Angela Bauer

Well presented Adam! We are led to assume that Younger Girl Amber did wet by accident the first time shotly after the father died. PTSD would be a problem for her and the medical literature is full of cases where a side effect is incontinence, mostly in bed, so that is called Secondary Nocturnal Enuresis. Without immediate, appropriate and experienced treatment Young Amber will not on her own recover from PTSD depression or wetting. Under the mad attacks of Monther it would quickly become total bladder incontinence. Thus when the mother dies, Young Amber has double PTSD with collateral profound incontinence. This video jumps back and forth between present day married Older Amber and her faulty recovered memories of the loving idealized family with her father and the madness after his death. These scenes were intended as a way of explaining a feature length film also titled Redemption, a treatment of which, written by Michael Bryson, is up-thread her and at his My Space page. many of these scenes were not described in the treatment, which hits only the highlights of a proposed movie. The part left out is the crime/death scene investigation. Amber has to be led out of there by CPS lady using the pink daiper bag that Amber did follow irrespective of who was carrying it. This happens often in the treatment. Amber was never accused of murder. For one thing you cannot charge anyone under 14 with homocide, and in the treatment Amber is 12 when her mother died. In the video there are 11 candles on the birthday cake, but she might have turned 12 while her father was alive and it is not shown. The other reason Amber was not charged is the local medical examiner is said to have ruled this suicide by a self-inflicted single fatal gun shot wound to the head of Judith Scott, the mom. We only saw the faulty memory of Amber, but it also might be a situation where the medical examiner lied in the autopsy report to save the cost of a complete investigation, something of a real scandal in Bexar County, TX home of San Antonio and the film maker. Following a brief custody hearing Amber is placed by CPS in a mental institution right out of "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" with dashes of "28 Days" The forced infantilism was previously the main plot point of the 1973 horror feature "The Baby" Amber is subject to shock therapy and does not get out until she is over 18. Early in her stay she injures herself badly with a kitchen knife, hence the visible wrist scar. Certainly Stockholm/Survivor Syndrome would explain Young Amber often being cooperative with the infantilism. Look at the scene where Amber walks down the stairs wearing a jumper and using a pacifier, lets mom do a diaper check, accepts an affectionate pat on her bottom and stands waiting to follow the pink diaper bag out the front door. She also did wet constantly, so her diapers 24/7 were functional. We must remember all that is suspect defective recovered memory after therapy, so to Amber she resented and would not leave the diaper bag to sit outside in her shirt and diaper. The lack of her security diaper bag might explain her fighting back. Everything Adam says about never fully giving up her diapers, pacifier and baby bottle when depressed could be the life story of every kid who fell under the spell of diapers and baby games. Few psychologists report any successfull treatment of adult diaper affectation. Just one reason is normally the goal of therapy is to replace a risky behavior with one less risky. The catch being diaper affectation is the least physically dangerous such behavior. Dispalce it and the patient turns to alcohol and other drugs, which is irresponsible therapy. Let's keep this communication going, sharing all opinions There are no wrong answers

You are in the thought of my husband who had prostate surgery in June and myself. Good speed to a good recovery.

Hardly ever will any simple style of plastic pants be comfortable in bed over a disposable diaper. You have two waterproof layers touching and sticking in such a way the leg elastic can be pulled free of the skin, usually at the wrong time. The simplest approach is to buy ordinary knit cotton briefs as tight as you can get into over your disposable. The tight all-cotton knit will hold the disposable in place, yet will allow air to circulate, thus letting the disposable work as intended. Then, if you still are having leaks, use the vinyl pants over the cotton briefs holding the disposable. This way there is no plastic to plastic contact. The three layers will be stiffer than just the diaper, but you will get used to it, As for less expensive vinyl panties, for your use I highly recommend Kins thin vinyl style 1300V. Kins is the corporate name for Babykins and is also the name of their adult department. Kins is in our links section. They are in BC Canada, have a toll-free number and accept on-line orders. Ordering a single pant is extravagant because of the shipping, but spread over 2 or more pair, you will find it less than $20USA. Another traditional approach is to wear Bedwetter pants over the disposable. These have an absorbent cotton lining. From Kins the lining is terry and the plastic can be stronger than thin vinyl. Bedwetter pants are way more than $20USA each. I do not recommend any pant that combines a plastic layer with a cloth layer, because they are so difficult to wash correctly. The cloth needs very hot water and the plastic need luke warm water. Then the inside of the plastic and the part of the cloth next to it dry very slowly. It is always far better to keep the lining and the plastic separate garments. The ordinary cotton briefs work as well as the terry and the combo I suggest cost a lot less.

