Bettypooh

I poop about 1-2 times a year just so I don't forget why I don't like doing it It feels yukky and the cleanup is more than I care for And only in disposables, I don't like brown stains on my cloth diapers But to each their own and if you don't mind wearing a poopy then go right ahead. Just stay downwind of me until you change please Bettypooh

Happy Holidays to all I say that knowing that everyone believes differently and has the right to do that. It needs to be remembered that religious freedom does not imply that anyone has the right to push their religion onto those unwilling to agree with it. I say that knowing the phrase "Happy Holidays" pertains to everybody and offends only those who want to be offended by it. I can't help them but I can let the rest of you know that I wish you all peace and happiness this season and I can do it in a way that isn't offensive Being nice is part of being a good person regardless of what your religious beliefs happen to be. So- Happy Holidays! Bettypooh

Late seeing this too "Do I ever bring this up again if so how?" If you're asking whather to bring it up again to Mom, the answer is 'Not willingly'. You don't intentionally upset the people you care about like that and expect their continued love for you. I am not saying that you must hide this part of your life. That's your choice completely as an adult. Just know what you're doing and be ready to accept the results of that. I'm TG and all my adult family know this. My sister asked that I not expose her children to it yet due to their young age, and I am happy to do that. Still, those kids have asked why I was wearing earrings, why I sometimes act more 'girly' than most guys, and so on. The time is coming when the oldest is going to ask more direct questions about the obvious so I am about to explain to my sister that while I don't want to hurt her, I am not going to be a liar for her sake. I'm ready witrh answers but I don't have to bring the issue up so I won't. If it's on their mind let them ask. "Will i ever get over this?" Not likely at all! I know you didn't want to hear that but it's true and you can better deal with things knowing the truth about them. How to deal with it is your choice as an adult. If you decide to hide it then hide it well If you decide to 'come out' then realize that it will no longer be 'your secret' and it may go further than you want it to. I tell things on a 'need to know' basis. If it isn't going to affect them I don't tell. Only those closest to me and dearest to me know everything about me but I am not quite ready to tell these people whom I highly value about my being a DL. Unless it becomes known that I'm diapered it shouldn't be an issue with them. If it happens I am ready with a response The more people who you tell, the higher the odds get that the knowledge will become commomplace. Knowing myself and seeing that I am opening up online leads me to feel that I am about to begin sharing my DL with people in real life It's a pattern with my prevoius experiences and honestly I am scared about it. I know there's nothing wrong with being a DL and I don't like decieving people(it leaves me feeling trashy inside)so a coming out is probably in my future. I will try to keep the knowledge where I want it but I am not so naive to think that it can't have a large negative impact on my life anyway It will something I do when I do it and only because I can't live with myself any other way any longer. Don't let being an AB or DL overwhelm you. It's your life and your choice what to do about this and every other thing which you don't have full control over. Like sex, it's going to happen so figure out what you want from it, then go for what you think will make you happiest Bettypooh

It's simple. Just go after whatever your heart desires Don't worry about what others may think so long as they aren't in a position that can hurt you If nobody gets hurt, the after-effect doesn't require a doctor or lawyer, and you found it fun(or discovered that you didn't really enjoy it)then you end up as a WINNER!!!! Bettypooh

Since the SC is very near where I just mentioned I was would seem to be reason enough I can wish, can't I?

NC or SC? There's only a 9-10 hour drive between them Bettypooh

So does it matter? If it does, then figure out who and what you want to be and love that person a lot And never let someone else define or limit you to being what they want. Be who and what you want so you can enjoy life. I'm no AB either, but certain aspects of my DL are and I love them too. Like you there are things I would love to experience that I haven't -yet- but maybe someday I will. Until then they are my dreams and I like dreaming. It's a lot of fun sometimes Bettypooh.

