Baby Girl Sarah

Youre doing all the right things . And youe well aware of youre problems (and thats HUGE step in the right direction ) the best advice i can give is KEEP fighting .sooner or later this will get better . and above all DONT give up . And if you ever need to talk my pm here is right there and were of course here as well so yes you might be alone on reel life (at the moment ) but youre not alone all together Needles to say drinking will NOT help ,same if you ever consider other things like drugs . All they will do is yes give you a very short relief but the price you pay for this is a 100 times worce backlog of said feeling you tried to get rid of so please DONT. same with suicide its NOT will not ever has not ever been the right choice trust me on this.

First of all im sad to say with youre diagnose going on Hormones is NOT a good idea (and if you do PLEASE do it under the supervision of a cert doc ) and DONT self medicate. Second to me its obvious youre in a deep depression and again if you feel this bad you NEED to try to get some help dear (im both Severely Suicidal , Anxiety ,Depression so belive me i know what im talking about) I also understand how hard & impossible it must feel it must feel right now BUT you CANT just give up you HAVE to keep fighting and DONT listen to that voice in youre head saying whats the use ? Common get it over with then you`l be free and happy ,take the plunch. Thats only youre depression playing mind games with you . Have you tried the net ? or even in here (feel free to Pm me if you want il be youre friend so youre not alone anymore ) You need to try to get youre feelings under control thats step one (you under HRT with this feelings will be train wreck TRUST me on this as you need to have 101 mental control when starting this and during as well or you will go nuts . The Hormones will mess even more with youre head and increase the mental problems you already have ) Youre ONLY 26 dear you have most of youre life ahead of you so DONT give up on it. Become homeless will NOT help you in any way shape or form so lets scratch that stupid idea at once shall we ? I understand things is rough for you (been there since i was born and still at it ) BUT theres only ONE person that can change this to the better and thats YOU ! and i KNOW you CAN do this BUT it WILL take allot of hard work from youre side and willingness to get better . I take it youre in US and sadly things are compleatly up and down there at the moment but it will get better dear . Its just a matter of finding a way to cope with this trying times .

Dreams are just that and nothing more (i had /have night mares beyond even the scariest scary movies available pretty much EVERY night since i was a we girl. So my advice to you is DONT get hang up on this dreams they mean nothing. Dreams is just youre brain sorting out all the impressions thoughts etc.... You had during the day so it can be filed under the right file in youre brain. and they are all lumped together and mixed with present and past in complete mix without any order.

what youre having now is MILD urinal IC whereas if you dont get this checked up ASAP . You might go worce (incl floods = Total /Severe ) IC . The dribble is a red flag that its time to go and see the docs and check so nothing is wrong. I started my Urine IC with MILD ( ie dribble ) and then it regressed to leaking all the time and then were i am now

Even us that usely am the ones that others come to for help & support need someone from time to time. Glad youre starting to feel better again. And like you say just being able to find a way to "vent " is sometimes all thats needed.

Please first let me give my deepest condolonces to youre loss To me its obvius youre like me a constant traveller on this depression road so you alredy know what you need to do im shore . BUT if in in any way can help feel free to Pm me . With me you can be just how you are and im not scared away easy (havent happend yet ) And above all DONT listen to that inner voice trying to pull you down in that big dark black deep pit . And also DONT be afraid to reach out and get help. We all need it from time time (me most defenetly included ) and im blessed to have that thank god And last if you feel youre drowning you NEED to get profetional help NOW

How about if its a male bear Mr cuddles ?

Been there MANY times when i dont even get a ord 1-2 Min warning before blast off (both ways ) i HATE it. If you feel things are getting worse you need to contact youre doc so they can check you out and make shore nothing is wrong

First of all you took the RIGHT desition under this pandemic its LOONETIC to go outside and participate in this kind of events despite how you might feel (it will only risk make this curse spread even further. Second who gives a rats ........... What youre neighbor or anyone else might think ? If you have the common sence to understand that under this horrible time with the pandemic its NOT a wise move to do this (THIS way there are many other ways you can make youre voice heard ) You should feel PROUD of youre self for not doing this under this particular time. And to make this Crystal clear in NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM do i stand behind this or any other previos to this HORIBLE misstreating of the minorities . Its a complete discrase .

If it helps you with the anxiety iccues then of course you can .