Nikki Sweetie Darling, If I did not post on one of your other messages, I am so sorry. This morning I saw this was flagged a short time ago. Quickly reading the suggestions, they are right, especially the new message from Smarti. Except I know women my age with daughters your age, you and I have a lot in common. Perhaps you still have bladder control with is wonderful. I hope you always have the option of going places without a diaper when you want. On the other hand I was told as a small girl the chances were after puberty I would be incontinent, as was my Granny, Mom, so aunts and soon my oldest sister. Since my bladder is puny, for trips Mom would pin me in a diaper eventhough I was a dry girl day and night. Thus when I did start to lose control diapers did not terrorize me. Lucky for me I managed to have day control all through middle and high school and even through pre-law. By then I would sometimes wear a diaper under my skirt to class. Law school was a different city and I just wore 24/7 for the day convenience and for need at night. I had never dreamed there were sane adults who wanted to be incontinent or who wore diapers for fun until I was 26 and an attorney with a very conservative law firm. My youngest sister who also has no bladder control told me she read that adult baby games were a coping strategy for incontinent people. It sounded like fun, but then I had all the fears. What if someone finds out at work my diapers are more than a necessity? Well, until I was 12 Mom or my big sister often changed my pinned cloth diaper in ladies rooms. We did not use discreet disposables in the 1960s and 1970s. Kids would spoy my diaper and sometimes they would point, stare and make jokes. I never let it bother me because I already knew it is not possible to wear diapers frequently and not be caught. Nikki, the same holds for being an AB, DL or TB. If you are confident going into a store and buying a pacifier set, or some baby bottles while asking a clerk about nipple alternatives, almost certainly they will assume you are buying for a relative, are the mom or the nanny. Even when you buy adult diapers, the clerks only want your cash or credit card. From 1989 to 1993 my law firm needed me to travel by plane nearly every week. I wore disposables 24/7 and had to have fresh bags delivered to my hotel rooms. More than a few times I would forget I was using a pacifier when a client or colleague came to my hotel room, or I would see them in the hall while I was getting ice. If anyone asked, I would say I was quitting smoking. That was also an era when people who went to rave events used pacifiers and even wore disposables on the outside of their slacks. Pay attention to Smarti and the others. Until you try wearing an adult diaper and wetting it, you will never know if it is your thing. Probably you will want to try several brands and styles because some work for one person and some for other folks. I assume you grew up in disposables. Today's adult diapers are sort of like toddler Pampers from 1980 inside, but many styles now have the cloth-like outer surface you probably have not worn as a kid. The good news is that many modern adult diapers have tabs that can be repositioned many times. As an entry tryout consider the Depend Adjustable. It is not the best diaper going, but it is a pull-up, with the benefit of 2 tabs per side to perfect the fit. Those are a super training diaper, because they stay in place while you fiddle with the fit. Later by instinct you will get the tapes in the best spot first try, but that does take practice. Best wishes and happy AB diapering, Baby Angel

Hi Everyone, Yesterday a member posted a link in the Links section for a firm that provides consultation world-wide to makers of baby disposables. That firm is Carlos Richer Investments. They run a lab dedicated to doing disposable quality testing, and even explain how to do it for a science fair. The link is: http://disposablediaper.net The author explains the similarity between the original polyethelene plastic outer layer, the transition to some other plastic and then to cloth-like. Turns out it is not cloth. It is an even thinner soft plastic bonded to thin plastic made to feel like cloth. Richer advocates using it for premium brands of baby diapers because when mothers hold infants in their arms the outer cloth-like is more comfy for the mom. The infant can't tell. The implication is cloth-like is more expensive, not a way the makers save making, but maybe sell more. Oh, yes, if you want to make your own disposables, Richer sells an assortment of new and slightly used baby diaper making machines and low, low affordable prices. Only thing is the building needs to be at least 200x150 feet, longer is better.

Heven, Like a Fish just gets better and better. So Lily has a baby sister named Daisy. Does that mean there could be another sister named Rose or Poppy? I should have gone to bed, but when I saw a new installment, I stayed up to read it. Luv, Baby Angel

