When and how you discovered you're a diaper lover

[Kaliborio]

I was probably about 12.

It was more complicated for me than I think it is for a lot of people because I have had chronic continence problems for all of my life. Many AB/DLs, when saying they feel safer in diapers, mean that in a purely emotional sense. This is also true for me. However, I also feel safer in diapers in the literal sense that they keep my clothes clean.

I was told for a long time that I must be lying about one side (usually an AB/DL lying about being incontinent), because obviously someone who had been in diapers their whole life would never want to go back to them. My general thinking is that my AB/DL status is likely trauma-based, like any other AB/DL, and separate from my incontinence.

[amorfraldaJR]

I was 14 years old and had been living with my aunt for about a year, and was playing online against someone and I was doing the peepee dance. My aunt unknown to me was standing at the entrance of the livingroom, and all of a sudden I heard her laughing uncontrollably. I turned around and she tossed me a pullup. She motioned for me to put it on. I thought it kind of strange, but yet I was very curious. She turned around while I slipped out of my gym shorts and slipped on the pullup. She came over and snugged it up on me and I put my shorts back on and continued playing. A few minutes later while jumping around with the controller I just relaxed and peed the pullup. All I thought to myself was " what a rush " !  I instantly had a hard on and was hooked on diapers. My aunt later that evening sat me down and we had a long talk about the love of diapers. She explained everything to me, and all I could think to myself was how can anyone keep a secret like this for so long. I knew right away its not something to brag to friends about and kept it to myself for another 3 years. I introduced diapers to my boyfriend at 17 and he too had the same reaction as I did those 3 years passed. Now 18 and a diaper lover, I keep my mind open to endless possibilities of new and fun things to do and try. There is so much to be learned.

[Elbs]

I was 26. I'd been identifying as asexual for 8 years, and felt pretty secure in the belief that I had absolutely no sexuality whatsoever. I did have some unconventional story ideas, though, a lot of them involving diapers. I was doing research for one of my stories, I think I was trying to figure out how to describe the sensation as my character wet themselves, and I stumbled upon the story section of Adisc. Even though I knew fiction wouldn't work as research material, I couldn't stop reading. Something about those stories fascinated me so much.

Huh. Had my period started? My crotch was wet. I went to the bathroom and wiped, expecting to see blood, but all I saw was clear discharge. I remembered hearing that people with vaginas "get wet" when aroused, and suddenly I realized what feeling made me feel compelled to read those stories.

[anisencouches]

meh...i was probably abdl whi ignore himself because i doesn't know what's an abdl . young teen, i had tons of habits that came along  drug using to be honest . Peeing myself on bed, sucking pacifiers, liking to put thick towels on my underwear and pee them....i quicly evolved in like 2 years (17-19) from exploring to being a watersport amateur, to discover some diaper vids and started wanting to try and pee them . so here it start . I would say 19 so ! How it evolved the 15 following years is the most funny part, tought

[DAQ]

I can't remember a time I didn't want to wear diapers. I don't even know if my earliest memory is a dream or a an actual event. I was super short, so I couldn't have been more than 2 or 3. Definitely no older than 4 because my parents were still together and there was a package of diapers on the top shelf and I wanted them and someone, I think my mom pointed to them asking if I wanted them and then saying no when I said I was sure. So ya, my whole life.

[Evelyn Dellcerro]

When I discovered I was a Diaper Lover I was thirteen years old. I will tell you the honest truth. It had nothing to do with how my hair feels on my face or how my dress rubs against my thighs or how I hold a doll when I sleep. Besides I never even played with dolls. I liked getting messy and playing in mud or riding my bike with the boys from the neighborhood. At twelve I enjoyed pooping my panties. It felt great and as the poop exited my anus it made my knees weak and made my vagina tingle. I would go to my treehouse and masturbate for hours. I didn't dare squish it and make a mess because I had no money to buy new panties and hand washing and machine washing never got out the full stain. This was in the mid seventies. When I turned thirteen I had a few neighbors with children and got a few babysitting jobs. Back in those days it's not like now where you need a college education or a PHD in child psychology. I didn't need references and there were no nanny cams and baby monitors or cell phones. There was a rotary phone in the kitchen and if lucky an extention in the livingroom. Baby sitting opened my eyes to diapers. I was very sure parents didn't miss three or four diapers if I took them with me. With the money I made babysitting I was able to buy diapers that fit me properly. At thirteen I was barely 4'8" and weighed a mere seventy five pounds. I decided when the time was right I would put a diaper in my schoolbag and change into it when the school bell rang and when it was time to leave. I peed in the bathroom and put the diaper on. I got on the bus like a normal day and went home. I got off the bus one stop before my regular stop and started walking home. I was always a cereal and fruit and oatmeal eater and had filled up for two days. It was getting harder for me to contain the poop. I stopped and leaned on a fence and made believe I was looking at the flowers blooming in a garden and just let the poop out into my diaper. The sensation I felt on my anus made my vagina ejaculate or squirt as they call it now and I had such a powerful orgasm that my knees got weak and I had to lean on the fence to keep from falling. I regained my composure and walked the one block home. I didn't have to worry about parents because they both worked. I climbed up into my treehouse and removed my skirt and sat on the floor to feel the squish of the poop against my bottom. I stuck my fingers in my vagina and had two more awesome orgasms, and relaxed for an hour before going in my house and showering and putting on a fresh pair of panties and some jeans, and starting dinner for my parents. That is how I discovered my love for diapers. Whether it is a fetish a love or an addiction I will never know, but I know I will never stop. Now over forty three years later I still enjoy a poop and an orgasm in my diaper. So for those that are panicked to do a public poop, take it from a thirteen year old, the fun beats the consequences any day of the week !!

