Angela Bauer

Hi Chucky, Since you set a limit of a single week, you do not have time for delivery of alternative diapers ordered on-line. Trust me, a whole lot of incontinent adults wear various styles of Depend to work. Apparently you bought Depend Briefs. You did not say those have plastic outer layer, but many Depend diapers do. What your local stores should stock are Depend Adjustable, which are a pull-on with 2 tabs per side allowing then to be pulled snug after they are in place. Those are quite thin when dry and have a cloth-like outer layer. Yes, they are not babyish and I do not recommend them for sleeping. Right now you need to adjust your body to the sensation of being diapered. Hospitals sometimes need to diaper adults. Sleeping is often a problem, but since it is a hospital, the patient can be given sleep-inducing medications. At home you could legally and ethically take an over the counter medication such as Nyquill. So what if you sleep deeply, you are safely diapered. Oh yes, your bed does have a waterproof sheet, right? It is most comfy if placed under the top sheet. A hospital will often add a draw sheet, which is a flat top sheet folded over and placed crosswise. Should the draw sheet get damp, it can easily be replaced. Sometimes the hospital places a dispoable underpad between the folds of the draw sheet. Often pharmacies and nearly all medical supply stores stock disposable underpads in home-size packs. Best wishes on your diapered week, Baby Angel

Heidilynn, compared to a major Hollywood studio movie, REDEMPTION must have a tiny budget. Of course, compared to the bulk of 21 minute short subjects made by independent producers, the budget was enough to ensure quality work and fanatical attention to detail. The Monty Python Spanish Inquisition cardinals will be so proud! With respect, considering the quality of the production design, the camera work and the acting, I seriously doubt any lapses in what we consider "continuity" are mistakes. My working assumption is that the creatives are telling the incidents as rememberd by "Younger Girl" played so well by Ayla Judson. BTW, in my early message today I called her character "Young Girl" and when I checked the credits again, I see it is Younger Girl. A production assistant named Dawn Judson is credited, so I assume that is the mother of the actress. People ask about legal problems. Golly I am so happy my firm does not represent the producers or distributors. I specialize in corporate litigation, mostly in Federal Court. My professional suggestion to all the adults involved in this production is to retain the best available criminal defense attorneys experience in both Federal and whatever state in which this was made. Artistic Merit is not a perfect defense when the charge is kiddie porn. Nowhere in the USA can a parent make a contract contrary to the fiduciary best interest of the child. Ayla Judson was a minor child of tender years when the video was shot, so she does not get a legal vote about making this film. Let us hope Ayla does become a huge star, equal to Ellen Page right now. Let us also hope that Ayla matures as a responsible adult without the excess of Ms Spears, et al. How will Ayla react at age 25 when someone brings up images of her diapered, working a pacifier? It is no secret the S&W revolver was not loaded. Actually I am very happy the creatives did not place dummy shells in the visible chambers. This is not in my mind a continuity problem, nor a solution to a sticky legal/safety issue. I prefer to think it was a deliberate creative decision to allow the audience to hope someone else fired the fatal shot. Maybe seeing that revolver in the steady two-handed grip that an FBI range master would approve, was a wake-up call to Mother her abuse had crossed the line. I am told when someone aims a firearm at you and you see as well as hear the hammer cocked, you do not pay attention to empty chambers. It only takes one live round. What if Younger Girl simply put the revolver on the counter, picked up her pacifier and left the room. Meanwhile Mother had to change her own soiled panties, the usual reaction of facing a gun at close range. Later Mother was so filled with remorse she did load the S&W and ended her own sad life. Anything is possible. Ayla Judson is listed by IMDb as living in San Antonio, TX. During the Phil Spector trial the former chief medical examiner of that (Bexar) County testified to an extraordinary percentage of suicides by women using guns. Golly Vince DiMattro, MD was under oath. What we know is it took guts to make this short video. Personally I cannot imagine going to people with production money and explaining the concept of this film before a scene was filmed. The important thing is REDEMPTION was made, was edited, had music added and has been distributed on-line. Perhaps it will jump-start careers for Michael Bryson, who did everything including playing "Husband." Now, unless Monica Curtis who played Older Girl actually did recover from wrist slitting years ago, I also see a bright future for Amy C. Rabold credited with both Makeup and Special Effects Makeup. All those details are pitch perfect. Mother's highlights became increasingly obvious as she decended into madness. Older Girl did not have skin flaws painted out, and some of that could be special effects makeup. Younger Girl started out looking like a sophisticated tweenie of 10 going on 30 at the playground, and even before the physical abuse appeared years younger while wetting her bed. Older Girl is shown appearing to wear no makeup, which is itself a special effect. Honestly I wish the music was credited. Even that was carefully selected, mixed and edited. Comments?

