Angela Bauer

Add me to those who agree with Diaper Mommie and others here. My life as a teenager and later women hardly ended when I started losing bladder control. I had to believe those who were real friends would not care that I needed diapers, and anyone who got upset was not a potential good friend. Eventually during law school I lost my remaining day control, but my outlook did not change about understanding friends. Sure, some men ran for the hills when they discovered I was wearing a diaper on a date, but many good men did not have a problem. Then in 1991 I met a man who clearly understood all aspects of me. He is not an attorney, but he knew to get out of my way when I am in trial, or just being a royal pain! He was aware of ABDL, but has never given me any reason to think he only loves me because I am a big baby girl. It is also no secret that the two of us have been happily married sine October 1991. You decide how you will be happy. Lots of men have bladder problems, using diapers or caths. There is nothing shameful about that, nor being ABDL with or without incontinence. All this is who we are. The record is clear that once we have an attraction to diapers, this is a lifetime thing for us. If somehow I were to regain my control, I am sure I would wear big girl panties often, but you better believe I will always relax as a big baby girl in diapers. Luv, Baby Angel

Hi Precious babygirl Awynn, Welcome to the Daily Diapers board. Like you I am fairly new here, a couple of weeks. However, I have been incontinent since 1976, so I know a whole lot about wearing various kinds of diapers. Then in 1990 it was suggested I would find playing AB relaxing as a coping strategy. Since then I have met many wonderful people with all sorts of connections to diapers, age regression and ABDL. Please, Babygirl, do let me know if there is more I can do to make you feel welcome and comfortable. Luv, Baby Angel

Since the longest I can go without a diaper is 30 minutes, and that requires a lot of my concentration, for practical purposes I wear something absorbent 24/7. Because I grew up in pinned gauze diapers with vinyl panties, that is what I prefer when home, especially for bed. If I am sick, and might mess, then I do wear Depend or Attends to bed. The waterproof protection on my mattress will deal with any leaks. Assuming we have no guests expected in the evening, the moment I get home from my office I pin myself into a gauze adult diaper and cover that with pull-on vinyl panties, either made by Gary Manufacturing or Kins. That should last 4 hours, bringing me close to bedtime. When my husband Don is home, usually he changes me for bed. If he wakes up and finds I am soaking, he is very good at changing me without really waking me. That is a knack, and I love it. Weekdays I need to be out of bed by 04:30AM I remove and place my wet diaper in the pail, put my vinyl panties in another pail, take my shower and dress for work. Normally I use slip-in disposable pads during the business day. When Depend Slip-In stopped being stocked by local stores, several women wetters started making slip-ins by cutting the tabs off toddler disposables. I use Pampers Cruisers Size 4. My first of the day lasts until I leave the office for Court, at about 08:30AM. It is never more than damp, but my next for sure change cannot happen until 12:30 Those Cruisers sometimes are good for 5 hours, but I cannot take chances. I need to be back in Court at 1:30PM, so I change minutes before that, meaning I am good to go until 5:15PM. Court is over by then. Then unless my afternoon Cruiser is almost dry, I change once more for the drive home. That means 4 or 5 disposables during a business day, but remember, in huge cartons, those Size 4 Cruisers only cost about $0.25 each, meaning my total cost is about the same as a high quality adult disposable. And, changing that often nobody smells even a hint of urine. Add the gauze at home diapers, and it totals 7 to 8 changes each day. Holidays and weekends I often wear gauze diapers all day, with vinyl panties. Seldom do I need more than 6 changes a day. Yes, if I am in the mood and if I am going to a place where casual clothing is expected, I will wear my gauze diaper under a full skirt or inside a short-all or over-all. Trust me, in Southern California nobody pays attention to women wearing such childish clothing. Chances are some of the other women are not diapered, but ya never know. Now, for airplane rides, long car trips and things like riding horses, I do wear Attends tape-on briefs. I do not need to remove many clothes, and such a disposable will last me over 5 hours of day wetting.