[ValentinesStuff]

I realized it when my first niece was born, until then I was the baby of the family.

But it went back even earlier than that. I was always fascinated by the ageplay that showed up on TV. Bugs Bunny in Gorilla My Dreams, Apes of Wrath, and Baby Buggy Bunny. Other cartoons, and comedies that had age play going on.

But I didn't hear of the term until I was an adult, no internet to access back then. 

[Moochie]

I was never incontinent and never experienced trauma growing up in a very normal middle class family.  I recall at a very early age being fascinated with baby diapers and the occasional play mate that had an accident while playing. I don't recall this being sexual at the time, just a fascination.  Then as I began to enter puberty around 12 to 13 the interest became more intense and I experimented with wetting and messing my pants without my parents or older sister knowing.  I then bought some baby plastic pants that I was still able to get into, and the rest, as they they is history. Like many others I went through guilt and purging before accepting that diapers, wetting, and messing is only one aspect of who I am.  I have been a good husband and father, and I am well educated...yes I have a Ph.D., and I am respected in my field, published research, and have many good friends and colleagues.  They don't know, but I have worn diapers while out with friends and wife, although this has been curtailed for the last year because of COVID-19 which I got on January 2, 2021.  Happy New Year!!

[willnotwill]

Mine is an outgrowth of other "deviations."   Due to some events early on I developed two issues:   a punishment fantasy (mostly involving school) and a fear of public toilets.

As the fantasies got more involved one day I got this idea of one of the punishments being diapers and things took off from there.    Actually, the earlier fantasy was being forced to wear a urinal (condom catheter these days).   That was about second grade.    Diapers didn't get involved until about eighth grade.

[Evelyn Dellcerro]

15 hours ago, Moochie said:

I was never incontinent and never experienced trauma growing up in a very normal middle class family.  I recall at a very early age being fascinated with baby diapers and the occasional play mate that had an accident while playing. I don't recall this being sexual at the time, just a fascination.  Then as I began to enter puberty around 12 to 13 the interest became more intense and I experimented with wetting and messing my pants without my parents or older sister knowing.  I then bought some baby plastic pants that I was still able to get into, and the rest, as they they is history. Like many others I went through guilt and purging before accepting that diapers, wetting, and messing is only one aspect of who I am.  I have been a good husband and father, and I am well educated...yes I have a Ph.D., and I am respected in my field, published research, and have many good friends and colleagues.  They don't know, but I have worn diapers while out with friends and wife, although this has been curtailed for the last year because of COVID-19 which I got on January 2, 2021.  Happy New Year!!

You sound like a very down to earth person and I can see by your writing that you are an educated  and eloquent man. It is so good growing up in a loving family enviroment. I was the lucky one not to have any siblings till I was 15 yrs old. Once my two lil brothers came along and reached the age where they can say things I was already in college and sowing my wild oats. Being married is such a wonderful thing. The loving, caring, and sharing fills the heart with goodness. I am saddened by the fact that you have the virus and I will say a prayer for you and hope that you live long and are there for your family. Family is my life. Sweetie diapers is just a small part of everyone here. We are all so much more. Love you @Moochieand I hope you are safe and healthy. You are in our hearts always. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                          Evelyn & Elizabeth

21 hours ago, ValentinesStuff said:

I realized it when my first niece was born, until then I was the baby of the family.

But it went back even earlier than that. I was always fascinated by the ageplay that showed up on TV. Bugs Bunny in Gorilla My Dreams, Apes of Wrath, and Baby Buggy Bunny. Other cartoons, and comedies that had age play going on.

But I didn't hear of the term until I was an adult, no internet to access back then. 

@ValentinesStuff When you mentioned Apes Of Wrath, my eyes welled up with tears. That was one of my fathers favorite episodes of Bugs Bunny. I remember the Saturday mornings sitting on the couch next to him and just laughing till we couldn't laugh anymore. Thank You for taking me down memory lane. Hugs & Kisses.

