Nikki Jones

I've already posted somewhat of a similar topic before, but I feel like theres more I want to say. I'm still pretty new to the fetish AND to this site, I've only really been on it for a few days. And even though i've been able to talk to some people about ab/dl things, It hasn't changed how I feel about it sometimes. I still feel really awkward thinking or talking about it I knew what I was getting into by joining this site, I knew that it would help with taking the first step to accept my fetish, but things haven't changed much. I still know that I'll never have enough courage to go get diapers or any AB things. I'll never feel comfortable enough to tell someone about it, and I'm worried I'll never meet anyone who likes it like I do. But I really want to, because I figure if I meet someone and I'm forced into that situation, it will help me get over my fear. You have no idea (actually... nevermind, you probably do) how much I want to meet someone or even just talk to someone who accepts this. I know I have a diaper fetish, but I still cant fully accept it. I'm paranoid that people can automatically tell I'm into this. I'm nervous that I wont find someone that accepts me. I'm really scared of getting caught or having people I know find out about this. Any ideas, support, or advice would really help a lot.

Hello everyone, My name is Nicole, but everyone calls me Nikki. I just turned 18 a little while ago, but I am still living with my parents till I go to collage. And they know nothing about any of this. I'm really confused about Ab/dl. I don't know what I am (if I am anything at all. Ive never had any baby or diaper experiences, seeing as its not possible with my current living conditions, but I really want to. I would really enjoy being able to talk to someone who's more experienced with all of this because I don't personally know anyone else besides myself who has ever even considered this lifestyle and I feel kind of alone about it all. I just really don't know what to do but I figured that I might as well try and make some friend who enjoy the same thing i do.