Hi Annie, Just the other night I was watching your movie, with all the singing. That was such fun. Seriously, "Daddies" can be any age, it is a matter of attitude. Chances are at this very moment some nice person is thinking up ways to make you happy being who you are. Fortunately logic and real life are not part of fantasy. Much like you, even in my most obvious diapers, while suckling a bottle or working a paci, in my mind I am old enough to walk and talk, even know right from being naughty. I am diapered because I wet, not retarded. There is no reason we ever need to give up the soft toys we loved as children. Onesies, rompers and sleepers can be comforting at any age. The more you share about your hopes and dreams here, the faster you will make a whole lot of new friends, Luv, Baby Angel

Way back in early 1981 when I got the fantastic news not only was I accepted by the university of my dreams for pre-law, I had earned a full-ride scholarship, I was not about to rock the boat. I reported to my assigned dorm room with half a bag of Attends and a new rubber sheet packed in my suitcase. Times changed for the better over the years. A lot of women have shared their experiences with me, as well as their hopes and dreams. Thus in 2002 I knew daughters of two very good friends were ready to start at universities and both of those gals had hardly any bladder control. Alexis lost most of her control when she reached puberty, and had discovered for bed pinned cloth diapers worked best for her. Ginnifer never gained bladder control, and had grown up in Oregon mostly wearing cloth diapers. They consulted each other and me. There did not seem to be any need to discuss enuresis in the application. However, the second each got their acceptance package, they made appointments with the housing director at their respective universities. Their experience was similar. Clearly it is not rare nor shocking for college students to wet beds. Apparently it was considered honest and refreshing by the housing directors when prospective students were up-front about it. Both girls asked to be allowed to bring their own mattresses, which already were protected. Each was assigned a room convenient to washing machines. Each was assigned as a roommate a gal who had stated she did not mind (Alexis) or who admitted wetting (Ginnifer). Neither had any serious problems with teasing and so on. Alexis is currently in her second year of med school, expecting to train as a urologist. Ginnifer graduated and got married last June.

Many people just love Johnson's Baby Powder. Please include me in the minority. I have always had better results with Diaparene Corn Starch Baby Powder. Some women like me find that talc used in Johnson's is more prone to yeast infection. With Diaparene this has never been a problem for me.

Hi Crinkle, Thanks for the kind words. At home if I ever act like some sort of celebrity (you know the popwreck type) "Daddy Don" corrects me. It is super you still have that tape. Is it the one that also has some TV shows and movies, such as the diaper episode of "China Beach" and "The Baby"? Back in the day it was convenient to go from Montel Williams, to Donahue to Jerry Springer. What fun. Have a wonderful 2008!

Hi Perth Guy, The times I have visited Perth, WA, I have had marvelous times. Over the years I have exchanged messages with diaper users way west of Adelaide, north and south of Perth. If you keep at it you will make friends. My suggestion is you start to use a first name. It does not need to be your real name. I think you will find big baby girls and remale DL appreciate using names. Be happy and enjoy the rest of your summer, Alexis

Welcome, Nikki. By reading the hundreds of messages here, you should find answers to any question about incontinence, diapers, AB, DL and so on. When I was your age I was living in a university dorm. I really needed my diapers because at puberty I lost nearly all my bedtime bladder control. Unfortunate I started university in 1981, long before personal e-mail and these kinds of websites. Although I knew about adult diapers, I knew nothing about finding ways to feel better about my condition. I was 26 when somebody told me about AB and DL. There are ways you can gain emotional comfort without making a major fuss with your folks. If you have questions, just ask us. Best wishes