Hi Sean I just read your blog and quite frankly I'm a bit worried. You're quitting diapers for a month but you don't really want to. If that decision is what you really feel is the right one then congratulations If you really feel otherwise I'm worried. The same goes for giving them up altogether. You don't need to be told about purging's uselessness so you seem to be wanting to make a permanant choice now. A bit further down I saw where your voice probelms are coming back too. I'm no shrink but from here it seems like there's something happening deeper in your life that isn't being dealt with adequately, and all that you've blogged about are just the symptoms of the deeper issue making itself known. I want to be wrong about that, but am I? My own experiences with shrinks and therapy make me concerned, as you seem to be heading deeper into something you may not like, or may not yet know about. Never discount your own value in this world, never feel bad about what you like or don't like, never feel that fulfilling your desires without harming others is a bad thing. Guilt sucks, and it can and will suck you down to the bottom if you let it Take a moment and slow down to reflect what your life is about right now, where you seem to be headed with it, and if that's where you want your life to go. And remember that there are many things we cannot control in life so for those things just do what you can to make it work as good as you can then accept the results as something that was meant to be. Those parts are neither good or bad in themselves, but how you see them and deal with them can be. Best Wishes to you! Bettypooh

Hello and welcome to DD I know how you feel. I debated for months whether to tell my last GF. I didn't tell which worked out OK because she had an honesty problem so we broke up Maybe you can find a situation where an AB or an advertisment has a pic of someone in a diaper and comment that you think they're cute. If he's open to it the subject of the diaper will come up and you can feel it out from there Keep in tough and let us know how you're doing Bettypooh

"Sadly christmas is a reminder that I'm a couple if cousins sleeping together away from being on jerry springer. " Eye diddunt no we wuz kin. Hi cuzin BTW, just because they are related to you doesn't make them kinfolk, and I can't tell you how grateful I am about THAT! Bettypooh, who just couldn't resist a bit of humor tonight

Hi Tommy, and welcome There's a message board for incontinence here where you'll find many nice people And there's a whole lot more if you care to look around but AFAIK none of us bite Bettypooh

I lived my earlier childhood as a rather spoiled pantswetting brat boy, so Christmas started out meaning getting the one really big toy I asked for that year. After Dad died we became poor and I didn't get much so I hated Christmas As I grew up it meant nothing to me except lots of food and the same old songs I didn't like played over and over until I thought I'd puke. My family grew apart other than being together for the Christmas meal. I was "Bah Humbug" to the Nth degree those days I saw the commercialization of Christmas and began to hate everything to do with Christmas except for family. I guess I'm still like that a bit Nowdays Christmas means family, winter, and a chance to see the family's children happy with their new toys while us grown-ups have another chance to be together again. The presents I now want can't be purchased and given to me by anyone I know(but you can buy me a nice small house on ten acres if you really want to! ) The most special presents I get are from the children who go out of their way to take the little money they have and do something special just for me like those cute crayon and paper Christmas cards. They come from the heart, a very special thing indeed I have almost everything else I want or need, so now I get the best present of all at Christmas every Christmas-I get to feel the love between all of us up close and personal. We still lead seperated lives but we have a bond that nothing can break That's an always thing, but it feels closer at Christmas than any other of the many times my family comes together and that feeling is priceless to me Now if only I could get a better handle on my appetite and all that wonderful food that appears at Christmas Bettypooh

