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If I'm lucky enough nowdays, to be right next to a toilet, and double lucky enough to feel the urge, and its convenient, like you I'll always try do my mess in the toilet, especially if its a day I want/need to go out. though more often than not now, I change in the morning, into a clean diaper, and I'll be wet more or less straight away, and often just not notice, or not get a signal I need to mess at some point in the morning, so just then end up boht for as long as I can risk leaving it, before I am forced to change; Very occasionally esp if its really stinky I'll try change before I go out, say in the afternoon, but otherwise I'll tend t leave it on most of the day/all day, and then change into a clean one for night (when I always seem to mess myself again at night anyhow, thesedays)

Now, I'm virtually double incontinent (but still love it as much as when it was just more a fetish thing), I guess as I'm pretty much constantly wet and/or dirty, I'd have to say now, I just adore that feeling. Just a pity one can't leave it like that all day and that I have to change regularly to avoid rash and suchlike; currently I've been messy and very wet since about 6 hours ago, but just enjoying the calm feeling of sitting here in my own wet mess, too much to have changed again yet, guess I shoudl really or it'll be buckets of nappy-rash cream once more..

Both for me too I guess, though more towards the wanting to wear myself (which Often I have to do now), and also, asides the diaper thing, I love the act of both being in bed, and wetting and soiling ourselves freely, which sadly have only ever done once, a time ago now, with a partner who I occasionally got to meet and spend time with; both soiling is fabulus IMO as is wetting, whether in or out of the diaper. Such a close bonding and loving thing to be that intimate with a parnter of either gender.

I still find it such a multiple set of feelings; At first, the physical feel of my anal sphincta muscles opening and spasming open, then the sensation of the heavy load passing out... - then the actual sensations I guess of the filling up my nappy/diaper; feeling the diaper move as the load pushes out and into it, combined wiht the gorgeous scent hitting my nose, and then the fabulus feeling of all that weight, pulling back... - of course then the loverly feeling, just walking about with all that weight pulling back. Of course; then theres the gorgeous feeling of sitting down and squishing it all about; which is a very differnt thing I find depending on how fresh/hot it is, or if I've walked about a while befor e I sit, then of course its a cold log sitting there; Even more sensations of course if I then wet too, as the entire feel of the mess I'm carrying with me changes. - of course, sometimes the movement is just differnt texture too, more watery or solid etc, and differnt sizes of movement; I useually try to allow small amounts of pass now, during the day, even wehn I'm on knickers rather than diaper, although diaper with full release if possible is always the best. - of course playing with the nappy/diaper after, on

Yeh, they've not really got anything suitable, since I looked properly at what they sell, and hunted round to find what each 'name' of the product actually relates too...

Asides the sexual aspect, for me, which is probably the most major aspect of the reasoning for wanting to wear diapers, is probably a slightly seperate, but related factor, that of the 'sensation', or 'feel'... Obviously it links with the sexual aspects, but I think its almost seperate from that too, as it is kind of a 'comfort' thing, just the sensations/feel, both of the diaper itself, and of course the feel/texture/feeling of the diaper, once its been used.. Maybe a bit akin to a young childs 'comfort blanket', or favorite teddy/doll...

As above, use lots of lube, and get some half decent lube if you can, more 'designed' for anal sex, rahter than just KY jelly, though it is alright sometimes and will do if its all you can get. In the first instant, as others have said, start small, with fingers, which should get you most of the way to where you want to be; one, two, then three, and four, and before you know it you'll be wanting your thumb to; half of the reasoning is not to actually physically enlarge the sphincta, but to train the muscle to relax, when its 'approached' from that side, which isn't, in the beginning, the normal response of the sphincta muscles. Always ensure you've had a good visit to the loo before starting, makes clean up easier, and penitration easier too. Tightening/pushing, the sphincter muscles, as you start apply pressure; then as you relax the muscle again, it loostens easier and can take more width more easily. But, go slow, don't try to rush from a single finger insertion up to a 10 inch circumference dildo, in too short a period... Have you gotten anywhere yet?

I think an aweful lot of it is seperate from diet, as its about being very relaxed, with doing it. Today was a rare oppertunjity for me, as lodger is out, and I knew with a near 100% certainty that he's out untill quite late tonight, so I was very relaxed, this morning on geting up, and just started the day, diapering myself up, and following my useual routeen. Several cups of coffee down, and I wet myself, almost without thinking about it, and then likewise wet myself again, whilst sitting at the PC, a couple hours after that. Some toast and cooked meats for breakfast, and I began feeling the urge to poop. I just kept ignoring it, and the urge kind of goes away, but then returns, each time a little more urgently, until I couldn't ignore it, and just gave into the inevitable, and enjoyed the resultant mess filling my diaper. Now just wondering how much longer I can enjoy the diaper being this dirty before I need to clean up, as I dont' want a rash or anything, and I think it might be nearing capacity, as I've wet it a few more times since now, and Its only a DIY toweling diaper I have still at the moment... feels good though still.. if a bit smelly now..