Luv and Huggies for Pampering us by providing this link. Carlos E. Richer is the world's leading independent consultant to the baby disposable diaper industry. Who knew he also writes in an entertaining way, so you learn more about the construction of disposables that you thought you wanted to know. Want to buy a machine to make your own disposable diapers? Carlos Richer Investments has a selection of new and "slightly used" diaper making machines. Cost? Like a boat, if ya hafta ask, ya can't afford it. Oh, and you need a building over 200 feet long, the longer the better. The machines are as much as 50 feet wide, and you need space to store the stuff that goes into a diaper. And more space to store the finished diapers until you ship them to customers. How many diapers per minute? The major manufacturers run each machine up to 1,000 per minute. If Carlos said how long it takes to change a machine for various sizes, I have not found the information. It must be there. Everything else is, even jokes about diapers and a few pictures of big baby girls. My frustration pleading with KCC about larger Huggies and P&G about larger Pampers and Luv got me speculating buying a machine. I will need to save a lot of pennies because he says the starting investment is a million dollars for the machine, plus another couple of million for the supplies you need to get started. Then leasing such a huge building has to cost a whole lot. Oh, the kicker is that apparently the reason we do not have Size 8, 9 and 10 Pampers Cruisers is the oldest machines in use max out at Size 5, and most newer machines max at Size 6. Pampers must have custom built a machine for Size 7. Bummer that Carlos does not consult about making adult diapers. Maybe I could buy one of those machines and set it to make diapers smaller than Attends Youth and Small, with modern features. Richer shared there does not appear to be enough market for tape-on diapers for people too big for Size 6 and too small for conventional adult disposables, what we call the "GoodNites" size. Obviously I have gotten it all wrong. According to Carlos Richer virtually all disposables currently on the market are more gentle on the skin than the most carefully washed cloth diapers. Reading his research, he makes a point. Skin is best when dry, and all this talk about the inner feel-dry layer is correct. Published articles saying cloth is safer were written a long time ago, and compared cloth to first generation disposables from before disposables came with tapes. In those days cloth diapers were changed at least six times a day, while often today toddlers need only 3 disposables. Of course that assumes there is a disposable that fits. The nice thing about cloth and pins is they can be adjusted for ideal fit. Ya just gotta change them more often. All kidding aside, Carlos Richer has a fabulous site.

The Treatment for Redemption is found on Michael Bryson's My Space web site. Apparently he started developing a feature length film. For reasons he has not explained he filmed what is in the video first. Many of these scenes are not found in the Treatment. That is not unusual since Treatments do not include finished dialog, nor every scene. What is in the video probably would fit in the feature in a couple of places. The portions with Mother/Judith Scott and Younger Girl/Amber Scott, with and without Father, likely would be used as flash-backs while Amber is in the mental institution. The the scenes with Older Girl/Amber and Husband would conclude the feature. At least that is my guess. I sent a personal message to Mr. Bryson on his My Space page including the link to this discussion. He might well have read it by now, although he has not replied to me. He did check message today, but perhaps before my message to him went through. BTW on Bryson's My Space page, a link is provided in a message before the one with the Treatment text, there some production photos that everyone will find interesting. They move from right to left slowly enough you can see them.

Hi Lil, Are you using conventional diaper pins with plastic head? Some are made with heavier wire than others. The First Years are generally the best. It helps if you stick the point into a bar of hand soap. That lubricates the wire when it is going into the cloth. So what when the soap stays, because it washes out. Hand soap is the only lubricant safe with diapers. If your diaper pins are not sharp, you can fix that with very fine grit sandpaper, 150 or higher. After you sharpen the points be sure to wash the pins, and then stick the points into the soap. Do this and pins last a long time. Sharp soapped pins also do not damage the diaper fabric. Baby Angel, who sleeps in cloth diapers

Smarti, My personal guess is The Naughty Astronaut is so used to diapers she needs to catch dribbles when driving. I do the same thing. Since that does not require a full pull-on or tape-on adult diaper for women, a slip-in pad is fine. For high profile women buying infant diapers is discreet, and the Naughty One does have small children. Chances are she was doing like I have done, and use the toddler disposable not as a stuffer but instead of a sanitary pad. Actually for me a Size 4 Pamper Curiser work for this purpose better than any of the feminine and incontinent products out there. Normally I do cut the tabs off, but it is not uncomfortable when I don't take the time.

Thanks Smarti, for providing the link to Michael Bryson's My Space page, then later printing-out his treatment for Redemption. By coincidence in my frustration trying to reach Michael Bryson directly, I discovered his My Space minutes before seeing your message. I had not at the time figured out how to actually read his page. Your link solved my problem. As we all know, there are various opinions about every scene in the video of Redemption. Reading his treatment does not answer many of our questions. It seems like what he was going to make was a combination of "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest" meets the 1970's horror flick "The Baby" also about forced infantilism, with dashes of several police procedurals. The mystery is why Bryson decided to make a video that is focused on the violence toward Amber/Younger Girl and then Amber/Older Girl, leaving out the middle about the mental institution and yet adding scenes not mentioned in the treatment. When I finally was able to send a private message to Michael Bryson on his My Space account I told him how much I appreciate Redemption, how much discussion it has created right here and I gave him the link to this discussion. Who knows, maybe he will share with us why he decided to write this story, then present it as the video we watched. Since he has not listed me as one of his friends I could not post a comment, but I do see the mother of Ayla Judson is one of his friends and her picture includes her talented daughter, Ayla herself commented on his VEOH page.

