APaddedPilot

So after Brooks and I took a journey through pamper-land we got chained there by our addictions. The only way out was to rip out the root being our diapers. After a brisk feeling couple of weeks all of our ABDL diapers were used up and we wouldn't allow ourselves to purchase anymore. After that we took some much needed time off from anything ABDL related. When we started to slowly get back into everything ABDL we thought a celebration was in order. We cleared a night from our schedules and gave our selves a small sparkling water enema with a hint of suppository to celebrate the occasion. My health has significantly improved since this has occurred and Brooks has improved mentally & physically. We also decided to purchase a couple other things for our home including some ABDL themed things for a special room and some other hobbies such as gaming, vr, and writing short stories. Overall we've been able to get our fetishes on leashes and are now doing ABDL when we want but scratching those plans when others come up!

She has decided to delay social media until a little bit into 2024. She's back to doing her thing in diapers but will happily drop what she's doing to spend time with others! - Brooks ❤️ I do keep an eye on her still because I don't want it to get as bad as it was but I don't think I'll have to worry about that for a while.

I told her I would take the cameras down after we had this all sorted out. The cameras are in the living room and nursery and that's it since they're to watch the diapers so Grace can't get in them without me knowing. So far she hasn't lied so I might take them down without telling her.

Grace spent almost all of yesterday in diapers while I was out shopping and when I checked on the nanny cam thing (I put some around the place so I can see if she's actually telling the truth sometimes) and she actually wet her diapers a lot and took it off and set it aside then she went to the bathroom for something before coming out and wetting the diaper again. She kept drinking a lot and eventually her diaper started leaking and she put her last one in the pack on (I recently started buying packs of diapers instead of samples) she stayed in it until I got home which was about an hour and a half later. I changed her and she asked if she could wear the wet diaper to bed to which I told her "No. I'm not dealing with you getting a horrible rash. You can stay in it for 1 hour and then it gets thrown away." So I did just that and when I put her to bed in that last clean diaper she asked me if I could let her do this for days in a row and I told her we'd take baby steps and if things don't go downhill she might be able to. Grace now spends most of the day diapered with me and from time to time she'll just take the diaper off and throw it on the floor before doing something else. I think she knows how to control it and now I want to work on stopping her from using laxatives, suppositories, and enemas for now. I told her that she can only do 1 enema a week and it cannot be bigger than 1 qt and it has to be ONLY water. I allowed her to drink a max of 3 cups of apple juice or prune juice a day and it seems to have gotten her off of those for now. A bad thing that's come up lately is a lot of things that are causing a s*** ton of stress on me which in turn is causing me to be short-tempered (I told Grace that if I start getting heated then she is to put a paci in my mouth and tell me "It's going to be okay.." while hugging me) not only that but I've also been getting sick because of all of this stress. It has been leading to me sometimes being sickly feeling (let's just say when I throw up the back end starts peeing brown and I can't control it). Since I noticed I needed to reduce stress I asked Grace to pamper me like a baby for like an hour a day which seems to work for now. If things get worse then I will lock myself in the room and listen to music and do some yoga. So far I've only gotten sick feeling twice (one time was possibly mostly because I ate Mexican food which sometimes tears me up) and since then I have been feeling better. Grace could be back on social media in POSSIBLY a month and a half!!! She's thought about writing a story about this whole thing and she made me make this announcement. IF she does end up making this into a story names will be changed and it's going to be mostly accurate. -Brooks ❤️

I'm very happy to announce that Grace's so-called treatment is doing well! She's almost gone a full month pamper-less! She stopped having accidents about 2 weeks ago and is now ready to try doing diaper stuff but I told her that we'd see. I was thinking about slowly getting her and myself back into it and it seems to have worked! I gave her 30 minutes and after she had messed and peed quite a bit she was actually bored and stopped ~7 minutes before time was up! I started going back to wearing diapers for a little over half the day and she didn't care! She gave herself an enema and sat in the mess for ~1 hour the other day and then she wet it before taking a shower. Not only that but she was disgruntled when I told her she had to keep a clean one on for 30 minutes just in case anything leaked. She gets bored when playing with them for a certain amount of time! I gave her a choice of going to an amusement park or spending the FULL / ENTIRE day diapered and she chose the PARK!!!! I'm so happy for my gf! She'll finally be able to come back with her fetish on a leash (meaning she has control of it if y'know what I mean). I am giving her a max of 2 hours of diaper time a day for the next little bit until I think she deserves more. I hope my baby gf gets her padded bum back into the air soon! ~Brooks ❤️

She no longer has the temptation of social media and has now picked up something else. The other day we bought a cheap four-wheeler off of a friend and she went riding behind our house and came in super muddy. Something I expected but she didn't was she had a tiny accident a day or so ago when we went to an amusement park. She was wearing her Rearz Princess Pink training pants and had leaked them. She didn't notice at first until she felt she was getting warmer and it started going down her leg at least that's what she told me. 🙄 I've gotten her into riding four-wheelers and I've gotten into dirt-bikes (though not as messy as she is). Sometimes when we're home and we're watching a movie she'll lay her head on my lap and feel my diaper under my pjs and then it's like she breaks and needs them again. I was planning on wearing them when she isn't around so I could continue but it seems like I also have to sacrifice to help her which I am happy to do. I also took her ABDL clothes and crib and put them into my storage unit as to keep her far away from them. Here lately she's also been having some dreams about wearing diapers and she thinks she's wearing one and wets her bed so I've put her into goodnites and some other protection to stop that. For now I'm taking on the Mommy role to calm Grace down and help her. I also think I am going to start wearing diapers to work since I can't while Grace is home and it works out since I'm not near many people 3-4 of the days I work (not like I'd do more than wet in them anyways). I'll keep you all updated in her journey and if something major happens expect it to be a post with IMPORTANT in the title. Until next time ~Brooks