Heven, a million thanks for creating LIKE A FISH. As a woman with no bladder control who does need to function as a responsible adult much of every day, I can relate to all your characters. Trust me I am happily married to a nice, loving and understanding man, as Russell is written. Yes, I have also know lechers like Jim is written so far. I have faith Lily has the skills necessary to turn Jim to her advantage without resorting to unethical methods. When a story is this compelling we are more than willing to suspend our disbelief. In your world Diapers can hold gallons of water. Why not?

A Big Welcome, Ric. Life is not always easy for people who need diapers and nappies. Maybe it is more difficult when the need is emotional. You do not mention incontinence and I hope that you have control when you want. There are no easy answers for bring romantic partners around to accepting our diaper needs. You must have tried all your married life since you fist met your wife. I was so lucky to come from a family supportive of me when I started to lose my control at age 12. People have generally been kind to me all my life. I had not read about adult babies or diaper lovers until I was 26. AB has made my time at home a lot better. Fortunately the man I fell in love with accepted my medical and emotional need of diapers. The reality of me working a pacifier, or dummy, has to be hard on my husband. I accept that. Marriage is something requiring cooperation and sharing. Ric, you must be a nice person. Use your imagination to find ways to make yoursefl such a super husband your wife will accomodate your nappy use some of the time. Best wishes.

Will, you are on to something. "Redemption" is one of those provocative independent videos that requires the audience to stop and think. Each of us will find different interesting aspects. Then we can have the shared experience of discussing what we saw. By now I have downloaded this to my hard drive, which I must say really improves the sound quality. One of the first comments here felt there was a deliberate attempt to disguise the voice of the narrator. Personally I now think that sound is a combination of the woman's accent and artifacts of multi-generation digital recordings. Will, you noticed that the nursing bottle, pacifier and diaper all are different when "Older Girl" is contemplating the past. That is a very keen observation. Wow, right now I wish there were some kind of film festival, perhaps connected to the Sundance thingie, where the cast and creatives of REDEMPTION were on stage to answer audience questions. The more I look at this video, with and without the sound, pausing to study details, things you can't do when seated in an audience as the video screens, the more convinced I am despite this being an independent production, the creatives are well-trained and ultra-sophisticated film makers. There do not appear to be any accidents during filming that reached the screen in the ultimate edit presented. The easy thing would have been to use the same kind of diaper, bottle and pacifier, as if those had been saved in the plastic container for many years, along with the evidence envelope containing the crime scene photos. On first viewing, as a lawyer I focused on how Older Girl obtained those photos. Now I realize I must view the entire story and completely suspend disbelief and my tendency to pick nits. Had Older Girl completely lost track of the time on the day Husband discovered her in the diaper with the photos. We are led to assume somehow he knew nothing of her past. It is entirely possible the contemplation by adult Older Girl is happening thousands of miles from where Young Girl was abused. Perhaps when the body of Mother was discovered, Child Protective Services began taking care of and providing psycho therapy for Young Girl. Along the way physical evidence of the abuse, such as the original left-over diapers, nurser and pacifier might have been thrown away by the authorities. Once Older Girl had completed therapy and become an adult she could have filed a Freedom of Information order to obtain the evidence photos. Then she could have gone shopping to replace the missing diapers, nurser and pacifier. Although Older Girl has some stuffed toys, they are not the same ones. Her clothing is not far enough from normal to be fetish adult baby. Yet when we compare the mature look of Young Girl during the graveyard confrontation with the way she was dressed under the "care" of Mother, the implication was that this was forced infantilism. There are many possible explanations why Young Girl did actually wet her bed. The auto accident that killed Father might have caused PTSD in both Young Girl and Mother. Each presented PTSD in different ways. Enuresis is commonly considered a symptom of PTSD in children. Many details were left to the vivid imagination of every viewer. The audience is told nothing of the years between Mother's death and Older Girl's contemplation. Somehow the incontinence or enuresis was treated. My impression is that Older Girl did not need a diaper when she kissed Husband good-bye. To me her diaper was dry when Husband found her. That was no accident by the creatives. They went to the trouble of wetting Young Girl's jammies in a realistic way when it counted. The early narration and the images shown do not agree. It is entirely possible Older Girl misinterpreted Mother's feelings prior to the auto accident. It is also possible Older Girl got it right, Mother already was jealous of the relationship between Father and Young Girl. PTSD could be a factor causing Mother to force the infantilism beyond reason. Few would argue that it is appropriate parenting to obtain medical care for a 10yo girl who starts wetting her bed following an traumatic event. Perhaps a rational parent would put a rubber sheet on the girl's bed to protect the mattress, then sweet-talk the child into accepting the protection of discreet disposable products, such as GoodNites. The literature of child abuse prevention is filled with case studies where children wetting drives parents to rage, often acted out with verbal and severe physical abuse. The filmmakers sure showed us Mother's rage. But, they also showed us Mother being kind. Remember the scene in which Young Girl walks down stairs wearing a long skirt while working a pacifier? Mother is waiting. She greets her daughter warmly, then turns her so she can lift the back of the girl's skirt to show the obvious diaper. After allowing the skirt to fall back into place, Mother gently pats the girl's bottom before picking up a large and childish diaper bag, then leaving the house with the girl. Unfortunately for Young Girl in a following sequence it is implied Mother put the girl on the floor to change her diaper in the living room prior to dragging the weeping and protesting child out the door. There the child huddles outside, in just her diaper and top, on the ground beside a fence. In dispair the child tosses her pacifier, then the house door opens slightly. See, each of us will find a million things in REDEMPTION to make us think. We must thank the producers for spending a significant amount of effort and money to make this short video with zero chance of being a profit center. If there is justice, this might be the sample reel to jump-start careers in Entertainment for cast, crew and creatives. At the moment only Ayla Judson (playing Young Girl so very well) has a page on IMDb, showing a credited small role in a feature film that has not found distribution and an uncredited role in a film that was shown at a festival in 2007. Could this be her year? How many people knew about Ellen Page before her Oscar nomination for starring in JUNO? A few Powers That be in Hollywood had seen her in 2006 in HARD CANDY another film difficult to watch about a victim of abuse who turns the table. Will, can any of us ever forget the image of Young Girl removing that chromed stainless S&W .38 Chief's Special revolver from the drawer, carrying it toward Mother, placing first her pacifier, then the gun on the counter, using a trained two-handed grip and cocking the hammer? The audience is left to consider the consequences. Could the evidence photos show the body of Mother on the floor?

