Diapered Jason

You must really like programming. I had some fun with JAVA. JAVA derives much of its syntax from C++ so learning it could be easy for you.

Great! With this new system in place, I will have to go hunt down the guy who voted down my views on religion. Edit: Apparently, someone went through the religion poll and voted down as many atheist posts as possible, so I voted up three atheist posts aside from my own. Seriously though, I usually don't negate the posts here unless I find them offensive, and all the two posts I voted down I have always replied to their post usually explaining why. Of course, not everyone does it this way, so it is hard to put much weight on the reputation system.

That is hilarious. You should post that on Failblog.org.

This is true. He recently came back from the dead on a grilled cheese sandwich and a dog's butt. lol!

I think these are some interesting responses. I hope we get some more people to express themselves here. I never had the desire to be a women, so I still don't know what triggered it. I do like frilly dresses, but usually only during diaper play.

This is absolutely true. I learned that 'after' I told my parents, but like I said, 5 minutes after the discussion, it was as if I never told them anything.

I've been an atheist all my life, and yes it is also true I am a scientist/engineer as can be deciphered from my avatar. I am against organized religion due to its abuse. I think it is important to think for yourself and draw your own conclusions on life, rather than being told what to believe.

I actually decided to tell my parents, because I was tired of living in fear of getting caught. I have no desires whatsoever to get my parents to diaper me or something like that. Unfortunately, my mother's first response when I told her briefly about my desires was "do you need to see a psychiatrist," so obviously I would have to continue living with that fear as long as I continued wearing diapers in my parents house. I think it is important to note that I have a great relationship with my parents and though they may not of understood it, they cared enough to ask if I needed professional help in a non-confrontational manner. I did decline, because I had already come to terms with my desires, and we have never spoken about it since.

My list of sexual activities is constantly expanding, though diapers are just about my only fetish aside from cute dresses. I also enjoy spankings, nipple torture, bondage, enemas, sissification, and pretty much anything that enhances diaper play for me.

That's great news. When I was around 15 years old, I told my mom a little bit about my desires to test the fire sort of speak, but she did not understand or accept it. She told me to throw out all my diapers. I did, but then immediately bought some more later.

I find that post insulting and stupid. Just because a group of undisciplined teenagers gets a degree in philosophy or some bullshit degree like that, you think no one should go to college until 21. You will be surprised to learn that is not really the case. I am of the opinion that it is never too early to go to college if you have a plan laid out. I graduated with a bachelor's degree in engineering at the age of 20, because of great planning. On another note, I find one of the greatest things in life is realizing your ambitions and pursuing them. Forget about money, forget about fame, what do you want to do to make an impact on our society? It is also true that working hard does not necessitate anything, it also requires a little bit of luck, but it is important not to worry about that. Control what you can control, and do not worry about things that are beyond your control. For example, making a good resume can only increase your odds of success, but will not guarantee it; however, making a bad resume will only hurt your chances of success. The quality of our resumes is in our control. I hope that helps.

After reading all the posts, I am envious. I have never been able to cry during a spanking, but during a hard spanking I usually begin to sweat profusely.

In the other forums, we have talked about how we became DLs or ABs, but I have not seen a topic on how we became sissys, so I thought I would post the question here. For me I am not really sure how it started for me. I know I began dressing up in my mother's clothes at a similar age where I started thinking about girls, which I strongly regret now, because I was never given permission to do that. By then I already had a diaper fetish, so things kind of took off from there. Somehow, cross-dressing turned into a prop to further humiliate myself, thereby enhancing my diaper fetish. Its possible my curiosity may have gotten the best of me, but I was hoping other sissys here could help shed some light on this by describing their own personal experiences.

My name is pretty self-explanatory, but we should have another thread where people can explain their avatars if they wish.

I like most of the late 60s and early 70s classic rock, such as Led Zeppelin, Jimi Hendrix, The Who, and Pink Floyd, but I also listen to grunge and metal. The bands I listen to the most right now are Tool, A Perfect Circle, Alice n' Chains, Sepultura, and Apocalyptica.

I hardly ever drink, but when I do, I skip the beers and wines, and proceed to the hard liquor, unless I have amaretto. Whiskeys like Jameson and Crown Royal are great, but I like mixed drinks too. Adios Motherfucker, pun intended of course.

Don't get me started on the BP oil disaster, a result of BP incompetence and Halliburton's business as usual. Halliburton is the epitome for cutting corners. They are known best for their war profiteering in Iraq. I will never work with that company or do any business with them. Another thing that pisses me off is oil prices. The US gets most of its oil from Canada, Saudi Arabia, Venezuela, Mexico and Nigeria. We get a very small amount of oil from Libya, but yet the oil companies use the civil disorder in that country as an excuse to raise oil prices. Not only does oil prices effect our entire economy, but guess what truck tires are made out of Drynot.

