2011

Me win ☹️

That's a scary diaper.

Long post - Not sure if I'm looking for feedback or need questions answered but wanted to share - Anyone with similar experiences? Background and intro post here I surpassed the desire to wear for most of my teen years and figured if I married someone who would wear pull-ups for me, that would be sufficient. Pretty quickly after getting married, I realized that wasn’t the case. Things were tense for a couple years with the wife while we both sorted through our feelings but things are generally resolved at this point. She’ll wear pull-ups for me and wet them before being intimate which is great. She initially wasn’t supportive of my wearing but is okay with it now. The acceptance has helped our relationship grow and allow me to begin sorting through many years of suppressed feelings. I’ve been trying to sort out childhood memories and how I got to where I am now… What caused the interest and why? Wife is currently pregnant with our first child which has only strengthened the desire to understand my own childhood.  First and foremost I should clarify, I would absolutely not wish this on my own children. However, if my upbringing lead to my enjoyment of diapers today, how can I raise my kids differently to avoid them having the same fate… And if they do, how can I be supportive? Anyway, I digress, probably save this conversation for a different post but I’m curious to connect with other parents… This is my effort to document in writing and put some puzzle pieces together. Aside from my wife, no-one else knows. She has done some “investigating” on my behalf as she is expecting a child so it’s not too weird to ask questions of my parents. I’m hoping it will be therapeutic and helpful to share - Overall, I’m in a very good place mentally but I still have questions and want to fully understand my story. Long intro but let’s start by going over my childhood and what memories I do have. Please take with a grain of salt as my brain could be making some of this up. According to my parents, I wet the bed until 7 or so (this is an exciting idea to me?). I’m the oldest of 4 with 3 younger sisters, will refer to them as A. B, and C. I recently found out that my sister A (4 years younger than me) also wet the bed until 7, but the youngest sisters (6 and 8 years younger) stopped wetting overnight shortly after potty training. For context, I was would have been 8 when my youngest sister was born. For wetting the bed until 7, I have surprisingly few memories of wearing diapers and ZERO memory of wearing pull-ups. I do have a memory of my dad diapering me at what must have been 5 or 6 years old, so I’m assuming they simply kept me in diapers until I stopped wetting the bed. I was a small child so I’m assuming size 6-7 diapers would have worked just fine and I do have fond memories of Huggies diapers with lions. The idea of being in diapers at 7 is oddly exhilarating and still excites me whenever I think about it, almost a yearning  to remember more of these early days. I have no interest in age play, nor do I desire to have anyone diaper me now, so I’m not quite sure what to do with this feeling.  I remember wearing diapers on a plane and in a car but at no particular age. I do remember I wore underwear over the diapers when traveling. I also remember wearing something (diaper or pull up) to a church sleepover event and waking up wet in the morning. I also remember one occasion where my grandma had put me down for a rest and I wasn’t settling down. She put a diaper on the bed and threatened to put it on me if I didn’t chill out. I must have been out of daytime diapers at that point because I remember being embarrassed but also slightly excited about the idea. I feel like I must have been 6 or 7 and I think she must have known I still got diapered at night. These are pretty much my only memories of anything having to do with diapers while I still wet the bed.  Some time between 7 and 9, I did steal a diaper and wore it one evening. My parents caught me and I received some sort of punishment. My parents confirmed they did use pull-ups for some bedtime wetting but they didn’t specify me and I think it was mostly for my sisters. When I around 9, Sister A would have been 5 and wetting the bed. Sister B would have been potty training and 3 years old.  Sister C would have been 1. My theory is that they decided to have sister A & B both wear pull-ups to bed until sister A was dry at night. I imagine it would have been odd to diaper the older sister when younger sister was dry. At that point, with 3 kids in diapers, pull-ups would have been a win/win solution. Perhaps not consciously at the time but I was absolutely jealous of my sisters wearing pull-ups. I’m practically jealous now thinking back to it. Although I seem to have enjoyed wearing diapers too, I wish I had wet the bed longer - It’s a profound sadness (I’m not generally very emotional), almost like my childhood was stolen from me because I didn’t get to wear pull-ups? I wish I had memories of bedwetting in pull-ups as a child Anyway, I'm not sure what to do with these memories and the feelings that they surface. Wearing now doesn't ease these feelings - It's not a huge deal, it's just a bit confusing and I'd like to understand...

Well hello ABDL community, long long time lurker, finally here to tell my story. Quick few facts about me to set the stage: Married and wife is supportive, though not super interested Having our first baby later this year I’d consider myself to be an entrepreneur, currently run a small business and work remotely for a tech company Interested in pull-ups first, but use diapers most as they are more practical Oldest of 4 with 3 younger sisters 27 years old, male, not interested in age play I’ve been trying to sort out childhood memories and how I got to where I am now… What caused the interest and why? Will post my story in General forum but wanted to intro myself here.