Welcome to Daily Diapers, There are so many friendly folks here, with all sorts of diaper needs. For example, I became incontinent, starting with just bedwetting right after puberty. Eventually I needed diapers 24/7 but did not discover the joys of Adult baby until I was 26. Kyoko Sweetie, what would you like to share about your diaper use? Lately many of us have been discussing the up and down side of wearing diapers in school, college or university. Perhaps you could add to this? Enjoy. Baby Angel

At the very end of "REDEMPTION" after the screen goes black, there is a fade-in showing the "Older Girl" snuggling in bed with "Husband" then after some technical credits there is a cast list. Father, Mother, Young Girl, Older Girl and Husband. In the birthday cake scenes, there are 10 candles. The icing says "Happy Birthday Amber" In the scenes with the adult wearing a diaper, her wedding ring shows especially when she is suckling from the nursing bottle. Clinical psychology is not my profession. Victims of abuse turning to AB has long been a subject in fiction. It is possible some who were abused with diapers and being treated as infants later do find aspects of AB a coping strategy. Since Older Girl appeared sad once Husband left for work, she recovered a container from under the bed. In it apparently were her AB supplies, plus a set of crime scene photos. Perhaps screen writer, producer and director Michael Bryson wanted to make his point within 20 minutes by showing a few sensational scenes, without real-life logic. I do not mean to pick nits. As disturbing as "Redemption" is, it sure got a discussion started. Without nitpicking, I am curious: When Mother diapers Young Girl, it appeared the tabs were very wide. When Older Girl is diapered, she only has one tab per side. Both kinds of diapers are decorated. Are those actual off-the-shelf products? Did the prop and costume department decorate various styles of adult diapers? We know the actress playing "Young Girl" is Ayla Judson, born Dec 15 1994. Debbie Judson, perhaps her actual mom, is credited as a production assistant. Ayla was 12 when the video was produced and is not tiny for her age. Could a gal that big fit into any decorated toddler disposable? Monica Curtis plays Older Girl. She is hardly a child-size adult woman. I am not familiar with any adult disposables with just one tab per side. To me the decoration appeared to be added. Perhaps that is also true for the smaller disposables. Could those have started as Attends Small or Youth? Logic suggests that if Young Girl was 10 when her Father died, and Older Girl is married, at least 10 years have passed. Were such huge flat-screen TV sets available to the general public so long ago? When Young Girl is suckling a pacifier, it is an UltiMAM with a toddler regular latex nipple. Were those on the market in 1996? Funny, Older Girl prefers another style of pacifier that seems retro to me. The nurser bottles both suckle appear to be clear plastic 8oz, perhaps Evenflo. Young Girl's bottle is decorated, while Older Girl's is plain.