Don't worry about sounding stupid here. I recently joined this site myself, and already I have learned that most people here are very open minded. I have also discovered this site is not only great for learning about other people, but is also great for learning about yourself. I hope you enjoy yourself here.

Sorry Spokane Girl, I guess we don't know where you draw the line between an AB and a DL. To me, AB/DL makes no sense either. Sure, you may say it is the individual that classifies themselves as AB/DL, which is definitely true; however, when it comes to defining ABs and DLs, it creates a fallacy. It is important to know though that everyone has their own trigger for beginning this fetish/lifestyle, which results in a different perspective and most importantly different behaviors.

That is actually very interesting Sarah. I think my initial perception on ABs and DLs is incorrect. It appears we have people who identify as an AB and yet receive pleasure from their treatment, while on the other hand, we have people who identify as a DL who are after the 'safe and secure' feeling. I am theorizing that this leaves us with three groups of people. We still have the AB/DL category, where people are after both the sexual stimulation and the safe and secure feeling. Now I am going to introduce two new categories. The AB/DL(sex) category is a group of people who enjoy this scene for sexual stimulation. The AB/DL(s&s) category is a group of people who are after the safe and secure feeling (s&s). All three of these categories can be broken up into an infinite amount of subcategories (a spectrum if you will) that depends on how many elements, such as pacifiers, baby bottles, etc that you incorporate into your play or lifestyle. It is important to put all other fetishes aside. Based on this new system, I would put myself in the AB/DL(sex) incorporating about half of the elements a baby would have. Note: This is just a theory. Let me know what you guys think though.

My apologies Sarah. I realize it might be impossible to generalize ABs and DLs, but I know they are very different. I am curious though as to why you think you are an AB if it is sexual role play for you. I know by definition you are not an infantilist. You can decline that question if you want to as it is a very private matter.

I think what we are a little confused on is the "safe and secure" feeling as this is an AB tendency. As a diaper lover, I do not have these feelings. Once I finish my orgasm, I longer want to wear diapers. I don't have an age at which I play at. Secondly, diaperbrownie, there is a major distinction, it is definitely not a simple scenario, or a lifestyle for all of us. For example, as a male DL, I cannot hang out with a female AB. It would not work. While she wears diapers for an innocent reason (I of course respect that), I will want 'for a lack of a better word' to punish her, not to give her a coloring book or a stuffed animal, and I hope for the same in return. An AB would definitely not enjoy that.

I think it is important to find a physical activity that you enjoy so you don't have to work up the courage to go work out at a gym. Later though you will find out if I go to the gym, that will supplement my physical activity I enjoy. I think a great example is racquetball. Many gyms have racquetball courts making it fun to go to the gym. I guess I will let you guys know a little secret of mine. I hardly ever use the cardio machines during my workout. They are too boring. As for dieting, no body mentioned high fructose corn syrup. This is most likely one of the major causes of obesity and diabetes in the US. As it turns out, our body can not process that amount of fructose and as a result is stored as fat. Just about 1/2 or even 3/4 of the things you can buy at a grocery store contain this ingredient. That goes for most sodas. Avoid it like the plague. One way the nutritional labels on foods trick you is the amount of trans fat that is in the food. If the trans fat per serving is below 0.5 g per serving, it is rounded down to zero. Foods like chips are loaded with this fat even though the label says 0% DV for transfat. It is important to check the ingredients list of hydrogenated and partially hydrogenated oils. There are also other tricks food manufacturers use. If it sounds to good to be true, it probably is. You should be able to tell which foods are good and which are bad by how you feel during your workout. If you feel as though you have no energy during your workout, you might have had a bad lunch like a burger. If you had no choice but to eat a horrible meal, eat some fruit. Fruit goes a long ways. All the other advices given here except fasting are useful. Calorie counting works if you commit to it, but it is painful.

ha, an AB posted as I was writing my post

The way I understand it is the difference between an AB and a DL is the psychological perspective. For example, I am a diaper lover. I look at diapers as a form of discipline and sexual stimulation. As you can guess I have other BDSM fetishes; however, I enjoy pacifiers, baby bottles, and probably cribs too because that helps complete the experience that I am not in control, but at the mercy of the top, and it adds to the humiliation as well. I hope an AB posts here as it is likely they would tell you their situation better than I can. Seeing as I am not an AB and have not met an AB, I can only guess, but judging from what I have read, their persepctive pertains more to the inner child. They want to be regressed.