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Kokia - Chouwa Oto (with reflection) Not my usual but it is a good song! Next up is Maki Goto's new release

Yeah. I've had to leave the Memphis area to find something to do now. I guess I've almost done it all. Sad

I went through the same thing my my parents, my 3 brothers and sister. I moved out when I turned 16 with $30 in my pocket, never looked back. I occasionally talk to my sister, and regularly talk to my younger brother (I bought him his house.) The rest of the family, I want no part of them. My advice, just leave. It sounds like an unhappy, possible dangerous living arrangement and things could/will escalate. If you have to put things on hold to stay with friends for a bit or whatever, do it. No use for you being unhappy, life is too much fun for that!

I gave up looking for true love and it found me. Then it pulled a cruel joke and I was cast aside. Haven't looked for love since. I figure it will just fall out of the sky one day and land in my face then start to wiggle. Sometimes it is meant to be, other times it is meant as a "don't do this again." I'll leave it to fate now. I put a lot of faith in fate. Though I don't believe in it

I own 2 guns. My daily carry is a H&K USP compact 9mm. For home defense I have a Hungarian Sporter 75, aka AK-47. Sadly both have been used for their intended purpose, fortunately neither has taken a life, but they have claimed a few limbs. My aim is getting better, too. I open carry the H&K, not exactly legal here, but not quite illegal either. Kinda grey area, though I get a lot of crap and weird looks. Sometimes I'll wear something that won't allow me to conceal it, and I don't have my license for cc, yet.

I am a very picky eater. I know what will make me uncomfortable, what will make me ill, and what will make me flat out sick, no allergies, just don't know why. Not as bad as my sister though, she must feel her food before she eats it, been doing it since she was 2, she is now 23..

Yup. Been doing it so long, I don't even have to think about it anymores. If I ever get approved for surgery, I'll have to

I quit drinking. One of the reasons why I haven't been around much. It got me into big trouble. But for beer... Blue Moon or Killians Irish Red. Hard liquor, anything with vodka, especially fresh squeezed vodka lemonade. Last few months have been nothing but sprite and apple juice. I had to quit caffeine too, yay intolerable migraines here I come!

Yes it still counts. TN, especially the Memphis area is a major let down. I like central Tn, reminds me of home (Wisconsin), and I love east TN for the mountains. But west TN could disappear and no one would notice

I'll have a go at this! Been turned down for the 3rd time for my surgery. Starting to get upset Looks to give a bit of discomfort, especially for the well endowed, but not having to adjust every couple hours, might actually be worth it. THANK YOU FOR THIS! Now for another vicodin as my broken foot is starting to hurt again...

I(we) still have to hide. And I carry a gun here, crap happens. Not all places are as accepting. How much I envy you!

The whole bi/gay/straight thing to me is moot, doesn't exist. I'll go after whomever I want. Tends more to be men, but lately I've gone out with a few girls. Fun, but I couldn't do a serious long term with a girl. Y'all have too much going on upstairs, I don't like complicated things clouding up my life. I have more of an emotional attraction to men, but more of a physical attraction to women. Maybe I need to start dating again

Ahh, a subject very near and dear to my sweet old heart Final Fantasy 7. Only FF I really got into, though I have played them all. But going old skool, Dragon Warrior and Earthbound are still the best, no matter how bad the graphics were back in the day. Never got into the Zelda games, my older brother was really into them, though.

Tattle Tale: Glass Vase Cello Case

...my mind. Home alone, no point in putting anything on tonight

I am part owner of 2 auto repair shops that deal with mostly European imports. We are looking into opening at least another 2; can't keep up with the demand for a shop that can actually fix something, local dealers are useless. Right now is my busy season, I have a 3 month backlog, normally it is about a month. I also DJ, host, and perform certain *shows* at a few clubs and some of the larger bars in the area, but I only do so a few times a month.

I never had to be outed. My parents knew the day I was born I'd be different from all the other boys. I had some good bf's, some bad, and an unbelieveable fiance for a time. But the real shocker was when I came home with my first girl! Friends and family were blown away by that one. I had my fun, the two of us weren't really comfortable in that relationship, so it ended faster than it started. Now to find the perfect match for me, I let one go and I won't make that mistake again!

