RambleLamb

Yes!?

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Yes!

*hugs* I've finished like all of two stories so I feel you

If I ever stop relating to that dog you'll know I've died.

*nods*

@Elfy How about this, I'll post it as is and tag you and if you feel it needs to be deleted then so be it, people can find my story elsewhere. 

For the record, I wholeheartedly believe that there is absolutely nothing wrong or inappropriate about the kiss and it doesn't have any sexual connotations. Does it give this girl an idea that she likes girls? Yes, but it's not as if she, in the following chapter, goes looking for another girl to make out with.

Do I disagree with you? Yes. Do I respect your ruling whatever it may be? Also, yes. Do I hope when I post it that you see it's nothing to warrant any kind of corrective action? Again, yes.

When I was a kid, I really really liked another little girl,  I was about 6.  I didn't kiss her, I never thought about it.  But what did happen, is I would feel an unbelievable tightening in my chest where I could hardly breathe when I thought about her.  I had 2 boyfriends at the time, but they were just cute, no feelings like that.

At the time, I didn't understand it.  But I never realized at that age, I liked girls alot.   Later in my teens, I had figured that part out sort of.  But it was only recently, going back in thought that I realized I had a serious crush on this little girl at that age.  No realization at all then, just what is this feeling?

I've hinted at the feeling that there is a stronger feeling that isn't understood, I use butterflies in the stomach, and that allows for us to get a sense of what's really going on, but the character doesn't have any way of knowing what these feelings mean.

The reason why this is even addressed as "being gay" is because the narrator is recounting the past and has future insight as to what these feelings eventually turn out to be. I think I handled things in a very delicate and respectful way, but we'll see what happens.

O_O

Okay I'm scared.

But I will certainly check it out when it's out.

I said fuck it and posted it here. #yoloswagorwhatever

Hell-to-the-freakin YES! This is gonna be awesome! ?

Oh I can finally reply! Thank goodness... I'm so sorry about the delay it seems there was some kind of software error and I was locked out of all posts for almost a day...

Thank you so much for the encouragement! It means a lot. I'm honestly just pretty gutless plus I don't even see myself getting in a relationship at all... Nevertheless I'll take your words your words to heart. Thank you my friends <3

Trust me, I felt exactly the same way before I met Jaden. I felt completely undesirable. Then she reached out to me, grabbed me, and wouldn't let me go. She changed me, saved me. I'm a complete different man now than I was before I met her.

And if it can happen to me, it can happen to anybody!

Hehe I see. It is a nice story

... Nothing. 

That's cool, I can get it out of you when you're huddled in a corner trying to avoid the wrath of the beast.

Fair enough.

Yeah, like Kimmy said you aren't hurting anyone here. I promise. ♡

As for seeing the ghosts of your dead roommate and girlfriend... yeah, that's pretty freaky. I don't know what you believe about spiritual things or the afterlife (And I'd be happy to talk to you about it if you want) But I'd recommend finding an explanation for this that you can understand. Are they really the ghosts of your loved ones? Are they demons trying to torment you into killing yourself? Are you just insane and hallucinating? I'd recommend avoiding the latter explanation. It doesn't really hold water and doesn't really help you so it's a worthless viewpoint.

I wish I could do more for you. I want so badly just to hold you tight for hours and keep all the bad thoughts away. But until then all I can offer you is my love and support from a distance. ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

I am going to be quick about this and suggest the Shepherd Center as a possibility for rehabilitation.  I had a coworker who went there, and it helped him gain independence after a severe injury.  I'm not saying it is the right thing in your case, Ramble, just putting it out there as food for thought when you are ready to think about it.

I want to preface this by saying that I'm not a professional. I can't provide an official diagnosis but I want you to know your not your not "crazy", a lot of people... myself included would probably be doing even worse in your situation. What I can offer is some insight from my own battles with mental health issues and doing a fair amount of psych course work as an undergrad. What you are feeling and experiencing is real and valid. There is a part of you that is trying to communicate. To me this looks a lot like extreme survivors guilt. You feel you didn't deserve to live and it's being expressed through these "constructs" or "personae" for lack of better a better term to be used to work through this guilt and any unfinished business good or bad you may have had with these people who meant everything to you.