In "Livy's New Family" an anxious Olivia and her stressed husband found a new dynamic that worked for them. Landon came on to the scene with the goal of stealing Dan away, however, the more she learned about Dan and Livy, the more she sensed a different opportunity. Getting installed as Mommy, she brought her own Little into the dynamic and it seemed the four of them would live happily ever after... However, tensions have started to arise as Livy and her three partners try to navigate the intricacies of a polyamorous lifestyle, ABDL lifestyle, and all the complications that come with it. Can the four of them navigate their complex living situation and come out the other side as an even stronger unit? Or will they discover that the realities of their new living situation just won't work for them? Can Dan deal with a Little that is more of a brat than Livy? Can Landon find the right caregiver style to suit Livy? Can Robyn navigate her complicated feelings regarding men? 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If you have the spare funds and wish to find out more, you can visit either of my subscriber pages. https://reamstories.com/elfy https://subscribestar.adult/elfy ---  Livy’s New Mommy By Elfy “Morning.” Dan said with a smile. “Mmm, already?” Landon yawned. Her eyes were half-open as she laid in the bed next to Dan. “I’ll make us some coffee.” Dan said as he went to push back the covers. “Not yet.” Landon draped an arm across Dan’s chest. The bedroom was still dark in the early morning light. The curtains blocking the sun almost completely, just a small crack in the centre allowed any rays into the room at all. Dan and Landon were both naked and in bed, a Saturday morning with no work or anything to have to worry about. Dan smiled and laid back against the pillows feeling the weight of his girlfriend’s arm across him, her naked body sliding under the covers until one leg was draped over his waist and breasts pressed into his side. The previous night had been a long one, but Landon’s naked body was enough to perk Dan right up. It was something Dan was still having to get used to. That Landon was his girlfriend, and that more often than not it was she who shared his bed, not his wife. Livy, of course, was fine with it all. Heck, the nursery Dan and Landon had built for her and Robyn seemed ideal for the two Littles. It wasn’t like Livy and Dan never slept together either, it was just that this arrangement was the one they had naturally fallen into. Still, it wasn’t yet completely normal. The polycule, as they were, had been together a few months and it hadn’t all been smooth sailing. It had meant big changes for all of them, but they’d been navigating it, and things were only getting better, even if there was some degree of awkwardness lingering. “Are the girls awake?” Landon asked. “Not that I know of.” Dan replied. He let out a sharp exhalation through his nose, “You know what they’re like though, probably up half the night and sleeping in this morning.” Dan didn’t need a nanny cam to picture what the scene was like in the nursery. Livy and Robyn would be cuddled up together and softly snoring, their diapers either already or soon to be wet. They had probably been up late either playing or “playing.” Landon laughed. Dan leaned over and gave her a kiss. When he pulled back, he would be lying if he said he didn’t have anything on his mind. It was something he felt like someone needed to bring up, something they all felt. No one seemed to want to be the one to vocalise it though. “I can tell when you’re thinking.” Landon said as she raised a hand and ran a finger against Dan’s chin, “What’s up?” “It’s probably nothing.” Dan said. Landon pushed herself up into a sitting position, her pendulous breasts fully exposed and inevitably taking Dan’s attention. She looked at Dan seriously, an expression that told him to cut the crap and tell her what was going through his mind. Landon was a star at work, part of that was the way she managed to get people to tell her things when she wanted to hear them. “It’s Livy… and you.” Dan said hesitantly. “Livy and me?” Landon looked concerned. “I don’t think it’s serious but…” Dan trailed off. He bit his lower lip as he tried to work out how to continue. “But…” Landon prompted. “She’s tense.” Dan said vaguely. “Well, no shit.” Landon couldn’t help her lips twitching into the briefest of smiles, “It’s Livy.” “I mean…” Dan stopped again, unsure of how to order his words to not upset anyone. “Dan.” Landon said seriously, “This polycule only works if everyone is open and honest. If Livy’s said something or isn’t happy then I need to know.” “She hasn’t said anything.” Dan said. He pushed himself up into a sitting position to match Landon. His head resting against the headboard of the bed, “I’ve just noticed she is especially tense when… Well, when you’re around.” Dan braced himself. He didn’t know what reaction he was going to get but he assumed it would be negative. Instead, all he got was silence. He turned to look at Landon to see she was looking across the room, her eyes fixed on the middle distance and her expression unreadable. Dan instinctively wanted to apologise just for upsetting her, but she beat him to the punch. “Do