The title of this short film "Redemption" has been used many times, as shown by IMDb. My next step was to check the names listed on IMDb. This is a Michael Bryson film and he plays the husband toward the end. IMDb shows two people with that name, one an actor and the other crew. Apparently those are different people. Ginger Martin is credited as the mother. An actress with the same name played an adult character in "Bad News Bears" so chances are that is not the same person. Ayla Judson is credited as playing the young girl. In 2006 she played "Ghost Girl" in Halletsville which starred Gary Bussey, which is not shown as being released. In 2007 Ayla had an uncredited role in Homo Erectus that was shown during the 2007 SlamDance Festival, an off-shoot of Sundance. That's about it for the creatives. Interesting that Ayla, who is now 13 and from San Antonio, TX left a comment about the film. There is a thriving film making community in San Antonio, so it is possible this film was made there. It is disturbing seeing an actual minor being physically abused on camera. The reality is that bedwetting beyond age 4 is an emotional issue in many families and is reported to be a serious cause of physical abuse. Let us hope when significant numbers of the general public find this film attention will be given to educating parents that children are not being naughty when they wet. What a shame the mother took out her anger on the girl, instead of helping the child regain bladder control. With love and affection the child could have been talked into accepting diapers and a rubber sheet as a temporary way of dealing with bedwetting.

Re: late night TV commercials for toddler diapers, remember it is parents that make the purchase. Often grandparents influence the choice. Chances are very good KCC (Huggies and GoodNites) and P&G (Pampers and Luvs) have market research supporting their decision to run those commercials when they run. Also, I suspect researchers from those companies join message boards such as this. Thus it is very possible P&G as well as KCC realize a certain percentage are being used by adults instead of conventional slip-in pads.

Aleia, the latest trick is to use modified taddler disposables as liners or slip-in pads. The active part of a Pampers Cruiser Size 4 is larger than a commercial pad, and yet cost a lot less. It takes seconds to cut off the side tabs. So, if your stress incontinence increases in volume, remember there is a good discreet alternative short of wearing an actual diaper. I use those modified Cruisers daily in Court and at my law office. Nobody notices or cares.

Bottom line is there are no scientific studies to count the number of AB and DL people world-wide. Clearly the nice folks making Bambino disposables designed and decorated for AB/DL did enough marketing research to conclude they could make it a business. Look at the links and count the vast number of vendors all saying they are either AB Friendly or AB Aware. Certainly in the USA, Canada and England there are many firms selling AB supplies. DL do not need as many props, but they do buy diapers, cloth and disposable and some plastic panties. In the USA the major manufacturers of adult disposables are Kimberly Clark Corp who make Depend and Paper Pak Corp who have long made institutional and generic adult disposables, then bought the Attends brand and factories in North America from P&G. Between them they make nearly all the USA store-brand generic adult disposables. You can be sure they do market research, but they keep the results a deep business secret. What has leaked out based on careful studies of annual reports, is that in the USA the adult diaper market has sales more than double that of infant-toddler disposables, and with far better profit percentage, because adult diapers hardly ever are sold at discount. Also, parents buying toddler disposables are more price sensitive than brand loyal, while the reverse is true with adult disposables. Virtually every senior living in an assisted facility is diapered. Add the seniors living in private homes, and the many larger teens to seniors who wear because of injury or illness. With a lower birth rate and adults living longer each year, the growth market is adult disposables. Want to speculate P&G regrets selling Attends? One USA government study for 2005 showed that nearly 20 million people bought at least one pack of adult disposables. Add the 5 million or so living in old folks facilities and hospitals. That is a lot of disposables. Wanna bet a percentage are DL?