Based on youre reasons id say this is a good idea. ( Two thumbs upp )

You need to go to the docs and check this upp ASAP ! As it may be something wrong that needs to be takend care of (incl possible Diabetes ) and as also mentioned yes youre bladder seems to have possibly gotten used to just release when ever something is there due to you have trained it to do this by wearing and more importantly used said diaper so in fact you are training youre self to be permanatly urine IC (and trust me on this you DONT want this ) Wearing diaper does not make you IC , wearing and volontary use and soil said diaper does increase the risk of making IC

Im so terribly sorry for youre lost . Loosing a pet is in my opinion just as hard as loosing a family member. Sadly pets do leave us way before us but as you described this she had a happy life right to the end so try to take some comfort in that you gave her a happy life .

More times then i care to remember To me it sounds like you're in a deep depression and what i would strongly advice is you need to get profecional help ASAP In the mean time im right here (or in Pm ) if you need or want to talk dear

WELL done you should feel PROUD of youre self ?

Been there done that so many times ive lost count years ago. BUT what i also have is being able to get up again and i KNOW you can do too its not easy i know but judging from what you wrote id say you will managed to get back up again. Just giving up is not the solution to youre problems and it wont soulve anything belive me ive tried

The only time youre throwing away money in this case is if you DONT get the help you need. And meds are NOT the best solution nor the most effective this is. And should also only be takend at the same time as other help is added (incl this ) under the condolonces of both youre doc or other profetinal and youre self AFTER being thurly briefed of the possible side effects of this med. Happy pills arent the solution nor will the magually make You're problems disapere and life is just a paradase on earth . ALL they do is to take way the up and downs and make it more a smooth line rather then up and down

You will feel it inside of you if you have found the right one . also you have to give this some time (ie more then just one meeting ) to be able to decide this in my opinion as said therapist or psychologist also tries to get to know you same as you to him /her so you both need some time to get to know eatchoder . This said if you feel that said therapist or psychologist dont really cares or understand you and just are after youre money then (again try a few sessions utliest ) then stop and look for another . Just as in life in general there are the good ones as well as those that only do this for money & always remember you pay them to help so you have the right to expect to be listend too & understood and above all helped . Last dont expect this to be quick fix im afraid this is a long road to travel and thats how its is designed to work. Good luck and i wish you a Speedy and durable help for youre depression

I can relate to not having any money to anything my self as well and its not easy. had that way the last 15 years of trying to get my econmy straight again Sadly you need to prioratize .And reg the ways you keep youre anxiety down you need to try to find something that dont cost as mush im afraid.

One time is no time . If it continues yes im afraid you might have to wear diapers even at night The only thing you can do is be protected im afraid

Thats only the so could "pros " that try to blame the individuals that actually take this step and in my personal opinion pure BS . You'd be surprised how much you can do for someone highly sucidal even online ( i have to my Knowledge utliest saved a hand full of SEVERLY and more or less ready to go within minutes of me managing to get back to them on line (diffent sites thru Pms ). As i said Whether its online ,by phone, in person it all counts more then you can possible imagine. I agree with reg the they have the final say in Whether to take this final step or not. and i can also add that those that actually REALLY want to take suicde usely does so in silence (not even any warning signs or anything ) . (and sadly also as in this first tragick example with a Goodby letter ) The majority of suicidals are actually screaming there lungs out desperately asking for help . And yes if they dont recive there help then its dager that they might go ahead and do it .

Been suicidal most of my life and recently upgraded to severely suicidal due to some BS going on this past 3.5 years let me say this DONT blame yourself DONT doght yourself . If someone alredy decided to take this step theres nothing anyone really can do besides the exact steps you have takend with youre other friend. I understand how you might feel guilt but again as i said you have done everything right and there isent more you could have done have done. IF on the other hand someone comes at you while still alive with hints or notes that said person is ready to leave / suddenly withdrawn /sad /depressed and so on THEN if you are said persons friend and also know that you can and are willing to deal with this contact said person or as you have done contact the proper authorities or there GF /Wife /parents What most sucidals are in need of is someone that are willing to help and LISTEN and try to understand them.

To me it sounds like dream come thru but prefably in reel life with a mommy at home when im of from kindergarten or Elementary school making shore i did all my homework (dreamy eyes )

I agree with Mick you need to see the docs and let them see if there is something that can be done with it or not. + its also depending what kinds of IC you have i should add Fecal is the hardest to get rid of other then actually sergery and even then its not 100 % shore you succed. with urine its higher rates of possible succés but even there its not 100 % succés rate im afraid . But i leave that to the medical faculty to go in more thural on And as Mick says there is utliest the posibility of perhaps reducing the IC problems with certain ways presribed by the docs .

Please accept my deepest and sincere condolences of youre lost ?