Below is a very interesting message from Baby Tom. I moved the quote to a new topic because Tom brings up a lot of issues. I am proud to be a woman since birth, and was not overly upset when I lost much of my bladder control at puberty back in the dark age of urology, 1976. At that time women were not drawn to the specialty of urology. It was considered as specific to men's health as gynecology deals with women. The logic of the connection between gynecology and urology was lost, as was the fact such a large percentage of women have bladder control problems with menopause. When it was my turn no research had started to link hormone changes of female puberty with bladder challenge. What it took was for a woman resident in general surgery to take an interest in the very delicate touch needed in urology, especially before robotics. She had to fight to be added to the urology residency at her teaching hospital, even though her surgical skills were accepted fact. That woman pioneered the emerging surge of women training as urologists. Today there is even a professional association Women in Urology, wich includes not only female physicians but also women med students and urology nurses, physician assistants and physical therapists. How many of us have toilet trained children? One of the things you encourage is starting and stopping urine flow by will power. This strengthens the urinary spincter. Another thing is to encourage the child to hold urine as long as possible, to stretch and keep the bladder flexible. Of course the child need to learn when and where to hold urine and when it is necessary to make a "just in case" potty stop. Therefore I was shocked anyone conncected to a urologist would say "hold it for 2 hours" unless when you first were in their care you could only hold it a lot less. Normally you expect a healthy adult to be able to hold it 4 or more hours. Keeping a voiding log is standard practice when treating incontinence, just as it is with older kids with delayed toilet learning. See how incontinence is a symptom of many diseases? Diabetes is a classic example. Often Type 2 does not require insulin, so your blood work must be seriously strange. What about your PSA and Hemoglobin A1c? This is where the urologist and the primary care physician need to be working as a team, to manage your health. Clearly exercise and diet is not solving your diabetes problem and probably this exacerbates your incontinence. Generations ago the women in my family with incontinence got experienced managing our condition, which often required sweet-talking male urologists and gynecologists. In some cases we had more trouble with pioneer women urologists. Many of them were more interested in surgery to correct male reproductive problems that women who only wet. I found sweet-talk from me accomplished nothing with the first few women urologists I met. Then I was referred to my current urologist. She does not run a continence clinic, but has extensive training in gyno and does the best possible to manage my medical problems. Normally urologists learn the average adult and even more so with juvenile/adolescent incontinent folks fear the concept of "diaper" so they get coy with terms like "pad" Notice Attends and Depend never call their products diapers. Often it comes down to what management approach will provide each individual with the best and most appropriate "social continence"

A whole lot of folks into diapers started out "borrowing" them from various people. Another term for that is "stealing" which is naughty. There used to be a serious website resource called "When Kids Love Diapers" on which I shared my life experiences and parenting suggestions. Remember there has never been any legit research into diaper affectation or fetish, so it is speculation how all this starts. An accepted theory is the seeds of diaper affection are inculcated when we are super young and in innocent ways. Later, something sets us off. In your case it was available and easy to borroe diapers at your aunt's. What if you had been discovered? Many parents would punish for stealing then march you off to have your head shrunk. Sure, we know diapers are wonderful, it is the sick outsiders who do not dig it. What more modern shrinks realize is diaper affectation is the least dangerous of those kinds of conditions, so if they manage to snuf out diaper play, the patient will only turn to drugs or alcohol, both of which are more dangerous. Where diaper affectation is a danger issue is the stealing. Borrowing fresh diapers is bad, but would you believe some kids are so desperate they steal used diapers from trash containers. Now that has serious health risks. So what we attempted to do on When Kids Love Diapers was take the approach by the time a kid uses diaper more than once, he or she is already an infantilist. this is a lifetime condition, no treatment practical. Therefore the most prudent parenting method is to teach the young infantilist to be responsible and respect others. All things considered, buying your son or daughter diaper cost a whole lot less than a lifetime of shrinks, or a criminal record the result of stealing diapers or the money to buy them. Stepping of my rant, let us consider that unfortunate incontinent young woman you came to know far too briefly at the photo business. Since you called her another sales assistant, I assume this was recent enough the photo store did not have its own darkroom. Those largely went out of style when color replaced black and white, color being done in the light in machines. Consider what it is like to work in either complete darkness or very subdued safelight. In a classic b&w darkroom your hands are in warm developer. Trust me, it is like the trick of causing someone to wet while sleeping by putting their hand in warm water. Consequently back in the b&w custom darkroom days, that was one business attracting incontinent men and women. In the huge wholesale photofinishing plants, most of the workers were women. Three of my incontinent aunts made great careers for 30 years in such plants in Southern California. See, with just some encouragement, that gal could have turned what she considered an embarrassing problem into a rewarding and well-paid career. Lost opportunity. See what the new generation is missing? Computers do not need darkrooms, and digital camera require no developer, short stop or hypo fixer! Omega, Durst and Bessler enlargers are distant memory. Kodabromide and Illustrator's Special are only recalled by people the age of my husband. Who can forget the aroma of acetic acid? All that covered the odor of urine in the diaper in the darkroom. No worries!