you think she regrets what we’re doing?” Landon asked quietly. “No.” Dan replied quite firmly, “Not at all. I think it’s just that you two haven’t really spent much time together. You know, you two were colleagues at work, but not exactly friends. I think, with everything that has happened, it might be easy to forget that you two really haven’t spent much time together.” Landon seemed to absorb the information. She nodded her head slowly, an idea clearly forming in her head. Dan put an arm around Landon’s shoulders. He could feel tension in her shoulders. She reminded him of a computer that was having to process a particularly large file, everything had temporarily frozen until the process was complete. “Do you think she’d like a girl’s day out?” Landon asked with a sudden excitement. Her eyes had lit up as the idea came to her. “I mean, maybe if you planned it out and…” Dan started. “Today.” Landon interrupted, “I’ll take her out for shopping and lunch.” Dan didn’t immediately reply. He did think it would be a good idea for Landon and Livy to spend some time together, but at the same time he knew that his anxious wife didn’t necessarily react well to surprises being sprung on her. Perhaps it would be a good idea to push the boundaries of her comfort zone a little though. Dan didn’t want Livy becoming a complete shut in after all. “It’ll be perfect!” Landon continued. Dan had known Landon as a colleague and a lover and he knew that when she committed to an idea she was all in, It was one of her greatest assets at work, it could also be a problem on occasion. Unfortunately, it was often hard to tell what each situation would be until it came up, “And, you know what, I think it would be good for you and Robyn too.” “Me and Robyn?” Dan replied. “Yeah. You say I haven’t spent much time with Livy, but you’ve spent ZERO time alone with Robyn.” Landon said. She was getting out of bed and getting dressed, Dan could already see that she was picking out an outfit for a lot of walking. It was amazing how quickly she could go from being unsure about a situation to having a plan and implementing it. “I guess that’s true…” Dan said. Suddenly Dan was less sure of this “day out” idea. He liked Robyn a lot, she was bubbly and fun, but she was also a handful. Landon seemed to know exactly how to handle her when she was in full on Little mode, and she usually burned a lot of energy playing with Livy… but Dan usually left things to the other them. Landon was right. Dan really didn’t know much about Robyn at all. If they wanted their polycule to last, then he would have to make an effort to make a connection just like Landon and Livy would. “Perfect.” Landon said, “I’ll take Livy out and spoil her, you get to know Robyn. Everyone is happier. Easy peasy.” Dan gave Landon a nervous little smile as he stepped out of bed and started getting dressed in some casual clothes. “Easy peasy…” Dan repeated with some scepticism. --- Livy sighed in contentment. She was awake but she wished she wasn’t. She certainly wasn’t going to do something silly like open her eyes, not when she was so comfortable where she was: wrapped up in her princess pink blanket, an arm draped over Robyn’s belly, and a warm diaper between her legs. She could’ve stayed there for days. It had been a late night. Robyn had been feeling frisky, and Livy was happy to be the object of her affections. It wasn’t quite the same as having full sex but rubbing diapers together whilst kissing and fondling was a very close second for her. She felt Robyn move slightly under her arm, let out a little grumble and then go back to her soft inhales and exhales. Livy had never in a million years expected she would be this comfortable with someone else, apart from Dan, and yet there she was. The crib creaked slightly as she slowly raised her arm and rolled on to her back. The baby bed had been Robyn’s, they’d reinforced it when it became the bed for two adult babies most nights, but they were on the lookout for something bigger. Until then Livy and Robyn were sharing a small space, but neither was complaining. “What time is it?” Robyn asked as she rubbed her eyes. Livy finally opened hers. It had been too much to expect to get back to sleep and with Robyn awake it would be next to impossible. She shrugged her shoulders; it wasn’t like she had a watch. “Ugh, I’m so tired.” Robyn continued. Livy sat up against the bars of the crib and the covers shifted allowing a faint smell of urine to waft up. It was a familiar smell, one she’d actually kind of grown to like, it was a reminder of her place within their “family” and it brought with it a sense of safety. “If you hadn’t spent half the night straddling my diaper…” Livy said with a little smile. “Oh, shush.” Robyn replied playfully, “You loved it.” “I did…” Livy conceded. Her cheeks blushed a deep red. She wondered if Landon and Dan knew what happened in the nursery after bedtime. They must’ve had some idea… “If you’re going to complain then the next time YOU want some fun I’ll tell you to climb on Mr. Hootie.” Robyn said. A hand went under the covers, no doubt checking her diaper. She was wet. Livy knew as much from resting her hand there half the night. “Robyn!” Livy said, scandalised at such