As a scientist I'm skeptical of a supernatural explanation, but honestly if there is any validity to the phenomenon of a haunting it lies in that liminal space where our mind interfaces with the external reality. Whether or not that is literal, as in the case of PK/ESPER. Or an artifact of perception I cannot say and is honestly immaterial to your needs. I would hesitate to encourage someone to engage with a phenomenon like this but given the extreme trauma and the need to resolve unfinished business as it were... Talk to them confront the accusations head on; yell, scream, cry, get what your feeling out there. Say whatever it was you needed to say to these people but never got the chance to. Maybe write it out as a letter. Let your self feel this and grieve. It's not going to magically fix things but it could be a first step towards heeling this injury. I would strongly advise talking to someone professionally about this but I can't make that call for you. All I can do is be a shoulder if you need me...

*hugs on offer* ❤️

You said it was for nerds of all kinds. I know you aren't into TTRPGs, but there are plenty of others who are. After all, you could say D&D nerds were the original nerds without which our entire foundation of nerddom could not exist!

Don't segregate, man, unite.

Seriously, the group is for all things, D&D is a thing, it counts. If you'd rather make your own group specifically for that, fine, but joining my group and then making claims that your thing doesn't belong is dumb.

I'm confused, I thought that's the exact opposite of what I did? You told me to make a topic if none of your topics jumped out at me. So that's what I did.

Now hopefully we can actually get some people to join. ?

I'm glad you're finally starting to see just how talented you are, Lamby. Of course that won't stop me from constantly reminding you. :D

Whoa there, buckaroo, I never said anything about talented, I just said I'm happy with the work I'm doing. We've got a lot of work to do before I'll see talent, but by all means, keep reminding me.

I would be glad to beta read the beginning if you'd like?

I'm very reserved when it comes to my works in progress. Part of it is the show woman in me that doesn't want too much to be revealed before the prestige, and the other part is my stubbornness when it comes to personal hurdles, I'll fall a hundred times and still refuse an offered hand.

I'll get it and it'll be good, I just need to have that aha moment.

Well, if after that 101st hurdle you change your mind I'm always right here. ?

I'm sorry my prompt is effecting you so much, I knew the story would probably have a lot of sadness and pain in it but I never thought too too deeply on it, that's where master story writer RambleLamb comes in right? I'm really really glad you are taking my submission so seriously and trying to make it great and big and emotional, but I hope that if you are being too effected by it that you don't push yourself I would much rather a watering down on the emotional pain and the reality then to have something you derive so much joy from be ruined because of me. ?

Hey Lambie.

You're writing a subject that is deeply personal to you, you personally are already afraid that people secretly don't like you.  A person without that fear wouldn't struggle as much with this prompt.  There is no shame in it, knowing your own pitfalls is valuable.  Give yourself grace and forgiveness for feeling insecure.  It doesn't make you a bad person, nobody's perfect.  I'm insecure about these sorts of things sometimes too, my pitfalls are different than yours.  I NEED attention from the people I care about, I NEED to feel valued and loved or I fall apart.  That's not an attractive quality!  I'm not proud of it, so writing a story about a needy person would probably put me into a spiral about my own neediness.

Forgive yourself for your imperfections.  We love you not in spite of them, but because of them - we're all flawed.

As for people leaving if they aren't going to get off to your story.... forget them, they're not your audience.  Don't worry about it.  You already have a following, and not every story is for every person.  Write what you want to write.  Write to make YOU feel, and your audience will feel with you.

<3

*hugs on offer*

Well @Elfy I'm glad that you agree with us at least. And I know I'm not an admin, but if I may throw my 2 cents in to help our case:

I get Zero Tolerance. But that sorta breaks down when the content one cannot tolerate is loosely-defined. Now, you would think "sexual content involving minors" would be pretty easy to define, but apparently that's not the case if this is even being debated!