I keep a few male briefs/knickers in, mainly for when I'm staying over at my parents, and they're likely to have to go through the washing machine there. But asides that I only wear female pantys these days. I favor the 'full coverage', as they just seem to fit better and are more comfitable, but useually try to get them in pink, or with some design on them, hearts, flowers etc. Cotton is stil the most comfortable, and breathable, but I've some lacy ones too, which don't have quite as much matterial/coverage as the cotton ones, which are nice in the summer, and of course, some female thongs and G-strings too... Theyh are just so much nicer than male knickers...

A pity I never got to try diapers, and realise how much I loved them, until a lot later in life... Well, at least I've found them now, which is better than never having discovered them at all...

Hi! So, what diaper are you wearing today?; I'm in one of my DIY cloth diapers, and having drunk far too much coffee already this morning, its already quite wet, but will probably get wetter still before long...

Also, there isn't ever one label, for any of us at all times, being gay, straight, bi, poly, pan, trans, etc., etc., is only one part of someones life, and not always the most important... People associate, identify, and label themselves as according to their favorite team 'I'm a.... supporter', by their work 'I'm a scientist/doctor/accountant', etc., by if they're a musical person 'I'm a guitarist', and yes, sometimes when its relavant by their sexuality, or some aspect of it, 'I'm gay', I'm a DL', 'I'm a sissy', etc., etc... any or all can and often do change with time, and to some extent circumstance, situation, etc... I never 'told' anyone my sexuality in my last job, as it never came up, it just wasn't relavent, I wasn't 'hiding' it, it just didn't make any differnce to the kinds of things I was doing in the job, or the interactions with my work mates... If I'd gotten more 'friendly' with any of them, and become 'mates', then yeh, it probably would have done... err... if that kinda makes sense...

For me, many of the same reasons as above. First off, even before doing it, just thinking about it, and knowing your going to do it, soon, feels good; As I know its so 'dirty', so 'wrong', and 'naughty', for an adult who doesn't need to do it, to be doing it. Then there is the loverly sensation, as you start, of the 'relief', as it begins moving out... I then love the feeling of the nappy/diaper, as it 'bows' out at the back aa bit, as the movement pushes against it, and then you get the warmth, and smell, both of which I love, and then the body useually takes over and its out, and that bit is nice again as its 'giving up control', and messing uncontrollably once its really* gotten going. Once its done, there's the smell, the warmth, and the feeling of it on the skin, adn the weight, 'pulling back', on the diaper, and pulling it down too. I'll normally be feeling really very kinky and hot by this point, and then I like to use my hands, on the back of the diaper, to push it firmly against my bottom, and then its just the gorgeous feeling of the whole lot, moving over a bigger area, going 'squishy', and spreading the warmth over (and the smell factor useually goes up I think when you start squishing it about). I still find I get a bit of 'regrette', once it starts to cool, and when my 'commong sense', tells me, I've now got the chore of trying to clean the mess up, and clean myself up, but sometimes I can keep it in the diaper a while, and just enjoy it for all the reasons here.. It is, I guess, a humiliation and loss of control thing too, I think that may have a lot to do with it, for me at least... A pity I don't get the chance to do it more often, though the clear/clean up afterwards I think will always restrict it to a infrequent thing, rather than a daily occurance... sadly...

I'll accept others dismissal of the 'energy drinks', the only time I ever tried one, it just tasted so terrible I never wanted to be near one again... the caffine in fresh made coffee always seems to get me dashing for the loo, or wetting, of course depending if I'm diapered...

I've spotted various types of Tena products on my local Tesco delivery site (well I guess you get differnt products appearing on their website, depending on what exactly the local store the online deliverys are taken from). Mainly just the pads and suchlike for women, I think, but there were a few others, though I'm not entirely certain what the differnce is between the differnt 'types', of Tena products at the moment... I'll try remember have a look on the web-site, and see if it lists any likely candidates for somethign that might actually be useful.. I could order some in with my ordinary grocery delivery, I don't think that'd bother me anywhere near so much as buying them in-store...

Caffine is great for pee; coffee always works fabulusly well for me (helped by the fact I love it, and am an addict), but I would imagine any high caffine drink oughta have the same affect; Don't some of those things like red-bull and other soft drinks have a ton in? (I can't stand them so don't ever drink them, hence I can't be sure they'll work)... Mind, having said which, sufficient water works as well as anything, what goes in... No clue I'm afraid on the laxative or supositry front, as I've never had call to use either. Have fun, whatever happens though! goodluck.

The problem is always the labels. Not the individuals problem, of 'not fitting' to a label, more the problem that there arn't sufficient labels to successfully explain what is an aweful lot more fluid, dynamic situation than was, perhaps once thought to be the case... I spent the first sixteen or more years of my life being hetrosexual, then quite a few years after I realised I* wasn't quite that simple, being I guess broadly bisexual, although it quickly came apparent I went down more on the homosexual side of things, but by no means 100%. However, as it is just a 'label', I've found it easier, of late, to just 'label' myself 'gay', or 'homosexual', rather than 'biseuxal', as my forays out of the 'homosexual', are so rare as to be quite unimportant. But that doesn't mean I'm not still attracted to females, sometimes, but it'd be a rare situation now were I to consider having a relationship of a hetrosexual nature; basically it'd have to be heavily fetishistic, involve diapers, or BD/SM, power exchange, etc. But I'd certianly never rule out such a thing... However you feel now, (or me for that matter), its not fixed, and can, and likely will change over time... Which is why labels of one sort or another are only really of so much use... Mind, It can be an aweful lot of fun, trying to figure out which label 'fits' best, at any given time...