a suggestion, “Stuffies are for cuddling, not…” “Fucking?” Robyn giggled. “Special time!” Livy said. She picked up one of the pacifiers lying between the pillows and pushed it into Robyn’s mouth, “That’s for swearing. If Daddy hears you talking like that you’d be in BIG trouble.” Livy expected Robyn to retort, maybe shove a paci into her mouth or something. Instead, it looked like Robyn was thinking something over. Livy was surprised. It wasn’t like her “sister” to be contemplative, she usually blurted out every thought that rushed through her head. “Livy…” Robyn said. She pulled the pacifier out of her mouth, “Can I ask you something?” “Of course.” Livy replied. “I… don’t answer if you don’t want to, but…” Robyn was looking down at the pacifier she was now fiddling with, “Have you ever had sex with Dan during Little time?” Livy had gotten so used to thinking of her husband as “Daddy” that she was momentarily taken back to hear someone using his real name. Robyn had taken to calling Landon Mommy but hadn’t started calling Dan Daddy, it was the opposite of Livy who still wasn’t sure what Landon wanted to be to her. She was nice but… scary. “Nope.” Livy replied, “I can’t say I’ve ever thought about it. If things start to get sexy, I am Big for it.” “Oh.” Robyn nodded her head, but she was clearly distracted with thoughts. “I mean… I don’t judge you if you do Gig girl stuff whilst in Little space.” Livy quickly offered, “It’s just not for me.” Robyn gave Livy a quick smile. Livy lived in constant fear of putting her foot in her mouth. Despite being a Little for most of her adult life, and some time before, she still felt quite sheltered and naïve. She had never really been exposed to much in the adult baby world before Robyn crashed into her life. Her and Dan had what they had, but she never thought about trying anything else. It meant that, next to Robyn, she felt like she knew nothing about being a baby. It was a silly thing to think, but she couldn’t stop herself. She may have been more relaxed then than ever before, but her brain was still a ball of anxiety. She doubted that would ever change. “I’ve always been curious…” Robyn said almost dreamily. “Oh, you haven’t… I assumed you had.” Livy said with a frown. “Huh? Sex whilst Little? Oh yeah, plenty of times.” Robyn grinned, “No, I meant... God, now I feel embarrassed.” “That’s new.” Livy teased. That earned Robyn sticking her tongue out, “What’s up?” “Well… I’ve never been with a guy.” Robyn said finally. Her cheeks flushed pink. “Really!?” Livy’s eyes grew wide, and she stared at Robyn as if she had been replaced by a doppelganger. “Really.” Robyn replied, “And don’t look at me like that! I’m not a total slut!” “I know!” Livy quickly said though she saw Robyn was laughing again, “I’m not saying you are, I just-…” “Relax.” Robyn said as she reached out a hand and rubbed Livy’s shoulder. “Sorry.” Livy practically whispered as she leaned into the hand and closed her eyes in relaxation. Livy, Queen of the Overthinkers, constantly second-guessed everything she said and did. Even though she had spent more time with Robyn in the previous few months than anyone else, even Dan, she was still constantly concerned about standing on toes. She had long come to accept that she would probably never be able to get her brain to calm down. “I was just joking.” Robyn said gently, “I know, I’m a very kinky baby.” Livy smiled and nodded. It wasn’t until she had met Robyn that she had learnt what a spectrum being an adult baby could be. It was like the other baby was her polar opposite in many ways. An extrovert, bubbly… and very into various kinks and fetishes that Livy hadn’t even heard. Yet, they got along so incredibly well. Almost from the moment they had first met when Livy, hiding behind the couch, had been coaxed out to say hello to a new friend. “I’ve just always been curious but never actually done anything.” Robyn shrugged, “I was just wondering what it was like, you know, with Dan…” “Oh.” Livy’s cheeks flushed pink. How on Earth could Livy talk about her most intimate moments with Dan? They didn’t happen as often those days, with sleeping arrangements being as they were most of the time, but it still happened. It was hard to describe exactly. She wasn’t even sure how comfortable she was talking about it. The crib hardly seemed like an appropriate place for THAT kind of conversation after all. “I don’t know…” Livy mumbled. “It’s fine.” Robyn said quickly, “If you don’t want to talk about it, we don’t have to.” “Maybe we can talk about it later?” Livy suggested, “It’s just… this doesn’t feel like the right place to talk about that.” “Oh, it isn’t?” Robyn smiled naughtily, “You don’t seem to care as much when we’re rubbing our diapers together…” Livy blushed furiously and looked away. For a few seconds her brain was completely paralysed. What Robyn said was true, but she shouldn’t just blurt it out like that! “Well…” Livy said quietly as Robyn giggled, “That’s different…” ---  If you have enjoyed this start and want to see the second update RIGHT AWAY, you can do so at either of the following links: https://reamstories.com/page/lpjgftb4y2/story/mlsyc4p9f42661/chapter/mm2w384h3bbc001 https://subscribestar.adult/posts/2362061