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I didn't grow up a bed wetter but there were those occasional childish situations when trying to sleep in my own room where I would wet the bed sometimes. If I recall, the only reason I stopped and got of it was because my brother told me to not hold it in going to bed but rather just go as much before hand. Guess what, it worked! Didn't have the same problems afterwards. Those times were personally insulting though as it greatly frustrated my mother to no end I'm to think. I recall waking up to a wet bed late at night and trying my best with paper towels to clean up the mess before my parents awoke. Is this one of those falling dominos that lead me to what kind of ABDL I am today, 🤨?

Perhaps, I should ask another question to continue the discussion. . . Do you consider your ABDL desires as delusional/self-deceptive? Are their benefits to even explicitly self-deceptive, perverted, behaviors? What makes a healthy relationship to ones' desires? Why? *Where delusion or self-deception doesn't necessarily have to retain the same colloquial negative meaning. Perhaps its possible as the question hints at to paint it in a different light. As a post on the quitting ABDL reddit says regarding the topic of 'not denying yourself',

One of the worries or frequent things brought up which disturbed members of that community were those regarding ABDL individuals who abandoned relationships as well as perhaps jobs to satiate this desire. Course, the specifics of those harrowing stories which put them off weren't given in detail. Sometimes its the most contrary positions which may reveal the most about your thinking. You aren't wrong that some of it seems, off. On their discord spirituality thread one of them writes in response to another noting rampant misuse of tolerance in Christianity that, Take that as you will. Sometimes we require molding by the strict hand of mental authorities. Depending on the situation and people's responses to it; it could however look more in line with self-harm than self-improvement. Yes, their are lots of religious tones and talk of highly valuing 'self-denial' but I'm to assume everyone their comes voluntarily. There is also no overtly judgmental attitudes of one to another merely shared stories of successes or failures and talk of support all around. I fully agree as to the abundance of contrary positions which fill the internet. Its not the freedom of the internet without it. Such negative self-concepts are my morbid fascination and I also wonder what the 'objectively' correct lens is. Perhaps those from that community would cite my inability to immediately throw the gavel down but instead ask 'why' questions as part of some mental/spiritual issue which I haven't sufficiently dwelt with. So I enjoy playing a game with myself with regards to such thoughts. Though it might seem harmful, perhaps we should occasionally entertain such thoughts or feelings to the highest extant possible. Only to rebound and realize in what manner our previous equilibrium wasn't as balanced as we thought it was. However, we could also realize the strength of what was before as well. That's the thing! Aside from those who actively seek such help whether to embrace ABDL or repress it such pursuits are limited to highly personal, un-advertised, choices. Dissenting voices may fall on deaf ears to those who drink if not because they are addicted but rather because they are already in control of it. Course, that doesn't stop the chorus of such voices.

I full heartedly agree. I'm to assume as well that they have their own collection of extremists and dreadful people with which the moderators stay busy. I'm also one of those homemade diaper people, 😁! When I was rather young and couldn't get my hands on them through the internet, didn't have a debit card, or was unable to really leave the house alone so I had to get creative. Thick blankets, towels, and even those pads used for floor wetting pets. All fashioned as best as one could under tightfitting clothes/underwear to get close to what I thought the feeling would be similar to. Course, I was spoiled with a debit card along with disposable money and the glories of the internet such as Bambino or Rearz by the time I reached Highschool. Currently for me the desire to do so is there and comes in minor waves mostly when I'm in bed. Otherwise, I can function just fine without them for weeks to months or years if needed but I'd definitely have them in the back of mind. Intriguing. . . perhaps I should also make a call back to what experiences I have with unhealthy obsessions or coping habits to keep me in check as well with regards to ABDL. Course, for me it wasn't hardcore drugs but rather alcoholic beverages. Some people disagree on this point despite those rather upstanding and rigorous medical/psychological analyses. For every, "I accepted myself and it all turned out alright," you can look hard enough and you'll find someone saying they left it behind for the better. Regardless of whether they may a rather restricted minority. For me this is rather completely the opposite. It is highly sexualized and I've been wondering if that is in fact a problem waiting to snowball itself into obsession or 'porn addiction'. Ergo, why I'm taking a hiatus and even if I do get back into the saddle I'd consider getting into more the AB side of things or involve some kind of play related to edging/chastity. Mostly or in relation only to a partner of whatever standing. Ha! Those from the quitting ABDL subreddit on their discord would say something similar but phrased in a negative standing to your position. As they noted at the beginning of their discord place of spirituality, So, your point is rather proven I'd say unless someone else of a religious tinge wouldn't mind chiming in to give their own opinions on this verses' interpretation. As one of the commenters then said in response in that thread,