Hi Aleia, Above in this topic, on Dec 30, 2007, I wrote about wearing diapers at night all through my college years, and during days in law school. I left home for pre-law in 1981 so to you that might be the Dark Ages. Adult disposables were just being sold in stores and were not as advanced as today. I agree only you know the management style for your condition that is best for you. Sure, I put a waterproof sheet on my dorm mattress. Toward the end of pre-law I really worried during moot court classes because I was fairly sure I could last 60 minutes between potty breaks, but by 90 minutes I had to split attention between what I was observing and my bladder control. If you have told us details about your bladder control issues, I must have missed that, and I am sorry. Only you know if wearing a diaper and worry about being caught, or not wearing and worry about a wetting accident is the more distracting to you. Right now I know a lot of college students, some guys and more women. Not all are incontinent, but the experience of all the people I know in person who does wear in college or post grad is positive. Not one has been teased by faculty or fellow students. I wore at night during high school and the last couple of years of middle school. Several gals had sleep-overs at our house and I went on sleep-overs, always with my own rubber sheet and diapers. Consequently many classmates knew, and yet I was not teased. Two 22yo women I know very well needed diapers 24/7 all through school. In April 2001 "SPY KIDS" came to theaters, with the scenes about wet beds and wearing diapers. One of those gals saw the first showing of the film on a Friday, bought a pink back-pack Saturday morning and decorated it with red sequins spelling "Diaper Lady" by the start of school that Monday. By making the joke first, how could she be teased? OSU is a sophisticated university, filled with serious students and a loving faculty. I am sure that if you need to wear to class, you will not be embarrassed. Angela Bauer

Although when I was born in 1964 several brands of disposables were being sold in stores, my entire extended family was so into tree-hugging they only used pinned gauze Curity flat 21x40" diapers. Depending on the size the vinyl panties were for toddlers Gerber bought in local stores, and the larger panties were bought by mail from the Gerber factory in Michigan. I lost my night control just after puberty when I was 12 in 1976. Over the next 10 years I slowly lost most of my day control. While in pre-law and law school I could only wear disposables, as soon as I had a washing machine available I went back to pinned gauze adult prefold diapers and vinyl pull-on panties for bed at home. Often the first thing I do after arriving home is pin on a gauze diaper and pull on vinyl panties. Those get changed as needed until the next morning when I must get ready for a day of work as a responsible adult woman. Day I generally can make-do with disposable slip-ins. Those I make by cutting off the tabs on Pampers Cruiser Size 4. They cost very little when bought on sale in cartons and work better than adult slip-ins. For special occasions away from home, such as long plane rides or when riding horses, I use tape-on adult disposables, either Attends or Depend. Once in a great while I wear Depend Adjustable pull-on disposables.

Greenlight Pvp is a new enough urology procedure long term results are not yet known. This is similar to the thinking about the robotic prostate cancer surgery 2 or 3 years ago. My husband Don was already 74 in Feb 2007 when his routine PSA came back elevated. Even then he did not think there was anything wrong with his bladder control or capacity. Fortunately don had regular PSA, because he was immediately referred to a urologist (not the same office as treats me) who did another PSA, confirmed the results, scheduled a surgical biopsy and in June 2007 did a robotic prostate surgery. The good news is Don has subsequently regained his bladder control and the better news is he is cancer free. During this year when Don has spent way more time talking to urologists than I do, he has talked to many patients about Greenlight Pvp. All who have had it are very pleased with the good results and the better than expected return to normal bladder control. Unless a man under 50 has a family history and risk factors for early onset prostate cancer, most primary care physicians do not order PSA tests. One, they cost helth plans a lot and Two, there is a problem with false-positive PSA, resulting in many unnecessary surgical biopsies. Currently there is an improved version of PSA in final stages of the approval process. Bottom line is all men need to worry about prostate health, especially cancer. It can be treated if caught early, but is dangerous if not detected in time. This is not the way any sane person wants to die. So, have PSA tests done now, and keep asking for the new, improved version real soon now. Meanwhile, there are many non-cancer conditions causing prostate swelling that respond well to Greenlight Pvp. Be safe. Also, please remember that although by now most primary care physicians have some understanding of urology, if they had the extra training and became board-certified in urology they would not be primary care physicians. Thus, if you suspect a urology problem, demand a referral to a board-certified urologist. This goes for women, also. About 1990 a couple of women started residencies in urology. Shortly after that Stanford University Med School began actively recruiting women as urology residents. Today nearly all urology training programs have women residents. Not all urologists specialize in continence. Women who are shy discussing wetting with male physicians should keep asking for female urologists. It turns out a lot of men actually prefer discussing urology problems with female physicians.

Welcome DooDoo Girl. Oh how I can relate to diapering dolls. In previous posts I explain that I lost my night bladder control just after puberty, a condition common to the women in my family. One advantage is none of us had to be shy as dry kids if we wanted to wear a diaper. Between Mom and my younger siblings, Granny down the block and my favorite aunt across the street, there were hundreds of diapers and women more than willing to pin a diaper on a kid after school. It was expected that once we were large enough we would help change the little kids. Granny had made a rag doll large enough it wore the same plastic panties as a kid or 24-30 months, just ready for toilet training. She also had a smaller rag doll, about the size of a 12 month infant. All of us were encouraged to practice pinning diapers on those dolls, figuring out how to change the folding of 21x40" flat Curity gauze diapers to fit right. I remember also being given smaller square and rectangular cloth diapers for use on Barbie-type dolls. To me that made no sense, because no plastic panties that small were avilable. Even then, to me cloth diapers without waterproof panties are silly. What is important is that women who are now my fellow BBG made use of their dolls as a source of diapers. In our family we were discouraged from pinning our own diapers until after we actually lost bladder control. That was when Granny and Mom would coach us. It took me a couple of weeks of practice each evening before I could pin my own effectively and without sticking a pin in me!