Back in 1995 my husband and I were inspired by articles in DPF to organize a Sunday brunch for the Los Angeles Area ABDL community. Tommy let me mention the idea for a couple of months in my reqular column. Since all who wrote to us knew me by sight, but none knew one another, that first time we just told them when and where, the huge Sizzler Restaurant in Norwalk. I had a chair near the cashier, with a clipboard. When anyone recognized me, I handed him or her a small piece of yellow paper with "DPF" printed on it and room for them to add their name. That was held on their top with a blue or pink diaper pin. The Sizzler manager never asked why we were meeting there, he was glad for the business during the Sunday afternoon slack time. The feeling was the selection of yellow was sexually neutral. By 1995 what are the odds anyone not ABDL would recognize a diaper pin? No outsider said anything, or asked about DPF. Perhaps ABDL could be turned into a logo?

Like you, I enjoyed Baby Kim. She came along at just the right time and thus was able to continue making photos and videos about a real woman with a major inner big baby girl. Unfortunately I never got to meet her, or even communicate with her. She really is missed.

Excuse me, I am not making any of this up. Following the success of "Quiz Kids" produced in the Mid West, a rival show titled "Whiz Kids" was created in NYC. Perhaps you have better inside information than an active child actor agent and a leading costume designer?

Here is attached the original Rolling Stone cover photo of Alicia Silverstone. Also, here is a screen capture from the series "Unhappily Ever After" that made a star of Nikki Cox, which ran from 1995 until 1999. I believe this episode was from one of the last two seasons. Nikki's character had pledged a sorority, and as hazing she had to wear an infantilist costume. Although by then my sister Missy was the costume designer on a hit series on a different network, Missy was hired to design all the sorority big baby girl costumes worn by Nikki and some other attractive actresses.

