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I'm both. my AB age is between four and five, but I can't get into the right headspace unless I'm diapered. There's something appealing to me about being diapered beyond the "typical" age of about 2-3. Despite my little age, I still use bottles and pacifiers, and find sippy cups too "grown up". I've never been babied, but I do sometimes get treated like a little kid by people around me because I have autism and can often come across as naive and innocent. Yesterday my occupational therapist was talking about wanting to "adopt me and keep me safe" based on what I now know were some not so safe choices that I'd made recently. When she said that my heart melted and I felt so small and secure, and I wanted nothing more than to take her up on the offer. I often have dreams in which I'm being babied or looked after by someone, usually in a daycare-like setting, and when I wake up, I feel both warm and happy, and also disappointed that the dream wasn't real.

I'd say do it, as someone with IBS and occasional bowel IC, messing yourself in public generally isn't a huge deal, as long as you're able to change promptly, but seeing as it's late at night with no one around, that's less of a concern. Good luck. Let us know how it goes/went.

I was about four years old. My little sister was just born, and I distinctly remember standing at the top of the stairs before bedtime and asking to be put back in diapers. My mom said no, and I didn't ask again. I'd always had an odd fascination with wetting, and as a teenager would stand in the shower when no one else was home and wet my pants. Sometimes I'd sit on the toilet and pee through my underwear or swimsuit. It wasn't until I was maybe 22-23 that I bought my first pack of goodnites and really tried wearing diapers for the first time. I was so excited, but also sick with guilt and confusion, the first time I put one on. It didn't take long after that for me to graduate to real store-bought adult diapers and pullups, and now that I live alone, I've been wearing 24/7 for two years, and have no intention of ever going back.

I'm periodically bowel incontinent and frankly I enjoy it. It feels good to know I really "need" diapers, and they aren't just for playing pretend. I'm working myself towards bladder incontinence, and have sought advice for such here in the forums in the past. In fact, a major reason I joined this site was because it allows this kind of conversation, where ADISC doesn't. I would never actively encourage anyone who wasn't already thinking about it to pursue IC, but I'm not going to discourage anyone who has decided they want it as a lifestyle and is seeking advice.

I'm relatively new to onesies, but I love them, they're like footed PJs, which I love, but cool and perfect for summer. I'm wearing a new Little Pawz one I just got from ABU right now, it's super adorable.

I had an accident at Target this afternoon. I thought I could hold it, but my IBS decided to screw with me again. I don't generally mess my diaper on purpose because cleanup is a pain in the butt (pun intended) but I do have accidents occasionally that force my hand on the matter.

Right now I'm just in my Lil Monsters diaper and my onesie with the little zebras all over it, and my mismatched socks.

Tonight I'm trying out something new, I have a Rearz lil monsters diaper cover lined with Northshore doublers. I want to see how the makeshift hybrid diaper holds up because disposing of doublers while traveling is a lot easier than trying to dispose of large adult diapers. So far it's worked pretty well, I put it on this afternoon and have changed three times so far, no leaks.

During the summer months I'll often go around my apartment in nothing but a diaper, no shirt even. I pretty much never get unexpected visitors, and I live alone so it's really not a big deal.

I wear diapers 24/7, so the confidence thing shouldn't be an issue. I think it's just a matter of paying attention to what my body's doing.

My biggest fantasy, which I'm working on making a reality, is to become bladder incontinent. I'd really love to be able to just start peeing in a diaper without thinking about it, and to wet my pants if I'm not wearing one. Bowel inco isn't really my thing, which is unfortunate because I have IBS and have occasional bowel accidents without wanting to. I had one this evening and spent a good 15 minutes in the shower washing off. Bowel IC is a no-go but bladder IC would be amazing.

This is all very helpful, thanks guys. I've been working on staying relaxed all day, but it's hard to remember. I'll suddenly realize I'm clenching and try to relax, only to find myself clenching again five minutes later. Maybe I need to set an alarm every half hour or so to remind myself to relax.

