I might slow down my drinking for the rest of the year, I really should save some serious money at least for a good few months (several things I want through next year and never saved too much since last job was first, sucked and was a year before I got my current job), plus I know I technically shouldn't choose drinking or my mental health related medication, but I usually only drink once a week after working a hard 60+ hour week, I don't know, I know I feel very stable during the week and when I drink once work is done for the week all it does is makes me super happy, and after hours of wetting, then messing my diaper and taking a hot shower to clean up and relax? Forget about it, just the absolute best I can ever feel.