man-of-pride

I came here because I also feel lonely and because I am IC and could use some support. ADISC moderators like to play favorites with certain members and will even support it's members lies. I simply lost all good faith in the moderators so I am looking elsewhere for support since ADISC is not a support site for most of the AB/DL community.

Well I was looking for some diapers to buy and they have nothing with prints on it except the upside down printed one's now. I asked them when they planned to restock and they said within 120 days. I will have to order from someone else unfortunately. I suspect that Bambino's are having issues with their supplier and I also suspect that Bambino's are in the process of looking for a new supplier because of this..

Well I did jump the gun a little bit and started posting somewhat already then I realized I never really did introduce myself properly so here I am fixing that mistake. I am a AB/DL who is having trouble some trouble trying to identify himself better. I became aware of what a AB/DL is on Oct.8th of last year and I have trying so hard to learn more about myself that I forgot to make a proper introduction of myself. I was spending most of the past 6 months on another support site and all trying to learn more when I realized I had forgotten about this site. Now i'm just rectifying that mistake. I was in shock that night and it makes sense that I needed time to mellow out before coming to the realization that nobody on this site even knows me hardly at all. Well here I am introducing myself.

i'm in Toledo

is it possible to get diapers delivered to your front door? i have no clue as i have never tried this before i am new to this

alright i will tell my therapist about this it's just i got freakishly lucky in that NO ONE knows about this more because i never really faced this part of myself before so it was easy to blend in and then there where the other problems like the depression which was more due to the fact i was homeless off and on for years until about 4 years ago when i finally got on disability. the truth of the matter is as potentially serious as this can get i had even bigger issues that needed even more of my attention like just trying to stay alive. ironically i was so busy trying to do just that this just got put on the back burner due to my pragmatism then due to anything else. my greatest weakness was my recklessness more then this and i knew i simply could not handle the social stigma as i discovered i could handle everything else. i am doing much better in terms of both physical and mental health now and i was simply looking this up because of curiosity. my higher functioning autism makes me not be afraid in situations where it would be a healthy thing and to top it off i had the exact OPPOSITE problem of selfishness, i was selfless in a way that can only be considered mild insanity(i.e i simply did not know any better). i was always thinking about everyone else around me and not taking care of myself because i thought it was simply the right thing to do. i was wrong about that and it was not until a christian group i was associated with saw me living in a homeless shelter that i realized what my mistake did. i ended up hurting my friends unintentionally and to this day the look on their faces haunts me as a reminder to take better care of myself. to put it simply i learned the hard way that you need to first take care of yourself first before you can even take care of someone else. i will see my therapist this Thursday and show her these posts as mere words seem to be lacking about how i feel. in all honesty i am actually terrified of this as this is like waking one one morning and discovering your gay but way worse. this is simply a part of who and what i am and i need to know myself better. in fact i'm probably going to talk about this only as a after thought with her as i need help with other issues that seem more relevant. honestly i would have acknowledged this part of myself a lot sooner except for more immediate concerns that simply never gave me much of a chance to even look into at all and learn more about this.

thank you for creating this site. i am a diaper lover who never accepted this part of himself until tonight after reading those links from spokane girl. http://www.adisc.org...urge-cycle.html http://www.adisc.org...per-fetish.html. i do in fact have diagnosed mental disorders but i am happy to see that this is not one of them. my therapist does not know about this part of me and in truth i may never speak of this to any therapist as i think this information and acceptance of who and what i am would cause useless stress that i know for a fact would not help anyone. i have a mild form of autism called asbergers and i was only recently diagnosed with it. i am 36 and thought of myself as a monster who just happens to recognize his god given right to be something better and thus i focused on trying to be EXCELLANT not perfect. those links made me a better person. i recognize my flaws and the reason why i cannot speak of this even to my therapist is because i am inherently reckless in a way that is hard to describe and even understand because mere words are lacking. i KNOW beyond any doubt that if word of my diaper usage got out it would harm my reputation and hurt people's feeling's due to the fact i am NOT very tactful with my words. i always thought that when i started doing this at 15 that i would "get over it" as people would probably tell me to the point that i kept it a secret even from my own family. the healing i have just received was needed 20 years ago. i knew this was a part of who and what i am and never even tried to "cure" myself of this in any way shape or form. i simply hid this aspect of myself from everyone in every conceivable way shape or form. i have been described as a gentle giant and such a unusually large and tall person as myself stands out more than usual. i was terrified of people finding out about this and never even looked for other's of my kind as i thought i was alone. this site has relieved me so much!