Each of us has to consider just how public we are comfortable being connected to incontinence and AB/DL. In our family it was assumed that at puberty all the gals would suffer bladder control challenges. Granny, Mom and her sister all needed diapers at night long before I was born. About the time I was toilet trained Granny needed diapers 24/7. When I was 8 my older sister reached puberty and soon wet her bed. That happened to me when I was 12, and also for each of our younger sisters at puberty. None of this was any sort of secret within the family. Probably most of the neighbors knew, since so many gauze diapers were hung on lines at all three homes. The family tradition was we did what was practical to avoid shocking outsiders, but none of us felt shame or embarrassment if people caught glimpses of diapers in use. By the time I was already an attorney and 26 did my youngest sister tell me she had read some incontinent people found AB games a coping strategy. That seemed so logical to me, and I really got into playing AB. Once I had read about AB in Fetish Times, joined DPF and subscribed to The Play Pen, I was familiar with photos of attractive women in diapers. My sister and I felt hardly any of those models actually were AB. At first I wrote some open letters published by DPF without any photos. The result was I started getting many letters from members and non-members saying either they had a girlfriend sort of interested, or were the girlfriend and not so sure. By then I had married and also had been photographed while playing AB Girl. I decided to let DPF publish B&W versions of my pictures, without any attempt to hide my face. When people I felt were nice wrote polite letters to me, I often replied including one or two 4x6" color photos of me. That was 1991, before home scanners were available and the www was not yet practical. Based on many sincere letters from people I still believe actually are women, my husband and I decided to make a video showing how I actually relax at home after a long day as an attorney. We never expected to make a profit and in 1992 decided to let DPF distribute it, with the royalties going to child incontinence prevention charities. A lot of the first video were sold, and we made a sequel released in 1993. Facor in the number of people who made home copies for sharing, thousands of those Baby Angel videos are still floating around. Eventually a lot of my color photos turned up on-line. Over the past few weeks I have posted some of those photos here. Then in Feb 1992 the Montel Williams Show phoned, begging me to appear on their show wearing a BBG outfit. All the other big babies were in makeup. They put me in a black wig, gave me a tan with makeup. On the episode I was called "Jessica." My husband was not disguised in any way. At the time Montel was only on 35 stations, but he has repeated that show, first shown Feb 23, 1992, many times. I have been a partner in my law firm since 1993. So far nobody has ever told me they recognized me from Montel, the Baby Angel videos or all those photos. In a few of the still pictures and scenes within the videos I am wearing clothing like I would in Court or the office. So, if anyone has recognized me, they were too shy to say so. Eventually at AB/DL parties I have met many nice people who are fans of my pictures. I recognized a few from their own pictures. At the events we all greeted one another as fellow AB. But, a few times I have run into some AB I know in public when none of us are playing AB. Under those conditions, we are careful to say nothing that would alert outsiders.

This just in from the CNN service previously know as Court TV: This morning a Florida judge indefinitely posponed the trial most of interest to adults who need diapers. Previously the same judge ruled the early police investigators failed to respect all the legal rights of the accused, thus her statements and the search of her car were not allowed as evidence. The State of Florida has asked the court of appeals to rule the statements and physical evidence are admissible at trial. All this must be a relief to naughty former astronaut Lisa "Didee" Nowak. Remember all the news when she was arrested while attacking the more recent girlfriend of the astronaut who Nowak loved. The search of Lisa's car found a batch of toddler disposable diapers, as well as some used diapers. At the time it was speculated that because astronauts wear disposables during flights, "Didee" Nowak had worn diapers during her long drive from Houston, Texas to Florida to confront her alleged victim, herself an Air Force captain. The same speculation was that "Didee" wanted to save time by avoiding potty stops at nasty dirty restrooms along the way. Subsequently attorneys representing "Didee" denied she was the one who wet the discovered diapers. Apparently an unknown stranger had been in her car shortly before the arrest. Don't we all just hate it when unknown strangers take our diapers, use them and then leave the soggy ones behind? Wanna bet this is not the last we will be reading about Lisa "Didee" Nowak, naughty astronauts and this mess.