OH, Heven, Like A Fish just keeps getting better and better. Luv this and do keep it coming. Baby Angel

Hi Emily, I totally agree with you. Since I lost my bladder control at age 12, I have needed to change my own diaper in public restrooms thousands of times. I also well remember from age 3 to 12 when I had good control, but a small bladder. On trips Mom would diaper me so Dad was not frustrated by frequent potty stops. Those days were before handicap stalls. Mom only used pinned cloth diapers. You really have not lived until you are on your back on the counter of a ladies room being watched by women and little girls as your mom pins you into a dry diaper. Mom was loving, but shall we say when I was 11 it attracted attention. Maybe for me in the long run it was good I had a background of accepting diapers. It was so much better when I had learned to change myself, standing in a stall. Some work days I am in my law office which has a private bathroom. More often I need to change a time or two in a ladies room on the same floor as whatever court is hearing my case. Fortunately I usually can use slip-in pads. My experience is hardly anyone pays attention, yet I never am entirely sure, especially when a woman on the jury hearing my case sees me.

Dear Diapered Witch, Since I was not part of the REDEMPTION creative team, nor have I interviewed Michael Bryson, your guess is as good as mine about every aspect of the film. Having talked to hundreds of independent film makers all expecting to be Hollywood's next Michael Bay, I venture some guesses here. The whole concept of abuse by way of force diapering and infantilization is so far off the radar outside the AB/DL community, I personally assume either Bryson knows someone who went through exactly this, or found some first hand acounts. Maybe there was a trial? Weird as it seems, behind the MTV edits, there sadly could be a lot of truth. What I do not assume until Bryson tells me different is that someone not connected to AB/DL would make all this up from scratch. The bulk of your question is: Why would someone forced into diapers return to them later when depressed? Although with the retirement of Mary Ann Hogan, PhD who practiced psychotherapy in St. Louis until about 1996, actually did counsel several people way into diaper use beyond incontinence. During the SpringFling'93 my husband Don and I hosted in Hollywood, Dr. Hogan was flown in by one of her clients. She spent parts of two days interviewing me and all the other women at the convention. Her goal was to write a text book about therapy of several fetish behaviors. After working on it several years, nobody would publish it. That is the closest anyone has come to scientific research into fetish of any kind. Don's younger sister is a practising psychiatrist in Santa Barbara, CA. The only AB/DL she has met are from our close circle of friends in the Hollywood/Los Angeles area. All of us are at peace with our inner diapered child or diapered lover. None of us have gone to her for counseling or therapy. So is her opinion any more valid that yours? The first time I saw Redemption on-line this week, I immediately phoned her, then talked her through the links. She consulted one of her friends who specializes in juvenile and adolescent urology. They had viewed the film and called me back on a conference three-way. What the urologist pointed out was that "Younger Girl" did in fact suffer Secondary Nocturnal Euresis, doctor speak for bedwetting after years of being dry. So, when the girl started to suffer Post Traumatic Stress disorder as a result of the auto accident and survivor guilt, bedwetting is a commonly reported symtom. Thus when the girl wet her bed several nights, providing her diapers was not out of line. Perhaps Mother herself was nuts, and went about sweet talking the girl into using the diapers. Most rational parents would have put a rubber or plastic sheet on the child's bed and relaxed. Then the next step would be an easy to wear discreet pull-up such as GoodNites. Rationally the idea of managing wetting is to sell the patient on owning her own urine. With a kid much over 5 it is possible and ideal to train the kid to change his or her own diapers. Probably parents and medical pros avoid using the diaper word with kids age 5 to 15. Okay, suppose the girl was not nuts, just slightly mixed up. She knew she wet and she knew she did not want to wet. She wanted to be dry like most kids age 10. She did not know the stats about percentage of girls age 10 who wet, so she would assume she was unique and odd. Then Mother got into serious hitting, not spanking, since we can see Mother is sitting higher than the feet, her body covering the girl's bottom, and the girl is face up. So that part is clearly abuse. Since Mom was bonkers and hated her daughter, her abuse turned to forced baby regression. None of this means that despite being forced, the girl was not comforted by her diapers, and sometimes enjoyed the pacifier and baby bottle. What the girl hated was being hit in the face, yelled at, diapered by force and violence and then made to be outside with her diaper showing. Combine that with Mother being so stupid she left a S&W .38 Chief's special in her bedside drawer with no safety lock. We also do not know who taught the Younger Girl the FBI 2 handed grip and using both thumbs to cock the hammer. In most states minor children under the age of 14 cannot be tried for serious crimes. Probably a decent defense attorney would plead any charges against the girl down to spending some quality time re-gaining her bladder control and getting past the several PTSD layers, since the mistreatment by Mom would send many into therapy. Now it is over 12 years later. Younger Girl is now married to a decent guy, played by Bryson. She went out and bought the closest kind of diapers, paci and bottles she could find. All that treatment of her incontinence did nothing to remove her love of diapers under certain conditions. Nor did it deal with her craving to suckle, a paci or a nipple on a bottle. The best part of Bryson making this movie is that after seeing it people are thinking about child abuse, firearm safety and just possibly juvenile incontinence. We all here add messages about the AB/DL aspects. Comments?