So I was curious what this particular forum and its members thought of this subreddit I found while browsing reddit. Its called Quitting ABDL and as the name suggests its whole point is to bring to bear stories both horrifying or relatable from various members as they attempt to leave behind this fetish/kink (they specifically make a rather valid distinction between these terms). The main literature to start out with being here. The members give some rather choice words about communities similar to or the same as this one which I think would lead to a rather fruitful but respectable discussion I hope. One of the points they bring up is what they deem "toxic positivity" which they say communities such as this or other ABDL venues survive off of in a rather 'cult-like' mentality. Never questioning the core need to do just this or involve others regardless of whether they ever really desired to in the first place or they never should have to begin with. A repression, they say, to an unhealthy degree of what should be a rather obvious emotional sign (shame/disgust/mental unhappiness) to not 'give up' or embrace this but rather discipline oneself in avoiding such an indulgence. Do you think there should be dedicated threads/topics for people desiring to abandon this kink/fetish? Is it a failure of communities such as this that they restrict such options in the first place? Or is this rather telling of only toxic groups? Another intriguing point concerns what I saw on the Discord they have which was the rather prevalent religiosity of these de-tractors. Which brings up a question of the difficult nature regarding adherence to this fetish and a particular religious identity. I'm to hope those of a religious tinge on this forum will yield a response, for or against, the compatibility of this fetish and the religion they practice. A further point of issue that motivates a lot of them seems to be more akin to a plain and simple pornography addiction. To strictly DL participants of a strongly sexual sort I can see how its possible this fetish could conflict with one's personal sense of self-worth/shame as to want to abandon it straight out. Do you think the sexual elements of this fetish/kink are to avoided in general? Perhaps to an extent as to 'go back in the closet' so to speak? Or is it merely sexual roleplaying in combination with a partner (relationship or just for a meetup) that would make it seem less shameful? I'm not going to lie, there are many posts of people with rather strong opinions about ABDL in general to an extent that at first sight one would think to bury it as hateful rhetoric. However, there is a truth to much of what a good number of them have to say at least as regards the journey they felt they'd have to follow and continue to this day. . . not without a few slip ups here and there. Through what I've read I have boxed up what I have without an immediate intention to abandon this part of me but the possibility should always be considered within my hands. Not in anyone else's or in some purely impulsive drive. At least that seems to be another drive of some of them which is to take their impulsive drives by the reigns and chart out a path of their own unique creation. Please do tell me what you have to think on this.

You know, although I haven't searched for it myself, I'd suspect it would be fairly easy and common to find. Generic, filled with AD's, and badly shot. . . sure. . . but I'm sure the internet has it in vast quantities. Whether your indifferent to that, disturbed, or overjoyed that is the power of the internet. Ha! I've been thinking about this as well but the taboo nature of this sort of endeavor means that beyond the usual issues with funding, casting, equipment, and other such worries you also require access to a crew/actors that would be open to such an endeavor in the first place. A movie requires a certain sense of seriousness, as well as time, that any random phone made porn on the internet and the people who make those as such may not be willing to put into it in the first place. That. . . or need enough money to make them look the other way and see it as merely a gig. There are also hoops and restrictions that one should put down to mitigate against unsavory publicity besides the fact that the individuals are ABDL and some would see it as potentially pornographic. For example, only those at/above the age of 21 be allowed to be involved in the production whether behind or in front of the camera. On top of disclaimers as well. I have been meaning to break this bad boy in for months. . . . . . since getting it but it would be strange to do that in service of, something like 'this'. 🤨 Yeah, it would be pretty interesting. People make low key pornographic flicks on their phone about this interest, this interest is seen in documentaries, and review channels. However, there does seem to be a lack of fantastical, or realism filled, films incorporating this subject matter as a part of its foundation. Depends on what you mean by 'turns into a baby' and how that would be presented. We all want to avoid both 'that' stigma this community is thrown at with. . . and also not have some uncanny valley situation as well 😄 like that scene from Junior. . .

I'd like to but I'm restricted when it comes to space and they can be rather expensive. I also sold off all my Legos years ago for quick use cash, 😔. Legos are intellectually so versatile. They can give a person the ability to regress and just play. For more "applied adult minds" it might make engineering itches be dwelt with. Then there are the more esoteric avenues for videographers/photographers through stop-motion. In other words, set it up and then bring it to life click by click. Let us also not forget how a finished model might look over the fireplace! @munkey Hey there! What do you think of Dublo blocks? Or other such larger block sizings?

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I'm wearing a small Abena, level 2 rated, pull up. Soaked to a wonderfully squishy comfortability that I can sleep the night away with, 😁.

So I had created this account awhile ago but never got the motivation to indulge in a forum such as this and eventually I just sort of forgot. Then time passed and it was buried among the nightmare. . . or purgatory if you like. . . that my life has been since 2019. Now that my circumstances are different I want to indulge in this sort of interest once again but not from closed doors. I'm intrigued as to where this will take me. No where or somewhere with a better view. Regardless, hope you are all in good health and standing! I'd consider myself a DL but have had a curiosity as to whether this whole AB/little part of the acronym would be something I'd like to investigate. I've heard it can be a sort of a slippery slope from DL, 🤨. . . I'm lacking on personal hobbies or interests aside from a passive one in philosophical/scientific topics (lately its turned rather meta and dreadfully nihilistic). Videography and photography are something that I'd like to indulge in fully but a lack of free time given my work, mental tiredness, or social isolation has put a pin in that. So I'll also say YouTube is a hobby of mine as well even though I know its not a healthy/productive 'hobby' (hard to break). My Fetlife profile name is WMB. If the 'about' looks familiar in places its because I'm not that original. Uhhh. . . here is a song to leave off with. Curtain rises. . .

I've never been turned on by having people see me like this, no one has so I wouldn't happen to know, but having a FULL diaper or seeing others that way definitely does it for me.