First, Pamper Dan, welcome to Daily Diapers. I am fairly new here myself. People here seem very friendly. Your profile shows you as 23 now, so doing the math your return to diapers was about 1994, and your gal cousins were wetting their beds at 15 and 16, thus they were used to wearing diapers. I did the calculation because it was about 1997 that the urology profession realized the factors of genetics and hormone changes when gals start losing bladder control after puberty. This happened to me in 1976, when I was 12 and just hit puberty. Nearly all the women on my Mom's side of the family have the problem, and in my day urologists who did not know us very well assumed we were nuts. Bummer that diapers were used as punishment. It would make more logical sense to simply put a rubber sheet on your bed before you wet. However, then it would be something else that showed you your inner diaper desires. There is no scientific research into diaper fetish, so the best guess is our desires start when we are very young and then later something prompts us to actively use diapers. Are you still communicating with those cousins, who are several years older than you? Do they still wet? Only at night, or did it progress to all the time wetting? That is how it went with me, bed for several years then eventually no bladder control. Have either of these cousins ever mentioned an interest in AB/DL?

As the others have said, so much "Depends" on that hospital's policy, and the reasons for the surgery. If you were involved in an accident while you were diapered, then at the very least the ER triage nurse would ask about your bladder and bowel control. Because an operating room needs to be kept clean, please do not be surprised if your diaper is removed prior to surgery. Just as hospitals seldom allow you to bring your own drugs, chances are if nurses are expected to change you, the hospital will insist on using their standard brand, and the price will be higher than buying diapers on-line. Most surgery is elective, planned in advance. Almost always the pre-surgery instructions include not eating 8 or more ours prior, not drinking even water 8-12 hours prior and often taking 1 or 2 enemas. Usually for surgery you will be on IV, which work better if you are slightly dehydrated. Early in 2007 my husband Don was diagnosed with prostate cancer. His annual PSA blood test came back elevated in January, so he was referred to a urologist for more extensive tests and another PSA. The results were identical, so Don was scheduled for a surgical biopsy as day surgery. He had to fast the night before, without drinking, then take a pair of Fleet's enemas an hour apart that morning. Leading up to the biopsy, both of us met the whole urology team, including the doctor, 2 physicians and several urology nurses. Knowing nothing about me, since these are not my own long-time urologists, the senior PA seemed slightly coy, almost shy, saying Don would leak urine for a few days after the biopsy. Playing along, I asked if maybe I should buy some sort of containment garment so Don would be comfy on the ride home. Of course actually we probably have a better selection of adult diapers at home than are sold in the average supermarket. Once the biopsy came back as an especially fast-growing form of cancer, the decision to have robotic surgery was a no brainer. There was a 6 week wait for an available operating room date, during which Don went on an increased physical fitness program, to really tone his abdominal muscles. During that time we got to know the female physical therapist who would provide exercise and coaching to restore Don's control post surgery. Don told her I had brought an Attends tape-on for the biopsy ride home, and that Depend Adjustable had worked fine the couple of days after. She said that by the time Don woke up in recovery, he would have a catheter which would stay in place at least a week. In the hospital probably don would not need a diaper, and if so they would be provided, paid for by his health plan as part of the whole procedure. Then, when he was to be sent home a few days later, I should bring a tape-on for him to wear, and put a good underpad on the car seat, since the jiggle of the ride would cause some urine leaks. Then to prevent leaks, when Don needed to go anywhere, he should consider using either a tape-on or pull-on. The post-op recovery went very well. As soon as the cath was removed, Don had some control. The coaching was not so different from toilet training of toddlers, with slightly more "big-boy" language.

A couple of months ago my husband Don Davis phoned Tommy to place an order. Don had not looked at the DPF website, and was surprised when Tommy asked him to actually place the order on-line. Don did so, then immediately got a phone call from Mark (Tommy's life partner) explaining to Don that Tommy has grown forgetful in what has to be his second childhood. My guess is that if you check the Babykins website, you will find several of their adult Velcro-fastening contour diapers that are similar to the DPF product. DPF was a long-time dealer for Babykins, but remember Tommy was quite the businessman. It is possible he found another manufacturer to make those diapers for him.

About the time late in 1990 when I was finding out about Adult Baby, I started donating to the Simon Foundation for Continence, even buying Cheryl Gartley's book "Managing Incontinence." That impressed me, so I phoned them and she answered, I shyly mention thinking about AB, explaining I had been incontinent at that point 16 years. Cheryl laughed and confided that in her own definition, if you ever wet and wear a diaper, you are incontinent. Hold that thought, and it might comfort you.