Hi Chucky, Since you set a limit of a single week, you do not have time for delivery of alternative diapers ordered on-line. Trust me, a whole lot of incontinent adults wear various styles of Depend to work. Apparently you bought Depend Briefs. You did not say those have plastic outer layer, but many Depend diapers do. What your local stores should stock are Depend Adjustable, which are a pull-on with 2 tabs per side allowing then to be pulled snug after they are in place. Those are quite thin when dry and have a cloth-like outer layer. Yes, they are not babyish and I do not recommend them for sleeping. Right now you need to adjust your body to the sensation of being diapered. Hospitals sometimes need to diaper adults. Sleeping is often a problem, but since it is a hospital, the patient can be given sleep-inducing medications. At home you could legally and ethically take an over the counter medication such as Nyquill. So what if you sleep deeply, you are safely diapered. Oh yes, your bed does have a waterproof sheet, right? It is most comfy if placed under the top sheet. A hospital will often add a draw sheet, which is a flat top sheet folded over and placed crosswise. Should the draw sheet get damp, it can easily be replaced. Sometimes the hospital places a dispoable underpad between the folds of the draw sheet. Often pharmacies and nearly all medical supply stores stock disposable underpads in home-size packs. Best wishes on your diapered week, Baby Angel

Heidilynn, compared to a major Hollywood studio movie, REDEMPTION must have a tiny budget. Of course, compared to the bulk of 21 minute short subjects made by independent producers, the budget was enough to ensure quality work and fanatical attention to detail. The Monty Python Spanish Inquisition cardinals will be so proud! With respect, considering the quality of the production design, the camera work and the acting, I seriously doubt any lapses in what we consider "continuity" are mistakes. My working assumption is that the creatives are telling the incidents as rememberd by "Younger Girl" played so well by Ayla Judson. BTW, in my early message today I called her character "Young Girl" and when I checked the credits again, I see it is Younger Girl. A production assistant named Dawn Judson is credited, so I assume that is the mother of the actress. People ask about legal problems. Golly I am so happy my firm does not represent the producers or distributors. I specialize in corporate litigation, mostly in Federal Court. My professional suggestion to all the adults involved in this production is to retain the best available criminal defense attorneys experience in both Federal and whatever state in which this was made. Artistic Merit is not a perfect defense when the charge is kiddie porn. Nowhere in the USA can a parent make a contract contrary to the fiduciary best interest of the child. Ayla Judson was a minor child of tender years when the video was shot, so she does not get a legal vote about making this film. Let us hope Ayla does become a huge star, equal to Ellen Page right now. Let us also hope that Ayla matures as a responsible adult without the excess of Ms Spears, et al. How will Ayla react at age 25 when someone brings up images of her diapered, working a pacifier? It is no secret the S&W revolver was not loaded. Actually I am very happy the creatives did not place dummy shells in the visible chambers. This is not in my mind a continuity problem, nor a solution to a sticky legal/safety issue. I prefer to think it was a deliberate creative decision to allow the audience to hope someone else fired the fatal shot. Maybe seeing that revolver in the steady two-handed grip that an FBI range master would approve, was a wake-up call to Mother her abuse had crossed the line. I am told when someone aims a firearm at you and you see as well as hear the hammer cocked, you do not pay attention to empty chambers. It only takes one live round. What if Younger Girl simply put the revolver on the counter, picked up her pacifier and left the room. Meanwhile Mother had to change her own soiled panties, the usual reaction of facing a gun at close range. Later Mother was so filled with remorse she did load the S&W and ended her own sad life. Anything is possible. Ayla Judson is listed by IMDb as living in San Antonio, TX. During the Phil Spector trial the former chief medical examiner of that (Bexar) County testified to an extraordinary percentage of suicides by women using guns. Golly Vince DiMattro, MD was under oath. What we know is it took guts to make this short video. Personally I cannot imagine going to people with production money and explaining the concept of this film before a scene was filmed. The important thing is REDEMPTION was made, was edited, had music added and has been distributed on-line. Perhaps it will jump-start careers for Michael Bryson, who did everything including playing "Husband." Now, unless Monica Curtis who played Older Girl actually did recover from wrist slitting years ago, I also see a bright future for Amy C. Rabold credited with both Makeup and Special Effects Makeup. All those details are pitch perfect. Mother's highlights became increasingly obvious as she decended into madness. Older Girl did not have skin flaws painted out, and some of that could be special effects makeup. Younger Girl started out looking like a sophisticated tweenie of 10 going on 30 at the playground, and even before the physical abuse appeared years younger while wetting her bed. Older Girl is shown appearing to wear no makeup, which is itself a special effect. Honestly I wish the music was credited. Even that was carefully selected, mixed and edited. Comments?

