Padded comfort

I will be taking a break from this site and other things for a unknown amount of time to try and get my life in order. Happiness is something that I've lost and I would like to get that back. Not sure when (or if) I'll be back. Hopefully I will sort all this out and I can return to the site with a smile and maybe someone at my side.

It's happening again, that feeling of emptiness and loneliness keeps coming back like a bad rash. Last night I stayed awake thinking about how much of loser I am. I thought about all the mistakes I've made and how they caused nothing but pain. About the friends I don't have, the romantic relationship that never existed, the warmth of being embraced that I don't have while lying in a cold bed. I felt like trash, like I'm only waking up just to live a monotonous life. I don't want to end my life I just want to disappear from it. I got up today wondering if I'm actual alive, I certainly don't feel like it. I don't believe I'll ever take my life though, I know my family cares about me and suicide would devastate them. It's not the final solution, and I keep telling myself that. But I'm not sure where to go, I'm lost on a road with no map and so far everywhere I've gone hasn't helped me become who I want to be. I'm living with my parent's because I can't afford to be on my own (which is probably a good thing). Life feels like a roller coaster; there are days when I'm up and happy, then there a days when I'm feeling low and depressed. It feels like the lows have been happening more than I would like. I've decided not to continue with my degree because it doesn't make me happy, I believe a trade school is a better option for me. I've wanted a off road truck since I was a kid, but everybody tells me "how expensive they are", "how much fuel they use", "how high the insurance is". It's like they're telling me not to pursue my goals. I haven't found a place to belong, I feel like an outcast everywhere I go. The only time when I feel comfortable is when I'm alone in my own world. I'm not sure what I'm writing, or if it even makes any sense at all. I just want to write, to say something to maybe help me feel better. Why write here I don't know, I'm sure there's other forums to post this but I came here for some reason. I'm tired, my head feels like it's in a vice, and I want to curl up into a ball in a corner somewhere. I think somethings wrong with me.

Tumblr is a sexual place for pretty much anything. I've seen sexual posts of ABDL, furs, hentai, bondage, etc. You could find a sexual blog about pretty much anything legal on there.

I do like the feeling of a thick diaper so I layer diapers as well. I have a bag of pull-over adult diapers that I use exclusively for layering. Sometimes I'll use 3-4 diapers or even half of them. When I really want a super thick diaper I use every single pull-over diaper to make a super thick diaper, the waddle from that is crazy good. If I want to wet I'll use a regular disposable diaper with tapes.

Well for me it ruins the charm because duck tape isn't an actual part of the diaper. It reminds me of when I had to use tape to make baby diapers wearable before I could buy diapers myself. Honestly it's a pretty small reason and I'm sure I'm the only one affected by it.

But that ruins the charm of the diaper. Actually the tapes failing isn't that big of a issue for me, it just means its time to change or put on a 2nd diaper over the 1st.

That's quite brave to be doing that at work, I don't think I'll ever wet outside of my own house. But now I want to get a pack of Dry's and some boosters and use those the next time I want to wet all day.

One of my favorite things to do, when I have the chance, is wearing a diaper and wetting it so much that it sags between my legs from all the weight. The weight of the diaper after multiple wettings is something I can't explain, it just feels really good to me. Though I only do this every so often since I have to make sure I have the house to myself for a day. But when I get the chance I'm diapered from the minute I wake up until the tapes fail or the diaper leaks, sometimes even longer then that if I'm feeling adventurous. If I feel like it I'll put on a second diaper and make a hole in the first so I can keep wetting and have a bigger and heavier diaper. Plus during this time I drink at least triple the daily amount of water the average person should have during the day, so that's a bonus. Who else likes doing something like this?

2 hours ago, punk18 said: Yeah it kinda really brings me down that it

I haven't met any DL's personally yet, though I would like too.

situational

On 10/18/2017 at 8:26 AM, ELLIE52 said: Maybe you should try women shorter or the same height as you.

I absolutely jump around on different diaper brands.

Sounds like you had a great time.

I haven't had that happen with any of the brands I have had, but I'm not sure how long you've had yours before they started to get really crinkly.