More "Pin-On" people, I like that Flat diapers(or contour)can be had at adult cloth diaper webstores, just google that up and you'll find a half dozen on the first page. Ebay has some good sellers and some decent prices, but not everything there is a bargain. I've never tried gauze due to the high price I like Birdseye but be sure of what you're getting. "Diaper Squares" are usually a single thin layer and you may need 4-6 to get the thickness you want. If the details don't say how many layers there are ask before buying. I use a lot of flannel too. They're thicker but to me sitting on flannel is like sitting on a board Either of these will do a good job once you learn how to fold them, pin them on, and care for them. ACD seems to be the best source overall Then there's the pull-ons, another topic altogether. The textured surface you seem to be looking for is probably Birdseye. I just bought a sewing machine and am going to use some '36X36 Birdseye squares' to create a multi-layer diaper with a center soaker from 4 of these. I bought these cheap on Ebay and each finished diaper will have cost me about $12US plus my time. By sewing my own I think I can get a more perfect fit but I want to get more sewing practice in first Diaper pins aren't common anymore but can be found at smaller variety stores(Wilson's is where I buy mine)and can be had plain or shaped plastic headed. Craft stores often have the plain ones in larger sizes, about 3 1/2 inches seems to be the biggest of these. Again Ebay can be a source. It's hard on the cloth, but sometimes I use 'Horse Blanket' pins more proportioned to my size now when I'm wearing diapers at home. It adds to the fun factor for me. I haven't found these anywhere except Ebay but luckily there are usually some listed there. Most of these are 5-6 inches long in brass but chrome or nickel plated can be had sometimes. Maybe 'horse and tack' stores still sell these? I don't remember being in diapers and the few pics of me with a bare diaper aren't good enough to know what weave they were I've always liked the one of me wearing Gerber plastic pants though. I look so comfy and happy in that pic, maybe that's why I like cloth diapers and plastic panties better today:wub: Cloth baby diapers are making a big comback because they are less likely to cause skin problems(if changed often), some say they're 'greener' enviromentally(hotly debated with no clear winner), and if well cared for they last long enough to save money in the long run. For us bigger ones, cloth is a definite plus in terms of money and absorbency compared to most disposables. They may go out of style but cloth diapers in all sizes will always have a market big enough for their continued production Bettypooh

There's a line between good taste and bad taste, and another from there to just flat-out wrong. Those are social mores and they do vary from place to place. Two guys on a sidewalk holding hands in NYC wouldn't get a second glance but if that happened where I am the reaction would be hateful and evil At best, intentional exposure of your diaper in public would be questionable, and IMHO in front of underage children is wrong. Even if it's a mixed-age place llike the mall or a park. Adults only? Maybe, but never children. I see this as exhibitionism though it could also be a self-destructive trait exemplified. But where do you draw the line? A simple kiss between hubby and wifey in public is generally acceptable but a lot of oldsters would draw the line if it were a long passionate kiss. Younger ones mostly don't agree(and I'm with them on this one. Love is good and should always be shown in that light ) Decency is a personal definition until it reaches a social majority opinion of that definition For us to all live together peacefully as a society requires laws and some unwritten 'rules' of conduct which are based more on what something is seen as being versus what it really is. If you break those unwritten 'rules' there will be a price to pay sooner or later, and you have a right to make that choice. But when you do something that reflects badly on others similar enough to you that the average person wouldn't be able to tell the difference between you and them, then you no longer have the right to make that choice. Society as a whole has denied you that option, and rightly so As a TG and having TS friends, I personally hate seeing outlandish examples of crossdressing in public because it makes it harder for the rest of us looking like normal women to gain acceptance in society. As a DL I see this particular example in the very same way. It's one thing for diaper exposure to happen accidentally, but when you do it on purpose like this example you've harmed all the rest of us who hope that oneday we will find ABDL gaining social acceptance. Your motivations don't matter, only the results of your actions. If you really have to gross people out or blow their minds then belch or fart or do something that points only to you. Please leave me out of your personal issues Bettypooh

I just tried the online 20 questions. Here's what happened. I started with "Diaper", then "Plastic Panties", then tried to play again with "Safety Pin" but it didn't like losing and wouldn't let me play anymore(actually I think my ISP dropped me again). "Plastic Panties" totally baffled the AI machine, but "Diaper" was hilarious. At 16Q it began making guesses and here's what it guessed: Bathrobe Leggings Scarf Boxer Shorts Wool Sweater and finally: BUTT AI doesn't interest me a whole lot because no matter what the experts say, it can never emulate the human mind, only some of it's thinking processes Without being spontaneous in relation to my situation it would get boring quickly, and lacking the imagination to be able to see something as fun would make it dull About all it could do for me is to remove the mundane or repulsive chores from my life. When AI gets to the point of becoming a Michgaelangelo, DaVinci, or Mozart then it will have come of age. Anarchist thinking cannot be simulated or predicted and will always be a totally human trait: "Hey you stupid robot, you hung my square diapers upside down again!" would smoke it's circuits. Now that would be really fun to see and might make AI worthwhile Bettypooh

Shortcutting? I looked at every gallery link I could find including the yellow one on the homepage and still no luck And I did it all on dial-up at 45.2Kb/s: that's loooooooooongcutting, not shortcutting!

