Wannatripbaby

I made a group on here for nerdy people and the things they are interested in. If you're a nerd about ANYTHING in popular culture, give a consideration to joining! If you know anyone that's a nerd give them the info, all are welcome and everything is up for discussion.

I made a few boilerplate topics, but the only limit is people's imagination as far as what we can talk about. Anime, books, video games, cartoons, literally anything that people enjoy in popular culture is on the table.

I made a group on here for nerdy people and the things they are interested in. If you're a nerd about ANYTHING in popular culture, give a consideration to joining! If you know anyone that's a nerd give them the info, all are welcome and everything is up for discussion.

I made a few boilerplate topics, but the only limit is people's imagination as far as what we can talk about. Anime, books, video games, cartoons, literally anything that people enjoy in popular culture is on the table.

I made a group on here for nerdy people and the things they are interested in. If you're a nerd about ANYTHING in popular culture, give a consideration to joining! If you know anyone that's a nerd give them the info, all are welcome and everything is up for discussion.

I made a few boilerplate topics, but the only limit is people's imagination as far as what we can talk about. Anime, books, video games, cartoons, literally anything that people enjoy in popular culture is on the table.

I made a group on here for nerdy people and the things they are interested in. If you're a nerd about ANYTHING in popular culture, give a consideration to joining! If you know anyone that's a nerd give them the info, all are welcome and everything is up for discussion.

I made a few boilerplate topics, but the only limit is people's imagination as far as what we can talk about. Anime, books, video games, cartoons, literally anything that people enjoy in popular culture is on the table.

So, I'd like some input from some helpful readers. I'm still working on my main story, but to keep my mind functioning I do side projects and I'd like some input from you lovelies. These are the story options and you may only pick one:

A. Mandela Effect story 

B. A story with absolutely no point whatsoever but written in a way that makes it seem very important 

C. Stop procrastinating and get more main story done

D. What ever happened with that foreign language story you were going to write?

E. RambleLamb gets punished for her failure to keep up with her stories

F. Surprise me

Please take a moment to vote and if you get someone that doesn't follow me to vote I'll send nudes...I call cat memes nudes

So, I'd like some input from some helpful readers. I'm still working on my main story, but to keep my mind functioning I do side projects and I'd like some input from you lovelies. These are the story options and you may only pick one:

A. Mandela Effect story 

B. A story with absolutely no point whatsoever but written in a way that makes it seem very important 

C. Stop procrastinating and get more main story done

D. What ever happened with that foreign language story you were going to write?

E. RambleLamb gets punished for her failure to keep up with her stories

F. Surprise me

Please take a moment to vote and if you get someone that doesn't follow me to vote I'll send nudes...I call cat memes nudes

So let's talk about headspaces.

Headspaces can be the goal of power dynamic play (D/s, BDSM, CG/l, petplay, etc) - one partner has the power, the other partner has limited or no power.  I've written about this more than a little (and I'm sure I'll write more).  Headspace is that consuming feeling you get when you really give yourself to your role.  Domspace, subspace, littlespace, petspace - whatever your angle, if you're like me you're chasing the headspace.

Subspace is relatively easy for me to reach with a little help.  A play partner being stern or controlling sends me there really quickly - although I have to say that the person I play with the most lately gives me the most intense trip to subspace I've ever felt before.  When she takes charge, she becomes the singular focus of the entire world and I actually have trouble remembering or perceiving things while I'm there, it's like the whole world vibrates and buzzes.  It's quite amazing.

Petspace is really, really similar - it's submissive (for me) but animalistic at the same time, it has more of a sexual charge than subspace.  Subspace is all about feeling helpless, controlled, vulnerable, and maybe a little hopeless.  Petspace is about feeling devoted, desired, and entirely subhuman.  I can travel to either of these relatively easily with the right help.

But Littlespace... that's the hard one.  Littlespace is innocence and playfulness.  Littlespace is the absence of self-consciousness.  Littlespace is losing all of the inhibitions that keep you socially safe and trusting your dominant partner to handle you delicately, lovingly, sweetly.  The sort of treatment (e.g.: punishment) you'd give a bratty sub can shatter littlespace into a million pieces, it's a very fragile thing.

I hadn't gone to Littlespace in quite some time, maybe almost a year (CAPCon maybe?) - it's an ephemeral thing, it's hard to say precisely.  My trips there tend to be an hour or two at most, I have too much responsibility in my life to shirk it for long, and responsibility is anathema to Littlespace.