I think it has to be a combination of having a good diet (plenty of fibre plenty of water etc), and having a very regular 'movement'. I know my bodies routeen as well as it does; I need to pee within 15 minutes of waking, so no lie in unless I'm wearing a diaper in bed. I need to go poop after I've been up, approximately two hours. If I get up, un-diapered, go for a pee, then diaper, and follow my useual routeen (guzzling fresh coffee to wake me up (I'm addicted to the stuff), and water too), then I'll wet myself twice at least, before the two hours is up, and before long I'll be urgently needing to poop... I don't always get much warning of needing to pee, or poo, but as for peeing, trying to resist it for a while, and before long you can't and the body takes over and you can't stop it... In my experience at least. Today was differnt, and unexpected, and I have no idea why it happened; I wasn't wearing diapers today, so was using the big boys toilet for peeing, and then, without more than a second or two's warning, I soiled myself. Sadly, not wearing a diaper the clean up was hell of a messy job, but at least I was at home alone, and the 'accident' went unnoticed by my lodger/flatmate... I wonder, but don't know for certain, if a decade or more's worth of anal sex, anal toys, butt plugs etc., has 'loostened' up my control for defication, I'd not be supprised were that the case, so maybe that has made me have less control and a greater degree of urgency, both of which I guess help with soiling, maybe if not 'uncontrolably', then certainly with 'less control'..

The smell, goes with the feel, and the experience of doing it, to make it the thing I enjoy. However, having a lodger, I probably would be more likely to do it more often were it not for the smell, as it'd be a bit obvious were I to soil with the lodger being about. The main problem I find, which probably discourages me from doing it, asides the having to have an empty house, is the clear up, its basically a chore, a long and messy one. This morning was a good example, I didn't need to go to the loo, around the time I normally do, and didn't think anything of it, and, unfortunately as it turned out I was not wearing any diaper today. Not the first time itd happened, but the urge came on so quick, and virtually as soon as the urge came on, it was too late and I'd soiled my knickers. Having not planned to do this, the clean up was aweful, a quick dash round to grab suitable bags, pick up wet-whipes, and disposable kitchen towel, so by the time I actually got to the bathroom the mess had gone down my legs, onto my trousers, my shirt, and in process of undressing, in teh bathroom, its on the floor... One bag of soiled clothes for the wash, clenaed up as much as I could off of me and the floor with the paper towels, then had to give the floor and toilet a decent clean before just jumping in the shower to clean myself down enough... a right pain... but, did feel really rather nice doing it, soiling myself so uncontrolably... No idea why it happened really... A good job the lodger was out at work this morning..

Been thinking about this a bit more... And actually I think it'd be rather nice to be able to pamper, and change the diapers of a lover, for them, as a very intimate thing to do for them, and, of course, in my case, have them return the favour... mmmm....

Does anyone do the opposite?; Well sort of the opposite, and this isn't something I've tried yet, but may, when I get hold of some disposables. How I mean is, putting a reusable, cloth diaper (or just improvising with thick towels), on the outside of the disposable (maybe with plastic pants outside the lot, to hold it as one), in order to make it feel a lot bulkier? One thing I like is the 'feel', as it were, and certainly when at home, alone, and being spotted in public isn't an issue, making it really bulky to the point where it alters how it feels to walk and sit etc... I was thinking, putting the cloth reusable diaper on the outside, meaning it wouldn't one hopes, get dirty, so that one wouldn't necessarily have to be washed (overly frequently), just, of course, the inner disposable diaper to dispose of once one has spent a long enough time diapepred and wet/soiled... Just curious, I'm still really exploring options and choices as regards disposables and getting proper cloth ones..

Wearing them, myself. Trying to think about the idea of a partner wearing them, either instead, or as well. The instead of me, definately wouldn't work; damnit I want to be wearing them! But can't quite decide if having a partner who also* wore them would be a good or bad thing... Nope can't figure that one out, would need to try to know for certain... Diapering maybe just too much a 'personal' 'alone' thing, thus far in my life... So maybe also something that would change, over time...

Hi! Been perusing the forums, still trying to find information on the best disposable diapers, I can get hold of easily, here in the UK... I think disposable are the way to go, for me, as I can clean up afterwards easier (so lodger won't notice), and will mean I don't have cloth diapers hanging about until the next time I get to wash them through the machine... Which forum would be the best place to ask about them? I'm thinking maybe two types of disposable, a thinner, more discrete type I can wear under clothes, without people noticing, and just use for wetting, and something more bulky and absorpant for when I'm at home, with time, and space to play properly, and both wet and soil them... I'll keep looking round, though, see if I can find anything..