"Nicediapers" and "Yunyun" are the same company(I think)but only Yunyun sells on Ebay anymore. Beware the shipping costs which is why I haven't tried them yet. Perhaps we could all get together and invest in a shipping container load? That would be enough to diaper us all for a couple days...maybe Bettypooh

Where's the pics? I couldn't find them

A simple idea: Do or Do Not, there is no trying If you want virility then you do everything that you can to assist in reaching that goal, even when it means not liking some or all of it If you aren'g going to put that much effort into reaching your goal you must accept the fact that you are scarificing an unknown amount of your chances to do something else which therefore must be more important to you Heat does adversely affect the male sexual organ's reproductive capability rather quickly, so do all you can to keep things down there cool and comfortable if you're not having any luck. There's a lot of other do's and don'ts you can find online to help but again you may not like all of what you find such as avoiding alcohol, etc. I wish you success in whatever you pursue Bettypooh

I was forced into therapy(it was a life-or-death moment)and while I had been somewhat introspective, afterwards I learned how to delve into the deepest parts of me that are conciously available That is something that will really open your eyes and mind to a lot of the "why" of who you are. It's not always pretty though. My anger issues came from emulating my Dad, who was a functional drunk and a loser. If he were alive I would beat him to death for what he did to my sisters that I didn't know about till he was deceased. Since I can't release that anger where it belongs I had to let it go. That took years to do well enough to get my own life back in order. Learning to deeply introspect can be the most interesting thing you've ever done and make everyone else thing you're a daydreamer The only thing more interesting is applying what you've learned to other people. Be warned! If you go there, you might end up not liking the people you thought you liked once you figure out what really motivates them Things aren't always what they seem to be and every rose has thorns so don't go there unless you're truly ready to handle whatever you might find My DL is easy to figure out I was very late in learning continence, especially in bed. I was denied the help of diapers as a child and now that I am in control of my own life I am exploring that which I was for so long denied I like feeling myself wet with my own pee. I can't explain that, it's kind of like everyone liking their favorite flavor of ice cream. You just do but you don't know why, so it doesn't bother me that I like wet diapers. I just do I've always had trouble getting enough rest at night since I stopped bedwetting. I always woke up several times a night to pee so I wasn't sleeping deeply like I really need to. The solution? Diaper up and pee in bed whenever I need to And there's something of a 'naughty' aspect to it which is a natural attraction for all humans who were taught that some things were 'taboo' Add my advancing age which tells me that if I'm going to do something it needs to be soon and there you have it! What does it all mean? Nothing at all. I am who and what I am, you are who and what you are. We're humans and so long as we aren't hurting an innocent person there is nothing wrong or abnormal about any of us Bettypooh

I guess accidents happen to everybody and I've had my share. Usually it's the onset of diahrea that hits hard and fast but I hate messing myself so I almost always make it to the nearest bathroom. There's been a few times when my bowels suddenly said "NOW!" and I knew I wasn't going to make it. Only once was there no option except pooping my pants, the rest of the time I found enough 'cover' to drop my pants and do what I had to. My undies normally do for a wipe except once when I grabbed a few napkins out of the car in passing. I'm the outdoorsy type so I've used plant leaves for a wipe many times when there was nothing else handy(please avoid the ones that cluster in threes!) Common Mullein is a weed that grows in many open areas and it rivals Charmin for softness. It's mushy inside is also a mind antiseptic. Indians used it to wipe and passed the idea on to us invaders It's the best thing in the world if you have hemhhroids. The one time I didn't make it I was driving and almost made it home. One less red light and I might have made it safely, however- Vinyl seats do have at least one good quality: They're easily cleaned Bettypooh