The scene was not sexual. Period. But if you try defining it as sexual simply because there was a kiss, that opens up a whole can of worms you don't wanna open! In one of my RPs I had to spank a 12-year-old girl. Is that sexual? Wouldn't any diaper change scene be considered sexual since it involves touching someone else's privates?

Of course not! But if you rule that any kiss is sexual then you must also take those other extremes as well. And I know that's not something anyone wants to do.

Again, just my 2 cents. Take it as you will.

I'm about 50/50 on it to be honest.

I've mostly just posted the "evidence" to the admin section to get other opinions I still don't know what to think.

I didn't intend to have this story be a hot button issue and I certainly don't want it to be a catalyst for actual inappropriate things to be allowed or waved by, I simply wanted to write my story true to the way it needed to be written and I did that, so whatever is decided beyond that is what it is.

For the record, I don't think this is a slippery slope issue and I don't believe that my story will be a thing that inspires people to point at it being allowed as proof that you can have sex with kids in your story, but I don't make the rules and I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable. 

Grookey 4lyfe

Grookey has heart, but fire rabbit has fire rabbit, you can see my predicament...#teamscorbunny

Grookey IS mad adorable though and I DID ship Rowlet in Moon, I'll have to see what they evolve into before I decide BUT Scorbunny looks like Max and I can't unsee that

What a coincidence I happen to be a 14 year old girl in a 24 years olds body....  ?

This goes back to what I was saying about "laziness" earlier. You taking the initiative to worldbuild when others would accept the shake and bake "there's this dimension" as a green light to just leap into suddenly crazy robot nursery with tentacle arms all over the place without even trying to explain it. I know that this dimension has all these bonkers things and rules, but what if I didn't? What if I was a first time reader of ABDL fiction and the first story I read was "Rando Girl of 'Normal' Aesthetics in the Diaper Dimension" and I started reading and it's all bleeps and bloops and nonsense because I didn't know I had to read the prologue books first. 

The DD is not Westeros or Middle Earth, but it should be treated as if it were to some extent. I would be one hundred percent more interested in DD stories if more people treated it like you did and tried to build it into a thing that existed "for real" instead of just being like "lol, it's so hot that adults are babies in comparison to these other giant adults"!

Now that my rant is done I obviously need a nap.

I'm so not content with the "shake and bake" that I started going into the tax ramifications of Little furniture in an Amazon world, ha.  I can't not think about the underpinnings and economics of a fantasy world.

And I love the fluff out of it! It's like every person in Westeros has a family crest and family history and it's so detailed and immersive but never feels excessive. Knowing what the people in the DD would do when faced with tariffs and trade embargoes on diapers and Little kibble is something I didn't know I needed in my life...

DD CSPAN confirmed?

@Joey_AB_DL That is amazing and hilarious, thank you for sharing it!

Interesting! 

I know my question didn't sound serious but it was, it just happened to be about farts and boners and stuff.

My pleasure, I Iove helping. It was interesting to look up the disorder and read a bit about it. Even if it was a silly question, I wouldn't mind helping but knowing you despite it seeming like an unusual question. I knew it was for something, I'm guessing it's research for something you're working on?

Oh and btw, I'm not sure if I had told you but I'm Chaoz from DA, although I think you know that already and I'm just being silly and forgetful.?

Anyways, glad to help. It's great to talk to you again.

Have an awesome day.

Hey, can we talk in dms, please? I've been worried about you and your partner for some time. You two dissapeared for almost 2 months and I haven't heard anything since you two came back. Despite my last conversations with your partner being positive. 

I know that last time we had talked, you ended up not wanting to talk to me again. I'm not sure why that conversation made you not want to talk to me. But I just want to have a friendly conversation with you again. Please.

I wish you well and a goodnight.

Sincerely, 

Scarlet. 