Heven, a million thanks for creating LIKE A FISH. As a woman with no bladder control who does need to function as a responsible adult much of every day, I can relate to all your characters. Trust me I am happily married to a nice, loving and understanding man, as Russell is written. Yes, I have also know lechers like Jim is written so far. I have faith Lily has the skills necessary to turn Jim to her advantage without resorting to unethical methods. When a story is this compelling we are more than willing to suspend our disbelief. In your world Diapers can hold gallons of water. Why not?

A Big Welcome, Ric. Life is not always easy for people who need diapers and nappies. Maybe it is more difficult when the need is emotional. You do not mention incontinence and I hope that you have control when you want. There are no easy answers for bring romantic partners around to accepting our diaper needs. You must have tried all your married life since you fist met your wife. I was so lucky to come from a family supportive of me when I started to lose my control at age 12. People have generally been kind to me all my life. I had not read about adult babies or diaper lovers until I was 26. AB has made my time at home a lot better. Fortunately the man I fell in love with accepted my medical and emotional need of diapers. The reality of me working a pacifier, or dummy, has to be hard on my husband. I accept that. Marriage is something requiring cooperation and sharing. Ric, you must be a nice person. Use your imagination to find ways to make yoursefl such a super husband your wife will accomodate your nappy use some of the time. Best wishes.