Yes, after watching this clip, I am sure the actress playing Michelle was wearing what was then a state of the art toddler large disposable. Going back to the early days of the movie business circa 1910, continuing from the early days of network radio circa 1932 and so on into live TV, then filmed TV and current feature movies, it is standard practice to diaper all young performers when the character or costume will allow this. Even in early silent films it cost a relative fortune to delay filming while a child went potty. Into the era of sound movies, costumes for children were loose, so even a pinned cloth diaper could be easily hidden. when the first molded latex stretchy Playtex Baby Pants reached the market late in 1937 diapering young performers became even more common. In live stage shows, especially on Broadway in the late 1930's when there were child actors extra costumers were part of the crew to deal with diapers. In radio from NYC and Hollywood prior to and during WWII, even kids as old as 12 often were diapered. Many professionals in Hollywood have told me all about this. My husband Don Davis was 4yo when he broke into NYC network radio in 1936. He had been toilet trained since he was 2 and never wet in school, yet the condition of hiring hm as a child actor was that he be diapered. His granny went with him on jobs and she did the diapering. All the other kid actors also were diapered. Early in 1936 Don appeared in the first industrial sales film made to introduce the PlayTex stretchy Baby Pants. Although don played the older prother, and appeared to be wearing shorts, in fact under those he wore a single pinned Curity gauze diaper and PlayTex panties. Two moms were shown discussing the benefits of waterproof coverings that could ventilate, while one changed a young baby. Funny, the Hayes/Breen Production Code would not let a mainstream show a scene of a baby being changed in a realistic way then or until it was reworked after 1972. When Don got too old to play little kids on radio, he joined the regular cast of "Whiz Kids" a sort of early quizz show. The kids ranged from 8 to 14. All, except the oldest 14yo boy, were diapered. Radio was live, no do-overs for potty breaks! One of my current best gal pals is also an active big baby girl. Now she is a financial planner, but as a little kid she broke into acting on TV series. Her dad was a major producer and her mom was and still is a leading agent for child actors. That agent/mom can discuss the fine points of disposable diapers as effectively as an ABDL I have met. My pal was featured, regular or recurring on several hit series until she was 19. Even then the only times she was on set withou a diaper was if she was supposed to be in a bikini. My youngest sister Missy started out after a year of community college as a costumer for TV series, then became a costume designer. She has designed many of the AB scenes on TV, getting called in special. She also designed for a series that ran 7 years. The first season the young cast was supposed to be 16, but one actress was actually only 14 and had a wetting problem. All her costumes were designed to hide her diaper, and they avoided showing her in bikinis, allowing extra time so she could use the toilet and having several dry identical binikis on hand just in case. Will we ever know if the character of "Michelle" was supposed to have delayed toilet learning or bedwetting? Maybe someone can tell us? It is a very safe bet the actress did wear a diaper. In this clip the director, script supervisor, director of photography and editor either did not notice the diaper was revealed, or just liked the take and did not care, assuming at the time the public could not easily do a freeze frame. They did not anticipate DVD and streaming to hard drive. Does anyone remember the photo of Alicia Silverstone on the cover of "Rolling Stone"? She looks glum wearing a pink romper and top hat. Inside the interview continues with more infantilist photos. It is possible she had a hidden diaper. Yes, there were some versions PhotoShopped adding an obvious diaper. Shortly after Alicia made many talks at fund raisers for childhood incontinence charities in which she admitted being a bedwetter until she was in her mid 20's. She might seldom smile, but she has guts! Happy New Year, Angela

It stands to reason the diaper in Photo 1 is European, since that electrical outlet behind the model is from there.

Oh yes, we have several decorated real baby diaper pails. I am sure those could work for adult diapers. My husband/"Daddy Don" and I are so fortunate to have a decent home here in the Los Angeles area. When we built it in 1996, the master bedroom suite included an alcove we told the builder would be a home gym. At one end it has both a dishwasher and a compactor under the counter, along with a sink and refrigerator. Beside the compactor is room for a conventional plastic 13 gal trash container. Both of those units have a vent to the outside. Soild or wet disposables go into the compactor, which I think of as a powerful adult "Diadee Genie" The conventional trash container holds accumulated cloth diapers. Damp worn vinyl panties get washed in a plastic tub in the sink, and dried in this nursery alcove. Running along the adjacent wall is a counter with cabinets under, to store bulk diaper supplies. Above the counter are some cabinets and a custom-built diaper stacker system, to keep a selection of cloth and disposables very handy. My changing table appears to outsiders to be a massage table, with safety side rails that can lower. A drawer with wipes, lotion, powder and pins pulls out convenient to either me or when I am lucky Daddy Don.

Remember "Rubber Duckies" made in Santa Barbara, CA USA? Their first product was a pull-on panty made of a polyester fabric that stretched slightly and was rendered waterproof by a coating on the inside. By 1987 the R. Duck Company started making adult Rubber Duckies. About the same time they came out with a wrap, with a mesk liner so a standard cloth prefold would stay in place. The Duckie Wrap was waterproof and fastened with Velcro. By the time I got super active in AB, there was a major re-organization of R. Duck, with the infant products, including the Duckie Wrap, staying in Santa Barbara, and the adult panties, but never a wrap, moving to the Mid West. The R. Duck marketing folks told us the Wraps were perfected at the request of the diaper service industry. My kid sister Missy is a costume designer. She seriously looked into making adult wraps, at least for us, if not for mass production. A major difficulty was locating a waterproof fabric that would stretch and that could be sewn. With vinyl pull-on, the part that leaks the most is the side-seam. In production you can heat seal vinyl to itself. However, even thin vinyl does not stretch enough to be an ideal wrap. By 1991 even R. Duck was having a major quality-control problem with their coated fabric. The coating came off.

