddy bear around with me at all times. 15. I must drink everything from a baby bottle or sippy cup. 16. I must lay down for an afternoon nap whether I am sleepy or not. 17. I must have a bedtime of 7:00 PM; my evening bedtime and hygiene routine must begin at 6:00 PM. 18. I must drink a bottle before nap time and bedtime. 19. I must not refuse to use a pacifier or drink from a bottle when Mom gives or tells me to use either one, (when extra chatty during Movie Nights, for example.) 20. If all of these rules are followed, I may go back to the Standard Rules once I finish my time under the Stricter Rules. Mom's also going to hang a childish "Mermaid Reward Chart System" on the fridge for me to add stickers to whenever I complete one of my tasks for the day; I can then use the Star Stickers I've earned to buy Reward Stickers I can trade for things I want, like "Big Girl Days;" that's gonna be a super obvious one lol. 😅

...I've been trying for years; since I was a teenager...I'm just feeling totally hopeless and alone now...thinking I'm just too much of a freak for anyone to want. 😔

That's what I've always referred to mine as hehehe! 🤭 I've also heard it referred to as a "hoo-ha" lol. 😝 Personally, I'll stick with "Princess Parts" because it's more inclusive. 🙃

I grew up with an embarrassing speech impediment as well that I sometimes slip back into; mostly when I'm scared or angry or deep into Littlespace. I have trouble saying my "Rs"; they end up coming out sounding like "Os." "Ls," or "Ws." 😕 Here's an example: The wed wangah was dwiving his jeep into the fowest. (The red ranger was driving his jeep into the forest.) (Totally random made-up sentence.) 😅 I've got better at Rs at the front of a word, (like Red and Ranger), but I struggle when the R is at the end of or the middle of a word, (Ranger, and Forest.) Years of speech therapy has helped a bit, but I'm still super self-conscious about it. 🫣 I've been asked if I'm British or if I'm from New Jahsey. (Jersey) lol. 🤭 I'm told my impediment sounds super cute, but it still bugs me cos I've heard me talk and I sound retarded; "wetahded" as I can't help but say LOL. 😅 PS: No offense towards individuals with intellectual or developmental disabilities; I'm one of them; it's okay for me to use that word. 😝

I'm in Kalispell. 🙃

I said what you said was very well-said, and I then used the word "probably" in reference to your ignorance (or lack thereof) on the subject due to a couple of dated, misinformed assumptions I perceived you to be making that transphobes tend to use in order to justify discriminating against us. They hide behind the pretense of protecting children in order to deny gender-affirming care to transgender children, and they imply that transgender people aren't aware of the risks involved, which is simply a blatant falsehood. I was merely trying to politely point it out to you, because I felt you were simply ignorant on those particular issues; not transphobic. I actually expected you to reply with something closer to, "Thanks for informing me; I'll try to be more conscious of that in the future." or some other thing an actual ally would say. Not what I basically got instead, "I know lots about trans people; I have a lot of trans friends and I know a lot of drag queens!" Lmao, that's how transphobes usually act; they're super defensive and not super open to constructive criticism. 🤭 Anyhoo...I'm so sorry if I offended you; that must be super fucking hard for you! 😅

Very well-said for someone who's probably largely ignorant on trans issues lol. 😅 The only things I disagreed with, (shown in red), is the notion that children don't have the ability to consent to transitioning, (i.e. they aren't capable of knowing what gender they are), when studies clearly show otherwise. MOST children have a sense of Self and gender identity; not even to mention it's the PARENTS who have to consent because children aren't allowed to consent to ANY medical treatments on their own lol. The next sentence is technically accurate; there are a number of people who have transitioned, realized it was not for them, and decided to de-transition. What you may not know though is that "number" is extremely small, and most detransitioners detransition due to societal pressure and stigma. I've even considered detransitioning and just pretending to be a man, but I think I'd honestly rather just die. 💯 The next highlighted-in-red sentence neglects the fact that the possible risks and complications of any medical treatment is thoroughly discussed between physicians and patients before going through with it. It's not an easy, spur-of-the-moment thing you can do, and the requirements for children are even MORE strict. For example, you will probably never see a child getting "the surgery" or ANY surgery for that matter, (there's numerous surgeries; even more if you weren't allowed to take puberty blockers and switch to cross-sex hormones when your puberty would normally start.) I'm super envious of trans girls who figured out who they were early on and were able to avoid having their bodies masculinized with testosterone; it's going to take years and numerous surgeries for me to undo the damage that my biological puberty caused, and some things just can't be fixed. 😔)

Sorry; that was my juvenile delinquent alter who was yelling and swearing and being a smart alec. I have DID. ?

I'm transgender. My very EXISTENCE in public spaces may very well indeed "introduce something to somebody else that they don't want to be introduced to." ? I don't give a rat's pink, hairy ass about accidentally introducing people to things they don't want to be. THAT HAPPENS IN LIFE. Fucking deal with it! ? If I wanna dress like a baby and get pushed around through the supermarket in a stroller, I'M FUCKING GONNA! ?

My parents offered to treat me like a baby full time but I chickened out and hated myself for it and now forever wonder what could have been lol. ??

Phew! The SDKs are still safe! ? ...Actually got a little terrified there for a sec! ? I literally wore 1990's Pampers Baby Dry diapers as a little girl, so SDKs are super special for me lol. ?

ALL words are made-up lmao. Case in point, I have no idea what a "Zoomer" is lol. 😝

...Who here knows what TRUSCUM is? ...Anyone? ...Anyone? ...Bueller? ...Bueller? ?

I see nothing wrong here. ALL artists use reference materials. A picture of a kid is no different; you can find millions on Google Images lol. 🙄 Maybe I'm just biased though because I'm trans with an ABDL kink. I suggest people make less ASSUMPTIONS and do some actual research. 💯

Ugh, this was super hard to watch as both an AB and a trans girl. ?

Kalispell, Montana. ?

ur not looking hard enough lol. As far as I'm concerned, that's no different than the concept of slavery. People aren't property.

I have to disagree on the absolutism without hard evidence lol...actually, just absolutism in general; it's always counterproductive to finding real truth.

Don't feel guilty; even babies with ZERO concept of God get aroused and masturbate in their diapers. It's also not uncommon for baby boys to get an erection during diaper changes. It's simply biology doing what it's supposed to; when you engulf genitals in a warm slippery mass, the owner of said genitals will probably get aroused. There's nothing "sinful" about it. Are you worried you're killing souls by masturbating? Don't be; souls probably don't exist, and if they do exist, they exist inside the brain, and sperm cells don't have any brains, ergo, no soul. If you're worried you're somehow unethical by letting your seed fall into a diaper instead of the belly of a whore because of some divine mission to go forth and multiply, then you can rest easily knowing that this line of thinking is precisely why we're facing an over-population problem in Earth's not-too-distant future, sooo, it's actually MORE ethical, religiously and logically, to hump your messy diapers to your heart's content. It's what God would want lmao. Never have grown up sex or procreate. THAT'S what REALLY ends up killing people in the long run. ? ...Diapers are the safest sex you're ever gonna get lmao. ?