@bbykimmyI'll be fine. I did get to experience a level of humiliation I didn't know existed, so yay learning things. Things will be fine though, love right back to you.

Kimmy!! *glomps* @bbykimmy

I am so sorry you had to go through that but glad you came out okay. People suck most of the time 

Well those all sound very promising. ? I think I'll go with B.

Also I had no idea you could call Cat Memes Nudes! I gotta go ask my friends for some Nudes right now. ?

The nomenclature hasn't caught on yet, people still get very confused and angry...

... Now you tell me. ?

That assumes people pay attention to such things....

Is signal boosting a thing here? People sharing something to benefit a single person?

I like it, but you may have to put limitations in effect cuz I may ask for a story about what happened to the Anasazi, but realistically, I'll think on it.  

*shrug* I'm not above looking things up to win the challenge. It might make me look stupid but that's nothing new.

All suggestions are welcome.

...except fan fiction

Challenges can be made here or via PM if you prefer to keep secrets from everyone. In the case of multiple people suggesting the same/similar things then all parties will be credited.

I want you to know that when and if you come back, we'll be here waiting for you.

I'm deeply sorry for everything you've lost, I can't even imagine the pain you're in right now or what it means for your life.  But I want you to know that I think you're an amazing person and that I love you.

You don't owe anyone who loves you an apology, and it's okay to not be strong enough to deal with everything.  I hope you have some people in your life to lean on, everyone needs help and it's okay to need that help.  Please don't be hard on yourself, don't say anything to yourself that you wouldn't say to a good friend.

You wouldn't tell your friend "You should be sorry for not being strong enough on your own", you would never say that to anyone.  You would say, "What can I do to help?"

So, please, with what little help I can offer you, know that it's there for the taking.  You can talk to me about anything, any time.
 

@bbykimmy That goes double for me. ♡♡♡

@bbykimmy Thirded from me.

If you need to talk/vent or need support. My PM's are always open!

I don't know what to say... I could talk about survivors guilt throw around technical terms but none of that makes a difference in the moment makes the pain any less. All I can say is that I'm here in any way I can be for you and that honestly I'd probably feel the same way if I was in your position.

I wish there was a way I could take some of your pain away and help you through this.  You have had such loss, grief, and despair lately that of course you are upset, outraged, and in severe shock.  I don't think you can work through any problems right now emotionally or physically without the medical profession trying to offer you some healing and solace  in all the ways that they can.

This hurts to see you in so much pain and not be able to help.  I have a question.  I don't know if you will answer, but maybe you will, Ramble.  Why do you say you will never walk again .... Did the doctors tell you that you will not be able to use a prosthesis?  or is there paralysis?  

I cannot imagine the pain, grief, and suffering you are going through.  Too many losses in such a short time, and you are going through the agony of emotional and physical grief.  Please don't give up.  

The feelings you are experiencing are normal.  This is a normal reaction to the things that have happened to you.  It is okay for you to be sad, it is okay for you to be angry, it is okay for you to mourn and grieve.  It's normal for you to not want to have to deal with all of that suffering.  It's normal to want solitude and closeness at the same time, humans are complicated that way.

I'm sorry it happened.  I'm sorry you hurt.

Bad things happen to good people, and I'm sorry.

But I'm glad you survived.  I'm glad you're still with us.  I'm glad you're still you.  I love you for the person that you are, and I've never seen you.  You can make it through this.  I know you can.

I'm proud of you, for how strong you are - even if you don't feel strong right now.  I'm proud of you for fighting.  I'm proud of you for coming back and posting again, even though I'm sure some small part of you told you not to.  You have a community here, we love you no matter what, and we're all cheering you on.

bigger is better

Aww thanks <3

Thank you for thinking of me.  I'll be back in full force at some point, I swear!  The end of last year was really hard on me, but I'm not down and out - just recovering.

I'm not at all trying to rush you back, you take your time and come back when you're ready, I just wanted to make sure you had hearts at the ready for your return because I'm mad gay for you and stuff.