Grace's Girlfriend here! She struggled for a few hours trying to stay away from her abdl sites but eventually was able to avoid it. I will be visiting her accounts regularly to make sure she hasn't posted any content and to answer some questions. An update to her plan: once the diapers are used up she's going into training pants (due to the possibility of her leaking) just in case. Once we know she's done okay enough to wear only panties, I will lock the training pants in the little safe with the 3 sample packs of diapers. I am trying to support her the best I can, please tell me if this will stop her fetish from becoming her day to day life. She will not be gone forever. Right now our EST is 3 years but that might change. If she can get under control soon it would be at least 6 months (out of training pants & diapers). But if she's sick (when she gets sick she always has bad diarrhea) then she'll be diapered for obvious reasons and those days won't count against those 6 months. If you think of anything to make it easier on her please reach out. -Brook Brook / Brooklyn

Today is the last day I will be active for a bit. I was given 1 hour until I have to give up social media (just abdl stuff). I hope I am strong enough to get back soon with diapers just being a small thing and not who I am.

After posting my last post and reviewing comments and thinking about all of my actions I have decided that my fetish has turned into more of an addiction and has been controlling my life. I don't want that.. I feel it's time to say farewell for now. Will I come back? Possibly, I don't know yet. I'm trying to avoid everything involving diapers starting with social media. This is the first step in a 3 step process. The first is giving up abdl social media accounts (for now), the second is giving up regressing and punishments, the final step and most difficult is giving up wearing them. My last case of diapers showed up a couple days ago and when I run out I'm not buying anymore until I can control this. Please DO NOT make the same mistake I did. You think it's what you want but you probably don't see all of what it's affecting. If things get too stressful I'm thinking of having a little safe with a couple sample packs of diapers just in case I can't calm down any other way. But I cannot access this box only my gf can since she will know the code and if she sees that I cannot calm down she will give me one diaper and that's it and I will have 1-2 hours with it. I hope this will fix my addiction.. Stay safe and stay pampered! X̷o̷X̷o̷X̷o̷X̷o̷ - Grace (aka APaddedPilot)

I know I couldn't do certain things or something due to me having stupid plans or challenges. I have held the stuff back for a few days and was struggling to hold it and I couldn't go to a theme park with my gf and a couple of our friends. I told them that I couldn't go because I was afraid if I had to go that it would smell very badly even with a double bag and I didn't want to do that. I just felt it was the right thing to do. But even though I didn't go and was bummed it was one of my biggest messes yet requiring three diapers (I had to use a small then medium and finally a large) to contain it all and not spill.

I don't even know why I started panicking because it turns out if you sign the online thing I guess they don't require you to sign it. I guess I was afraid of them thinking something that wouldn't even be remotely possible. I guess its because I have mostly done USPS instead where they don't require unless its a alcoholic beverage, guns / ammo, etc.. Thank you all for responding anyways, in a way it calmed me. I know next time there's no need to panic at all. 😅

I recently ordered ABDL Diapers from My Inner Baby and I asked them if they required a signature and they replied no, they do not. Then after I could track the package (by UPS) it said "Your packages requires a signature." and something like if I wanted to sign it now. So does it need a signature or? I don't mind signing but I don't really want anyone else to know about my diaper thing at the moment. I'm just afraid the UPS person would say something or know the contents.

So after running a few tests I can say: A diaper without a booster (depending on the enema) could hold all of it and not leak unless laying on my tummy A diaper WITH a booster seemed to help towards the end of the enema and it only leaked while walking a certain way So I guess some boosters and diapers could hold up against an enema you might want to do like a medium diaper to hold it then a large diaper to contain it. I found that doing that then putting on a onesie and sitting in the mess feels quite good. You could get a tiny bit of leakage from doing this but I've only had it once when I used the same size diaper.

What size of enema (just your standard lukewarm water maybe some salt) + holding time do you think would produce the biggest and loudest mess? I personally would think that a 2Q with a bit of salt and ~15 minutes would do it but I tried it recently and haven't gotten any noises. There are other enemas but I don't want to keep buying mineral oil or castor oil to do the trick. Here are some ideas / questions I've had: Do I need more salt? Hold it in for double the time (or an hour if possible)? Do a larger enema? Insert the enema with my bum in the air / gravity enema? Shower head enema?

Recently I have been looking through the diapermess videos to try to think of new things to mimic / do with my gf but while looking through I got curious and went to the messing stuff and realized most of them don't seem like they messed except the enema and runny / diarrhea messes. This made me believe that some of the so called "messings" are just them pretending and I don't know if that's true or not. Maybe I am just overthinking it and they're just not messing a lot to make it sag or bulgy.