From 1990 until 2005 I was in frequent contact with the marketing departments of P&G, Kimberly Clark and PaperPak Corp. Since 1981 I have purchased a whole lot of Attends, Depend, Pampers, Huggies and GoodNites. For many years I was pleading for tape-on diapers to fit toddlers/kids over 40 pounds. Children grow larger at younger ages today than years back, and toilet learning also seems to be slower. First they did produce Size 5 and then Size 6 for most toddler brands and styles. Long after all those companies stopped contacting me, P&G did bring out the Size 7 Pampers Cruisers. Nobody will tell me the sales volume of Size 7, but I do notice the supermarkets do not give them much shelf space. That strongly suggests Size 6 are generally big enough. What I kept trying to explain from a parenting standpoint is when a child is still diapered, you need more than one style, something really stretchy like Cruisers when the kids is active, and something more absorbent for sleeping, like Huggies OverNites. Excuse me, but as much as I love KCC for marketing GoodNites as discreet for older kids, the problem is they leak so much. I am not sure sleep-overs are a major problem. Most of the time the older kids is sleeping at home. You would think a smaller version of Depend Adjustable would be available, although I know a lot of kids who learn to put on their own tape-on diapers by age 5. In bed tape-on almost always leak less than pull-up. When a kid can work the tabs, they are equal to pull-ups. Bambino seems to be the answer for adults wanting a babyish disposable. No way can manufacturers stop and start a production line for custom orders. As a gal who really liked Attends the first time I needed them back when they were a P&G brand, I was really sad that the brand was sold to PaperPak. They are wonderful people, but had no way to retain supermarket shelf space. We will never know why P&G got out of the adult diaper business. Their timing was bad, because they got out just as that segment took off. At least PaperPak made good use of the Attends inventions, vastly improving their entire line of institutional and generic disposables. Attends seem to be slowly getting some shelf space, and each year more firms sell them on-line. When Depend gave up keeping their slip-in and belted pads stocked in supermarkets, several women wetters I know in person took drastic action. Some moms noticed that Size 3 and 4 of many toddler disposables were very similar to the better slip-in pads. All we needed to do was cut off the back tabs. There are many benefits. Toddler diapers cost way less and tend to absorb more. I find a Size 4 Cruiser significantly more comfy than the best adult slip-in. While I have never worried who cares when I buy diapers, younger women, even older teen gals who wet, say that nobody pays attention when they but toddler diapers. They could be the babysitter or mommy. You do not need to plan so far in advance, since most places there are 24/7 supermarkets selling some selection of toddler disposables.

There could be many reasons why adult diaper sites are familiar with female attorneys. I have been contributing to the incontinence and ABDL communities since 1991. It is no secret that I needed diapers long before I started pre-law and have needed diapers constantly since then. Several other lawyers read my posts and shared that they also have bladder control issues. Going back to when I was a teenager who wet her bed and wore diapers, my folks went out of their way to introduce me to successful women who wet. Mom and her sisters not only took care of their families, they had full-time jobs as secretaries, bookkeepers and bankers. Before I started writing for DPF there was a high-profile big baby named Jenny, who shared that she was a nurse. One of the first fan letters I received from my Montel Williams episode was from a female emergency room surgeon who always wears diapers. Diapers are familiar to nearly all women. Unfortunately for reasons I sure do not understand, many diapered women do not discuss this on-line. Just by way of example, my youngest sister, Missy, wets more than I do. Missy is a movie and TV costume designer, so she has a much larger selection of adorable AB outfits then me. Missy has looked over my shoulder when I have written about relaxing as an AB, yet Missy will not go on-line herself to share about this. Our Mom still works as an office manager, so is fully computer savy. Mom wears Attends to work. She does not ever play as an AB herself, but has indulged Missy and me when she is around as we play big baby. Mom does not want to discuss this with outsiders, although she knows nothing bad has ever happened to me because I am openly AB. To me it is sad that such a high percentage of really marvelous diaper women are not willing to be supportive of other incontinent, AB and DL people. At an AB party recently a big baby boy said he dreams about women lawyers wearing diapers because to him that makes them less terrifying. Do I look mean?