Growing up Mom made it clear to our family she shared a medical condition with her mother (Granny) and her sisters. Way back in the 1960s when I started hearing about this research had not found genetic defects associated with bladder malfunction. While this is not entirely understood even today, at least the medical profession does not assume you are nuts when you say you come from a long line of wetters. Mom, Granny and my favorite Aunt Betsy never made a secret that they all wet their beds and sometimes during the day, managing by wearing diapers. All us kids were taught to not make fun or tease. While it is not possible to keep a diaper need entirely secret, you also do not want to offend outsiders. Being discreet is important. When my oldest sister reached puberty, she started wetting her bed. A few years later the same thing happened to me. Eventually both my younger sisters were wetting. All of us have puny bladders, so timing using toilets became a way of life. Before her senior year of high school my youngest sister Missy needed day diapers. I managed to hold out until law school. Mom had control during the day until she turned 40, probably a record for her female relatives! GanDad, my favorite uncle and Dad all did their best to be supportive, but were frustrated by frequent potty stops. So, it is fair to say my family never gave me static about wearing diapers. Strange as it will seem to many here at DD, I never found out about people who wear diapers because they enjoy them until I was 26. Missy was then 21, married a couple of years, and working as a costumer in the movie industry. Someone told her about Adult Babies. Missy checked around, then told me about using AB as a coping strategy. I giggled, but decided to go looking for "Fetish Times" to learn specifics. Missy had by then not only bought herself a set of pacifiers and some baby bottles, she made herself a romper. All the big babies I read about were having fun, and Missy as well as her husband were happy. AB seemed like a way to relax for me. It was months later before our Mom found out, and she took it well, as did Aunt Betsy and Granny. Much to our surprise, the sister between Missy and me immediately took the attitude we were sick to say we could have fun while diapered. Mind you, this particular sister wets as much as any of us, absolutely refuses to ever wear anything but obvious cloth diapers with vinyl panties and has never managed to hold a job longer than a couple of months. Yet she puts judgment on us! What a sick joke! Please understand that even Granny hardly ever talks to that sister. The rest of us somehow have careers. I am a lot younger than my loving husband Don. Yet his relatives have accepted me. There is no reason for everyone to know about my AB side. I do not want to shock anyone, but the door across the hall from our master bedroom is not kept locked, and inside that room is my personal adult playspace, filled with stuffed toys, a playpen and highchair. Our bedroom has an adult changing table, which does look sort of like a massage table. Okay, maybe the diaper stackers are a clue. Bottom line is I have hundreds of friends and relatives, with only the strange judgmental sister anti-AB. This proves we can never please everyone.

Welcome to DD, Adorable Kvetinka, It is marvelous that you have joined us. I only found this groups a few weeks ago. It has been friendly to me. You will make many friends here. Angela

These days it is difficult to find disposables that do crinkle. No problem for me, because I actually like the cloth-like outer layers. The soft vinyl panties I wear with pinned gauze diapers are quiet, and so were the classic Gerber panties of my teen years. Even in the older days when I wore plastic Attends or Depend, I found that wearing a pair of snug cottom panties over not only reduced leaks and supported the disposable, the cloth reduced the noise. Combimed with heavy full skirts, diaper noise has never been a problem for me when I must be a responsible adult. When I relax at home in gauze diapers if my vinyl panties did make noise that would only add to the charm.

According to my Mom and Granny, I was toilet trained without fuss long before I turned 3. Certainly I have no memory of that. Mom, Granny and my favorite aunt made no secret that they all had bladder problems, so I should expect difficulties after puberty. In our family there was no shame about diapers. They did not believe in disposables, so we wore gauze pinned diapers with vinyl panties. With puberty I started wetting my bed. In middle and high school if a gal wanted to sleep over, I told her, and if I was going to her place I took my own rubber sheet, as well as diaper bag. No embarrassment. For college (pre-law) I did start using disposables, and for law school I needed diapers in the day because the classes were very long. Since then I have worn 24/7 Nights at home I prefer pinned gauze diapers and vinyl panties. Day I use slip-in pads that I make by cutting off the side tabs of Cruiser Size 4. They work well, are comfy and cost very little. For long trips, etc, I do use Attends or Depend tape-on I must have changed thousands of diapers or pads in public ladies rooms and never has there been embarrassment. The gauze diapers and vinyl panties I buy on-line, as I do my Attends. Depends and Pampers Cruisers I buy in local supermarkets without anyone saying anything. The Pampers could be for my kid or grandkid. The Depend could be for my parents. It has never been a problem for me.