I've had a lot of stress, anxiety, and depression in my life lately.  Everything feels difficult, nothing is simple, nothing is easy.

I decided that I would try to take a trip to Littlespace on my own, just put on a diaper and a cute outfit, push my adult cares away for a little bit, and go color in a coloring book.  This doesn't usually last long for me.  I have to stop to do something, I have to take care of something or someone, I have to be RESPONSIBLE, even if it's just taking care of my own body.

I didn't yesterday, thanks to Pudding, Chloe, Sophie, and Ladybug.

Normally Littlespace doesn't last because I can't sustain it.  I get bored, I feel pressured to fix something or build something or do something or clean something.

Yesterday, my friends gave me a beautiful gift:  an entire day in Littlespace.

It started when I asked for breakfast.  Y'see, my Little age is 3.  It's very difficult to maintain that headspace as an adult, it's so fragile, like it's made of spiderwebs.  The faintest touch with put it into a tangled mess.  Just the act of making myself food is enough to pull me out of it.  I started the day off by writing in my diary, getting padded, getting dressed, and deciding:  as soon as I leave my room, I'm Little.

Normally I have several hours alone in the mornings on the weekend - everyone but me likes to sleep in (I can't, I've tried; it doesn't work).  So I grabbed a coloring book and my box of markers and I sat down to color some flowers.  Pudding joined me after a short while... and I asked her if she'd make me breakfast.

And she did.

She reinforced my little place, she brought me a bowl of cereal with a child's spoon shaped like an airplane, she fed me a few bites and then put the TV on cartoons for me.  I didn't have to get up, I didn't have to do anything, I could be completely devoid of responsibility for just a bit longer.  I colored, I asked her childish questions about her favorite colors and the kinds of flowers she liked.  I asked her if I could use her DS and play Pokémon - I haven't played Pokémon since Red/Blue in the 90s, I just never had time.  Too busy, too much responsibility.  I had tried to get into it before, but it felt bad to do it alone... that's a whole 'nother story.

She said yes, and she spent HOURS looking for her DS, charger, and the Pokémon game, just for me.  I offered to help and she told me to sit and color and make pretty pictures for her while she got everything working.

Here's the thing - I didn't know it took hours.  I was so deep in Littlespace that time ceased to have meaning.  I purposefully left my phone in my room.  There was no clock to betray me, just coloring books and cartoons.  I didn't clean up my breakfast, I just put the bowl aside and colored.

She loaned me... or rather Little Kimmy... her DS and Pokémon Heart Gold and I started playing.  But at this point, I was so deep in Littlespace that I wasn't even really me any more.  I played for HOURS, collecting Pokémon and trying for badges.

I don't name my Pokémon, I never have, not ever.  I always leave their names alone so they change when they evolve, so I always know what to call them when talking to others.

My team?  A Chikorita named "Chicky", a Geodude named "Rockface", a Caterpie named "Squigglee", a Bellsprout named "Belle♥", a Togepi named "Tamago", and a Pidgey named "Flapflap".  All girls except for the Chikorita.  I don't name Pokémon but apparently Little Kimmy does.  And I remember being SO PLEASED with those names.  I remember being SO PROUD when I got that first badge.

I've talked about this briefly before:  when you're Little, feelings are bigger.

Pudding skirted a couple of dangerous patches over the course of the day.  While I was coloring, she asked me a question:

"What's your favorite day that you've had?" she asked me while she looking for her DS charger.

"My favorite day ever out of all the days?" my Little self asked in return.

"Well," she smiled, "your favorite day that you can remember."

And I thought about all the days I've lived recently and I thought about how none of those could be my favorite, how they're all coated in sadness and stress, even the happy memories came with rough patches to the day, and I started to fall apart.

"I can't remember a good day," my Little self said with a voice full of heartbreak.  I remember feeling despair welling up inside me, I remember tears burning the backs of my eyes.  I remember my chest tightening and my whole body threatening to cry at once.

She had me show her my flowers, the ones I had been coloring, she made me talk about the colors I picked and asked me which flower was my favorite.  She pulled me out of a tailspin before I crashed.  She handled me this way all day, coddling me, prompting me, entertaining me, cuddling me, playing with me, asking me questions and telling me how proud she was of me.