"hippa laws prevent any sort of heatlh care worker, be it doctor, dentist, eye doctor, nurse, or therapist, from giving out confidential information" Laws are meant to prevent transgressions but do not stop them from occurring. If the counselor did let the info slip out it could bring an end to your career in LE As others have already said, there is also the issue of responsibility to whoever is paying the bill. Tort(civil)law varies a lot from place to place, especially in the realm of possible judgements. In California, having a neighbor take a leak on your lawn might get you several thousand bucks for cleanup, reseeding, and maintainance-but here in the deep south filing that suit would get you laughed out of the courtroom with summary rejection plus billing for the court costs Hippa etal falls under tort law, where redress can mean years of waiting and the probability of an inadequate judgement. LE and many other careers have understood but unpublished 'codes of conduct' that affect your job now as well as any future possibilities. How much is a ruined carreer worth, one dollar? A few million? A judgement could be for either one and still leave you with a ruined career. For that reason alone I would go it alone to my own selection of counselor or therapist on the subject of ABDL. You would then have a solid case for expectation of total privacy which might be lacking with their counselor. Since you must see their counselor, discuss everything else with them. They might help you find something you were unaware of that is causing a lot of your stress In fixing that you might have enough relief to better cope with your ABDL issues. When I was in therapy I never discussed my being a DL. It wasn't so much of an issue at the time and once we got everything else worked out I could deal with this one by myself when it came to the forefront of my emotional life. I learned how to manage other stressful things and applied those methods here. In my own career there are no real job expecatations except job performance and what they see of me there. So long as I don't make an a$$ of myself in a way that adversely affects my company publicly I'm OK. They could(and would)still find a legit reason to fire me if they wanted to, but that's an everyday thing in my business anyway I am not the average guy in that I do no more socializing with my workplace cohorts than I absolutely have to so I can keep my very different private life seperate and peaceful and still keep my job too. LE doesn't give you that option so finding and maintaining a mental and emotional balance for yourself is crucial. Be smart and do that quietly and you will find a peace inside you never thought possible. It's the best money you'll ever spend Bettypooh

I generally don't like telling anyone what to do, but since you asked.......... From what I've read from you here I would say it would be better for us if you declined and tried to steer them to someone more qualified. I mean, you seem nice enough but anyone who might be seen as a spokesperson needs to have the answers in hand and ready, no matter the questions asked. I am TG and have been around quite a number of LGBT occasions where I cringed as I heard someone from the TG world publicly give an opinion or answer to an audience that didn't reflect the larger segment of TG's, but was only their own opinion. Listening to the chit-chat from the audience afterwards proved that they tended to accept the incorrect answer from the 'expert' speaker That happens even when the speaker made it clear at the start that they were telling only their own viewpoint. It's because the audience knew nothing on the subject so they thought that the sponsor would certainly pick someone with knowledge on the subject to speak about it. Answers given in this way to the unknowing tend to stick with them and are very hard to straighten out later on I would give a qualified "OK" to you if you learn what the overall feeling of the ABDL community is before going on the show and then make it clear that it is only what you've heard, not what you've experienced personally. As easy as it is to find long-time ABDL's with vast experience, I have to question why anyone would select a speaker with admittedly little experience or knowledge on the subject And personally, I wouldn't refer to this site. Why? I am not about to draw attention to us since so many of us aren't 'out'; it could push the server over bandwidth limits and shut the site down for days on end; and it would draw a bunch of hateful idiots here who would try to ruin this place. They might succeed too, I've seen it happen before If I were asked to do the show I would do the same thing I am suggesting that you do. Something just rubs me wrong here and I become suspicious of the show host's real intentions. Bettypooh