Will, you are on to something. "Redemption" is one of those provocative independent videos that requires the audience to stop and think. Each of us will find different interesting aspects. Then we can have the shared experience of discussing what we saw. By now I have downloaded this to my hard drive, which I must say really improves the sound quality. One of the first comments here felt there was a deliberate attempt to disguise the voice of the narrator. Personally I now think that sound is a combination of the woman's accent and artifacts of multi-generation digital recordings. Will, you noticed that the nursing bottle, pacifier and diaper all are different when "Older Girl" is contemplating the past. That is a very keen observation. Wow, right now I wish there were some kind of film festival, perhaps connected to the Sundance thingie, where the cast and creatives of REDEMPTION were on stage to answer audience questions. The more I look at this video, with and without the sound, pausing to study details, things you can't do when seated in an audience as the video screens, the more convinced I am despite this being an independent production, the creatives are well-trained and ultra-sophisticated film makers. There do not appear to be any accidents during filming that reached the screen in the ultimate edit presented. The easy thing would have been to use the same kind of diaper, bottle and pacifier, as if those had been saved in the plastic container for many years, along with the evidence envelope containing the crime scene photos. On first viewing, as a lawyer I focused on how Older Girl obtained those photos. Now I realize I must view the entire story and completely suspend disbelief and my tendency to pick nits. Had Older Girl completely lost track of the time on the day Husband discovered her in the diaper with the photos. We are led to assume somehow he knew nothing of her past. It is entirely possible the contemplation by adult Older Girl is happening thousands of miles from where Young Girl was abused. Perhaps when the body of Mother was discovered, Child Protective Services began taking care of and providing psycho therapy for Young Girl. Along the way physical evidence of the abuse, such as the original left-over diapers, nurser and pacifier might have been thrown away by the authorities. Once Older Girl had completed therapy and become an adult she could have filed a Freedom of Information order to obtain the evidence photos. Then she could have gone shopping to replace the missing diapers, nurser and pacifier. Although Older Girl has some stuffed toys, they are not the same ones. Her clothing is not far enough from normal to be fetish adult baby. Yet when we compare the mature look of Young Girl during the graveyard confrontation with the way she was dressed under the "care" of Mother, the implication was that this was forced infantilism. There are many possible explanations why Young Girl did actually wet her bed. The auto accident that killed Father might have caused PTSD in both Young Girl and Mother. Each presented PTSD in different ways. Enuresis is commonly considered a symptom of PTSD in children. Many details were left to the vivid imagination of every viewer. The audience is told nothing of the years between Mother's death and Older Girl's contemplation. Somehow the incontinence or enuresis was treated. My impression is that Older Girl did not need a diaper when she kissed Husband good-bye. To me her diaper was dry when Husband found her. That was no accident by the creatives. They went to the trouble of wetting Young Girl's jammies in a realistic way when it counted. The early narration and the images shown do not agree. It is entirely possible Older Girl misinterpreted Mother's feelings prior to the auto accident. It is also possible Older Girl got it right, Mother already was jealous of the relationship between Father and Young Girl. PTSD could be a factor causing Mother to force the infantilism beyond reason. Few would argue that it is appropriate parenting to obtain medical care for a 10yo girl who starts wetting her bed following an traumatic event. Perhaps a rational parent would put a rubber sheet on the girl's bed to protect the mattress, then sweet-talk the child into accepting the protection of discreet disposable products, such as GoodNites. The literature of child abuse prevention is filled with case studies where children wetting drives parents to rage, often acted out with verbal and severe physical abuse. The filmmakers sure showed us Mother's rage. But, they also showed us Mother being kind. Remember the scene in which Young Girl walks down stairs wearing a long skirt while working a pacifier? Mother is waiting. She greets her daughter warmly, then turns her so she can lift the back of the girl's skirt to show the obvious diaper. After allowing the skirt to fall back into place, Mother gently pats the girl's bottom before picking up a large and childish diaper bag, then leaving the house with the girl. Unfortunately for Young Girl in a following sequence it is implied Mother put the girl on the floor to change her diaper in the living room prior to dragging the weeping and protesting child out the door. There the child huddles outside, in just her diaper and top, on the ground beside a fence. In dispair the child tosses her pacifier, then the house door opens slightly. See, each of us will find a million things in REDEMPTION to make us think. We must thank the producers for spending a significant amount of effort and money to make this short video with zero chance of being a profit center. If there is justice, this might be the sample reel to jump-start careers in Entertainment for cast, crew and creatives. At the moment only Ayla Judson (playing Young Girl so very well) has a page on IMDb, showing a credited small role in a feature film that has not found distribution and an uncredited role in a film that was shown at a festival in 2007. Could this be her year? How many people knew about Ellen Page before her Oscar nomination for starring in JUNO? A few Powers That be in Hollywood had seen her in 2006 in HARD CANDY another film difficult to watch about a victim of abuse who turns the table. Will, can any of us ever forget the image of Young Girl removing that chromed stainless S&W .38 Chief's Special revolver from the drawer, carrying it toward Mother, placing first her pacifier, then the gun on the counter, using a trained two-handed grip and cocking the hammer? The audience is left to consider the consequences. Could the evidence photos show the body of Mother on the floor?

Welcome to Daily Diapers, There are so many friendly folks here, with all sorts of diaper needs. For example, I became incontinent, starting with just bedwetting right after puberty. Eventually I needed diapers 24/7 but did not discover the joys of Adult baby until I was 26. Kyoko Sweetie, what would you like to share about your diaper use? Lately many of us have been discussing the up and down side of wearing diapers in school, college or university. Perhaps you could add to this? Enjoy. Baby Angel

At the very end of "REDEMPTION" after the screen goes black, there is a fade-in showing the "Older Girl" snuggling in bed with "Husband" then after some technical credits there is a cast list. Father, Mother, Young Girl, Older Girl and Husband. In the birthday cake scenes, there are 10 candles. The icing says "Happy Birthday Amber" In the scenes with the adult wearing a diaper, her wedding ring shows especially when she is suckling from the nursing bottle. Clinical psychology is not my profession. Victims of abuse turning to AB has long been a subject in fiction. It is possible some who were abused with diapers and being treated as infants later do find aspects of AB a coping strategy. Since Older Girl appeared sad once Husband left for work, she recovered a container from under the bed. In it apparently were her AB supplies, plus a set of crime scene photos. Perhaps screen writer, producer and director Michael Bryson wanted to make his point within 20 minutes by showing a few sensational scenes, without real-life logic. I do not mean to pick nits. As disturbing as "Redemption" is, it sure got a discussion started. Without nitpicking, I am curious: When Mother diapers Young Girl, it appeared the tabs were very wide. When Older Girl is diapered, she only has one tab per side. Both kinds of diapers are decorated. Are those actual off-the-shelf products? Did the prop and costume department decorate various styles of adult diapers? We know the actress playing "Young Girl" is Ayla Judson, born Dec 15 1994. Debbie Judson, perhaps her actual mom, is credited as a production assistant. Ayla was 12 when the video was produced and is not tiny for her age. Could a gal that big fit into any decorated toddler disposable? Monica Curtis plays Older Girl. She is hardly a child-size adult woman. I am not familiar with any adult disposables with just one tab per side. To me the decoration appeared to be added. Perhaps that is also true for the smaller disposables. Could those have started as Attends Small or Youth? Logic suggests that if Young Girl was 10 when her Father died, and Older Girl is married, at least 10 years have passed. Were such huge flat-screen TV sets available to the general public so long ago? When Young Girl is suckling a pacifier, it is an UltiMAM with a toddler regular latex nipple. Were those on the market in 1996? Funny, Older Girl prefers another style of pacifier that seems retro to me. The nurser bottles both suckle appear to be clear plastic 8oz, perhaps Evenflo. Young Girl's bottle is decorated, while Older Girl's is plain.