She kept me in the deepest Littlespace I've ever been in - in my entire life - for THIRTEEN HOURS.  Not alone, everyone pitched in.  I said that I was thirsty so Chloe got me a drink.  I wanted to show off my Pokémon so Sophie asked me questions about them and told me how good I was doing.  I wanted to show off my coloring so Ladybug looked and told me what I great job I did.

I was so deep in Littlespace that parts of it are hard to remember, like it was all lived by someone else.  I couldn't sleep that night (even though I got sent to bed before midnight... Pudding let me take the DS to bed and I pretended to be asleep when she checked on me at midnight) and finally, at like 3 in the morning, it occurred to me why.

My body shuts down at midnight every day lately, I just "power down".  I get super sleepy, I go to bed, and I pass out.  It's one of the reasons I snap awake between 8 and 9 each morning no matter what.  But yesterday...

Yesterday was the first stress-free day that I can remember in my adult life.

It was amazing, it was magic, and it was the best gift they could have every given me.  There were other emotional pitfalls I almost fell into during the day, but every time I came close Pudding would catch me and steer me back toward a happy place with a silly question or a kiss on the forehead.

There's a lot about my Little self that I don't know yet.  I've never really gotten a chance to let her loose before, to really BE her for more than an hour at a time.

Until yesterday.

Which is now my favorite day that I can remember.

I've been asked a couple times now why I use #zeropenises on my stories and the answer is because it's my candle in the window in case someone important wants to drop by, it let's them know that it's safe for them to do so. Also, it's because there's no penises in the story, simplest answer is best answer.

First, let me start off by saying that I am proud to be part of this wonderful community. I have not been able to be here these past few months due to stress and a high volume of medical appointments. But in the spirit of the season I am beside myself with joy and want to wish everyone the merriest of Christmases! I can't think of a better time to express myself as the adult baby girl I am and I hope everyone gets the opportunity to do likewise. The magic of this holiday is definitely still there, it just takes a little more effort to bring out. Having said that, I wish you all the best in health and happiness and hope that each of you receives the one present you've been wanting the most! Happy Holidays to everyone at Daily Diapers.. and thanks for everything you do.

-*With much love, Funshine*-

I decided to make chinese food last night but I didn't have any rice so I tried it with Angel hair pasta (which worked out pretty well). I whipped up some ingrediants that you usually find in chinese food and when I was done, it tasted just like teriyaki sauce! I cut the chicken in cubes and pan fried the chicken in a little olive oil. Then I pan fried brocolli, onions and baby carrots together. Afterwards i mixed everything together and cooked it with a sesame oil, garlic, ginger paste, a pinch of brown sugar, soy sauce, oyster sauce and cayenne pepper! Then I mixed it with some angel hair hair pasta, and finally speinkled sessemi seeds overtop! It was CRAZY DELICIOUS! 

Tag, you're it! If you come here and see this, say "hi"? 

Tag, you're it! If you come here and see this, say "hi"? 

In case what I wrote gets deleted, I want to thank everyone for their support and for coming with me on my journey of exploring my writing. I'm not really very good at goodbyes, so if this is where my time here as a writer ends I want you all to know that it's meant the world to me to have been able to not only share my work with you, but to also learn a lot about myself through my interactions here.

If this is goodbye then be kind to yourself and to everyone you come into contact with, you never know when that kindness will be the thing that changes someone's life. <3

In case what I wrote gets deleted, I want to thank everyone for their support and for coming with me on my journey of exploring my writing. I'm not really very good at goodbyes, so if this is where my time here as a writer ends I want you all to know that it's meant the world to me to have been able to not only share my work with you, but to also learn a lot about myself through my interactions here.

If this is goodbye then be kind to yourself and to everyone you come into contact with, you never know when that kindness will be the thing that changes someone's life. <3

In case what I wrote gets deleted, I want to thank everyone for their support and for coming with me on my journey of exploring my writing. I'm not really very good at goodbyes, so if this is where my time here as a writer ends I want you all to know that it's meant the world to me to have been able to not only share my work with you, but to also learn a lot about myself through my interactions here.

If this is goodbye then be kind to yourself and to everyone you come into contact with, you never know when that kindness will be the thing that changes someone's life. <3

SERIOUS QUESTION: Let's say that you have underage characters in your story and you've reached a point where one of the characters discovers she's gay, even though she doesn't know what gay is, you know what I'm trying to say. Is it wrong or bad or bannable to have a kiss between two underage characters that is in no way sexual or erotic or inappropriate?

