Ha. I could have written your post myself a couple of years ago. I ended up taking a job that involves talking a lot, as well as production. I can talk to people and have a genuine rapport. It just takes time to develop. Sometimes it's still like dragging a needle out of a horse's arse to try and express my thoughts and emotions. Just gotta ease into it, like in a few of Bettypooh's suggestions. It takes time.