Prepaid cards have a lot of hidden fees and costs and they are not totally anonymous but they are absolutely safe and more secure than any other payment method because nobody can take more than you have loaded on it. If the info does get stolen just get another card and start over. That is the only online method of payment I use and I never keep any personal info on my computer. Take that you phishing hacking keylogging scammers For security reasons I do not have anything sent to my address, it all goes to someone else's house and I've not told them of my DL, nor have they mentioned it. But with the large bulky light disposables that go there they might know something by now One Ebay seller just wrapped a bag in brown paper, which got slightly torn so the corner of a diaper was slightly visible. So much for their claim of "Discreet Shipping" My first plastic panties came from XP medical and I paid with a money order. The only problem was that they have to be shipped somewhere(to me!) If that's a problem, get a private mailbox or a PO Box. Or ask about discreet packaging. They were discreet except for the return address and everything went OK Many other sellers will accept money orders too. One great place to look for rubber and plastic panties is AC Medical in Canada. The sizing might be a problem so you may have to but the same thing twice to get the fit you want, but the selection is unbelievable(with a zillion pics so you can see what you're getting!) If you buy there do read all the disclaimers, especially the one about customs declarations. Also look out for the difference in availlability and shipment delays. Your shipment will have a small red sticker that says "Medical Clothing" on it Since I'm getting comfortable with this part of me that doesn;t bother me too much, and it may even provide an easy way for the person who receives my shipments to open the subject if they want to. My reply will be that I need help with my bedwetting(true, but the help I want is to do it more though I won't say that ) and that I hope they understand. I think they will Bettypooh

I am working on becoming nocturnally incontinent myself Overhydrating helps as does peeing in bed before you go to sleep. I sometimes use the free 'hypno' files mentioned elsewhere but they only help a tiny bit if at all. My own self-hypnosis of repeating over and over that I should be a bedwetter until I go to sleep, and visualizing myself that way seems to help more than anything. For that to happen you must see bedwetting as a positive, your subconcious mind won't allow you to do something you think is bad without an outside influence. Some have questioned the logic of becoming a bedwetter again And my real desire is to bedwet only while wearing diapers. I am not sure that is possible without a personal hypnosis session and it might be tough to find a hypnotist that would do it. I've been working on it alone for maybe 6 months with some success but I still usually wake up to some degree to pee The mornings I wake up wetter than I remember doing(especially when I'm soaking wet )makes the effort worthwhile and gives me great joy. The "Pros" I see are that I can sleep better, a big problem I've always had and hated. It gives me the perfect opportunity to wear diapers which is something I like doing It reduces the possibility of a soaked bed(I always use plastic or rubber panties). In the winter it means I don't have to get up and get cold going potty, I can stay warm and snug. Under a diaper cover that warmth stays after peeing(which also warms things down there). Thinking of myself as a bedwetter makes me happy So far becoming one has done the same. The "Cons" I see are that I may not be able to differentiate between diapered and undiapered which could leave me needing diapers every night. I might lose control when I fall asleep elsewhere It requires money to buy disposables and/or extra laundry to be done. Given the decades it took me to learn to not wet the bed it may not be reversible should I wish that later on. For me, the "Pros" far outweigh the "Cons" I already have 'clothing issues' since I'm TG and only wear men's outer clothing at work. The rest of my wardrobe consists of women's wear ranging from "you can't tell the difference without looking closely" to formal evening wear. If a potential partner can deal with that then they can probably deal with my diapers too. So far I haven't gone there with anyone but if I'm lucky again I am going to. I'm quite used to rejection already, another time won't dent my spirit any worse I want a soulmate that will love all of me forever no matter what and I am ready to offer the same. Anything less just couldn't work for me. If I develop a need for diapers at night, then I will accept it as the cost of doing what I want to do. It isn't any different than needing to keep your strength up to be a mountain climber if that's what you want to do. I'm still a bit edgy about the possibility of it becoming permanant and I think that is why I am not making the progress I want to. Forever is a very big thing, am I really ready for that possibility? I'm not quite certain but I am willing to go further with this for now. There are lots of people who are bedwetters without choice in lifetime partnerships who are doing well and happy. If they can do it then so can I. To paraphrase Davy Crockett; "Be sure this is what you really want, then go ahead." Bettypooh