The title of this short film "Redemption" has been used many times, as shown by IMDb. My next step was to check the names listed on IMDb. This is a Michael Bryson film and he plays the husband toward the end. IMDb shows two people with that name, one an actor and the other crew. Apparently those are different people. Ginger Martin is credited as the mother. An actress with the same name played an adult character in "Bad News Bears" so chances are that is not the same person. Ayla Judson is credited as playing the young girl. In 2006 she played "Ghost Girl" in Halletsville which starred Gary Bussey, which is not shown as being released. In 2007 Ayla had an uncredited role in Homo Erectus that was shown during the 2007 SlamDance Festival, an off-shoot of Sundance. That's about it for the creatives. Interesting that Ayla, who is now 13 and from San Antonio, TX left a comment about the film. There is a thriving film making community in San Antonio, so it is possible this film was made there. It is disturbing seeing an actual minor being physically abused on camera. The reality is that bedwetting beyond age 4 is an emotional issue in many families and is reported to be a serious cause of physical abuse. Let us hope when significant numbers of the general public find this film attention will be given to educating parents that children are not being naughty when they wet. What a shame the mother took out her anger on the girl, instead of helping the child regain bladder control. With love and affection the child could have been talked into accepting diapers and a rubber sheet as a temporary way of dealing with bedwetting.

Re: late night TV commercials for toddler diapers, remember it is parents that make the purchase. Often grandparents influence the choice. Chances are very good KCC (Huggies and GoodNites) and P&G (Pampers and Luvs) have market research supporting their decision to run those commercials when they run. Also, I suspect researchers from those companies join message boards such as this. Thus it is very possible P&G as well as KCC realize a certain percentage are being used by adults instead of conventional slip-in pads.

Aleia, the latest trick is to use modified taddler disposables as liners or slip-in pads. The active part of a Pampers Cruiser Size 4 is larger than a commercial pad, and yet cost a lot less. It takes seconds to cut off the side tabs. So, if your stress incontinence increases in volume, remember there is a good discreet alternative short of wearing an actual diaper. I use those modified Cruisers daily in Court and at my law office. Nobody notices or cares.

Bottom line is there are no scientific studies to count the number of AB and DL people world-wide. Clearly the nice folks making Bambino disposables designed and decorated for AB/DL did enough marketing research to conclude they could make it a business. Look at the links and count the vast number of vendors all saying they are either AB Friendly or AB Aware. Certainly in the USA, Canada and England there are many firms selling AB supplies. DL do not need as many props, but they do buy diapers, cloth and disposable and some plastic panties. In the USA the major manufacturers of adult disposables are Kimberly Clark Corp who make Depend and Paper Pak Corp who have long made institutional and generic adult disposables, then bought the Attends brand and factories in North America from P&G. Between them they make nearly all the USA store-brand generic adult disposables. You can be sure they do market research, but they keep the results a deep business secret. What has leaked out based on careful studies of annual reports, is that in the USA the adult diaper market has sales more than double that of infant-toddler disposables, and with far better profit percentage, because adult diapers hardly ever are sold at discount. Also, parents buying toddler disposables are more price sensitive than brand loyal, while the reverse is true with adult disposables. Virtually every senior living in an assisted facility is diapered. Add the seniors living in private homes, and the many larger teens to seniors who wear because of injury or illness. With a lower birth rate and adults living longer each year, the growth market is adult disposables. Want to speculate P&G regrets selling Attends? One USA government study for 2005 showed that nearly 20 million people bought at least one pack of adult disposables. Add the 5 million or so living in old folks facilities and hospitals. That is a lot of disposables. Wanna bet a percentage are DL?