I have a backpack full of autism supplies that I carry with me (noise canceling headphones, stretchy exercise band, social stories, emergency contacts, etc.) that also doubles as a diaper bag, and I always have a spare diaper, wipes and powder on hand. I'm pretty much never out long enough to need more than one change.

I think I've always had an attachment to diapers for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest memories is of me at about four years old, either just before or just after my little sister was born, asking my mom to put me back in diapers, to which she of course said no. Fast forward about three years, I was seven and my friend was spending the night. She had diarrhea, so my dad put both of us in my little sister's diapers "just in case I caught my friend's bug." I was so excited I didn't sleep at all, I just kept running my hands over the diaper in shock and awe of how good it felt. It wasn't until I was maybe 21-22 that I decided I wanted to wear diapers more often and bought my first pack of goodnites. I put one on that night and was so excited, but also nervous and a little disgusted with myself too. I stored the diapers in a plastic garbage bag full of old clothes that were meant to be donated which was sitting in the back of my car. One day when I was about halfway through the pack, my stepdad saw the bag and picked it up, offering to take it to the Good Will for me. One of the goodnites popped out right in front of his face and I panicked. I have no idea how, but he didn't see the diaper and just sort of curiously accepted my frantic insistence that I could take it myself. I chickened out and threw out all the remaining diapers that same day, and didn't try again until a couple of years later. These days I have my own place, and I buy all the diapers and baby stuff I want, and I wear 24/7. I'm living my best baby life.

Some day when I move into a house of my own, I'd love to get a crib and set up a proper nursery. I have bed rails right now because I sleep in a bunk bed, but I really want to get that safe, secure feeling of being surrounded by crib walls.

I'm at the beginning of my unpotty training journey. I'm partially bowel incontinent from IBS but my goal is to be fully bladder incontinent. My biggest goal is to become a real bedwetter. I've only been at it a couple of weeks now, but I keep my sphincter relaxed at all times, and every once in a while I can feel my bladder sort of spasm, because I get the feeling that I have to go, then some pressure, but my bladder is completely empty.

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I'm an aromantic asexual little looking for friends in the Northern Colorado area; gender doesn't matter as long as we're clear that I don't want anything more than friendship.

When I tried my first real ABDL diaper, Crinklz. At that moment I found what I'd been searching for since childhood.

I have no recollection of my potty training experiences, but I do remember when I was about four asking my mom to put me back in diapers, which she of course refused. I got to wear a diaper one night when I was six or seven because my friend who was staying the night had a tummy bug and diarrhea, so my dad put diapers on both of us just in case I caught it. I was so excited and had so much fun that I didn't want to take it off the next morning. I wish I could have been a bedwetter who needed diapers at night, but as a kid I'd be too embarrassed to wear them during the day. These days I wear 24/7 and am very happy.

I love little kid shoes. I have pink Converse that have dinosaurs all over them, and they're awesome.

The last time I had to deal with this was when I was in a park with a friend. My diaper was at capacity and I'd already leaked through my shorts a little bit. I stupidly didn't bring my diaper change with me (will not be making that mistake again!) and had been drinking caffeine, which goes straight through me. I really had to go, but I knew if I tried to use my diaper again, I'd just be straight up wetting my pants. Fortunately I was able to hold it until we found a bathroom, but after that I invested in some higher quality non-medical diapers, and I won't be going anywhere without making sure my padding is dry enough to withstand a couple more wettings at least!

I'm a thumb sucker but have four pacis, three Nuk 5/6 and one from Cuddlez, which I love. I also have a ton of stuffed animals. I collect them so I have way too many.

I have a number of footed PJs that I got from Target or Walmart, and two from Rearz that are lightweight and super cute. I also wear overalls and shortalls a lot, which I also find at regular clothes stores. I have a cute red romper that also came from Rearz too. I really want to get some onesies, I just need to save up for them. Rearz, Tykables and ABUniverse have some super cute ones that I like a lot.

That's interesting Newbee, what kind of cream do you use?