I prefer the Lolita or Sailor dresses. Just need to trim down my figure, again. Then I'll be able to fit in a few I've got. Need to get some more, too

Boots. Knee high. At least, if not taller. And if I see something lace up, I'll buy them. The taller the heel, the better, I'm almost 6' and I've grown accepted to being a bit tall. Besides, nothing more glamorous than a tall gal! If I can't wear a pair of boots, I'll go with a cute pair of saddle shoes or wedge sandals. Saddle shoes go with almost everything business, and the wedges really set off a short skirt Only trouble I have is finding something I love in a size 11.5. I can fit an 11, but I need to stretch them out a bit first, my poor toes. 12 is just too big

I hear ya on that one. Even harder to find someone who wants more than a one night thing with someone like me If you are able too, I'd suggest up and moving, seems to be better on either coast as here in the middle sucks. I'm getting ready to leave Memphis, thinking of moving out of the country all together, I'm thinking Spain or Germany, maybe back to the family homestead in Russia. I'd love to go back to Japan, too. But we'll see in the next few months.

I'm on the other side of the state. If that helps.

I would talk to all the doctors and therapists you will be dealing with. I did. Helped out a lot. Especially the ob/gyn. Yes, get one, early, I got early approval with my therapists from having regular visits. Adn they'll give you more information than anyone else. I almost went all the way, but stopped just before surgery. I mean, days before the surgery. I should have just done it, but other things got in the way and I had to postpone it. Now I have to start over. Not sure when, but I will eventually. The earlier you do it the better, less chance of testosterone taking long term effect. I started at 17, so I still have a slender build, but the last couple years, I've been noticing it really taking effect: thinning hair, bigger tummy, shoulders getting wider, putting on more muscle, etc. As far as finances, my fiance at the time was really helping me out. There are a few groups out there, but they are hard to find and even harder to get assistance from. Medical insurance, at least when I was going through, didn't cover a dime unless I could "hide" something as a standard procedure, something about it being comsetic surgery or whatever. I had close to 180k tied up in it all, over 4 years for meds, docs, general care, etc. I took my time with it. BTW, the hormones I took were injected, I refused the oral stuff. Not as effective and dangerous to take. If I think of anything else... Keep asking questions!

Advice: talk about it. No matter how it makes you feel, he is the one experiencing it. Gotta be harder for him to talk about it than it is for you. Ok. First issue, cool for you! Wish you were my parents. Seriously. My parents fought, sometimes physically, with me so much I left when I turned 16. I never looked back. Haven't seen or spoken to them for over 10 years. Well except to invite them to my wedding, but that is another story.... Second issue. Explain how you feel about it. You sorta understand but don't like the "idea." If it makes you uncomfortable, tell him. Point is, talk. If it's hard for you, it's gotta be harder for him. If your uncomfortable talking about it openly, find someone for him to talk too, if needed. I doubt you will ever "adjust" to it. You may come to just accept it, but never quite agree with it. Due try to keep an interest in the hobby, though, it should make him feel as if you haven't turned on him. As previously stated, show your support for who he is! You don't have to smother him, just let him know every now and again. Sometimes saying you love him isn't enough, show it. And tell him to be careful!! And I hope you or his father watch who he starts to hang out with, if oyu don't already. Can't stress that enough. I had a bad experience, I don't want to hear about another. We live in a less than accepting world, sadly. BTW, his raging hormones may have nothing to do with it mine didn't start to kick in till my early 20's. I figured out, much like he has, who I was at a young age. Kids grow up so fast Wish I could add more. But everyone's responses should get you started.

I love Tokyo. I want to go back sooo much! I spent a lot of my time buying up clothes and what not in Harajuku and surrounding areas. They have the best stuff for a girl to buy; some outfits were cute, a few were adorable, and most of them were done right heavenly I'd spend all day Sunday there, as all the models were out mingling with the crowds. Lots of people out there! Come to think of it, I have a few friends I haven't spoken too in awhile out there. Time to make some calls! I did spend a lot of time in the north and in Osaka, but I always went back to Tokyo! I still plan to move there one of these days...

I usually take one of my Fieros or my Volvo. I've spent countless hours tuning and building them, and rarely get to enoy them! Sometimes I go with my friend Jessica, shee brings either her Fiero or her R32 Skyline GTS. Every now and again my love interest accompanies me and he will either bring along his Porsche CGT, or if I am really good with lots of luck on my side, he brings his Vector W8. I prefer to go alone, but once in awhile, I feel the need for some company. Never thought of bringing a motorcycle, my ex-fiance wrecked his with me on the back, I'll never get on one again. I really really want an early Lan Evo like a 3 or 4 I drove my teacher's 3 while I was in Japan, and have wanted one ever since. The new ones just don't have the feel of the older ones.