NannaAnnabelle

At 3.5 I'm pretty small. Mostly I feel if doesn't really matter since I have one partner I love and who loves me. I'm also at the age I don't really care anymore. However there is also what I guess you could call mild SPH fantasies floating around my head sometimes that I'm not a real man due to my size (hence my online persona). It doesn't take up a lot of brain space but it is there.

I occasionally use one as I sleep if I can remember to get it cleaned and prepped. I've sometimes tried it during the day while at home to try to curb my smoking when my stress level is too high and it does seem to work well. The problem for me is if my paci's are out of site they're usually out of mind so it's not something I regularly do.

With my wife I'm ok either way but probably feel a small bit more comfortable nude rather than in a diaper. For others (gym, medical procedures) absolutely more comfortable nude.

Not needed since I'm the only one that needs to know. They don't bother me though.

I have varying modes. I must wear some form of protection at all times because of frequent-enough spontaneous bladder urges and also frequent nighttime wetting. However much of the time the signals work just fine and I can make it to the toilet easily. When I'm around polite company I do just that. I also mainly do that at home. However sometimes I get into lazy mode and just pee and sometimes poop into my diaper. That might account for about 30% of my home alone time.

I pretty much wear all the time now with few exceptions. Most times I'm out and about and I'm not expecting to need a change I'll be wearing a pull-up. I always keep a bag with extra diapers, wipes, etc with me just in case

I have TSAPre which usually means bypassing the scanner & going through a metal detector instead, however that's not always a guarantee. When I flew last I wet myself shortly after bag drop. Knowing that a random full screen could happen I elected to change into a fresh diaper before security. I'd just be too embarrassed to actually risk a full screen with even a slightly damp diaper.

I always pack 4 or 5 trash bags when I'm on trips and could easily pack more since they take up no room. Usually enough to accommodate dirty clothes and dispose of diapers and bed pads.

I also don't have memories of being diapered as a baby. Most of my memories begin between 4 and 5 when I was well out of diapers. When my brother got to toddler age I do remember sneaking and wearing his plastic pants. When my mom found out I remember her saying something to the effect of "You don't really want to have to wear these do you?" Of course I said no but that wasn't quite true.

I'm actually not really sure what the first one I bought was. I think it was probably a Walgreens brief from around the mid-80s? I do remember they had a pretty neat looking quilted soaker. I don't recall them being very effective though

So far I've had little success when shopping for diapers at my local Goodwill's. One just had Prevail pull-ups and nothing else. The other had nothing at all. Must say though you can't beat $3 for a pack of anything. I made the prevails work as a doubler. I still mainly shop at drugstores for pull-ups and diapers. Mainly because I don't want to fall into the overordering trap I see lots of folks here get into. Plus I don't really have the space to store cases. I guess I've gotten over the self-conscious feelings mostly. Once in awhile it seems like I get quizzical looks but it's usually fleeting.

Not during an exam but when I was in the hospital the doctor was very early on his rounds and wanted to see an infected area on my inner thigh. He was so early there was no time to change my diaper and it got saturated overnight, gown and underpad included. I also thought I was also going to pee during an ultrasound because of the pressure but I lucked out on that one.

I guess short answer is "I don't know". I have given them up for years at a time but that was when I wore for comfort. Now I'm pretty dependant on them since I have some control issues. I would like to have the ability to pick and choose when I wear since diapers introduce a whole new level of issues on their own. I'm hopeful that can happen but honestly I'm not sure

I'm rooting for you two! Like I said earlier she sounds like a wonderful lady. Looking forward to how your courtship progresses!

I think Barbara sounds like a wonderful lady and there's certainly mutual attraction. I hope things work well with you two. If not hopefully you'll have at least a lasting friendship.