Thanks to all of you for the generous welcome. This is a happy place.

There used to be a popular saying about kids who were slow to toilet train: "Nobody ever started college in diapers!" All I can say is that when I left home for an East Coast university the fall of 1981, I wore a disposable brief under my skirt on the plane. My bladder had always been small even compared to other girls, but I had been considered dry since before I could remember. Then when I was 12 and reached puberty, I started wetting when sleeping. In our family that was expected, given my granny, mom, some aunts and older sister all wet. Actually I considered myself lucky that during middle and high school I did not need to wear for classes. My family did not use disposables. We were taught there was nothing shamefull about needing diapers, yet it is polite to shield outsiders from wetting to the extent possible. Mom's suggestion was to invite even casual friends to the house, where it was no secret that many of us needed to wear at least at night. Girls sleeping over always saw me in pinned cloth diapers. Some even asked to try diapers for themselves. I never asked these friends to keep my diapers a secret. Maybe that was why I hardly ever was teased. For college my folks realized it would not be practical for me to store, wash and dry cloth diapers. It was a huge deal in the family when I was allowed to buy my first disposables and practice changing them my last 2 weeks at home. College for me was something super serious. I had been accepted and granted a full scholarship at a well-respected university in Upstate New York as a pre-law major. At first I thought it wonderful my roommate did not object. Within a few days she had borrowed a diaper after her second kegger, having wet following her first. By the end of our first month she begged for a diaper while dressing for parties. Soon she realized disposables cost money. She willingly paid for so many diapers I started saving some cash. Most classes were less than an hour, so I did not need to wear. When I started taking classes lasting longer, I simply wore under my full skirt. Other gals must have seen me changing in ladies rooms. For graduation I wore under my gown. Another law school accepted me, so I moved East some more. Lectures were long, so I broke down and planned on wearing every week day. My roommate at law school hardly ever went to parties, and did not wear to bed, but always to class. Neither of us made an effort to hide our bags of diapers in our dorm room. Today law school seems like a lifetime ago. I have been happily married since 1991 and a partner in my law firm since 1993. Clients do not ask, and I do not tell. The fact is I have worn 24/7 over 20 years. Personally I think it would be far more embarrassing to be caught in wet stained clothing than to be seen discreetly wearing a diaper.

Ever since I started to lose my bladder control, I have found my diaper is more comfy when slightly damp, so long as my waterproof layer keep it warm. In really hot weather my own sweat irritates me and causes rash. I find fresh urine neutralizes sweat. The limiting factor is that at some point urine gets stale, forms ammonia and that can really cause rash. So, for me only so much capacity is more than enough. I rarely need an emergency change because my diaper is soaked. Certainly I enjoy pinned gauze diapers the most, worn with soft, stretchy vinyl panties. Colorful diapers and panties can be adorable. I often have worn decorated diapers, but I must admit it is so much easier to wash plain white gauze diapers. Unless I look in a mirror I cn't see my diapers and panties, so once I am wearing them the color means less to me.

Let us all have a Happy 2008! Since I am bladder incontinent, I already wear some kind of diaper 24/7. Days when I must function like a responsible adult, most often I use slip-in disposable pads. For special events, such as a long car or airplane ride, I do use conventional disposable diapers. At home I almost always wear pinned gauze diapers to bed, and as much as possible before and after bed. So, my 2008 goal is to find ways to wear gause diapers a larger percentage of the time. Treating people with increased kindness and empathy is my real goal for 2008.