[ValentinesStuff]

45 minutes ago, Evelyn Dellcerro said:

You sound like a very down to earth person and I can see by your writing that you are an educated  and eloquent man. It is so good growing up in a loving family enviroment. I was the lucky one not to have any siblings till I was 15 yrs old. Once my two lil brothers came along and reached the age where they can say things I was already in college and sowing my wild oats. Being married is such a wonderful thing. The loving, caring, and sharing fills the heart with goodness. I am saddened by the fact that you have the virus and I will say a prayer for you and hope that you live long and are there for your family. Family is my life. Sweetie diapers is just a small part of everyone here. We are all so much more. Love you @Moochieand I hope you are safe and healthy. You are in our hearts always. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                          Evelyn & Elizabeth

@ValentinesStuff When you mentioned Apes Of Wrath, my eyes welled up with tears. That was one of my fathers favorite episodes of Bugs Bunny. I remember the Saturday mornings sitting on the couch next to him and just laughing till we couldn't laugh anymore. Thank You for taking me down memory lane. Hugs & Kisses.

Every Saturday morning I tried to watch the Bugs Bunny Road Runner Show hoping to see Apes of Wrath or Gorilla My Dreams, or one of the other diaper cartoons. Alas I was disappointed most times. 

[steviet]

At 4 years old, my mother would put rubber pants, (maybe they were plastic), on me for naps.  I somehow knew that it was OK if I wet myself, the bed would not get wet.  I felt very safe and secure.  At about 5 or 6 years old, I would be jealous or envious of toddlers still in diapers and baby pants.  I just knew that I wanted to be wearing those wonderful diapers and baby pants again.  I started experimenting with whatever i could find to create a makeshift diaper.  I would put the "diaper" inside my underpants and poop.  I did this for years.  As I got into my teens, I thought the desire for diapers would go away.  I was into sports, cars, music and girls, but I just couldn't .  I'll always remember the first time I was able to purchase plastic pants that actually fit me as an adult.  I shook like a leaf, as I raced home, pinned on a real cloth diapers and put on my real plastic pants.  The thrill has never left me.  Anyway, to answer the question...it was around 1953 that I knew I loved being in diapers.  I have no idea why I feel this way, I just do.

[DipGuy365]

I was 26 years old (literally last summer ?).

I am an extremely kinky person, always have been. If its sexually even a little taboo there is a good chance it turns me on. And there is a good chance I will enjoy it myself too. I pretty much hold the position of 'If it turns you on and you love it, it turns me on too!' 
If my partner is getting kicks out of something then I probably will as well because its giving them pleasure.

All that said, I don't have much experience at all in kinky sex as I have been in a monogamous relationship with the same woman for 6 years now and she isnt at all kinky herself. And prior to that was an 'innocent' little virgin ?. (we do engage in pegging together though, initiated by myself of course. I loooove Anal)
But from very early teens ive had a huge sex drive at least and always been into kinky fetish stuff.

 

So anyway....
Prior to last year I had never even looked at or even considered the idea of Adult diapers. Hell I didnt really even know ABDL was thing.
I stumbled across it through a chain of events which, as many do with these things, came out of other sexual fetishes.

I have been into wetting porn for a little while now, probably 2 years or so. Watching women wet their pants for their own sexual pleasure and for that of others really turned me on, the whole mental aspect of it. Its naturally rather kinky and a bit taboo, which is right up my alley. 
This led me to try wetting myself a few times, and it felt great of course.
The wetting porn then led me down the rabbit hole into messing.

And.. well, same as above.
Watching people do it and get pleasure from it turned me the hell on. So I tried it myself, and it turned me the hell on!
A thing to note however is that im not into scat, at least not hardcore. I have no attraction or desire to handle or play with my poop, or get it anywhere near my face etc.
But the feeling of messing, especially when urgent and really loading up the pants or diaper. THAT is what i love! And theres definitely something to be said for walking around in and sitting in a messy diaper too.

So as you can imagine, the various porn sites linked through from messing videos into Diaper stuff. And so I had a look at it and went on the ABDL reddit page.. Realised I got very turned on by attractive women in diapers and reading peoples stories, and just thought 'what the hell, lets try it'.

Ordered a few samples, wore them, wet them as much as I could.
Messed them.

And that was it. I was into Diapers  Still pretty new to it all though by comparison to many on here.

I don't wear very often. Went through an early phase where it was a few times a week. 
Currently on a lul, but in more of a phase right now of actively planning times to wear and go out and make a big mess.

[Sailor Snow]

Im actually not completly sure anymore what triggerd my intrest in diapers?
But i think i was around 20 years old and saw a documentary about fetishes and they showed ab/dl, And it seems it kinda stuck with me.
It took a while but i wanted to try out wearing one and see how it was. Found a place that i could order online orderd some diapers, And when it came in and tried one on i really liked it have kinda stuck with it since.
 

Last few years i did have some big breaks from it but i pretty much always come back, And always have some diapers some where in my closet.

[DiapergirlWB]

I have never NOT wanted to be in diapers again.

[anned]

I was a bed wetter till age 12.

By age 6 i had found I  liked the warm wet feeling of a wet diaper.

Around age 24 i found they sold adult disposable diapers when attends came on the market.

This was 1975 and i have been wearing them whenever i could ever since and have been 24/7 since 2002.