My stance as the artist is that this is relevant to the narrative at this point in the story and since it isn't sexual or anything in nature it's fine, but I'm more open minded than some of the more cookie emoji denying folks in power, and I don't want my "0 warning points" to turn into "ALL THE WARNING POINTS!" because I wrote about a six and seven year old kissing once and it wasn't even a good kiss because they're too young to even know how it's supposed to be done.

I mean, they have those two cartoon toddlers that are naked all the time and married(?) as a parable for adulthood or whatever and they totes talk about sex stuff that they don't understand and everyone just accepted that shit and bought calendars for their desks with those things on them.

I'm gonna write my story my way and maintain my artistic vision and if someone gets peepee hurt about it and wants to call me out on it then I'll deal with that.

Thoughts?

SERIOUS QUESTION: Let's say that you have underage characters in your story and you've reached a point where one of the characters discovers she's gay, even though she doesn't know what gay is, you know what I'm trying to say. Is it wrong or bad or bannable to have a kiss between two underage characters that is in no way sexual or erotic or inappropriate?

My stance as the artist is that this is relevant to the narrative at this point in the story and since it isn't sexual or anything in nature it's fine, but I'm more open minded than some of the more cookie emoji denying folks in power, and I don't want my "0 warning points" to turn into "ALL THE WARNING POINTS!" because I wrote about a six and seven year old kissing once and it wasn't even a good kiss because they're too young to even know how it's supposed to be done.

I mean, they have those two cartoon toddlers that are naked all the time and married(?) as a parable for adulthood or whatever and they totes talk about sex stuff that they don't understand and everyone just accepted that shit and bought calendars for their desks with those things on them.

I'm gonna write my story my way and maintain my artistic vision and if someone gets peepee hurt about it and wants to call me out on it then I'll deal with that.

Thoughts?

Dealing with idiot roommate. 

I'm working on a short story for the Halloweens, and it is legit the hardest thing I've tried to write. It's not like a crazy difficult concept or anything, and I know the story I want to tell, but I've written and rewritten the beginning a dozen times and I'm still not happy with it.

I'm sure it will click eventually, but I would like to have it done ahead of the actual day of Halloween but with the way it's been going I'm not sure if it will...

I'm working on a short story for the Halloweens, and it is legit the hardest thing I've tried to write. It's not like a crazy difficult concept or anything, and I know the story I want to tell, but I've written and rewritten the beginning a dozen times and I'm still not happy with it.

I'm sure it will click eventually, but I would like to have it done ahead of the actual day of Halloween but with the way it's been going I'm not sure if it will...

I'm taking a moment to toot my own horn, mainly because I almost never do so, but I'm really happy with how my story is going. This is the first time that I've written something and didn't have a little voice in the back of my head questioning whether people were going to like it or not. I don't think that people are obviously going to like it, but I'm just so danged pleased with the work I've been doing that I don't actually care whether people like it or not.

I obviously want people to like it, and from what I can gather, they do, but I'm just really happy with what I'm doing right now. It's a weird position to be in, because I usually worry that someone is going to hate what I wrote or that no one is going to read it or something. The Civil War thingy kinda taught me that I can do literally anything and people will read it and maybe they'll like it, maybe they won't, but that story was something I wasn't crazy about and it showed in the final product, this story I'm very passionate about and it most definitely shows in the final product.

Just like Her Lullaby was dripping with my personal emotions, and SMFH was chock full of my darkest feelings, this story encapsulates struggles that I've had in my life, most turned up to eleven for dramatic purposes, but still rife with my own thoughts and feelings about things I've dealt with in my life in some form or another. It's pretty neat!

Also, I won another day, so yay me!

I thought there was a way to schedule a reply for a certain time or day, but I guess I was mistaken. Chapter five of my story is done, but I feel posting it now will be burning it too soon.

havnt been around much, things got busy again XD

I may come back here, and to my other online accounts, periodically (annually?), but not very often. I am still on Facebook, but I don't have much kinky, or ABDL, content there, anymore.
This is my second farewell video, shot in what was my in-home dungeon and nursery:
Farewell, each and every one of you! I will miss you.?

hiii little ones back from holidays had fun not to many accidents but it happens giggle